So sorry I did not update yesterday! I did start writing it, but I just couldn't get into it at all! And this is a chapter that is pretty important!
I am so sorry I just left everyone hanging after chapter 5!
So here you go chapter 6!!
Disclaimer: I own my fully broken heart, but not Naruto.
Fitting In
Chapter 6 – Hospital thoughts
"Oh Sakura sweetie!"
At the sound of my mothers' tearful voice I finally managed to force my eyelids open, but with great difficulty. My entire body just felt so heavy! Like I had mutated into a rock.
Well no because that sounds funny, and I don't feel at all like joking.
My memory is cloudy, and I can't remember too much about what happened, just that my chest feels like someone has put it through a blender.
"Oh Sakura your alive!"
I pulled my eyes to look into the pitiful and tearstained face of my mother.
And seeing her there, an empty shell of a person, crying and shaking uncontrollably on her chair, it just made me break down.
Right there and then exactly where I was lying.
I just started sobbing like a small wounded child, because I just couldn't stop the pain and heartache.
The stinging emotions that was coursing around my body.
There's just something about seeing a parent like that! It just makes you wake up and realise just what sort of situation your in.
"Oh my gosh I thought I'd lost you!"
"I …" I whispered in return. I couldn't seem to put any other words into my mouth.
"No shush don't say anything! It might a bit of pressure on your ribs! And they're broken enough as it is! They've put you in a cast for the time being honey, your probably going to be in here a while! I don't know how long, but the doctor says that you might be able to do a bit of your recovery at home. And when you're strong enough you can go too school! Everything will be normal honey I swear …" Mum said, taking my hand in hers. I swallowed as I saw some of the tubes from the drip running into my arms. I just felt like something from a sci-fi film. An alien that they're testing on.
"Mum … I … school?"
"Yes I know I know, it will be difficult, but you can have a wheelchair if you don't think you can do it! But I want you to get back to normal as soon as you can! I've rung your head teacher and she understands fully!"
No she hadn't understood me. I mean how can I go back to school after what happened? I can't… I just … I can't face him.
"The people … the ones … they did… this!" I spluttered as I jerked my neck up to try and sit up.
The pain in my chest! Dear lord it was unbearable!
" I know honey! Someone did this too you! I know that! They wont be able to stay away for long! I just … I wish that the police would be more helpful. They say that this has happened before, but they just don't seem to be able to do anything!"
So that's how it is. They do this over and over and over and because everyone is scared, they just get away with it!
Why is this happening?
"Oh I'm so sorry darling I have to go! The doctors said 10 minutes and you need sleep! I will come back very soon!"
Then she just got up and left. Tearstained smile and a half hearted wave, and I'm left all alone.
I wish she hadn't gone. I don't want to be left all alone with my thoughts.
It's starting to flood back into my memory now. Everything that has happened.
Gaara.
I just, I just
I can't believe he has done this! I thought I knew him! I honestly believed I knew exactly who he was!
My friend
Someone I cared about
Someone who cared about me.
Yet look what he's done.
He broke 3 of my ribs and fractured a few others! He put me in hospital!
After everything he just … he almost killed me.
My mind, it's just racing so much and I can't focus on anything but him!
There's so much heartache involved and I just hadn't thought it would ache as much as it has! The honest truth is well …
I'm falling in love with him.
No
Not anymore
Not after this
I was falling in love with him
But I'm not going to be any more.
I just can't do that to myself. I can't do that to my friends. I can't do that to my family.
I can't love someone who has hurt me after making me feel this way.
I can't love anyone that would even think about doing this to someone!
The greebo clic is just a one-way ticket to hell, and there isn't anyway I can do that!
I'll just have to get over him, avoid him and pray to god he doesn't ever come back.
School is going to be a problem, but I'm just going to have to hope that he continues not to show up.
I can't love him any more.
Not …
Not after this.
-Sobs-
Oh that was unbelivably hard to write it just brought back so many emotions!
I'm so sorry but it isn't likely that i will be updating this weekend! I have other commitments someone and then i have fame rehearsels as well!
Add that to homework and i just don't have enough time (I will try to though i just can't promise anything!)
Please review though! (does anyone know how long ribs take ot heal?)