Thanks to everyone who reviewed! And I promise that there is nothing bad in this chapter. You guys deserve a better one. So I found a new favorite song : Better Than Me by Hinder. Lol. It's good. You should listen to that and Pretty Girl by Sugarcult. Yup yup.

It was only a couple of hours before I got to go back home. And when I did, I went straight to my room and fell asleep on my bed. I had to answer some questions first with the police before I could leave the hospital though. That was hard because since it was so dark, I could barely see the guy that grabbed me. They drew the picture of how I described him and they knew who exactly it was. Apparently he was on the wanted list. I don't know.

I don't remember anything after that though. I wish I could though. It would really help. But I cant. And the next day at school, everyone knew about what happened. It was so embarrassing actually. Because I got all these stares and people would whisper about me to one another. I tried to ignore it and walk away from it, but everywhere I went, I was already there in conversation.

I thought I would be able to play soccer but apparently I got a mild concussion. So that means that im not allowed to play in one of the most important games of the year. Against our rival team. And I can't play in the game. So that makes me really mad. I just get to sit on the bench and watch everyone else play the game that I looked forward to for weeks.

But I guess something good did come out of my accident. Or whatever I should call it. Because Ashley never went away that weekend with Aiden. She and him never went away to wherever they were suppose to go and spend alone time together. Secretly, im jumping for joy. And on the outside, I still fake a smile towards them two, because they're still going out.

So today is the game against the rival team. It's away so we get to ride on the buses. Im glad it's away because then Aiden won't be able to come and watch Ashley. I get to actually watch her from the bench and I will actually get to see how good she really is.

I sit in the very back of the bus behind Trisha and Madison who are talking about how they're going to kick their asses in the game. I smile a little as I listen in on their conversation but I smile even bigger when Ashley sits down next to me.

I look over at her and she's pulling her hair up into a pony tail. She puts on her sweatband that goes around her wrist and she finally looks over at me. She smiles with two bobby pins in her mouth and I giggle and look out the window. When we started to move, she elbows me in the side and I turn towards her. She hands me her phone and I look at the screen and I read it. I know that your phone is kind of broken, so you don't have it on you, so this will do. I want you to come back to my house tonight. I have something for you :

I look at her and I smile. "Ok I will." I say in a quite voice as I hand her the phone back

She takes the phone away from me and then grabs my hand and holds it. I smile big at her and I stare out of the window. A part of me wants to leave my hand in hers, but I need to take it away from her. She is still going out with Aiden and I won't do this. Not while she is with him. She should know that already. So I take my hand back from hers and my hand instantly goes cold.

She stares at me for a second and then her expression tells me that she understands. She turns away and starts to talk to the girls in the seat next to us. I sigh as I look out of the window once more. I just want this all to be over with. I just want myself to let go of this dream I have. I will never be with her and no matter how much I try; I will never stop loving her. I can't and my mind won't let me stop.

And all I want is to be happy because of something I did. I just want to stop putting everyone first and think about myself for once. But I know I can't because that's not who I am. I have to make sure everyone else around me is happy before I can be. Because that's who I am and I hate it. Look what it's done to me. The scars it left me and the memories that haunt me. I just want it all to stop.

We walk onto the field and all the girls set their things down and they start putting on their cleats and everything. After they warm up, we all come into a huddle and we get a little pep talk from the coaches. He tells us really encouraging things and it pumps me up. I want to play so badly! But im not allowed. Apparently something bad will happen to me if I do play. Stupid doctors and their stupid smartness.

After we yell our school name, the girls run out onto the field. I turn around and I start to walk back to my bench. But someone grabs my hand and I turn around, "Wish me luck." Ashley smiles brightly at me and kisses my cheek. I watch her run off and I swear she doesn't get the point that I don't want to do anything with her because of Aiden.

I shake it off and I sit down next to Trisha. I wonder why she's sitting out right now. "Why are you sitting out?" I ask her as I slip on a jacket that was on the bench next to me. I was too lazy to go get mine wherever I put it. I think either on Rachel's bag or Ashley's. I don't really remember.

She turns to me, "Time of the month. Coach doesn't want me to play because someone told him that---" I cut her off

"Too much, Trish." She smiles an apology at me and I smile back at her.

We watch the game together. And we won 4-2. We finally won against our rival! Woo!

We all get back onto the bus and we all get our seats that we rode in on the way to the game. "Are you comfortable in my jacket?" Madison asks me

I smile at her, "Is that who's jacket im wearing?" She laughs and throws me my jacket

"Yeah, you left this on my bag." I guess I left it on Madison's. I was way wrong.

I laugh a little and I take her jacket off and I give it back to her. I reach into Ashley's hoodie pocket and I grab her phone. She smiled at me and continued to talk to Chelsea about the game. She's sitting in front of us instead of Trisha. I don't know where she went and I kind of don't really care.

I open her phone and it's a picture of her and me a couple of months ago, "You still have this as your background?" I say and she smiles and nods at me and I laugh a little

I go to the text messages and I was about to click 'create new message' when I saw one from Aiden. I quickly opened it up and I read it, babe im sorry you're not talking to me… but please, just at least say hi once in a while. I raise my eyebrows a little. I can't believe she's mad at him. I wonder why though. I go into her sent box and I read what she wrote back. It's only one reply to him as he had about 10 going to her. Aiden just stop bugging me ok? And stop calling me babe. I told you a week ago that we're over.

A week!? I go into 'create new message' and I type, so what do you have planned for us when we get home? I hand it to Ashley and she reads it and I watch her erase what I typed and she hands it back to me. I read it, you'll have to wait and see

And with that, I close her phone and I hand it back to her, "We need a new picture." She smiles at me and she tells me that she agrees

She takes her phone and puts it in her pocket. The bus got really quite and I see a lot of the girls laid their heads on the windows and attempt to go to sleep. We have a half hour to go before we're actually home.

I hear Ashley sigh and she leans her head back against the seat. I look over at her and I smile shyly and look away. Then I feel her hand on my thigh and I leave it there. Now that I know that they're officially broken up, she can do that. Im really happy right now.

She leans her head on my shoulder and im guessing she's going to try and sleep. About 10 minutes pass and she's out. I feel her phone vibrate and she doesn't wake up. I grab her phone and I open the phone and read the text. It's from Aiden, babe please. We love each other. You and I both know that. Just please im sorry. I was drunk and I didn't expect you to come by the house. Wow what a dick. I should kick his ass for hurting Ashley.

I so badly want to text him back but I don't. I put her phone in my pocket and I stare out of the window once again.

We all get off the bus and I call my mom on Ashley's phone. I tell her that im going over to Ashley's house and that ill just stay over at dad's so she won't have to come and get me. She also tells me that she has excellent news for me when I get home tomorrow after school.

We get into the backseat of her mom's car and we head to her house. She hasn't let go of my hand since I hung up with my mom. And that's been like 15 minutes now. I wonder if anyone seen us holding hands.

We walk up to her room and she jumps into the shower. I lay on her bed for about 15 minutes and that's when I glanced at the computer and saw her myspace open. She left it on 'view comments'. I walk over to her computer and the latest one was from him. I read it, I already told you how sorry I was so stop being such a bitch towards me at school and everything, damnn.

I glare at the computer screen, "So I guess you found out that we broke up?" I jump up from the chair and I turn around to see Ashley in short shorts and a tank top.

"um I… it was.. Um" I stop talking when she starts to laugh a little

"That's what I was going to tell you today." She walks closer to me and she grabs my hands, "So you can stop giving me that look that tells me to 'back off, you're still with Aiden.'" She smiles at me and I want to kiss her so bad. But I don't for some reason. I back up instead and I stare at her.

I have no clue what im doing and I don't say anything to her. She just stares at me and then I say something. I should have thought about it before I said it, "Why didn't you tell me a week ago?" I ask her

She crinkles her forehead, "How did you know it was that long?" She asks and she kind of sounds pissed off

Why couldn't I just kiss her then? Why did I open my big mouth? "You got a text while you fell asleep on the bus. I read it without thinking and I wanted to know what he was talking about." I tell her. I did all that, just in a different order.

"You went through my text messages?" she stares kind of coldly at me

I don't want to fight with her. "Look, im sorry--"

She cuts me off, "I've heard that phrase way too much these past days." she crosses her arms over her chest

I don't look at her. I can't. I feel so bad right now. I walk past her and I grab my jacket and I get to her bedroom door. I put my hand on the knob and I look at her, "I don't want to fight Ashley. I told you that I was sorry and you just can't accept it." I open the door and I walk out. It wasn't my best comeback, but I didn't want to say anything that could possibly hurt her. I walk out of her house and I hear my name being called. I turn around and look up at Ashley's window, "I can. It's just that you don't ever mean it." She stares at me

I look at her coldly. I shake my head, "I always mean it." I tell her

"That's a lie Spencer and you know it. If you were really sorry, then you wouldn't hurt yourself. And you would have gotten into the car with Aiden before that guy grabbed you." She tells me like she knows me better than I know myself

"You don't know everything about me--"

She raises her voice and it cracks a little, "Im the only one you ever let in! And you're too wrapped up in your little kid world that you can't see that someone actually cares about you!" I can tell by her voice that she's about to cry. Why would she be about to cry? I didn't say or do anything to hurt her.

She doesn't say anything else but close the window. I close my eyes and I turn around and walk down the steps once more. I get the curb and I sit down. I shiver as the wind blows. I wonder what my mom has to tell me.

Ok there is your update! Hopefully everyone liked it. If not, oh well. Deal with it.