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The next day at school was depressing actually. I hardly talked to anyone besides Ashley. She hung out with me all day because of last night. She stayed the night as well. She wouldn't leave my side and I really liked her because of that. She understood how I felt. And even though, we've only known each other for a short while, she felt like my best friend then.

At practice, Ashley and I had to run the whole time because of yesterday. It sucked because I really wasn't in the mood to do anything. Especially the one thing I love the most, soccer.

Afterwards, we were all in the locker room. Chelsea and I were walking together into the locker room, talking about the scrimmage game that we have next week against a really good team up in Malibu.

That's when I saw Rachel, "Hey Rach," She turns away from me. "What's wrong?" I ask her

She turns around to face me, "Since you and Ashley decided to play water fight yesterday, the whole team had to run 3 miles." She glared at me for a second and then continued to undress.

I turned away and walked down my aisle and into the next one to find Ashley talking to Madison with her shirt off. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly as I made my way over to her. "Hey." She said looking at me

"Hi." I said quietly and took her arm and pulled aside from everyone else. Everyone was staring at us and whispering things. "Um, so apparently we made everyone run 3 miles yesterday for goofing off." I tell her in a quite voice

"Yeah I know." She says slipping her shirt that she wore that day on. I couldn't help but notice the tiny tattoo on her hip. It was of a star and it looked so cute on her. I could never pull that off. "But hey, it was fun." She smiled at me, "And it looked like you could have used that day off by what… you know. With you and your mom." She looked at me sweetly

I smiled at her a little bit, "Thanks." I say really quite.

She hits my arm, "Now go get dressed, we still have to finish The Notebook." She smiled at me and walked back into her aisle

"But um, I need a shower." I laugh a little

"Oh," She starts to slip off her shorts and I swallow hard, "Well come over afterwards." And they're off and I couldn't help but stare at her a little bit. I didn't make it obvious though.

I walked back into my aisle and took off my shirt and then my shorts. I slipped on my pants and I grabbed my shirt that fell on the floor. The Rachel started to leave, but not without pushing me into the lockers.

I sighed and sat down on the bench. My shirt in my hands and lap. I stared at my arms which had some of the scars on them. She really shouldn't be this mad at me. I slip on one of my shoes and then the other one when I heard a voice. "You're still here?" It was Ashley

I look up at her from the bench where I was sitting. Then I realized that I was still shirtless. "Yeah." I say quietly standing up. I started to put on my shirt and I felt Ashley's eyes on me. I bit my lower lip and finished putting on my shirt.

I sat back down on the bench and started to slip into my jacket when Ashley grabbed one of my wrists. She stared at it for a second and she looked at me. She raised her eyebrow, "Um…" Was all I said

I watched her as she looked around to see if anyone was listening and then she switched benches and sat next to me. She opened her mouth to say something but nothing came out. She closed her mouth and let go of my hand.

I looked at my lap and sighed and finished putting on my jacket. I stood up and she was still sitting down. I stared at her for a moment, "Look, Ash." I sat back down, "I don't do it anymore." I told her quietly

She just stared at me, "I mean, I've done it recently, but I don't want to do it." I add

"Spencer, that's like… really deadly to do. You could die doing that." She looked at me like she couldn't believe that I was actually cutting myself

"I know. And I really want to stop. I want to quit." I told her but it looked liked she didn't believe me

We sit there for a moment and then my phone starts to ring. I ignore it for a second and then I finally answer it, "Hello?" It was my mother

"Spencer, where are you?" She asks me. I hear Alan in the background and I hear her giggle at something he said

I tense up my jaw and I narrow my eyes and focus on the locker in front of me. I stare at hard and out of the corner of my eye, I saw Ashley look over at me, "Im still in the locker room." I say kind of pissed off at her

She giggles again. My mother should not giggle. Moms shouldn't giggle. "Well sweetie, hurry up. Alan and I have a dinner date."

Ugh. "Um I have to stay after. Go ahead. I have a ride home." I tell her

"Ok well I'll see you later sweetie." She said and hangs up

"Your mom?" Ashley asks

I nod and slip my phone into my back pocket. I stand up once more and she follows my actions this time. One of the girls on the teams passes by us and says bye. Ashley waves at her and turns back to me, "You hate me don't you?" I ask her quietly

She shakes her head, "I hate that you cut though." She says that really quite

I hang my head, "Me too."

She puts her arm around me, "Come on." We start to walk out of the locker room and to the front of the school.

I stop her, "We can't go out there yet." I tell her

She looks at me with a questioning expression, "My mom and Alan are there." I roll my eyes

"Oh." She says and leans up against a wall

I lean up against the same wall too. "I had a dream about me and –" I don't even know why I was going to tell her about that dream

She looks over at me, "You and who?" She asks

"Um, Johnny Depp." I say quickly. I hate Johnny Depp. He's ugly. I don't know why I said that. I don't even know why other girls think he's sexy. Gag me now.

"Ew." She says and I laugh. "Oh well I mean, hot." She smiles and stares at the ground

"Yeah…" I really kind of wish that I had told her that it was actually her. I wonder what her reaction would be. But I know that I could never tell her.

A couple of minutes passed and we finally went to the front. "Hey you need a ride?" She asks with a smile as her mom pulls up, "because I know you don't have to stay after."

"You know me too well, Miss Davies." I smiled at her and climbed into the back seat of her car

"Mom, Spencer's going to come over. Ok?" She says trying to find a radio station

"Whatever. Im going out with some friends of mine tonight." She tells Ashley and I hear her sigh.

"Is he going to be there?" She asks landing on a 3 Doors Down song.

I smile because I love this song. Let Me Go. It's the greatest song. "Why does it matter?"

Ashley is staring out of her car window. Her mom pulls up to my house and she's driving down my driveway when I get a text message. I pull out my phone and see who it's from. Ashley. I smile and laugh a little. I read it, um so you still want to come over?

I bit my lower lip, not unless you want to stay here with me. I send it to her as her mom stops the car.

"Um Mom, never mind. Im going to hang out over here." She jumps out of the car before her mom could even say an answer

We walk into my house, "So, why the change of plans?" I ask shutting the front door

She smiles at me at she starts up the stairs and heads to my room, "We weren't finished." I laugh a little as we walk into my room

I shut my door out of habit and I walk over to my dresser and grab some clothes, "Well im going to jump into the shower really quick. Because im really nasty." She laughs and nods

After my shower, I walk back into my room to find Ashley on my computer. I look at what she's on and notice that she's on myspace. "Myspacing are we?" I sit on my bed and watch her

She turns around in the chair, "About time you're out geez." She laughs and signs out and joins me on my bed. "Where were we?" She asked

"Um, I really don't remember and I really don't want to." I smile at her and she laughs

She stares at me and I stare back. We didn't talk to each other. We just stared at each other. I stared into her brown eyes and swallowed hard. I couldn't believe what I was about to do.

Alrightly there folks. There was chapter 11? Reviews are always helpful!