Co-Written with Girl-who-draws on DA. Forgive us for this sexy atrocity. OOC and Shota lie ahead. We do not own JtHM or Squee, neither of us are JV. This chapter has a weird stopping point... It's more of a split chapter with the next one.
Nny shut his door, walking to the sidewalk with a slight skip in his step, humming "Ode to Joy". He had taken care of his business... Squee's father was currently healing in preparation for further torture in one of the lower levels... And Squee's mother, who had been too drugged up at the time, he had thrown into one of Nny's closets that he had lost the keys to. All in all, a pretty good deal... He saw Squee heading in his direction from down the street and his grinned and waved at the boy, in an obvious good mood.
Todd walked slowly, still thinking about today. He'd not thought of most anything else, really. What Pepito had said had only confused him more. He really didn't know what all of this was about... Maybe asking Johnny himself would be best.
The teen raised his eyes, spotting the said male down the street. He couldn't help but let his face light up with a bright smile. He ran the rest of the way, practically tackling the other in a hug around the middle. He burried his face into the man's clothing, laughing a bit. "Boy, you'll never guess what happened at school today," he mumbled, laughing once more. "I'm glad you're here... I was a little worried you'd leave."
Nny was surprised when the boy technically assaulted him, but smiled and gained a slight blush. He squeezed the boy a little.
"Bet you'd never guess what I saw today, either. But why would I leave without telling my Squeegee?" He asked, trying to seem as innocent as inhumanly possible.
Todd laughed a bit, hiding his face even more into the other's shirt. He felt his heart beat a bit faster at the last sentence, finding the idea he wouldn't be forgotten so exciting. He pulled his arms from around the man's middle, gripping his shirt in the front instead. He remained pushed lightly against him, though, not wanting to quite leave.
"You first," he mumbled, lifting his head to look up at him. "Tell me what you saw, and then I'll tell you." He smiled brightly, already feeling much happier.
Nny gave a slight smile, but held it in. He didn't want Squee to get the wrong, or rather, right idea of what he was thinking.
"I don't think you'll like hearing what I have to say as much as what you do... C'mon." He said, nudging the boy towards his own home. "It may be messy, but it's better than out here."
Todd blinked, seeming a bit confused. "Your house?" What was wrong with his own house? With a quick glance to said house, he couldn't help but wonder if Johnny had done something. Sometimes it was hard to forget the guy killed people. Though, it would be nice to finally see what Nny's house was like.
With a small nodd, Todd took the man's hand in his own and pulled him towards the house. He still had a smile, but it was a little smaller. He couldn't help but think back to what Pepito had said. "Do all sorts of things blah blah blah" Johnny wouldn't do anything to him... would he?
Nny opened the door, and looked at the slightly nervous looking Squee he had dragged in.
"Sorry it's a little messy... But it's kinda where I live.", he said, motioning to the living room behind him. It wasn't as bloody and horrible as one might expect from a Nny, but there was a couch, a TV with a very violent looking pair of antennae, some boxes, and an easel in the corner of the room, with a very dark colored abstract painting drying on it. This room was connected to a kitchen and a set of stairs leading upwards, but Nny wasn't keen on letting Squee much further beyond this room at the moment... His mom was still alive in one of the upstairs closets, which he was thankful was soundproof... He wasn't quite sure why he was hiding that from Squee, other than that, maybe, he cared... But this idea wasn't very pervasive in his mind.
Todd blinked, peeking inside. The first thing he noticed was the faint smell of death, though. He frowned a bit, tightening his grip on the man's hand. He looked all around the room, spotting the couch and TV. He couldn't help but wonder how Nny could stand to live alone. Maybe he'd ask!
"How can to stand to stay in this big, scary house by yourself?" he mumbled, taking a step further into the house. "I'd be too scared to sleep."
Nny blinked; out of all the questions Squee could have asked, that was the one he had least expected. He hesitated, before answering.
"I... don't. Sleep much, I mean. Last night was the most sleep I've gotten in... In a long time."
Todd frowned, turning to look up at the man. "Then from now on I'm going to help you sleep." He took the other man's free hand in his own free hand, raising them up and down as he smiled. "I'll help you make your life better! I'll make it all better." He seemed to hesitate, but he placed a small kiss on one of the man's hands. Once done, he smiled more, flushing lightly. "Make it all better."
Nny's face flushed a bright red, and his eyes went wide, somewhat in disbelief. No one... had really said that before, without being some kind of shrink, or someone else he had a varying distaste for. This was Squee... His cute little Squee. He bent down, picked the boy up, and squeezed him, holding him tight.
"You're the only one I'll let say that...", he mumbled, really more to himself.
Todd blinked, a little surprised by the sudden hug. He faintly wrapped his arms around the man's neck, not wanting to slip from his grip and fall to the floor. "Why? It's good to hear it from more than one person..." He frowned lightly, not sure about the reasoning from Nny's words. He buried his face against the other's neck, generally unsure of what was really going on.
He sat on the couch, and nuzzled the boy who was now placed on his lap.
"Maybe. I dunno. No one's ever really told me that before, and meant me any good. but you're a Squee. So I know I can trust you.", he said, pulling the boy back into a tight hug.
Todd blinked, nodding. "Well... I'll trust you too then. I'll trust you with my fears and my hopes and stuff... Because I could never tell other people like that."
Nny just cuddled the boy, sighing into his neck. The only person, the only ANYTHING he could honestly say that he trusted... He would believe him, he wouldn't do what everyone else had done to him... Which was why he was going to monopolize him in the best way that he could. He snuggled, and reached up to start playing with the boy's hair.
"Such a comfy Squee sized stress ball...", he muttered, mostly muffled by the fact that his face was still snuggled up to the boy's neck.
Todd squirmed just a bit, feeling his face flush over a little. "That tickles," he laughed, smiling lightly. The feeling over the other's cold skin on his neck sent shivers down his spine. His hand stayed wrapped loosely around the man's neck, his mind trying to remember what he'd wanted to talk about.
"I asked Pepito about some things today," he said, seeming to finally find his train of thought again. "I asked him what it meant if somebody kissed you... He acted really strange."
The sound of Squee laughing tempted Nny to try to do it again; He decided very quickly that it was his favorite sound, but his mentioning of Senor Diablo's son had him raising his eyebrow.
"Well, what did he say, then?", he asked, continuing to nuzzle Todd's neck.
Todd giggled lightly, seeming to forget the question for a minute. He tightened his grip around the other's neck for a moment, having to give himself a while to regain his thought once more. "Well, at first he said that kissing either meant the person loved you, or they want to do stuff to you." He hummed lightly, thinking about it.
"Then I asked him what love exactly, and he got all blushy and didn't talk about it anymore. He's been acting really weird lately..." His eyes grew a bit wide, his grip tightening even more. "Do... do you think he's planing on killing me? I mean... I always thought he would... I've always been afraid he would do something like that. I... I... He's..." He faltered, feeling himself start to freak out.
Nny raised an eyebrow; that didn't sound much like a planned murder... It actually sounded more like... His eyes grew, then dilated. It had to be the ONE person he couldn't do much about... Or could he? But, for now...
"Why were you asking him that, though?" He asked with genuine curiosity.
Todd frowned, not sure if the question was a reassurance that he shouldn't worry, or in case it was true. "Well... I'd never been told anything about it... and I wanted to know why you did that stuff and... and stuff..." He flushed lightly, feeling guilty for not trusting Nny and asking something like that behind his back. "I just wanted to know so I'd know what to do if you did it again..."
The small boy couldn't help but want to return the favor of how happy Johnny had made him for the past day. The very thought of friendship with another human being was enough to get Todd into a fit of happiness he hadn't been through almost his entire life.
Nny clung to the boy for his life... This was a very testy subject.
"...I don't know either...", he said quietly, almost like it was a completely different person talking. "It's hard to know when you've never been loved before..."
Todd frowned, trying to look at the other as best as he could. "You've never been loved? Well that's bad!" He hummed, thinking what he could do about it. "Well... I've never been loved either..." He smiled a bit, burying his face against the man's hair. "We can be unloved together."
Nny smiled at that, a soft, uncharacteristic smile, and nuzzled him.
"Lets do that... maybe we can figure out what it means, on our own, then..." He paused for a few moments, then brought his head up to the look the boy in his eyes, a desperate look, one that tried to understand, and loved all at once.
"You make me feel like the old me... almost." He said, before kissing the boy softly.
Todd felt his face flush over a bit. He still wasn't sure what to do during such a thing as kissing, but for one he decided not to stare dumbfoundedly at the man. He let his eyes close, his hands remaining around the other's neck. His mind couldn't help but think about what Pepito had said before. He wondered which option it could be...
It was then that Todd worried about the fact he wasn't at his house. If his parents were there, they'd get upset that he was late... or at least his dad would. And, if they weren't, Pepito might try calling. If nobody answered, he'd end up coming over. And, even if his parents were home, they'd tell Pepito he wasn't, and that was sure to get the kid over.
The teen let out a small noise, suddenly feeling himself start to freak out again.
Nny broke them apart, giving the boy a confused look. It seemed like every time he managed to get the boy somewhat comfortable, if he kissed him, he went into a spastic panic attack... Though, from what he had told him earlier, there was a definite reason to that.
"S'wrong?", he asked, still in a somewhat euphoric state.
Todd frowned lightly, feeling bad for making Nny stop. "W-well... I'm worried that if Pepito calls home and I'm not there, he'll get upset and come over... He says he worries about my parents mistreating me and won't hesitate to hurt them..." His gaze fell, his hands twitching the back of the man's shirt into a small bunch between his fingers. "He really scares me sometimes... Well... most the time really..."
Nny gained a devious look, but hid it by hugging Squee...
"Actually. I never got to tell you what I saw earlier, Squeegee... Your parents left. I heard them packing, and I asked them if they were taking my comfy Squee with them, and your Father said...", Nny gained a particularly cruel grin at remembering some of the torture he had earlier inflicted onto the deserving bastard at this, ""I don't care, you can watch him if you care so much, strange man in my house", took your mother, and drove off"
Todd took a moment to register this, his hands slowly letting their grip loosen until they almost slid from around the man's neck. "They... T-they... Just..." He blinked, feeling himself trying not to hyperventilate as he thought this over. His eyes slowly closed, not wanting to see anything around him at the moment. Slowly, ever so slowly, the boy's hands slipps fromed around Johnny's neck to his own lap, shaking violently.
"Left?" he finally choked out, feeling tears forming in his eyes. He swallowed back a sob, biting his lip hard to try and get rid of the rising need for whining. He still didn't open his eyes, afraid to look at Johnny.
Nny gave an honest, empathetic look, and very gently brushed one of the boy's cheeks.
"...I'm sorry...", he said, startling himself a little, as this was the first time he could ever remember saying it, and meaning it so much. Not that he regretted what he had done, but seeing his Squee as such caught him unprepared, making him instead regret the way he had done it.
Todd shook his head, seeming to shake a little as though he were cold. "No..." he muttered, unable to get much else out without sobbing. He sniffed loudly, reaching up to rub his eyes. He couldn't help but remember only last night when he'd cried in front of Nny. Why did it seem like he cried every time he was around the other?
He let out a small noise, suddenly throwing his arms around the man again. He pushed himself as close as he could to the other's body, not wanting to feel alone at the moment. He sniffed again, only a few small whimpers escaping as he bit back more sobs. He buried his face into Nny's shoulder, as though trying to hide away from the world.
"Are.You.Staying." He had to take a breath after every word, not able to hold back the sobs if he didn't. He couldn't imagine being left completely alone... Maybe he'd be able to get through this is Johnny was staying.
He held the boy close... Here he was, asking if he would stay, when it was him who set the whole thing up... But he couldn't let Squee know how absolutely overjoyed he was, about everything but Squee's reaction to his negligent and abusive parent's disappearance.
"I told your stupid father I would... And I'm promising you." He kissed the top of Squee's head, and nuzzled the bundle of hair.
"I'm never going to leave you... Not when you're the only person who cares about me, and I care so much about you... Other people are just blind, if they don't care about you."
Todd nodded a bit, hugging him closer. He waited a long time, chocking back sobs the entire time. After he'd really gotten through the shock of it all, he found himself not fighting any tears back. He'd gotten over if quicker than he'd imagined he would... Perhaps it was the comforting hands of Nny. "Good," he mumbled after a while, nuzzling his face slowly against the man's shirt. He let out a long sigh, feeling his body grow a bit limp.
"Can we go home?" he muttered, suddenly feeling very tired. All he wanted to do was curl up in bed with Johnny and sleep. For a very long time.