A Broken Mind
Ryan was downstairs talking to Julie, waiting for the girls. Seth had gone up to get them..."Hey you girls ready to go?" "Go? Go where?" They asked in unison. "Well we can't hang around here all day...soooo Ryan and I thought we could spend the day at the beach!?" He looked at the girls, eyebrows raised expectantly. "Sounds good enough for me...After being inside in that hospital for so long I defffffinitly could use the day to work on my tan" "Yeah...you definitly need to tan girl. You're become like some british white chick. God those british girls are so white!" Marrsa replied to Summers comment with a slap to the arm. "Oww. I'm your best friend it's my job to tell you when you're not lookin your absolute hottest" Summer winked back "Thanks Summ" Marissa replied sarcastically. "Well Marissa hurry up and get your bathers on and then we can get to our place and get our swimsuits on as well" Seth informed them. "Seth...Don't say swimsuits" Seth glared at Summer, then gabbed her hand and dragged her downstairs.
"Okay Ryan, Marissa is getting changed now. But I was just thinking...you will still need to get your boardshorts on or whatever so I think we'll leave now and go hme to get changed and then meet you guys there!?" "Sure" Ryan replied casually. He could do with more alone time with Marissa before they got to the beach.So with that Seth and Summer thanked the now Mr and Mrs Roberts and walked out the door. Ryan helped Julie bring in the dishes and kept talking to her. Marissa walked into the kitchen, stopped and stood at the door. she was watching the interaction between her mom and the man of her dreams. When did things change. Marissa thought. Her mom had always hated Ryan...but now ...they were talking and joking together like they had always got along.
Marissa dropped her hands by her side and sighed. Ryan turned around. "How long you been there watching us?" Ryan smiled walking over to her and pulling her into a hug. "Long enough...So you and my mom are best friends now hey!?" Marissa raised her eyebrows smiling but very curious. "I wouldn't go thattt far...But yeah we get along really well now. After the crash I guess she just realised how much I care about you or something" Ryan shrugged. "It's really good. Definitly going to make things easier for us" Marissa giggled. "Hmm you think?" Ryan said kissing her lightly. "Yep" Marissa smiled back. Julie cleared her throat. Ryan and Marissa had completely forgot where they were and who was with them. "So are you kids going out today?" "Ahh yeah. Going to spend the day at the beach mom. I'll call if I'm going to be late" "Okay honey. See you tonight then" Julie said walking over to Marissa giving her a motherly kiss on the cheek and a small hug. Marissa frowned but was then overcome with something she hadn't felt since she was a small child. A peaceful love and respect for her mother and from her mother. She relaxed into the hug and saved this moment into her memory. Finally things seemed to be right with her mother again!
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"Where's Summ and Cohen?" Marissa asked as her and Ryan walked out of the kitchen. "Oh They went home to change. I actually have to go get changed too so we'll stop by the poolhouse and then I said we'd see them there" Ryan told her.
They jumped in the car and drove over to the Cohen's. Ryan ran into the poolhouse to get changed while Marissa stayed in the kitchen talking to Kirsten. "How are you feeling honey?" Kirsten asked politely. "Ahh. I'm okay. It still hurts but everyone is keeping me busy wich is helping taking my mind of it" Marissa replied somewhat embarassingly.She hated all the fuss and everyone constantly checking if she was okay. "So where are you kids off to today?" "We're just going to the beach and relax" Marissa stated simply. "We'll make sure you take it easy and make the boys do everything won't you?" Kirtsen smiled sweetly. "I promise" Marissa replied rolling her eyes. She loved how Kirsten was like a mom to her (though having another person worrying about her putting herself out was hard to handle...but it was Kirsten and Marissa took comfort in Kirsten's warmth and care for her.
Just then Ryan walked in and walked over to Marissa. Instinctivly wrapping his arm around her waist as he stood beside her and Marissa easily fell into his side comfortably. Kirsten noticed this and smiled at the two. Staring at them she could tell how much these two loved each other. It reminded her a lot of how her and Sandy were at their ages...and something told her they wuld be together forever now. They were growing up and growing more in love each day! "You ready to leave" Ryan asked staring into Marissa's eyes. "Yep!" "We'll be back sometime this afternoon. Is it okay if Marissa stays over for Dinner tonight?" "Of course Ryan. Anytime!" Kirsten exclaimed. "Well we'll see you two later then? How does Thai sound?" "Perfect" Marissa and Ryan replied as they walked out the door.
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After a short drive they arrived at the beach but weren't quite ready to go meet Seth and Summer. "You ready to go have some fun" Ryan asked excitedly. "Maybe in a minute?" Marissa replied looking at her fidgetting hands in her lap. "Hey. What's wrong?" Marissa looked up and tried to smile, unsuccessfully. "It's just. I dunno. I guess we just haven't had much time for just the two of us today. We'e spent all of this morning with my mom and Doctor Roberts and I'm just...not ready for everyone and doing everything" She resigned. "Hey, hey. It's okay. Did you wanna just go home?" "Where already here. I couldn't do that to Summer. Can't we just st here for a little while?" She asked weakly. She started to stare at her hands in her lap again.
Ryan knew she was feeling a little...odd at the moment and could tell she was a little upset. He lifted her chin and softly kissed her mouth. "Sure" Marissa smiled back weakly. Ryan didn't need to hear her say it but he knew, n her eyes, that she was thanking him. They sat in the car for almost 15 minutes. Ryan reassuring her and kissing each other. "You ready to have some sandy fun now?" Ryan flashed his reserved smile that was only for her. "Yeah" Marissa sighed. "Hey. I know you're not up for a full day with everyone so how bout we spend a couple of hours here and when you've had enough we can just go back to the poolhouse or your house...whatever you want okay!?" Ryan explained trying to make it easier for her. "Yeah. That would be good" She smiled opening her door. Ryan walked over to her and wrapped his arm around her as they walked over to where they spotted Seth and Summer.
"Hey guys" Ryan said, dropping their stuff next to where Summer and Seth had already layed out. Marissa spread out their towels and Ryan lay propped up on his elbows as Marissa sat down resting her back to his chest. Marissa was wearing her bikini with a lightly flowy top on over them. "You're not going to get a tan with that thing on!" Summer stated jokingly. "Ahh yeah I'm just...a bit cold right now. Maybe when the sun gets a little warmer" Marissa lied. "It's like 23 degrees already" Summer retorted confused. "Look I'll take my shirt off when I want to alright!" Marissa declared getting angry. "Wow. I was just sayin..." But Summer's word were cut off with a now furious Marissa. "Yeah. Well don't. I don't have to have you tellin' me what to do!!!" Summer looked bewildered. She had no idea why, what she had said, had really gotten to her. She'd always made small jokes like that before. But Marissa had never gone off like she had just then.
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Marissa had stormed off and after quickly apologising and telling them he'd see them later, Ryan ran after her. She had got to the car and went behind it. Ryan found her slightly bent over, leaning against the car in hysterics. He walked slowly up to her and pulled her into an embrace. "Hey. Hey. It's okay" Ryan soothed her, softly running his hand up and down her back to try and calm her down. After her cries subsided a little, Ryan lifted her chin up. "Hey. What's wrong Riss?" "I'm ss...ss..sorry" She managed to get out between sobs. "It's okay. We all know you're having a difficult time at the moment" "But I shouldn't have snapped at Summer like...like that" And her tears began to fall even more. "Hey. Look at me! Summer will get over it and you guys will be fine. You can apologise later...I'm sure she would love to see and hear that from you tonight at dinner!?" Ryan conceeded. "But for now I told them we were getting out of her and we'd see them later" Ryan told her. Knowing getting out of here and not embarassing her further was probably for the best. "Thank-you" Marissa replied quietly. There was a small silence, then Marissa added. "I'm so sorry Ryan" "Hey. It's okay" He cooed. "I'm just worried about you. What's wrong Riss? Please tell me" Ryan pleaded.
Marissa continued to stare towards the floor embarrased. "It's stupid. I shouldn't have yelled like that. It's just..." Marissa began but fell silent. "What" Ryan urged. "Well after the accident and the surgeries...My wounds haven't still completely healed...and I have scars everywhere" Marissa told him in one breath. And with that said, she broke down again. Her tears rapidly falling, her chest heaving in and out while her body shook. Ryan pulled her into the hug again and held her tightly. His hand running up and down her back naturally as he tried to calm her down again and comfort her as best he could. After what seemed like ages (but had only really been 10 minutes) Marissa had begun to calm down. "They just look so horrible and ugly and I just didn't want everybody staring at me" "Hey!" Ryan said forcing Marissa to look up at him. "You're beautiful no matter what, okay!?. And the doctor's did say it may be a while before the scars would be completely healed...But why didn't you say something beforehand? You should have told me you didn't feel comfortable doing this just yet and we could have done something you would have been comfortable with!?" "Because Summer was looking sooo much forward to us spending the day at the beach together and I didn't won't to ruin that. And I guess I thought I would be okay after a while...But I just can't do it right now" Marissa said leaning into Ryan again. He pulled her in close and ran his hands over Marissa's arms comfortingly and placed a kiss on her forehead. "I'm sorry" Marissa finished. "Let's get you out of here hey!?" Ryan insisted.
Ryan and Marissa jumped into Ryan's black Range Rover and took off. "Where to? Poolhouse or your house?" "I don't want to deal with mom asking why we're back so early and getting all fussy" Marissa replied sighing. "The poolhouse it is then!" Ryan proclaimed quickly turning to her and flashing her one of his dazzling smiles. Marissa instantly relaxed and smiled in reply. How did she get so lucky? Here she had the man of her dreams who knew exactly how to make her feel better and knew what she wanted and needed. He is amazing. Marissa thought silently as she looked back over to him and then out of the car window.
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A/N: Okay a few capters up now. Hope you have enjoyed them. Gosh so tired now haha well happy reading n i hope you will all post a reveiw...or two. Well happy further reading and take care my OC lovers. Love always MJ xo