A Little Too Soon
Ryan and Marissa trudged through the Cohen's house and into the kitchen where Kirsten was sitting at the counter going over some paperwork. "Oh! Hey, wha are you guys doing back so early?" Ryan looked at Marissa then back at Kirsten. Unsure what to say right then. "Ummm..." Ryan began but was cut off by Marissa's quick thinking. "I was feeing a little funny so we thought we'd just rest in the poolhouse til dinner...If that's okay?" She finished. "Oh. Sure. That's fine. You could probably do with a small sleep before dinner by the sounds of it" "Yeah. I might go lay down now actually" She added, walking outside towards the poolhouse. Ryan quickly grabbed a couple of juices from the fridge and followed Marissa into the poolhouse.
Marissa had walked over to the bed and instantly collapsed on top of it. Ryan came over and sat against the pillows right next to her. Marissa snuggled further into his side as his arm draped around her shoulders. "You okay now?" Ryan asked breaking the comfortable silence. "Yeah" Marissa replied grabbing the other juice Ryan had passed her. After taking a sip and placing on the bedside table she moved back into Ryan's side. "How about we go to the bait shop tomorrow night? Make up for today?" Ryan suggested. "mmm" Marissa replied, her eyes softly closing. They lay there deep in their own thoughts.
Ryan hadn't noticed but Marissa had fallen asleep within minutes. "What do you want to do for the rest of the day?" Ryan asked the sleeping women next to him. When he got no reply he looked down. He smiled. She must have been exhausted after the busy, emotional morning they had just experienced. She looked so beautiful when she slept. Her eyelids lay closed so softly and perfectly. Her chest rose and fell silently, rhythmically. She was so peaceful and calm. Ryan lay watching her what seemed like an eternity, when his stomache started to quietly grumble. It must have been around lunch time by now so he decided to head out to grab them some lunch. He gently lifted Marissa off his chest and layed her on the bed. He thought he had woken her as she began moving...however she was simply snuggling into the pillows. Ryan grabbed a spare rug and gently threw it over her small, fragile, peaceful body and bent down to lay a feather-light kiss on her temple. He quickly scribbled a note and headed out the door.
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It had been almost three hours since Marissa had fallen asleep and she was now stirring awake. At first she was a little dazed as she tried to figure out where she was, when she looked around the room and remembered she was in Ryan's poolhouse. But there was no Ryan in sight. Marissa frowned and looked around when she spotted the note on the his nightstand. Gone out to grab us something to eat. Be back soon - Love Ryan. Marissa smiled. He was always so thoughtful and considerate. Just then Ryan walked back into the poolhouse. "Hey" "Hi...How long have I been asleep?" Marissa replied curious. "Ahh about three hours" MArissa looked at him in shock. "I guess you needed the sleep hey sleepyhead" Ryan laughed coming over and kissing her sweetly. "Must have" Marissa replied bemused. She knew she was tired and a bit drained from this morning...but not thaaaaat tired. "I got us some burgers for lunch and a few movies to watch this afternoon!?" Ryan suggested. "Mmmm lunch and the movies were a definitly a good idea. What'd you get?" "Ahh some new comedy and you're favourite...The Notebook and a few other ones" "Ohh put The Notebook on...put it on. We can sit here and watch it while we eat lunch!" Marissa decided excitedly.
"Ahhh. Okayyyy" Ryan added rolling his eyes and laughing at her silly childish grin. They sat and Ryan cleaned up for part of the movie. To tell you the truth he needed to take a break from it. He's wathed it so many times that he was now starting to mimic all the man's lines. After putting the rubbish in the trash and putting their cups away, Ryan returned to where he had been sitting with Marissa and watched the end of the movie with her. As the credits rolled Marissa turned to face Ryan's side and hugged him tightly. "Aww Isn't that so sweet?" Ryan looked sarcastically at her "Surrrrrre" He joked. "Well I thought it was really good!"
"It will never be that good" Ryan replied bending down and kissing Marissa. "Ohh And why might that be?" Marissa asked intrestingly. "Because..." Ryan moved to attack her neck" "They..." "Are.." "Missing the" "Sexiest chick" "to play" "the main part" Marissa giggled "Ohh who might that be?" She asked playing dumb. Ryan stared into her eyes and smiled. "You" And before she could respond Ryan had locked lips with her again. This time parting her lips and gently massaging her tongue with his. Marissa moaned into it and began to run her hands under Ryan's shirt. Feelings his warm skin under her touch. But Ryan got up and off the bed suddenly. Marissa frowned and looked at him confused. Why was he stopping? Marissa didn't understand. But then he flashed her a cheeky grin and made his way over to the TV. She realised what he was doing now. He pulled out another dvd and put it on. He climbed back under the small rug he had put on Marissa earlier and wrapped his arm around Marissa as she lay her head on his chest. She loved how he was so selfless and how he made everything so simple. As much as she wanted to she knew she wasn't physically OR mentally ready to do anything more than their make-out sessions.
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Ryan stretched where he was laying. "Now that was a good movie" "Yeah. It was really funny" Marissa laughed. Just then there was a knock on the door. "Guys. Dinner's going to be ready in 10 minutes" Kirsten called through the door. "Okay. We'll be out in a minute" Ryan called back. "mmm I'm hungry" Marissa stated dreamily. Ryan chuckled "Yeah. It has been a while since we had lunch" "I think I'm gunna just to go get cleaned up a bit" Marissa said standing up and grabbing her bag from the floor beside her. Ryan watched her as she walked into the bathroom. After she had closed the door, Ryan jumped up and got changed into his jeans, a clean wife beater and a caual button up shirt over that. He sat on the bed after finishing buttoning up his, just as Marissa walked out of the bathroom. He looked up...and his jaw dropped slightly. He stood up and slowly walked over to her. "You look...Wow" Ryan said closing his mouth. "I only put some fresh clothes on and fixed my make-up a little" "And you look even more beautiful" Ryan said drawing her into a kiss. Marissa smiled back as Ryan broke apart and looked into her eyes. He reached down and grabbed her hand in his and they started walking out the poolhouse into the kitchen of the Cohen's house. Summer and Seth were already there, sitting at the bench talking with Kirsten and Sandy.
"There you two are. We were about to send a search party out for you" Sandy chuckled to himself. "Hey" They both replied. Marissa instantly felt Summer's eyes peircing her. She didn't want to look up at her and she didn't want to be here with her right now...but she knew she had to apologise. "She looked over at Ryan who squeezed her hand as if knowing what she was thinking. He gently pushed a strand of her behind her ear and kissed the side of her temple. And with some more strength gained, Marissa spoke up still staring at her feet. "Ahh Summ can I talk to you in the lounge room?" "Sure" Summer responded slightly annoyed. Marissa followed her in and sat on the couch opposite the one Summer had sat in. "I...ahh..." Marissa tried to start. This was hopeless. She looked up in the direction of the kitchen and saw Ryan leaning in the door way watching her. Ryan gave her a small encouraging smile. Marissa quickly returned it then turned her head to look at Summer. Her eyes shot down immediately. Summer had a slightly angry, half sad look stretched on her face. Marissa took a large breath and forced herself to look at her best friend. "I'm so sorry for snaping at you today. I know I shouldn't have...But" Marissa was silent for a moment. "I thought I was ready to do the whole beach thing but...I'm just not ready to" Marissa resigned. "That doesn't give you an excuse to scream at me and storm off like I did something worng" Summer reinforced, her voice slightly raising. "I know. It's just after the acident I had a lot of operations and...I wasn't ready to have people sitting there staring at al the horrible scars all over my body. I just couldn't do it. I know it wasn't your fault. I just didn't know what else to do and I felt so humiliated. I didn't want to have to tell you guys I wasn't ready and I had scars everywhere..." By now Marissa's eyes had fallen back to her fidgetting fingers. "And I didn't want to let you down" Marissa finished more quietly. "Let me down? What do you mean Coop?" "Well you were so looking forward to us to go to the beach and tan and mess around like we used to. You were so excited ...and I didn't want to ruin that" Marissa finished sighing. "I wouldn't have been upset Coop. I was just really excited to have my best friend back, alive and kicking. I wouldn't have cared if it was the beach or the pier or the bait shop or the movies...As long as I got to spend time with my bestest friend" Summer responded sadly. "You should have just told me Coop" Summer added moving over to where she was, sitting down and pulling her best friend into a hug. Marissa wrapped her hands around her too, quickly brushing away a small tear that had escaped. "I'm sorry Summ" "Forget about it. It's fine now. Now let's go see if dinner's ready...I'm starvingggg!" The girls giggled hysterically, glad things were right between them again. They walked back into the kitchen just as Kirsten had finished placing all the different Thai baskets around the table.
"I was just about to come get you two girl. Are you two alright?" They both looked at each other and giggled again. "We are now!" They sang in unison. "Well let's eat" Sandy said sitting down. They sat at the dinning table for 2 hours eating. talking, having coffee and taling somemore. Marissa felt her eyes getting heavy, not going unnoticed by Ryan. "Well I think Riss and I are going to go out to the poolhouse. It's getting late" Ryan suggested. "Yeah. We might do the same" Seth interjected. "Thanks for the food mom" "Yeah. Thanks for the Thai Kirsten" And with that Ryan, Marissa, Seth and Summer headed off in opposite directions to the boys' rooms.
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"Errr. I'm so full" Summer grumbled as she fell on top of Seth's beds. "Ohh and I thought my little schnookums would have some room for some...dessert" Seth replied sitting on the nbed next to her and grinning childishly. "Mmmm. More like dessert for you" "But of course" Seth said turning his back and leaning over to Summer, kissing her nose. Summer giggled. "Ohh okayyy. But I betta be on top. You can't squish me and make me sick that way" "Ohhh... wwwwhateverrrr you say Summ...Whateverrrr you say" Seth replied distractedly as Summer started to unzip her jacket, exposing her marvels in front of Seth's fixated eyes.
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Back in the poolhouse. Marissa had stretched out across the bed as Ryan locked the door and closed the blinds. He turned around and took a huge gulp. There Marissa lay so quietly, her chest raised, her shirt raised the tinest bit exposing her soft flawless skin and her hair laying perfectly over the pillow. She literally took his breath away she was that beautiful. He could feel his bulge grow slowly. She was so hot right then and he wanted to have her...all of her...and now. But he knew they couldn't yet. It had only been a couple of days since she had been allowed to leave the hospital and she was still healing. Today was proof of that!
He slowly walked over to the bed and sat down at the edge trying to dismiss his...problem. But it only grew worse as Marissa slithered over and wrapped her arms around Ryan from behind. She was on her knees and her whole body was pressed up against Ryan's back. "Hey" She whispered sexily into his ear. Ryan could feel her, smell her, he could even almost taste her. "Hey" He replied huskily. God I just want to you right now. Ryan quietly thought to himself as he smiled cheekily. But Marissa must have known what he was thinking because the next thing Ryan knew she had moved his face towards hers and started kissing him from behind. Take their kiss deepre and deeper with each kiss. Ryan shifted his body so he was facing her. He wrapped his arm behind her back, slowly and more gently then ever, began to lay her back down across the bed and hovered above her. Eventually Ryan slowly lowered himself to lay on top of Marissa. But not long after he had put half his body weight on her she yelped ou in pain. "Owww" Tears began to fall. "Get off Ryan. Ahhh" She screamed out in agony. Ryan jumped off her so quickly. He felt really bad. He felt really guilty and really awkward. He didn't know what to say. He never meant to hurt her. He just thought it would be okay and it wouldn't hurt her.
"I...I'm...Are you okay? Did I burst any of your stitches?" Ryan finally blurted out scared of what he'd done. Marissa still had tears runnign down her cheeks, she had turned a very pale colour (from the pain) and Ryan could also see the pain in her eyes but her cries had subsided. Marissa just lay paralyzed and Ryan didn't kow what to do. all he wanted to do was pull her into a hug and make her feel better but he didn't want to move her in case he hurt her more. After a moments silence Ryan couldn't stand it anymore. He had hurt Marissa and she was in pain. He hated himself for that. "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to...I'm just so sorry" He said dropping his head. He felt Marissa move but couldn't even look up at her. Marissa was holding onto her side and had sat up a little more and moved closer to Ryan, whincing with each movement and each breath. "She lifted her frre hand to hold Ryan's face and make him look up at her. "Hey. It's not your fault Ryan. I thought I could handle it too remember. It's just going to take a little while longer before we can do all this. But it's not your fault okay!?" She said lovingly. Ryan finally looked into her eyes and could see the truth behind her words. Ryan nodded in reply but he still felt guilty. He hated hurting her. "Are you okay?" He asked nervously. "Not yet but I will be. Just need to take a couple of pain killers. I think they're in my purse, she responded and tried to move. "Don't move. Just lay down and rest. I'll...I'll get them" Ryan hurriedly said, jumping off the bed quickly and sprinting over to Marissa's purse and then the kitchen.
He came back over with two of her painkillers and a bottle of water. "Thanks" Marissa said grabbing the bottle of water and pills out of Ryans hands. She dipped her head back and put the pills on her tongue, took a small gulp of water as they slide down her throat. Ryan was watching intently. A look of worry yet inquisitive on his face. Marissa had her head tilted back, allowing easy access to her neck. Ryan watched as she swallowed. He couldn't resist it anymore. He dove forward and started to kiss Marissa's neck. Her eyes flew open as she felt Ryan's lips against her neck. At first she didnt know what the sudden sensation was, but as soon as she realised she relaxed and her eyes closed, taking in the pleasure of his touch, his smell and his strength as he pulled her closer to him as they fell against the pillows. When Ryan broke away, Marissa still had her eyes closed. Ryan laughed at the silly grin she had on her face. "Feeling better?" Ryan asked looking down at her and smiling to himself. Marissa turned to face him and opened her eyes. "Much" She replied simply.
Ryan turned around and sat at the edge of the bed, about to rise to his feet. Marissa grabbed his wrist. "Where are you going?" She sadly pleaded. Ryan turned around and looked at the puppy dog eyes and mock frown she was displaying. He leant closer to her and placed a quick kiss on her lips. "I'm just going to get a juice" Ryan frowned at her then shook his head. Soon he was back over at the bed. Marissa was on her knees and snaking her arms around Ryan's waist. She kissed his chest as he moved closer. Marissa crept backwards as Ryan lent down and began to lie on the bed. He turned onto his side but stayed where he was. He was terrified of hurting her again. Marissa began nibbling at his ear and making patterns on his chest with her fingertips. But Ryan just lay there not moving a muscles...or even start to get aroused. Marissa found this really odd. This usually drove him crazy. Marissa looked up into his eyes. "Ryan...What's wrong?" Ryan looked down into her sadden eyes. After a small moment to drew himself from his thoughts and answered "Nothing" Marissa eyes turned to a look of hurt. Ryan knew he should talk to her...But how could he just get it out...say what he needed to say!? "Okay. Then why won't you get close to me?" "It's not...I DO wanna be as close up to you as possible...just..." Ryan trailed off into his own thoughts again. "Ryan talk to me. I don't want us to go back to how it was before. I want us to be able to talk to each other, be honest with each other. Ryan what IS it?" Marissa almost pleaded. "I'm sorry. I want us to be able to do that to. I just...I don't want to hurt you again" Marissa looked confused. "Hurt me? Ryan you have never hurt me" "But I did before. I should have known you weren't ready. I should have known not to do that. But... I just...I just missed you and wanted to be close to you again" Ryan paused for a moment. Marissa was speechless for a second but soon recovered her thoughts. However, before she could reply Ryan began again. "And now I hurt you...and you were in so much pain...And it...it was my fault. And I NEVER want to hurt you again"
Marissa was a little shocked and taken aback. How could he think it was all his doing? She tought she was ready to...but her body just wasn't ready yet. It was no-ones fault. Why did he always think things were his fault when something happened? She didn't realise this small hiccup had such an effect over him. "Hey. It wasn't your fault Ry. I thought I ould cope with it too...But obviously I just need a little more time before we can get back to that" She smiled. She loved the idea of what "that" was and couldn't wait. "But...It doesn't mean we can't still fool around and enjoy the less...connected side of things" She winked. Ryan gave a small smile but it soon faded again. She could still see the hurt and terror in his eyes. He really didn't want to hurt her. Marissa smiled at her self. She lved how he loved her so much that he got so emotional when things happened to her. She didn't need words, when things like this could show just how much he truely adored her. "Ryan...You DIDN'T hurt me!" Marissa stated clearly so that it got through to Ryan. He looked into her eyes again, questionably. "You didn't" She said more calmly and quietly. "It just happened...but I'm fine now and I love you and I want you to hold me...It's not going to hurt me. I promise. You're hurting me more by keeping away" She stated with her puppy dog eyes fixing themselves on Ryan's eyes. Ryan could see by the hurt in her eyes earlier that this was true...and he did want to hold her like crazy. He scooted closer to her and wrapped his arms around her petite torso. "I love you too" He whispered into her ear. She smiled into his chest and snuggled closer to him.
After a small moment of laying in each others arms, holding each other as close as humanly possible, Marissa arked up "See I told you, you wouldn't hurt me" She smiled cheekily. Ryan mumbled his agreement and then pulled her closer as their lips collided. How could he have pushed her away, when all he wanted was to hold her like this? Ryan shook the thought from his head as they softly fell back to sleep.