Thanks to everyone who reviewed and told me happy birthday! I love you guys :) Im updating today because of two reasons actually. A lot of people reviewed and that made me extra happy. :) And well just because you guys deserve it. haha. So yeah, I want to say thanks to one of my good friends, blonde gone wild, for telling people about my story in her's. :) Thanks Kid.
It rained the whole day so practice got cancelled. I was actually really happy about that because I so did not want to go to practice today. It would have been horrible. But yeah, we do have a scrimmage game next week. I totally forgot about that until just now.
I fall down onto my bed and I just lay there. It's weird not having noise besides the rain hitting my window. It's been a while since it rained, but yeah, you know, that's California.
I stare at my ceiling and I think of why Rachel was really mad at me for a while, and then all of a sudden, she likes me again. I swear, maybe she is just really jealous of me hanging out with Ashley—Ashley. I can't believe her either. I mean, who would actually have a boyfriend, and then decide that they're really gay and they get a girlfriend, and they still don't break up with their boyfriend? That was kind of confusing.
Ugh. I roll over onto my stomach because I can't stand looking at the ceiling anymore. I look at my knuckles now and the whole night replays in my head. Life actually really sucks right now. But maybe im just over thinking it. Hell, what do I know?
I walk over to my window and sit down on the little platform thing and I stare out the window. It's amazing how beautiful it is when it rains. I grab my iPod and turn it on and sit back down and listen to it while I stare out the window.
I stared out of the window for a good 20 minutes before the knocking on my door came. I turned towards my door and it opened. I paused my iPod and watched my mom walk in and sit down on my bed. I stared at her, waiting for what she had to say.
Finally, after what seems like forever, she talks, "Honey… is it because Alan and I are getting married?" She asks. She won't even look me in the eyes
She stares at her lap, "You're joking right?" I say. I lean back against my window. Wouldn't it suck if my window just broke right now? Well, maybe it wouldn't suck so badly.
"Does it look like im joking?" She says standing up
She really does think that she is above me. I can't really believe this is my mom. What happened to the good ol' non-cheating, follow the Ten Commandments mom? That's actually really good, im going to ask her that. "Did you think that you weren't breaking a 'rule' that He set?" I ask
She stares at me for a moment, "Spencer, we have to get married for two reasons." She tells me
I sit there waiting for her to tell me the two things. But apparently she doesn't get the memo that im waiting, "Ok… what are they?" I ask removing the ear phones from my ears
"We're in love and…" She pauses for what seems like forever, "Im pregnant."
You've got to be kidding me. "What?!" I stand up
"Yes. So, I will not have you bringing—" I am so glad that whoever just rang the door bell, rang the door bell.
"I'll get it." I walk out of my room and start down the stairs
I hear my mom yell after me, "Spencer! They can wait one God damn minute!" I open the door and Ashley is standing there.
I stare at her for a moment and I start to close the door but she pushes it back open. She's soaking wet and her make-up is running, "I did it." She utters
"Spencer! Shut the damn door." My mom puts her hand on the door and starts to shut it but I stop her
I stare coldly at my mom and then back at Ashley, "Did what?" I ask her. Seriously, I have no clue what she's talking about. She looks over at my mom and I finally get it. She broke up with Aiden!
I push her gently away from the door and I step outside and shut the door behind me. "Come on." I say grabbing her hand and leading her off the porch and around to the back yard.
When we walk, I hear her sniffle a lot. And when we finally get into the back yard, I pull her over to the tree house Glen and I built when I was 5 and he was 8.
"I don't want you two hurting yourselves, so no you may not build a tree house---" our mom says
But my dad cuts her off, "Geez Paula, get the stick out of your butt and let them build one." My dad walks over to the tree with us and starts to build it with us.
Even way back then, I never noticed how their relationship was messed up. I guess I was always in my own little world to even bother to notice.
We've been sitting in the tree house for about 15 minutes now in silence. Well, not completely silent. Ashley is crying still. My arm is around her and I wish it wasn't. I mean, I do like it there, but I mean im still kind of mad at her.
Then Alan's head pops up in the door frame, "Ashley you need to go—" I cut him off
"You're not allowed to be up here. Can't you read the sign? It says 'Carlin's only.' Last time I checked, you weren't a Carlin." I tell him with an attitude
He sighs and he climbs all the way in, "Ok so you apparently have a hearing problem." I say. This tree house is not even close to being big enough for 1 grown man and 2 teenage girls.
"Spencer," He starts
"Get out." I say again
He rolls his eyes. He can't roll his eyes. Only I can do it. "I know that you're probably really mad at you mother and I."
"And what gave that away?" I say taking my arm away from Ashley. I place my hands into my hoodie pocket.
He sighs. Ok that, I guess he can do. But he cant over use that either, "You seriously need to get counseling." He says and he starts to leave
I swallow hard. I've heard that a lot too. And I agree with it. But it's not like im going to admit to everyone that I really think I do need it. I am so tempted to push him out of the tree house. Help him get down faster.
Then I hear my dad's voice. "What the hell did you tell my daughter?" He asks. Alan is already on the ground facing my dad. Ashley and I look at each other and we scramble over to the door frame and stare at the two men
Alan just walks away and my dad looks up at me and Ashley and motions us to come down. We listen to him. When we're on the ground, he tells me to get my backpack and some extra cloths. Im going home with him.
I don't know if it's actually a great idea. I mean, go home to an evil step mom, or stay here and get punished for being gay. Ugh.
We get up to my room and I close my door, "Are you ok Spencer?" Ashley asks me as I walk over to my dresser
She must have seen me wipe my hand across my eyes. "Yeah." I tell her as I place some cloths into a bag
She sits down on my bed and watches me, "Im sorry about earlier today." She says in almost a whisper
I join her on my bed, "Ashley—"
"No, let me talk this time." She looks at me and continues, "You were right, I shouldn't have kissed you and continued to go out with, Aiden. I was totally wrong." She looks down at the bed spread for a moment and then back at me, "Im sorry if I hurt you." She waits for me to say something
"You wouldn't be the first." I get off the bed and I walk over to my closet to grab a few shirts to put in my bag
"I know." I hear her say. I turn around and she's right there, "And I don't ever want to hurt you again. I see what you go through and I really don't want to add to that. I mean, I would hate to have your life. I mean, the part with your parents and—" I cut her off
"I know what you mean, Ash." I sigh and turn back around. I turned around for two reasons, 1, to get another shirt, and 2, because she's right. I do get hurt a lot and I don't even see it really. I either let the people push over me, or when I do see it, I hurt myself.
But I have to know one thing, "Did you love him Ash?" I ask her not turning around
"Who? Aiden?" She says
I turn around, "Yeah." I say quietly. She stands there in silence. "Then why'd you break up with him?" I ask quietly
She looks down at the ground, "I thought that's what you wanted." She looks back up at me
I shake my head, "It's not about what I want, Ash. It's about what you want. You've been going out with him for who knows how long. You shouldn't have done it." I walk past her and place my shirts into my bag. I turn back around and face her. She hasn't moved.
I sigh and I can't believe what im about to say, "Just call him up Ashley, and tell him that you were wrong." I throw her cell phone that was on the bed to her.
She looks at me and I give her a sympathy smile and I grab my bag and leave my room. I close the door so she can get some privacy. Why did I just do that? I lean up against my door and I hear her start to speak, "Hey, are you busy?" I close my eyes and I sigh. Because I want everyone else to be happy.
Why did I have to fall for her? Why'd I fall so damn hard? "Spencer sweetie, are you ready?" I open my eyes and it's my dad. He stands in front on me and I drop my bag and I hug him. And then I let a few tears out. He hugs me back. "I know sweetie. It's hard. But you'll move past it." He says in a low voice and I hug him tighter. He has no idea.
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