I'm alive! Haha. I know it has only been one day since I last updated, but considering how fast I usually update, I thought you all might be worried. Haha.

I am so proud of myself though. I wrote a whole chapter in my book yesterday! YAY!

So here is the next chapter of Paralyzed.

P.S. – This is going to be a long chapter. I have so much in my head that I NEED to get out. So enjoy it!

Foreswear: I do not own Twilight, New Moon, or Eclipse.

JAR:

"Bella, this is absurd," Edward said.

I didn't answer him. I just kept looking at the fork. My arm had to move sometime…

Edward's Point of View

I sit in my chair next to Bella, looking at her face scrunched up in concentration. She has been staring at that stupid fork for three hours now. I would have told her to stop acting so absurd about three hours ago, but I don't want to hurt her feelings. I hate seeing her like this though.

Just then, Emmett walked in. Has she realized she can't do it yet? He thought.

I shook my head. I think she knew she couldn't do it, but she didn't want to disappoint anyone. I can't see how she thinks it will disappoint us though. This isn't her fault.

This is my fault. This whole ordeal is my fault. If I had just grabbed onto her…

I was interrupted by Emmett's thoughts. Do you want me to talk to her?

I was about to shake my head no when Alice's thoughts came into my head from upstairs. Let him talk to her Edward. It will help.

I had to trust Alice. So I stood from my chair and left the room.

Emmett's Point of View

Edward stood and left the room, leaving me alone with Bella. I sat down in the chair next to her and started talking.

"Bella, could you please stop doing this." I didn't really know what to say, so I started with that.

She didn't look up or speak to me. She just continued to look at her fork, willing it to move.

"Bella, you aren't going to move the fork. You have to realize that."

A single tear slid down her cheek. Good. We were making progress here.

"I know this has to be hard on you Bella, but you need to snap out of it. You are hurting Edward." I knew that one would get to her.

Sure enough, she let out a little whimper.

I kept going. "He is worried about you. You know that you have him blaming himself for all of this? He hasn't told me this, but it is very obvious Bella."

All of a sudden, Bella shouted, "Shut up Emmett! Just shut the heck up! You don't think I know that? You don't think I see it in his eyes too?"

"Bella, calm down." I had never seen her like this before.

"Don't tell me to calm down! I know Edward is blaming himself. He ALWAYS blames himself. He needs to get over himself and stop it!"

My jaw dropped. She had just told Edward to get over himself! This was worse then when she told Edward to drop the fork.

Edward walked in. "Bella, calm down," he said calmly. How he could keep his cool in a situation like this I will never know.

Bella's head swung around. "No Edward! This is NOT your fault! This is my fault. I am the one who insisted on driving. I am the one who looked away from the road. I am the one who hit the freaking deer. So get over yourself! It isn't your fault!" she screamed.

"Bella…"Edward started, but Bella cut him off.

"Take me to our room. I want to go to our room," she yelled.

"Shouldn't we talk about this?" Edward asked. I just shook my head. Don't provoke her Edward. Take her to the freaking room!

"TAKE ME TO OUR ROOM!" Bella screamed.

Edward rushed over to her and picked her up. She hung loosely in his arms, and if I could cry, I would be right now. To see her so helpless… It is gut wrenching.

I watched in awe as Edward rushed up the stairs.

Bella's Point of View

Edward had taken me to our room, and I was now lying on the bed. He was lying next to me, stroking my hair.

I felt awful for yelling at him and Emmett like I did, but something inside of me had just snapped.

I wanted Edward to change me. I had asked him repeatedly to change me the first week back from the hospital, but he kept refusing. So I had given up. But now, I can't just give up. Edward has to change me. He has to.

I knew there was a risk that I would still be paralyzed after the transformation, but that was a risk I just had to take. I had to. For my own sanity, I had to.

With that in mind, I whispered to Edward, "Why won't you change me?"

He turned me to face him and looked me in the eyes. "Bella, we can't take the risk. You could be permanently paralyzed."

"Edward, I am permanently paralyzed now. What do I have to lose?"

"You have everything to lose. There is still a chance you could go back to normal right now. But if you were a vampire, I don't know if you would still have that chance."

"There is no chance that I will go back to normal now Edward. You need to get that out of your head." He always used that one against me. I was getting tired of it.

"Yes there is."

"Who's in denial now?" I asked.

He just shook his head. "Bella, I will not change you. I will not be held responsible for making you paralyzed for the rest of eternity. I am already responsible for making you paralyzed now."

I was going to hurt him. I swear I was. If he blamed himself one more time… "Edward!" I yelled. "Stop blaming yourself. You are really making me angry!"

"But I am the one to blame."

I glared at him. "You will stop blaming yourself now or I will go and get Carlisle to change me," I said in the nastiest tone I could.

Edward's eyes opened in shock. "Since when do you talk to me like that?" he asked.

"Stop blaming yourself and I won't have to talk to you like this," I said.

"Fine," he said, but I could tell he still blamed himself. I decided to drop it for now.

"Now back to the subject of my changing. Why can't you just do what I ask? It is all I want."

"Bella, we can't risk it," he stated simply.

"What do you mean 'we?' This isn't your risk Edward. This is my risk. I am the one that will be changed. Me. Not you. Me."

"Bella…"

"No Edward. I can't understand why you can't just change me. You were going to change me before all of this happened. Why can't you keep that promise?"

"Things were different then Bella." He was getting frustrated. I could tell. But I wasn't going to stop now. I was too close.

"So what?" I yelled. "That shouldn't matter Edward! What should matter is you keeping the promise that you made to me! I married you!" I screamed. "I married you Edward! You owe me! You owe me big time." I took a breath and continued before he could say anything. "Jeez Edward! You do not start a marriage with lies!" He shook his head, but I pressed on. "Don't you shake your head at me! You lied to me Edward." Tears were streaming down my face now. I wanted so badly to wipe them away. They were a sign of weakness.

"It isn't just some stupid white lie either. This is serious Edward. How can I ever trust you when you can't keep this one promise?"

"This is a hard promise to keep Bella," Edward whispered. It looked like he was 'crying' too. Well good. He deserved it.

"And you think getting married was an easy promise to keep? You have got to be kidding me," I laughed. "You seriously just said that? Edward, getting married was the hardest promise to keep in my life, but I kept it. I KEPT IT!"

"I know you did Bella."

"So why can't you keep your promise? Why can't you do this for me Edward? This is MY risk to take! It is not yours. So you just need to stop it and do what you said you would!" I was getting pretty good at this. I could even look him in the eyes while yelling now.

Edward lay there now, a look of concentration on his face. "I will not let you risk that."

He was trying so hard not to give in. I would make him though. It was time to take drastic measures. "Fine Edward. Just…fine."

He stared at me skeptically. "Just like that?"

"No. Don't be stupid," I sneered. "I am going to put up a fight Edward. If you won't do what I want, then I won't do what you want."

"What do you mean Bella?" Edward asked worriedly.

I didn't say anything. "Bella, answer me."

Still, I didn't say anything. Oh Edward was going to get a rude awakening.

So I hope you liked it. It took me the longest to write out of any of the other chapters.

I know I made Emmett serious, but this is a serious situation. Besides, fanfiction has ruined him. He is not stupid. He is just more funny. So I refuse to make him stupid. I refuse!

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