Cocaine, Pain and Love.
Chapter Three.
A few thanks are needed before I start this off. .
First for my one shot 'The Journal;New Beginnings':
John Smith- I don't have anyway to tell you cuz you signed anon. but this one is the sequal to that story. lol. But thanks for reveiwing it. :-D
Reusch17- The poems in that were actually written by me refuring to someone else not for Ruka/Michi, but i was reading over them a while back and decided to use them for a story and continue with this story [Cocaine, Pain and Love. Both storys are based on real things that I have went thru. And before you ask no I don't use/do coke. lol. But the person whom I portrayed as Haruka in that story [The Journal; New Beginnings. did something and all this with Zoe is based on that same person. I can't say any more on the subject as of right now otherwise I will ruin this story, but soon I will explain everything. lol. And thanks for the reveiw!
Ok Now with the reveiws for this story. [YAY:
First off I want to adress this to all of you. YAY!!!! hehe. You can't imagion how excited I was when I got on today and seen I acctually had reveiws! I flipped out and my two year old was like "what Mommy?" and I told him, "Mommy is happy cuz she got reviews for her story." he said "Oh. I want some too." i laughed at him and he continued to play with his toy. Well on with it now...
Reusch17- Yes the cocaine :sigh: It is a bit more addicting and I needed something mroe dramatic for this story. lol. You will see how the two storys tie together eventually. And as long as I have at least a few people reviewing and wanting more I promise I will continue. :-D Thanks again.
Vanessa Riverton- Hehe. I watched 'Juno' yesterday and when I read your name I thought of that movie cuz a girl in it is named Vanessa. Just thought I'd share that. lol. I agree Zoe does need to quit. That crap is bad for you. LMAO but I guess we will see how it all goes. And I love the protective Ruka too. Thats why I portrayed her that way. hehe. And I am getting ready to work on the next chapter now so after you are done reading this you can move right along to the story. hehe. :-D Thanks and Enjoy your fixation for now. :-D
Harucino- I agree Haruka is sweet in my story. Hahaha. Got a bit sick of how everyone makes her be EXTREAMLY COCKY so I made her sweeter in this, But dont get me wrong she will still be the same ol' Haruka we know and love. [just a bit sweeter. hahaha
DISCLAIMER! I do not own any characters from Sailor Moon, I am simply playing with them for the time being. [[Can you blame me?! They're just so darn cute. hehe. And I DO NOT get any money for the writing of this fic.
& I would also like to say I AM SORRY for the bad spelling. I am a horrid speller but I do my best. Please bare with me and I hope it doesn't defur you from reading!
So now on with the story. .
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[Julius POV
"I can't believe it's been six months since I asked her out." I thought to myself as I walked up to Zoe's door. I knocked on it and waited for someone to answer. The door opened. "Hello Mr. Ten'ou" I figited a bit knowing that Mr. Ten'ou wasn't to faund of his daughter dating still.
Mr. Ten'ou raised an eye brow at me and steped aside for me to enter and so I did. "Yes, Hello." Mr. Ten'ou finally answered walking towards the stairs. "I will get my daughter, seeing as how that has to be the only reason you are here." Now walking up the stairs giving me a firm stair.
"Man he really hates me." I thought to myself, now uncomfertable. I was pacing back and forth when I heard a scream from upstairs. I wasn't sure if I should go see what happened or stay put. Because in all honesty I was afraid of Mr. Ten'ou. Luckily though I saw Haruka decending down the stairs with a stern look on his face, with something is his balled up fist and a frowning Zoe following. "I wander what that scream was." I thought.
Mr. Ten'ou now stood at the bottom of the stairs accusingly looking at me. "Are you the one who started my daugher on this rubbish!" He said thowing a small bag with something in it at me. I immidiatly knew what was in that bag that bounced off my chest and hit the floor.
"No. I am not Sir." I stated truthfully. I might of found out the first night I met her but I obviously am not the one who started her on it.
That's when I heard Zoe finally speak up. "Daddy he isn't the one that got me using it. I did it before I even met him." She barely said it above a whisper. I couldn't almost hear her, her voice sounded small and weak. I wanted to walk over to her and hold her but with Mr. Ten'ou standing there my feet felt like they were glued to the ground.
"What's going on here?" I seen Mrs. Ten'ou walk into the room looking from Mr. Ten'ou's face, from me to Zoe.
"Michiru I think you should address that question to your daughter." Mr. Ten'ou stated bluntly. I don't think I ever seen him so mad since I have known him.
"Zoe? What's going on?" Mrs. Ten'ou now walked over to Zoe, holding her hand.
"Um, Mom." I sensed the hesatentness in her voice. I wish there was something I could do to help her but in all honesty I don't think I can do anything but wait to see what is going to happen. "Well Dad come up to get me when Julius arrived and I was..." She trailed off looking at me to her father. "I was using cocaine." She said in a small almost unhearable voice.
I seen her mother's eyes widen in disbelief and step back away from her. She looked over towards Mr. Ten'ou to her daughter again. "I am disapointed." She said and just walked quickly out of the room.
"Dad." Zoe said looking at her father. He just nodded at her. "I have been thinking about this for a month or so now and I decided I wanted to get help. I want to stop using. I was going to tell you and Mom tonight after I got back from my date with Julius, where I also was going to tell him." She said looking at me lovingly. "But I never got too because you caught me before we even left."
"Go to your room Zoe." Her father said without even looking at her. His face looked like he was in pain when he heard what she said.
"But Daddy." Zoe said starting to walk close to him.
"I said go to your room." He said quietly and backed away from her hand that reached for him. How could he be so mean to her? She atleast wanted to get help.
Zoe looked over towards me with a tear in her eye. I walked over to her and gave her a reasuring hug. Mr. Ten'ou didn't even move from his place. It's like he was in shock. I whispered in her ear while I held her. "It will be ok I am here for you." She looked at me with what looked like hope in her eyes. I pulled her closer again and kissed her cheak and said into her ear again. "I love you, Zoe." It was the first time I told her I loved her. Even though I have known I have for a while now.
She pulled back and smiled up at me. One of her genuine smiles not the kinds she gives the people at the parties her parents sometimes throws. I seen her mouth an 'I love you too.' then walk up the stairs. I watched her til I could no longer see her and started walking towards the door.
Mr. Ten'ou never moved from his spot at the end of the steps. As I opened the door I noticed he still hasn't moved. So I spoke up. "Mr. Ten'ou. Are you ok?"
Upon hearing his name her kinda blinked a few times and looked at me with an empty stair. "Yes I am fine."
I was satisfied. Somewhat. Atleast I got an answer. I could tell something was bothering him. Usually he has like attitude towards me but now he isn't showing anything. Any kind of emotion, it's like he's lost. I walked out the door only to be stoped by him calling out to me.
"Julius." He asked. I turned around to face him.
"Yes, Sir?"
"I am sorry." Mr. Ten'ou said. I was taken back by his apology. I really thought he hated me.
"What for Sir? You were just acting like any other parant would." I smiled at him trying to get him to react someway.
"No, Not just for accusing you of giving..." He stopped. "Of that, but for judging you wrongly. If it weren't for you I am sure my daughter wouldn't of even considered stopping and the girl she was before she met you would of snapped at Michiru and myself once we found out." He stopped again as if collectin his thoughts. "What I mean is you, your love and affection for my daughter brought her back to her old self. Before you came she was intolerable and I am sure now that I think of it, it was because of the cocaine." He looked at me with sincerity in his eyes. Atleast I got something out of him instead of the emptyness that was once there just a few minutes ago. "But not only do I need to say I am sorry for thinking ill of you, but I need to say Thank you to you." He smiled. Well it was a half smile but he did smile at me. "Thank you."
"Your welcome sir." I smiled back to him. What eles could I really say? "Bye sir, I should get going."
"Yes, Bye Julius." He closed the door behind me and as I got into my car my thoughts drifted towards Zoe. "I will be right here for you. I will help you in any way I can."
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[Haruka's POV
After Julius left I decided I needed to talk to Zoe. So I walked up the stairs to her room. I knocked on it waiting for a response. "Honey it's me can I come in?" I asked half expecting her to tell me to go away after how I treated her down stairs, But I didn't know how to digest all of what I just learned. It brought up painful memories and I had to sort through alot of crap in my head.
"Sure come in." I heard my daughter speak.
When I walked in she was sitting at her desk with a book in her hand. "Honey, I need to talk to you." She set her book down now looking at me.
"If you're here to yell at me please don't." She spoke looking at me with a very hurt expression on her face.
I forced a small smile to show her I wasn't going to yell at her. "No, Honey I am not here to yell. I just need to tell you something." I sat on her bed and patted the spot next to me for her to join me. She came over and sat beside me but didn't look me in the eye. "I want to let you know, I know what you are going through Honey."
She looked straight at me and said in a mocking voice. "How could you know. You and Mom never do anything improper."
I smiled at her. "That's where your wrong dear. You see I do know. Back in 1994 before you were even thought of your Mom and I were engaged."
"But you didn't get married until 1999. Why were you engaged for five years?" She asked with a confused look on her face.
"We werent engaged for five years." I looked away from her. "Everything was fine for the first two years of our engagement but towards the end of the second year, in 1996 I wasn't so nice to your Mom." I looked at her. "I changed. I let the drug control me." I seen the suprised look on her face. "I smoked weed and did acid. I know what a drug can do to you. I know how it controls your whole life and turns you into someone your not." I felt a tear coming down my cheak. "I almost lost your Mother completely because of it. So I went into rehab to better myself and after I got out your Mother and I were able to fix everything I screwed up because of it. If it wasn't for your Mother sticking by my side endlessly then I probably would still be using." I felt her grab ahold of my hand as I continued talking. "During the time I was using I had changed so much I told your Mother I didn't love her and I broke off our engagement. Even then she still stuck by me. But I could feel something was wrong with her but she never told me anything." I felt the tears coming from my eyes. How it hurt to bring up these past memories.
"I never knew any of that Dad." Zoe said as I felt her arms around my waist.
I couldn't help but smile and put my arms around my daughter. "So you see Honey I do know what you are going through. Eventually I realized what I was doing to your Mother after she went off on me one day and told me that she couldn't be my friend anymore and that she never wanted to see me again. I thought she was bluffing because she said that a few times before but after I didn't see your Mom for a little over a week it sunk in she was serious. You see I never really stopped loving your Mom but I didn't want to hurt her anymore by what I was doing. But that day I found out by ignoring her and saying I didn't love her hurt her more then my using the drugs. But my drug using is what changed me in the first place. I was an ass to everyone and didn't care who I hurt. But when I didn't see your Mom for over a week I missed her. I realized I needed to do something to get her love back." I pulled her back to look at her, my hands on her shoulders. "So you see Honey, your Mom's love is what saved me as I am sure Julius' love is what is saving you." I smiled. "I love you sweetheart. I didn't have my parents behind me when I went through treatmeant because they had died years before, I only had your Mom. But in rehab is completely a whole nother world then it is out here. I am sure Julius is behind you too."
"Yea, he is he told me that when he gave me a hug before he left." I seen her smile. "He also told me for the first time he loves me." He smile broadend.
"That's good Honey." I pulled her close and kissed her head. "You will get through this and I will be right here for you." I stood up after releasing her. "I have to go talk to your Mother now. I am sure she is not as disapointed as she said she was. I just think it all brought up bad memories of what I did to her." I tryed to give her a smile.
"Ok Dad. I love you. I think I am going to lay down." She said crawling under her blankets.
"Ok sweetheart. Sleep well." I said walking out of the room and closing the door.
I walked around the house looking for Michiru. I found her in the library. I should of looked there first, she is always in here, she was playing the violin with the door closed. I walked over to the piano and started to follow her melody. It was ieary and sad. As we came to an end she looked over at me. I smiled. "Are you alright?"
"Yea I guess so. Is she ok? I didn't mean to act like I did but it brought up," She looked away from me and out the window. "You know." I walked over towards her and encircled my arms around her from behind her.
"I know, I am sorry." I kissed her cheek. "I talked to her about it. I told her about it and that we will be there for her. She is sleeping right now." I looked out the window. It was raining now, the clouds were dark.
"You think she will be ok?" She asked me.
"In time yes she will be." I burried my head in her hair. "But it is a long road. And I know it is going to be very hard for her." Now I looked out the window again and said barely above a whisper. "I know it was for me."
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Reusch17- Now I can say what I wanted to say before. In 'The Journal; New beginnings' Haruka is portrayed as my 'special someone' and Michiru as me, with what I went through. Sadly no I didnt get married. lol. But the guy[Jon that this deals with is now in rehab and we decided we will get back together eventually but we need to talk about things and so on after he comes home which is in 11 days! He has been gone since Dec. 18th. And is recovering from what I said Haruka had. In this story I am using the information on what has happened to Jon. So each story is based on true events that has happened in my life. hope that makes more sense to you. :-D & thanks again for reading!!!
Well thats the third chapter. WOO-HOO. I was going to wait a few more days to post this but I will just do it today. Hope you enjoyed this. Please let me know in a reveiw!!!! hehe. 3 Thanks so much for reading! & I hope to thank more reveiwers in the next chapter. :-D So please click the little 'go' button below this and let me know your thoughts! Thanks!