Aviéntame

Chap.8

I quickly got ready slipping on some clothes, and left home early without waking up Sakura. She was unaware of were I was heading to, I knew that when I got back from my destination she was going to raise hell. But I was prepared to make that sacrifice. When I closed the door behind me, I felt. . . free. Finally being able to breath the fresh air that surrounded me. The day was bright and breezy as I walked down the streets to get to my destination. At that moment everything felt right, the people that I walked passed all had that stupid cheery face on. . . but this time I wasn't annoyed by it, I felt great. I finally reached the park and looked around, there were children playing on the playgrounds, elderly men playing a game of chess in the shade, lovers sitting near the huge fountain enjoying each other's company. And then there was you sitting in the center of all these chrome colored seats watching everything around you. From behind I could see your wavy dark hair was slowly moving in the wind, and your skin glowed even more here in the sun.

I neared and kissed her on the cheek, startling her.

"S-Sasuke! You scared me"

"I'm sorry I just couldn't help myself." a blush appeared on her pale cheeks, smirking to myself, I wanted to make her blush even more.

"You look beautiful when you blush Hinata." It worked as soon as the words left my lips her cheeks had gone from a light shade of pink to a bright red. She looked down at her shoes, attempting to hide her embarrassment with her bangs.

"Thank you. . ." she mumbled.

"Let's go." I held my hand out for her to take, quickly she slipped her hand into mine, and soon we were off.

The bright sunny day had suddenly turned to dusk. Hinata and I had spend the whole day together.. . . . today was perfect. We were walking hand in hand while I walked her to her apartment.

"You know you don't have to walk me home"

"Are you kidding me? I can't have you walking home by yourself at night" she smiled and squeezed my hand harder. Just as we were about to turn the corner we came across someone very familiar. . . Kiba. Hinata quickly let go of my hand before Kiba could see

"Kiba hi w-what're you d-doing here?" Hinata said hesitantly as she faked a smile.

". . . walking my dog?" Hinata and I's attention suddenly looked down at the little white furry dog tapping Hinata's legs as he whined.

"O-oh! Um. . . hey Akamaru" she said as she bent down to pet the small animal,

"What're you guys doing out at night?" he asked sadly.

"Uh Sasuke and I w-were. . um we w-were-"

"I ran into her right now and decided to walk her home" Kiba's eyebrow shot up in doubt.

"Yeah that's right I was walking home and I r-ran into Sasuke" she began to laugh nervously, Kiba's doubt began to grow from the look on his face.

"Um I gotta go now Kiba it was nice seeing you, you to Akamaru" she said as she pat the dog on the head one more time before sitting up.

"Wait a minute Hinata. . . I'll walk you home it'll save Sasuke the trouble"

"No it's no trouble at all I'll walk her"

"Sasuke it's getting late Sakura must be worried about you, so how about you go home to her ok." I would have grabbed Hinata by the hand and keep walking to her place, but the look in her eyes said that our day would end here. Slowly I nodded and watched as he placed his arm around her shoulder as they walked away. I wasn't going to let our night end like that so I followed them.

They had finally reached her apartment, so they wouldn't see me I hid behind some bushes. I saw Hinata fumbling through her things to find her keys, while Kiba stared at her longingly. His hand stopped her's.

"tell me the truth Hinata. . . your seeing Sasuke aren't you"

"What? No! I'm not seeing him Kiba!"

"Then tell me how come it felt that way when I saw the two of you huh?"

"Your just paranoid Kiba" suddenly he grabbed her by the arms and brought her closer to him startling her in the process. As I watched I felt my hands grip tighter on the branches, I was feeling jealous.

"Don't lie to me. . . you have no idea how angry I was to see him with you"

"Well you shouldn't c-cause there's absolutely nothing between us and plus you and I aren't even together anymore!"

she searched through her bag and finally found the missing keys. She opened her door and slammed it shut, clearly she was angry. Kiba let out a furious growl as he walked away.

"Damn it Hinata" he muttered as he walked passed me. I waited till he was out of sight so I could finally see her. Quickly I ran up to her door and knocked, she opened the door and already she was wearing a blue silk dress. My mouth dropped slightly as I stared at her

"Oh my God! Sasuke are you ok?"

"Huh? Oh y-yeah I'm fine why?"

She stepped forward and plucked something out of my hair, she showed it to me. It was a green leaf.

"You have leafs in your hair and your hand is bleeding." I looked down at my hand and realized that in fact it was bleeding.

"Oh. . ." She grabbed my other uninjured hand and pulled me inside.

I couldn't believe it I was actually sitting on her bed. Hinata had pulled me inside and led me to her room. I pressed my hand on the bed, It was comfy I noted. The door in front of me opened and out came Hinata with bandages and ointments. She gently grabbed my hand and before she applied the ointment she said

"It'll sting at first. . ." then she slowly wiped the cream on my hand. It was quick and sharp, the pain I felt, but I simply closed my eyes and let it be. Something soft was wrapping all over my hand, it was the bandages. It looked like Hinata knew what she was doing.

"You've had experience in this?"

"Yes. . . when I was little I wanted to be a doctor"

"And. . . what happened?"

She sighed and rubbed her forehead.

"I just stopped believing in that dream one day. . ."

"Why?"

"Let's just say there were many words of doubt. . . everyday." Hinata stayed silent as she looked at my bandaged hand, she brought it up to her lips and placed a kiss.

"It'll heal now. . . " she whispered. Slowly I leaned my head closer to hers and kissed her. It was soft and innocent, right after she hugged me and whispered.

"You should go home now Sasuke I don't want Sakura to worry about you. . ." the words stabbed me in the heart, she was telling me to go back to someone I didn't want to see.

"I'd rather stay here with you"

"Mm. . . if only you could. . . but you can't" she smiled sadly at me as she got up and walked towards her bedroom door.

"Come on I'll walk you out. . ."

Reluctantly I got off the bed and walked with her to the door. I opened the door and was about to leave when suddenly she grabbed my wrist.

"When can I see you again?" she asked, I smiled and kissed her on the lips once more.

". . . tomorrow." I turned towards the door and walked away leaving her breathless.

The walk home was different then it was in the morning. This time I had my hands in my pockets and my head was hung low. Everything felt depressing, the streets were lonely tonight, not a single soul out tonight. I was in front of my door contemplating on opening it or not, should I enter my misery? Or not? I could simply disappear. . . but then that would cause problems for both Hinata and I. I placed my hand on the door knob and turned. . . too late to turn back now. I stepped inside and locked myself in deep pain. The house was dark except for the light that came from the bottom of my bedroom door. . . Sakura. I opened the door slowly and saw her sitting there on the floor crying her green eyes out.

"Hey"

Her head shot up and her eyes brightened as she stood up and quickly ran over to me. She wrapped her arms around me tightly and wept. The tears seeped through my shirt, those seeping tears were proof that she loved me like no other human being could. It was insanity.

"I thought you left me. . .don't ever leave me. . .I would die. . . no I WILL die if you do" I gulped and patted her on the head.

"Sasuke! I know you were going to leave me today! Right? You were going to run out that door " her anger suddenly flared up, she looked at me with eyes filled with rage. . ..and heartbrokenness.

"I know I'm making you sad! But I don't want this to end cause I love you so much!" I had let go of her and sat down on the bed, she sat in front of me gripping my knees.

"If you want me to change I'll change for you. . . anything for you Sasuke! I'll do anything for you baby!" I held the side of the head with my hands as I looked down at the floor and listened to her.

"Please say something. . . . .don't ignore me." I didn't want to lie to her, but then again the truth would be too painful for her to hear.

". . . that's just it Sakura. . . . I can't say anything", her hands slipped off my knees slowly and in a defeated way she curled up into a ball holding her knees on the floor and wept. I got up from the bed and walked to the bathroom to get ready to sleep, all the while hearing her desperate cries to be loved.

The next morning Sakura woke up with blood shot eyes and an angry expression on her face. I ignored her and pretended she was not even there, she did the same. Once she walked out the door all the tension that was in the air went out with her. Finally I was able to breath, the phone rang minutes after Sakura left, I already knew who it was.

"Hi Hinata"

"How did you know it was me?"

"Gut instinct I guess what's up?"

"No nothing. . . I j-just want to. . ."

"Want what?"

"I want to see you"

I smirked, it felt good to hear her say that she wanted to see me.

"Sasuke are you still there?"

"Huh? Oh yeah um. . . I want to see you to. . . how about you come over. . . she's not home right now"

"Will she come back soon?"

"Not till later tonight"

She stayed silent, the only thing I could hear was her soft breathing

"o-ok"

"Yeah? You'll be here?"

"Mm hmm I-I'll be there"

"Ok I'll see you in a bit"

"ok bye"

"bye."

Quickly I cleaned the house a bit and got everything ready, I didn't want her to see the condition my home was in. There was a knock on the door, she was already here.

I opened the door, reveling a stunning Hinata. She wore a red flowery dress with gold buttons, and her hair was let down, as usual, but this time it was curly.

"Hi S-Sasuke" she said shyly. I didn't say anything, I only greeted her with a warm kiss, She giggled afterwards. I led her in and our day together began again.

We had stayed in the living room either watching t.v., or talking, or. . . making out. . . mostly making out. But the idea suddenly occurred to me, I grabbed her by the shoulders and pushed her off gently.

"S-something wrong Sasuke?" she asked in a concerned voice. I shook my head and quickly led her to my bedroom, but before we entered she tugged on my hand.

"Sasuke. . . I'm not ready for t-that y-yet"

"What?.. Oh No! No Hinata that's not the reason why. . . I want to show you my art work." Her eyes suddenly brightened up as she smiled and nodded her head. We entered the room and walked over to where my paintings were set up.

". . . . Sakura sleeps here to huh?" she said looking depressed as her eyes scanned the Sakura's items.

"yeah," she stayed quiet and only nodded her head, but for a brief moment I thought I saw a hint of jealousy present in her eyes. Hinata walked up to my paintings and looked over them without saying anything, I was actually getting scared that she didn't like them.

"So uh. . . what do you think?"

She shut her eyes for a moment only to open them again half-lidded.

"Your going to save someone's life with these paintings Sasuke. . . and I don't think you'll even know it." I looked at her, flattered by her words, I walked up to her and hugged her feeling very moved by what she had just said.

"Thank you" I whispered into her ear.

The time finally came for Hinata to leave, and the time finally came for Sakura to come back. I walked Hinata to the door and kissed her.

"Mm I have to go now" she whispered against my lips

"no don't go"

"I have to I don't want you to get in trouble with her"

"Ok. . . fine." I kissed her as if it was the last time I would ever see her, something she wouldn't forget. She smiled as she broke the kiss and walked away. I stood there till she was out of sight, everything was perfect. . . .

Well not nearly. Just then I saw Sakura walking towards the apartment, she stopped when she saw that I was already standing there. The tears leaked from her eyes as she stared at me on this silent hallway. Slowly she began to walk till she was standing right in front of me. Again her mouth opened up and a few gasps were heard. She wrapped her hands around my neck and finally cried. I knew that this relationship was killing both of us on the inside very slowly and very painfully. I felt sorry for her, because I knew she truly loved me. She would burn down the whole world just for me, she would risk it all. . . . for me. I leaned my head into her hair and hugged her back, "why do I stay with her?" I asked myself that very moment. Many ideas came into my head, was it just for the sex?. . . no that had no meaning, was it because I scared to be lonely?. . . no. . . I knew that the feeling of loneliness tormented me when I was a child but I've grown to accept that part of life. Then what was the reason why?. . . I don't know. I don't know why I was keeping myself from happiness. . . I don't know why I was killing myself.

-Man. . . sorry you guys this was the best I could do...