Disclaimer: OTH and its characters do not belong to me. Neither does the song quoted in this chapter. It is 'Fix You' by Coldplay.
Please take the time to let me know what you think. This story will contain multiple flashbacks which will be in italics! Xx
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This Wasn't Supposed to Happen
Chapter Seven – Fix You
Haley lay on her side, tightly embracing Nathan. His body was so cold, his breathing so stilted.
"Baby" she whispered, tracing her hands over his face. "Can you hear me?"
Haley took a deep breath, as she fought the fear and pain which consumed her. Closing her eyes tightly, her mind flooded with memories, fears and dreams.
"I'm going to assume you can" Haley continued to speak, praying that Nathan could hear her. "Baby" she continued. "I need you back. Please. People are talking, they whisper, but I can still hear them. They talk, you know, about it just being Tyler and I now." Haley shuddered at the reality of the words she had spoken, tears began to appear again. "Wake up and tell them they're wrong Nathan." Again, Haley closed her eyes, in a desperate attempt to find strength.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
Haley woke up with a start, sitting upright in bed, frantically searching the room with her eyes. "Nathan!" she whispered, but loudly. "Nathan!"
Nathan began to stir next to her. "I didn't want to play the banjo" he murmured, deeply occupied by a dream.
"Nathan!" Haley yelled.
Nathan bolted upright, quickly turning on the light, which illuminated their new apartment in Tree Hill, which they bought after college and just before baby Tyler made his first appearance.
"What?" he screamed; worried and confused. "What is it? What's wrong?" His face was flushed with concern. "Is it the baby? Has he stopped breathing?" Nathan got to his knees, peering into the new crib, which held their baby son, which sat next to his side of the bed.
Nate's eyes met with his son, who slept peacefully and soundly, his little chest rising and falling so peacefully. Confusion rapidly filled the young man's head as he turned to Haley.
Haley stared straight ahead, unflinching at her man's concerned outburst.
"Haley!" he shouted. "What's wrong?!"
Haley turned so calmly toward him. "Do you still love me?"
Nathan sighed, slightly angry that she had woken him, and not for the first time.
"Don't sigh!" Haley snapped, her face developing into a full pout. "I need to know if you love me."
Nathan sighed again, puling himself to sit up fully in bed, this was going to be a long one.
"Well!" demanded Haley. "Answer the question." Haley paused, but not long enough for Nathan to provide an answer "No wait!" she shouted "you've taken too long to reply? You don't love me."
Nathan turned his sleepy eyes to look at Haley. She sat, all blonde messy bed head curls, her eyes glistening brown with the tears which were forming.
Haley continued. "That's it! You don't love me. You saw me in that very unflattering position a month ago, and now you don' love me." Haley sniffed away tears, as she shuffled herself as far away from Nathan as their Queen Size bed would allow.
Nathan's anger began to dissipate. God he loved this girl, even in her irrational state.
"Haley" Nathan began, his voice soft and soothing. "Hales?" he cooed.
Haley sat unmoving. Her arms folded and her face torn.
"Haley, you were not in an unflattering state last month."
Haley remained unmoving, but her face began to soften.
"Haley" Nathan's lips curled into a smile at the sight of Haley. Even when she was angry, she was gorgeous. "You were having our son. That was gorgeous."
Haley's arms remained folded, but she turned to meet Nathan's eyes. "But I'm not sexy anymore." She purred.
"Haley, you know you're sexy."
"But after seeing that" Haley squirmed as she remembered the birthing process. "How can you think I'm sexy?"
Nathan's face developed into his famous smirk. "Because" he stopped, kissing her lovingly. "You are" he paused again, kissing her harder this time. "All mine" his third kiss was more intense. Haley began to melt. "And see that?" Nathan motioned toward the crib. "He's a part of both of us."
Haley's tears began to fall. "I love you so much Nathan. How did I ever get so lucky?"
Nathan smiled, pulling Haley to him, snuggling together in bed. As Haley turned out the light they lay together in the darkness. "I love you Haley" Nathan whispered. "And I always will. Always and Forever."
A smile spread over Haley's face as she cuddled Nathan tightly. "Always and Forever" she spoke, as the pair drifted back to sleep.
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Haley opened her eyes from her thoughts, smiling at the memories of her past. "I love you" she spoke, desperately hoping Nathan would blink, open his eyes and take her in his arms. But he didn't move.
Haley's thoughts turned darker as she couldn't help but imagine how dark her future could be.
"I don't want to live without you" Haley whispered, resting her head on Nathan's shoulder. "I don't want to live without you" she repeated.
In that moment, Haley knew she could never let him go.
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
From the moment they met, Haley had fought for Nathan and Nathan had returned the favour.
Haley stood looking at the dance floor, watching Brooke and Peyton laugh and dance together. Haley hadn't wanted to go out, but could she really refuse Brooke? On her birthday? Laughing she placed her drink on the table next to her, and began clapping and shouting to them.
"Hey" a man approached Haley.
Haley smiled, not wanting to appear rude, but took steps away from him.
"I said hello" he pushed, taking steps to stand next to her.
"Hello" she responded, glancing to the dance floor, willing Brooke or Peyton to help her.
"You look very beautiful tonight" the man continued, sparking uncomfortable feeling, in a very newly pregnant Haley. Although no baby bump existed yet, Haley turned her stomach away, increasingly protective of her baby.
Haley smiled, in an attempt to avoid tension, and began to walk away.
As the tall, man intercepted her steps, she had no choice but to step backwards, until she was stuck, trapped between the stranger and a wall.
"Excuse Me" Haley spoke politely. "I need to get back to my friends"
The man just laughed, tracing his hands down her arms, as one made its way to her stomach.
Haley jumped, pushing his hand from her precious secret, and tried to scream.
"Hey" the man purred. Haley closed her eyes. Could this really be happening?
Opening her eyes again, she saw the man pulled away from her, as Nathan punched him repeatedly.
"Nathan!" Haley screamed, as Nathan ran to her, enveloping her in a hug.
"I thought you weren't coming to the party?" Haley cried, her eyes welling up.
An obviously upset Nathan hugged Haley with such force. "I just had the feeling I should" he choked.
Through her tears, Haley whispered "thank you" and pulled his hand onto her stomach, longing to feel his touch.
"Always and Forever" Nathan whispered.
Haley shook from her thoughts, a sinking feeling settling in her stomach. Without Nathan who would protect her?
High up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Haley leant forward to Nathan, softly kissing his cheek, his lips.
Lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
"Come back to me" she repeated. Over and over again.
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I
Tears consumed Haley, as she took Nathan's hand in hers. "Don't leave me." She sobbed. "I need you. Tyler needs you. Please" she begged as she put her face against his.
"Please Nathan" Haley squeezed Nathan's hand, as her world fell apart.
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I
And in that moment, he squeezed her hand in return.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you