DISCLAIMER: i don't own MR/any of the characters, and i don't own "Lying From You - Linkin Park"

A/N: i wanna say thanks to those people who reviewed ) i was well happy. thanks for the comments, by the sounds of it you enjoyed it. but with this chapter i was kinda stuck 'cos i didn't know what song to use. oh and i wrote this at like 3 am on a tuesday morning. couldn't get sleep, tht probably helps to the crappyness of it.

Fangs P.O.V

It killed me to say that to Max, though I wouldn't let anybody know. I had to hide my emotions, if people know what I feel, it can be used against me. What made it worse was the amount of time it had taken me to tell her. And, being the idiot I am, I had to tell her, just at the time when she was really happy. She was relaxed, for the first time in months, and I had to go ruin it. I am SO stupid. I walked across the room and flicked on the battered radio that was sitting on the bedside table. I went back to strategically packing my worn, black backpack with necessities. The scratchy music echoed around the almost empty room.

When I pretend,
Everything is what I want it to be,
I looked exactly like what you had always wanted to see,
When I pretend,
I can't forget about the criminal I am,
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can,

I listened to the song thinking, it kind of sounds familiar. Sounds a bit like me, I thought. I pretend that I'm okay with this life, pretend that I'm the person she wants me to be. Stealing every second I get to be with her, talk to her maybe. Oh god, why was I doing this? I momentarily stopped what I was doing. I had thought about this for so long, had changed my mind so many times. Was I going to back out now? Just after I had ruined one of the best moments that she'd had in a long time.

But I can't pretend that this is the way, it'll stay, I'm just,
(Trying to bend the truth)
I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be so I'm,
(Lying my way from)

You!!!!!!!!
(No, no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be, all alone!!
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own, cause I can see!!!
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you…
IS ME

Once again, the song started me thinking. It was true. Wasn't that why I was leaving? Because I couldn't pretend for the others anymore. I was killing myself inside, and I wasn't helping Max any. If I got into trouble, she'd be there to help me, if I wanted to talk, she'd listen, not that I talk that much anyway. She was wasting her life focusing on me rather than relaxing, resting, living her own life.

I remember what they taught to me,
Remember condescending talk,
Of who I ought to be,
Remember listening to all of that,
And this again,
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in

That part of the song reminded me mostly of Jeb and the whitecoats. It made me think of Max, everyone saying that she needed to save the world, that she needed to do this, that and the other.

"She's 14 for crying out loud," I half shouted. "She shouldn't have that sort of responsibility"

And now you think this person,
Really is me and I'm,
(Trying to bend the truth)
The more I push,
The more I'm pulling away,
Cause I'm,
(Lying my way from)

You!!!!!!!!
(No, no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!!
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life,
I'd rather be, all alone!!
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own, cause I can see!!!
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you….
The very worst part of you….
IS ME!!!!!

"I can't deal with this pretence anymore," I muttered, "I need to be on my own, so I can let it out, be myself. I can't do that here, I need to be strong for the flock, for Max. This is helping Max as much as it's helping me" My voice had raised slightly, and I clenched my fists and took deep breaths trying not to get angry. Why was I getting angry? This had been my decision.

This isn't what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn't what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn't what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn't what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!!

YOU!!!!!!!!
(no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!!
(No, no turning back now)

Except I was doing the running, not Max. I'd always known it.

"Max, you're the strong one, not me. You can cope, or at least you're trying." And what was I doing? I was giving up. How's that for manliness…note the sarcasm.

A soft knock on the door brought me out of my thoughts.

"Fang it's me, Ig, can I come in?"

"Yeah"

"I heard you talking to yourself. And max stormed out a few minutes ago. Did something happen."

"Mmm" was my reply. I didn't talk all that much anyway, but when I had important things to think about and was in a bad mood, I spoke even less.

"Fine, let's cut the crap then shall we Fang?" Iggy's voice suddenly changed. It was violent and filled with anger. "I heard what you said to her."

I was taken aback. He heard me say I was leaving!!

"Fang! Say something, Mr. I'm-tall-dark-and-mysterious. You're too wrapped up in your own little worries. What the hell is that about?!?"

Right now he was starting to get on my nerves. Mr. I'm-tall-dark-and-mysterious?!?

"What?" was all I could manage.

"Arrghh. What? WHAT?!?" Iggy's voice was getting louder and louder. "Do I need to spell it out for you?!" he sighed and took a few breaths, to try and stay calm. When he spoke it was through gritted teeth. "You are having trouble coping with being Mr.Unemotional. You want to leave so you can be Mr.Emotional. You also want to leave because you feel like you're holding Max back. And you don't want to do that because you love her."

"Huh?!?" I was completely caught off guard with that. "How did you know all of that?!"

"Fang. I'm blind, not deaf or stupid. And the last part, everyone in the flock can see it except for you two. You two love each other, more than as brother and sister, but you aren't taking it ANYWHERE. It's so annoying for fu…" he cut himself off before completing that sentence. Wise move I must say.

WHAT!! "Max loves me?!"

Iggy rolled his eyes. "Yes. Obviously. If you hadn't been too much of a sissy to admit that, we would all be in a better situation right now." Iggy's voice was soft now, and he looked a lot calmer

I didn't really know what to say.

"Fang? Don't leave. We wouldn't be the flock with any of us missing. And if you leave, I don't know how long Max will be able to keep it together."

"I'm sorry Ig. I'm not gonna leave, but I need to sort this mess out with Max. How fun that's going to be."

"You deserve it. it's your own fault" he had a huge smirk on his face. I threw a pillow at him. Glad everything was back to normal. Normal for us anyway.

The front door to the motel opened almost silently and I heard Max's careful footsteps on the floor.

Well almost everything was back to normal.

A/N : review please, it was kinda crap probs but i tried. any idea's for anymore? or maybe i should stop writing them? oh and sorry if anyone was like, really out of character but i was stuck.