JessieMTRFan: Last chapter of the night.
Jessica: Good, NOW GET SOME SLEEP!!!!!
Wesley: Don't yell...anyway JessieMTRFan does not own anything MTR related or the song in this chapter.
Chapter Three: Save Me
Jessica ran to Wesley's barn. He knew the answers. Even if she didn't want to hear them, Jessica still wanted to hear Wesley's answers. Jessica stopped just inside the barn to catch her breath.
"Wes?" Jessica called out.
"Up here!" Wesley exclaimed.
Jessica turned around and climbed the ladder that went up to the loft. When she got up there she saw a cat and some kittens.
"Aw…How cute!" Jessica exclaimed.
"They were born a few days ago, but I'm afraid this one isn't going to make it." Wesley said sadly.
"Why?" Jessica asked eyes wide.
"It's the runt of the family and the mama cat won't have anything to do with it." Wesley replied.
"That's mean!" Jessica exclaimed.
"Yeah, it is, I would try to help it but I have enough things to do around here." Wesley told Jessica.
"Can I take care of it?" Jessica asked.
"Aren't you busy?" Wesley asked.
"No, I don't have anything to do at all this week. Besides it will help me take my mind off of Wilbur." Jessica replied.
"What happened?" Wesley asked.
"He's ignoring me. I don't know why though." Jessica answered.
"Well…I guess you can take care of the kitten. But don't get too attached. It might not live." Wesley warned.
"Ok Wes. I won't get attached I promise." Jessica said.
Wesley handed over the small white kitten. The eyes weren't open yet, and Jessica was almost scared to hold it. Jessica held it gently in her hand and slowly climbed down the ladder. Wesley followed after Jessica reached the ground.
"Now remember it is getting colder, so you might want to keep it warm. By the way it is supposed to be cold for awhile. The warm spring-like weather is going away till April. So enjoy the last few days of spring weather." Wesley instructed.
Jessica nodded and headed home. It was unusually warm for January and her birthday was coming up. February 28th was her birthday and she was hoping for snow.
At home Jessica found a small eyedropper and brought it and a cup of warm milk upstairs to her room. There she fed the little kitten until it didn't want anymore. She held it in her arms for awhile then set it down in a small basket lined with a soft blanket. Then she put the basket on her nightstand next to her bed. She didn't want anything happening to the poor kitten while she was asleep.
Three weeks later and the little kitten's eyes were opened. It kept getting out of the basket and wander around Jessica's room. Jessica was doing her homework when she heard the kitten softly meow. She turned around and saw the kitten inside the litter box but was stuck in the sand. Jessica got up and helped the kitten out.
"You sure are a handful, aren't you girl?" Jessica asked giggling.
The kitten replied with a meow and Jessica giggled. It was so much fun having a kitten around! Jessica was happy and her mind was on the kitten and not on Wilbur or that little voice that won't leave her alone. In fact, she hasn't heard it in awhile and she was hoping it stays silent.
Jessica sighed. The kitten was living longer than expected and she was glad. But something was bothering her. She just didn't know what. Then Jessica got an idea. She stood up from where she was kneeling and went to her closet. She took out a warm light blue trench coat; she bought while shopping with Franny. Jessica put the coat on and then put on matching blue gloves. She brought out a dark blue scarf and gently picked up the kitten and wrapped it in the scarf. Jessica then headed downstairs.
"Where are you going?" Morgan asked.
"To Wesley's house." Jessica replied over her shoulder.
"Have fun!" Morgan called out.
Jessica chuckled to herself as she walked out the door and into the snow. As she walked towards the ranch Jessica listened to all of the sounds. The crunch of the snow underneath her boots, the winter birds chirping and horse neighing, it was very peaceful.
"Wes!" Jessica called.
Wesley came out of one of the horse stalls and walked toward Jessica.
"What's up?" He asked.
"Look at the kitten! She's doing so well. Do you think I could name her now?" Jessica asked.
"Well, what did you have in mind?" Wesley asked.
"Cyan, it's a wonderful name!" Jessica exclaimed.
"It's another shade of blue. You have an awkward obsession of the color blue." Wesley stated.
"So? I like the color blue. It goes with my hair." Jessica said.
"Yeah ok…So how does it feel now that you know you gave that kitten a second chance at living?" Wesley asked.
"What?" Jessica asked confused.
"What I mean is…how do you feel know that you know Cyan has a second chance at living?" Wesley said.
"I feel good, like I accomplished something." Jessica replied.
Wesley smiled and nodded, "Well that's what I will feel like once you get your second chance."
"What do you mean?" Jessica asked.
"What I mean is that you too can get a second chance at living. You accept Jesus and you get your second chance and if you don't then you continue to live like you are living now." Wesley explained.
"So, my life might get worse?" Jessica asked.
"I didn't say it would, but what I know is that you will have an empty gap in your heart until you finally stop running away from God." Wesley answered.
"I do feel that gap." Jessica said sitting down on a bench.
"Don't listen to his lies!"
'Quiet…I want to hear this.' Jessica thought.
"God will make sure that voice in your head leaves you alone. In fact that voices name is Satan and he is trying to destroy your life. But I'm here to show you the way to Life." Wesley said.
"I want the voice to go away…and I want the gap in my life to be filled. I want a second chance at living." Jessica whispered hoarsely.
Jessica held Cyan a little tighter. And tears started to fall. Wesley hugged Jessica gently.
"Then stop running." Wesley simply said. "Ask for forgiveness."
"God, please forgive me for running from You. My life seems to get worse the further I go. Please forgive me of all of my sins and give me new life. I thank You for dying on the cross for my sins and thank You for what you are going to do in my life, Amen." Jessica prayed.
Wesley lifted his head and smiled, "Welcome to the family little sis."
"Thanks…I feel better knowing that Jesus is in my life." Jessica said.
"I knew this day was coming so I am prepared. Come inside and meet the rest of your family." Wesley said warmly.
"Welcome to the family!!!" exclaimed Penny.
"Thanks Aunt Penny." Jessica said hugging the woman.
"I'm glad you are part of the family, Jessica. Come anytime you like. Our house is your house." Uncle Andy said.
Wesley came in and gave Jessica a small package. "Don't open till you get back to the Robinsons."
"I won't." Jessica chuckled.
The two hugged and then Jessica picked up Cyan, who was roaming around the living room.
"See you later!" Jessica said.
When Jessica was alone in her room she opened the package from Wesley. Inside was a small blue Bible and on the bottom right hand corner was Jessica's name. Inside the Bible, Wesley had wrote,
Dear Jessica,
Welcome to the family! It will be great to have a little sister to look after. I hope you read this Bible everyday and grow stronger in the Lord. Remember if you have any questions just ask me, Aunt Penny, or Uncle Andy.
Love you,
Wes
"How sweet." Jessica thought.
Along with the Bible was a matching journal where Jessica could write her thoughts about Scripture verses. There was also a small dark blue diary which she could use as a prayer journal. Then last in the package was a Bible reading plan with an invite to a weekly cell group for 6th through 9th grade girls.
"Hmm…this Friday, maybe Wes could take me." Jessica thought.
Cyan meowed at the door. Jessica looked up and saw Franny standing there smiling.
"How are you doing today?" Franny asked.
"I'm doing a lot better than this morning." Jessica replied.
"Good, because I have something for you." Franny said.
"What is it?" Jessica asked as Franny handed her another package.
"A little early birthday present." Franny replied.
Jessica opened the small package as soon as Franny left the room. It was a delicate sliver chain with a silver cross. Jessica put the necklace around her neck. It hung just below her choker from Wilbur. Then Jessica turned back to her Bible reading plan and Bible. She looked at the plan and turned to the book of Matthew. She read for an hour and then wrote in her journal and diary.
After dinner Jessica was writing a new song.
Looking a lot like I just got trampled on
Feeling a lot like I just can't get up off the ground
No, I can't get up
I was worrying about how this thing would turn out
Wondering how I could make everything go down my way
It's gotta be that way
Funny how you try to hold so tight
The more it slips away
The closer that you look its all a blur
I need a new today
Won't you
Save me
From the selfishness that keeps me far from you
Hold me
'til I know I hear You say
You're not looking for perfection
Just a willingness is fine
You will always have my attention
You just wanna hear me say
Save me
How did I get here stuck in the middle
I wanna do right
But its easier to think about only me
It could only be
Can I wake up from this life that I'm living
Tell me again that it's all forgiven
What You see in me
Funny how you try to hold so tight
The more it slips away
The closer that you look
It's all a blur
I need a new today
Won't you
Save me
From the selfishness that keeps me far from you
Hold me
'til I know I hear You say
You're not looking for perfection
Just a willingness is fine
You will always have my attention
You just wanna hear me say
Save me
Funny how you try to hold so tight
The more it slips away
The closer that you look
Its all a blur
I think I need a new today
Won't you
Save me
From the selfishness that keeps me far from you
Hold me
'til I know I hear You say
You're not looking for perfection
Just a willingness is fine
You will always have my attention
You just wanna hear me say
Save me
JessieMTRFan: Goodnight
Jessica: R&R!!!