How was everyone's Christmas? Hopefully everyone got what they wanted! I finally found some time to write, even though it is in the middle of the night. Hehe. But whatever. It's really cold over here in Colorado. Lol.
This chapter is a little hard for me too write actually… and I really don't want to write it, but you guys should know about this to get why later I do what I do.
Im lying on Todd's bed with him on top of me. This is moving way too quickly. I slightly push him off of me and he stares at me weird. I shake my head and I sit on the edge of his bed.
I cant get the image of Ashley out of my head. With every kiss I picture her lips on mine. And with every touch, I feel her on me and not him. And with every second passing, I picture her and Aiden doing something I totally forbid in my mind.
I feel his hand on my back and I shake it off, "Im sorry." I say really quite. If I didn't stop it now, it would have gone further and I cant do that. Not now. Not with him.
I stand up and I grab my jacket. I walk out of his house and it's already dark. I bite my lower lip as I start down the street. I have no clue where im at. I hear my name being called and it's him. I start to run because I cant face him anymore. I need to be with her. I need to feel her again. I want to feel her lips against mine just one more time.
I stop running when I don't hear him behind me anymore. I stand in the middle of the street between four streets that are unknown to me. Of course he lives in the town that im foreign too.
I sigh as I slip my hands into my pockets and I start to walk. I walk under a street light and a couple of bugs fly pass me. I walk a little ways before I pull out my phone and notice 3 missed calls. I had my phone on silent and they're all from Todd. I turn my phone up on high.
I sit down on the sidewalk and I clench my cell phone in my palm. I take in a deep breath and I let it out slowly. It's cold enough so I can see my breath. I attempt to do a smoke ring, but that only works with smoke. So I stop and I look around at my surroundings. There are no houses that I can see of, so why is there street lights?
Then the one im sitting under flickers off. By this point, my heart race is beating faster and my breathing is becoming heavier. And it continues to worsen when a car starts coming towards me.
I stand quickly and I stare at the car for a moment. The lights go to dim and they slow down. My heart race is faster than every before as they slowly stop the car in front of me.
I slowly take some steps back but when I hear my name I stop, "Spencer it's me, Aiden." I wish it was a murderer instead
"What are you doing here?" I ask him not moving from my place. I still cant see him though and that still creeps me out.
"I live around here. Why are you alone out here? You know how dangerous it is?" he gets out of his car and leans up against it
I cross my arms across my chest and I stare at him, "You're not my mom." I say and I sound really immature
"Get in." He tells me and I shake my head
"I was just on my way home." I start to walk off but I stop when he says my name again
"Spencer, please. I don't want you to get hurt."
And without thinking, I turn around and open my big mouth, "Then you wont go away with Ashley this weekend." I cant believe I just said that. Out loud. To him. Aiden. Ashley's boyfriend. Who's she's madly in love with. Not me. How could I say that?
I turn around and run again. I run till the end of the street and I sit down behind a tree. He drives right past me and I close my eyes as I lean my head up against the tree. I've found a reason for me. To change who I used to be. A reason to start over new. And the reason is you. My phone blares Ashley's ring tone. I've found a reason to show. A side of me you didn't know. The song is almost over and I've stared at my phone a little too long. A reason for all that I do. (Don't ask why I had that as my ring tone… lol)
"Hello?" I say and I sounded scared. I hold my phone tight
"Why didn't you get in the car with Aiden?" She asks me
"Because I hate him." I tell her.
"So, Spence, you're going to get hurt out--" I cut her off
"I cant get anymore hurt than before." I say coldly and I almost hang up the phone when a man comes out of no where and walks towards me, "Oh my god." I say quietly into the phone as I stand up. I clench my phone tighter
"Spencer, you know I didn't mean--" I cut her out again
"Not the time Ash." I swallow hard as the man gets even closer to me. "Who are you?" I ask him.
"Who are you talking too?" Ashley asks me
The man doesn't say anything. He reaches his arm out for my arm and I back into the tree. "Who the hell are you?" He still doesn't say anything. He walks closer to me, "Oh my god Ashley. Where are you?" Im panting because im scared as fuck. He steps into the moonlight and he looks like a murderer I swear. Or like… a rapist. Oh shit. This just means that you have to be careful for what you wish for.
"What's going on? Im over at Aiden's. Why?" She trails on but im running now from him. He's behind me yelling stuff like 'wait' and 'im not going to hurt you'. He's faster than I thought.
"Where… is his… house? Fuck… Ashley… im scared!" I yell into the phone and I almost drop it as I stumble over something that was in the street
She says something but I don't catch it as the guy gets closer to me. Whatever I tripped on hurt my ankle and it hurts to run on it. I mumble the street im on because I just pasted the sign on the corner of another street. Then she says, "You're on his street. Im coming outside…" she says something else but I don't catch it because the guy grabs my arm and yanks me back. I scream as I drop my phone onto the road. I yell her name and I hit the ground
He says threating things to me as he grabs my arm and yanks me up. I squirm out of his grip and I grab my phone and I attempt to keep running but failed because I was too slow and he was too quick.
His hand is over my mouth as he takes my phone from my hand and closes it. He throws it on the ground and I see it shatter. By this time im crying hard and I screaming into his hand. He is pulling me off the road as I hear my name being screamed by Ashley and Aiden.
We hide behind a tree and I see them. She picks up my phone and she mumbles something. She yells my name again and I attempt to scream and it worked. She has really good hearing and with it being completely silent out here, she heard me.
I remember being pushed into the ground and then I blacked out for what seemed like years. I wake up on a stretcher and Ashley is holding my hand in the ambulance, "Oh my god Spencer!" She's been crying I can tell. I stare at her
"What happened?" I ask not remembering anything
One of the paramedics cut her off, "You hit a tree root that grew out of the ground. You only blacked out for about 10 minutes though. You're going to be alright." He smiled at me as he took my blood pressure
I blinked a couple of times and I looked at her. I opened my mouth, "Im sorry." I say quietly
She shakes her head and tightens her grip on my hand. She brings my hand up to her mouth and she kisses it and I smile at her. My eyes are feeling really heavy by this time now, and I drift off into a deep sleep again.
Ok… there it is…