Co-Written with Girl-Who-Draws on DeviantArt. Forgive us for the sexy atrocity. OOC and shota lie ahead. We do not own JTHM or Squee!, neither of us are JV.
Later, Pepito found himself in the kitchen, making Squee the replacement sammich with a happy smile. Even though Todd hadn't been completely overjoyed, he had still been really happy, and definately hadn't pushed him away, like his worst fears had always indicated. Putting the sammich on a plate, he went out to the living room, where Todd was presently watching TV, or rather, sitting in front of the TV.
"I took care of the mess", he said, handing his friend the plate, "But I have to go soon."
Todd took the sandwich with a smile. "Why thank you," he murmered, his smile falling a bit when the other said that. "Oh... Well..." He felt himself panicking on the inside; if Pepito left and Johnny didn't come back he'd be all alone in the house. "I guess you do have a life," he said jokingly, trying to hide his fear. "You should probably go home and... clean your room... or something..." He shook his head a bit. "I'm sure your parents are worried... and you did kind of miss the second half of school. They'll probably want to know why..." He lifted his foot just a bit. "You can tell them I hurt my foot, and you had to take me home and help bandage it... you did that anyways, so it's not really lying..." He looked down to the sandwich, blinking a bit. "Will you come back tomorrow?" Of course, he wasn't going to go to school just yet, but he couldn't help hope Pepito would come visit during lunch again...
Pepito gave his friend an apologetic look, but nodded. "I'll be back,", he said, giving his friend a slight hug. "I just can't be late getting home... chores are really hell, y'know?" He stood up, straightened himself up, grabbing his jacket. "See you tommorow...", he said, and left.
Nny looked, pleased, at the massacre he had created in the random supermarket. He was peaceful for those few glorious moments, before that horrible guilt came back... How was Squee handling without him? He couldn't have been able to stand another moment around the Antichrist, but he had temporarily left the only person he cared about in his watch... Under threat, but none the less. The words the anti-christ had said, earlier, were still irking him, as well. Did he really deserve Squee? Happiness at Squee's expense? These were the thoughts going through his head as he speed-walked the mile and a half back to the suburban neighborhood...
Once the only other person in the house left, all fell deathly quiet. Todd sat on the couch staring wide eyed at his sandwich. He wasn't really hungry anymore... Even though he hadn't eaten all day, the boy actually felt sick. With a sigh, he slipped the plate off his lap and onto the bed next to him. He felt like turning on the TV, but didn't want to hear other people he didn't know talking. Instead, he decided to turn it to static and mute it. Pulling his legs to his chest, the boy watched the flashing grays and other colors with a half lidded gaze.
His thoughts rolled back to the conversations he'd had today. The one with Pepito about how important he was... The one with Johnny about how he'd caused all his nightmares... That wasn't true. Johnny didn't cause all of them... Heck, Pepito even caused a great deal of them... Though he'd never told the other that. Now that he thought about it, though, he hadn't had any dreams at all since Johnny got here... Even though it had really only been two days. Funny how time seemed to fly. With a sigh, Todd let his eyes slipped close as he thought more on the subject.
Nny was breathless by the time he got to the house, but that didn't stop his from trecking up to Squee's window, and now, finding him there, went downstairs. He found him sitting quietly on the couch, pulled into himself. He wasted no time in pulling the boy into a tight, almost desperate hug.
"...I had things I needed to do.", he said, there not being a question in what it was, judging by the blood spatters on his shirt.
Todd let out a small squee when he was pulled to the man, not expecting it so soon when the house was completely silent. He blinked a moment, giving himself a while to get who it really was who was there. "Johnny!" he cried, looking up and smiling widely at the other. "You're back!" He tightly wrapped his arms around the man, snuggling his face against the other's chest. Though, after a moment, he realized the other was covered in blood. He let out a small gasp, pulling away a bit. "You're... You're all bloody," he frowned, seeming to not understand that. Though, he himself had a bit of blood on his shirt as well; from his foot, of course. But it was nothing compared to what Johnny had.
Nny gave a sheepish look. "Most of it's not mine... I would've cleaned up before I came back, but I was worried.", he said in complete honesty. He kissed Squee's cheek, quickly, before standing back up. "I'm sorry I left you alone earlier... I just needed time."
Todd blinked, fidgeting in his lap a bit. "That's ok... Pepito took care of me... He even made me a sanwhich to make up for the one he killed," he said with a smile, motioning lightly to the one beside him on the couch. "But I did miss you..." He smiled a little less, his gaze soon falling. "Will you... Will to still stay?"
Nny made a slight motion to himself, and the shirt in question. "But if I cuddle you now, you'll be a bloody Squee...", he said, then going through a slight thought process, coming up with the most brilliant way to not get Squee bloody, while still being able to stay in the same room with him. In one fluid motion, he took off his shirt, and sat down next to the boy, cuddling him happily.
Todd blinked, feeling his face flush just a bit. He smiled, shifting around so he could sit comfortably in Johnny's lap while he was snuggled. He sighed, thinking a long time. "Johnny?" he mumbled, looking up to the man. "Do you love me?" He waited a moment before realizing how stupid it sounded. His gaze fell, his face blushing over more in emberesment.
"I-I mean, before, after you left, Pepito was telling me how he cared about me and stuff and at one point he said he loved me and he said love it when you care so much about a person that you always want to be around them and they leave you breathless or something I'm not sure but I just really want to know and... and.." He stopped, having to catch his breath after talking so much; he felt a little dizzy.
Nny looked up for a few moments, then down at the boy. "I'm... not sure.", he said, finally. "I've never loved... ANYTHING, let alone been loved. I always figured it had something to do with consumerism and nazi's. Even when I had a girlfriend, it wasn't like this..." He gave Squee one of the strangest looks ever, almost like he was in pain. "It hurts, though... To even think about hurting you, leaving you alone for three seconds. And it feels nice when I do this...?, he said, leaning over a little and kissing the boy softly.
Todd flushed a little more at the kiss, feeling his eyes fall a bit closed. "Y-yeah," he stammer, pushing his lips together in a pout of sorts for a moment. "I guess it does... But... But I've never done that with anybody else before..." Really, he had kissed Johnny first. But, then, his thoughts traveled back to a few hours ago. "...excapt Pepito," he mumbled, blinking up innocently at Johnny.
Nny gave the boy a somewhat hurt look. "When?", he asked, blaming himself and wanting to kill the Devil's boy more than ever, now. Even though he knew it wouldn't be fair to completely monopolize his Squee, it was his only real ambition, anymore.
Todd blinked. "Um... Today, not long after you left... He'd never done it before though..." He leaned up a little closer to Johnny, suddenly fearing he'd made the man sad. "But it wasn't the same as your kisses... His was quick, and I really barely felt it." It wasn't really lying... that much.
Nny pouted a littlle. Being pleased enough with Squee's awnser, and wanting to find something to change the still shakey topic with, made observations on and about his Squee. Cute blush... Slightly messy hair... embarressed look... bloody shirt... Nny, finding himself in the clutch of a wonderful idea, slid his hands up the boy's shirt, barely brushing against the skin of his hips, in an attempt to take it off.
Todd felt his face heat over more, a small squeak coming from him. He leand more towards Johnny a bit, letting his forhead bump into the man's shoulder. He didn't say much, but felt a shiver go up his spine from the other's cold hands. His own hands clutched his shoulders lightly. He wasn't quite sure what the other man was doing, but he didn't protest much.
Setting the boy's now removed shirt aside, he set his head lower, giving the boy's collar bone a little nip, ultimately getting what he wanted, snuggled himself into the boy's neck.
"Your shirt smells like Pepito.", he explained lightly, slightly muffled.
Todd let out a small gasp, shivering once more. "I'm sorry," he mumbled, pushing coser to try and stay warm. It was getting colder by the day outside, and the house didn't have very good heat. He wondered if he could just go get his blanket from upstairs. He squirmed a little, nuzzling the man's shoulder.
Nny himself shivered a little; at which moment he wondered where the thermostat was, again. "Does this house have any fucking insulation?", he mumbled, standing up, and picking Squee up bridal style in the same movement, and swiftly heading up the stairs to Squee's room, where he set the boy on the bed, and cuddled there with him, again.
Todd squeaked lightly, letting out a giggle when he was dumped onto the bed. He smiled, wrapping his arms around Johnny's neck. He rubbed his face against his cheek. "I'm sorry the... my house it cold." He frowned a bit, feeling a little bad at the memory of how his parents had left him alone in the house. He couldn't help but snuff a but, searching for something else to talk about. "Did you have a nice day?" he mumbled, remembering he'd only spent half of it with the man.
Nny smiled, letting the boy nuzzle him, happily. "It's okay... And... Like I said, I had to think about some things. Didn't accomplish much, though..." He said, doing his best to stay off the topic of what, exactly, he had done in his absence.
Todd smiled a bit, nodding. "Good... I'm glad you had a nice day." He let himself stretch out a bit, his eyes falling closed as he relaxed more. "Nny..." he mumbled, frowning lightly because of his hesitation to the topic. "I'm sorry for what Pepito yelled at you today... A lot of it was lies... Some of it... A little..." He sighed, realizing how bad this had started. "But he really doesn't understand... and I'm trying to get him to... When he comes to visit tomorrow, we can work things out, ok? You'll see; it'll be fine." He opened his eyes a bit, smiling hopefully up at the man.
Nny huffed a little, but scooted himself a little lower on the bed, and kissed Squee without the hassle of bending over. To him, it was a three part kiss. One, was because he wanted no more talk of Pepito, and he figured it would be the easiest way. Two, was because he was curious what Squee would preoccupy himself with this time, if the other two were any indication. And the third, most important part was that he had a cute, shirtless Squee in front of him, that wouldn't fight him if he did it.
Todd could feel his face flush a bit, his eyes slipping more closed. He waited a moment before letting his eyes close completely, one hand seeming to rise a bit. He hesitated, but softly placed the hand in Nny's hair. He tried once more to keep his breathing steady and through his nose. He didn't really think that much more of Pepito, all his thoughts now being on what to do next.
Nny smiled into the kiss, then broke it. He proceeded to kiss the boy on the tip of his nose, happily. "You didn't hyperventilate this time!", he said, now in a much improved mood. "Can that be our first official kiss?"
Todd blinked, completely lost by this point. "I.. I don't see w-why not..." He let his hand drop, suddenly self-conciousness taking over. "Um... Can... Can I get into my PJs?" He suddenly felt a little weird not having a shirt... Usually that ment bad things around his father.
Mmy gave the boy a confused look, then a slight smirk, as he slid his hand down the boy's sides, laying them at his hips. "Why, when I'm perfectly comfortable as is?", he asked, pointedly giving the boy a puck on his lips, then using hisspare hand to trace the line of the boy's collarbone. "You're even skinner than I was at your age", he commented. "But shorter."
Todd could feel his stomach tense up, the faintest of noises that would've been a giggle getting caught in his throat. He felt his face heat up more, the smallest of smiles coming to cross his lips. "I... I don't eat much... Mom and Dad said that if I ate too much they'd run out of money quicker..." He wiggled under the man's touch just a bit, trying to take a deep breath and relax.
Nny gave a devilish look to the boy's reaction. "Is that so?", he asked, making a mental note, but sounding rather nonchalant about it. He moved, quickly, so he was straddling the boy, and, keeping said look religiously, grinned as he proceeded to tickle the boy madly.
Todd let out a squeal, hands flying to his stomach to try and protect himself from the tickling. "J-johnny!" he squeaked, laughing hard. "S-stop it!" He tried to wiggle out from under the man, but the legs straddling him made it impossible. He continued to wiggle around, though, trying to escape the tickilng fingers.
Nny snickered at the boy's pathetic attempts to free himself from his intrusive finger space invaders. He stopped only briefly, during which time, if his grin could've gotten more devilish, it would've made Pepito jealous. "And why should I, when I have a cute, writhing, breathless Squee underneath me?", he asked, in faux innocence.
Todd took a deep breathe, starting to pant to try and regain what oxygen he'd lost. His face was surely flushed by now, and his lips looked like they wanted to form a pout. "Because," he breathed, his hands lightly placing themselves on the man's chest. "I don't like not being able to breathe." He couldn't help but wonder what Pepito would do if he walked in or something... For some reason, he got the idea Pepito didn't like all the attention Johnny gave him. Todd's teeny teen brain couldn't understand why exactly this would be, but he guessed it have something to do with the fact Pepito loved him. He wondered if you could love two people at once...
"And..." he started, suddenly changing his mind about something. "Because I want to go to bed early..." He took a deep breathe once more, for some reason growing a bit nervous. "I... I want to go back to school tomorrow..."
The only thing that kept Nny from kissing Squee's cute pout at that moment in time was his own, but it itself was rather short lived. "It's your choice, I guess.", he commented as he got off the teen, sitting on the side of the bed. "Still, witholding my own opnions of the public skool system, which, by the way, sucks, it wouldn't be a bad idea for you to sleep." He kissed the teen chastely, then stood up, looking wistfully out the corner of his eye towards the teen.
Todd blinked, his expression changed to a rather panicked one. "W-wait! Are you leaving? Where are you going? Do you have to go?" He couldn't understand why Johnny would leave. He was afraid of Nny wasn't there, the nightmares would come back. The teen pushed himself into a sitting position, reaching out to take the softest grip on Nny's hand. "P... Please don't go?"
Nny gave a soft look at the teen. "If you don't want me to, I guess... It's nothing urgent.", he muttered, kneeling down in front of the boy, and just looking up at him. He was almost amazed at the power this boy had over him... He had been planning to go home and let loose some of this emotion that was building up inside of him. but he just couldn't let himself say no.
Todd let himself lay back down, pulling the covers over him and gazing back towards Nny. He stared at the man for some time before he felt like he had to say something. He adverted his eyes, opening his mouth a moment, but nothing came out. He thought about something to say, eventually deciding on trying to make Johnny feel better about what Pepito had said earlier. "You... Did you know, that, um... Since you came, I haven't had any nightmears?" He peeked back up to the other male, a light blush over his face.
Nny gave a devilish smile, and climbed on top of the boy again, admiring the blush greatly. "Maybe it's because this IS the nightmare...", he teased, leaning down and brushing the boy's cheek with his lips.
Todd felt the blush grow, a tingle setting in his stomach. He let out a small noise, hand rising to lightly grip a fistfull of Johnny's hair. He stared blankly at the side of the bed a moment before he shifted just a bit. He pulled Nny away enough so he could look the man in the eyes, innocence clouding his experission. "More like a dream, really," he mumbled, letting his other hand rise to pet through more of the other's hair.
Nny blushed heavily at Squee's comment; no one had ever said something like that to him before. Of course, to be fair, this boy seemed to give him so many other firsts... He couldn't help but to close the distance, kissing the boy again. He broke it shortly, though, looking down at the boy with a confused look. "How are you doing this to me?", he had to ask, quietly. "If you were anyone else, this would be the most disgusting, vulgar thing... Why does it feel nice?"
Todd could feel himself squirm a little under the man. "I... I don't know... I..." He bit his lip, feeling nervous under the demanding question Johnny had asked. "Maybe... Maybe I'm nice?" He felt his hands slip from Nny's hair to his shoulders. "I... I don't know why you like me, Johnny... But... But I'm happy you do." He pushed himself up, laying the quickest of kisses against the man's lips. He returned to his pillow a second later, though, staring up at him with the same flushed, innocent expression.
Nny smirked at the blushing boy, and quickly kissed him back. "Yes, you're nice...", kiss, "but", kiss, "I've done worse things to nicer people." He ended with a slightly longer, soft kiss. "But... it's not wondering why that's killing me inside.", he said, maintaining and inquisitive look and tone. "I've never felt like this before... It's almost like I've never seen the sky, and I see it every time I look at you. And whenever I kiss you, I just wanna... Vanish into it. And it's only growing every day. Only you... And I don't know what it is, exactly."
Todd felt his eyes slip closed. He could feel his heart speed up, the tingle in his stomach spreading through his entire body and coming full on. It was so intense. He began to realize how hot it was. Under the covers... In his room with the lights off... Alone in the house... With Johnny. The words pouring from the man's mouth were setting something off in the kid's brain. He remembered what his friend had said before. What love was. He wondered if this was love... What Johnny was describing. And what he felt for the man... Was that love.
Surely the tingle in his stomach and the shortened breath meant something. Everything crashing down on him at once was pushing him over the edge and into the pool of what just had to be love. There was nobody else... Never could be anybody else. His mind didn't even registure Pepito was alive at this very moment. Everything was centered on the very deadly man leaning over him now. With a noise, Todd took his hands away from Nny completely so he could push himself up a bit. He let his face fall dangerously cloe to the man's own, lips meer fractions apart. His eyes were now half lidded, his mouth just a bit open so he could breath with hyperventalating.
"Maybe... Maybe it's because I love you," he mumbled, pressing his lips lightly against the much older man's own.