This is my longest chapter.
I want to thank a certain reviewer who told me i needed to focus on Jasper's and Emmet's characters more
I tried to start doing that with Jasper in this chapter.
Review people! we got past the 25 mark but until we get to 30 chapter 12 wont be posted bwahahahahahaa
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I spotted a deer and instincts took over. I stalked, I crouched, and I pounced. I landed on top of the deer and we fell together. I sank my teeth into it and sucked the blood out of its system.
It tasted so good. Just as good as the three I had devoured before it. When the last drop of blood entered my mouth I stood up. I was finally full. I stretched and looked around for Jasper. Emmet and Carlisle had gone home after my first deer, trusting me alone in Jasper's strong hands.
Jasper appeared by my side probably sensing my emotions of wanting him to come back. I grinned at him and he smiled back. I was about to start running but Jasper stopped me.
"Can we just walk for a little while?" Jasper said looking at me with seriousness in his eyes that I had never seen before. I nodded and walked alongside him through the forest. "First I wanted to say I'm sorry." He said.
I looked at him and frowned. "For what?" I asked.
He looked down at the ground. "For almost killing you and for making Edward leave you and for keeping my distance from you since I first met you." I stayed silent and waited for him to carry on.
"If I had had known the effect my reaction to that paper cut had then I would have tried so much harder to stay on guard around you. And Bella I always liked you and I didn't keep my distance because I didn't like you it was because I was always so worried I would kill you and Edward would never forgive me for that."
He took a deep breath and stopped walking, looking into my eyes. "That brings me onto the next thing I have to say. Bella be cautious with Edward. Alice told me about his feelings about you being a wolf and I concentrated on his emotions for a while through your conversation. He's having some very mixed feelings right now so tread carefully." I nodded though I didn't totally get what he meant about Edward having mixed feelings.
We ran the rest of the way to the house and I felt Jasper and I had a much stronger bond than before. I decided that I would go and speak to Edward.
I walked to his room and opened the door without knocking. He was sitting on his bed in exactly the same position he had been when I left. He looked up and his expression was even more pained than before.
I sat next to him and waited for him to speak.
Instead he took hold of my chin and pulled my face to his. He kissed me softly at first but soon the kiss became hotter and more passionate. I parted my lips and tangled my fingers in his hair. Usually this was when he would pull away but he didn't. He pulled me closer and I melted against him. It was a moment before I remembered why I had gone in there.
I pulled away and looked into his liquid topaz eyes with my amber ones. There was so much pain in them. "Edward, talk to me." I said in the most confident voice I could muster but it came out sounding weak as I was so nervous about having this conversation.
"I told you what I wanted. And Bella I only want you to do it for your own protection. You will get reckless and hurt yourself." That stung. How did he know that I would be reckless? "Bella you cant be the two different things. We are natural enemies. It's not right."
My anger was starting to boil. "The two species are too different and you can't handle them both at once." I froze. I felt like he had slapped me he was telling me I couldn't handle who I was.
"Edward I'm sorry but I won't stop phasing. It's part of who I am." I said as calmly as I could.
"Well I don't like that part of you." He said. I was silent. I felt like he had ripped out my heart, stamped on it and burnt it. He was meant to love me. Every part of me no matter what, till death do us part.
I looked into his eyes and I could see that he had almost instantly regretted what he had said. But I just didn't care. I stood up, my anger bubbling over. If vampires could cry I would be sobbing on the floor. "Well if you don't like one part of me and your not willing to try then where do we go from here?" I said, my voice trembling.
He rolled his eyes. "Bella don't you get it? How can I totally love you as a wolf? You might as well be with Jacob." I felt like he had slapped me. His eyes widened as if he couldn't believe what he had just said. "Bella I-" I put my hand up stopping him.
I couldn't say anything. I knew if I tried I would start sobbing, even if I couldn't cry. I felt my body phase and his face contorted with pain. I then jumped out of the window into the night and started to run to La Push.