Hello everyone! The semester is finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So as you can tell, I am way excited! School is now halfway over! YAY!

Oh, and I don't have Computer Technology anymore! YES!

And I am finished with Drivers Ed. I have my license!

NO HOMEWORK! LONG WEEKEND! YAY!

So yeah. I might update more for a little while unless I decide to celebrate making it through my first semester of high school (10th grade) with friends.

Enjoy!

Foreswear: I do not own Twilight, New Moon, or Eclipse.

JAR:

I laughed. "I dazzled you?"

He nodded enthusiastically.

"I love you Edward Cullen," I said.

"And I love you Bella Cullen." I smiled as he placed his lips gently against mine.

Bella's Point of View

It has been about two years since I was changed, and I still don't have any feeling below my neck.

At first, I was happy about everything. I could be with Edward forever. I would get better soon. But after a while, it began to frustrate me.

I was happy to be with Edward forever, but I didn't want him taking care of me for all eternity. It wasn't fare to him.

After about a month, I began to doubt Alice. Before all of this, you would have never caught me doubting her, but it was so easy to do just that now.

You would think that after two years, everything would be fine again. You would hope for at least that much. But everything is not fine. I can't walk or even move, and Edward is stuck taking care of me forever. What kind of a life is that?

"Bella," Edward whispered in my ear. We were in our room in Alaska. After Edward changed me, we had to leave immediately to keep the peace with the werewolves.

I had my eyes closed and was pretending to phase out, but I was completely alert. I had been for some time now, but I had wanted to think.

"Bella honey, it is time to go," Edward whispered.

I opened my eyes and looked at him with sad eyes. "Okay." Today was a big day. We were going to get me a wheelchair so Edward wouldn't have to carry me everywhere anymore.

"What's wrong, Bella?" he asked worriedly.

I tried to smile. "Nothing's wrong."

"Changing you hasn't made you a better liar. You do know that, right?"

"Nothing is wrong Edward. Really," I said in a low monotone.

"Oh how I wish I could read what is going on in that mind of yours!" he said, frustrated.

"There is nothing good to read. It is all depressing," I stated.

Ever since a year ago, I had become depressed again. Edward had tried to snap me out of it at first, but he decided to just continue to love me and not to push me under Carlisle's suggestion. So I stayed depressed.

Edward frowned. "Bella, you should be happy. We are getting you a wheelchair today. That should excite you."

"Oh sure. It just goes to show you that Alice really was wrong."

"How do you figure that?"

"If Alice was right, you wouldn't waste your money on a wheelchair for me because I wouldn't need it."

He frowned. "Bella, getting you a wheelchair doesn't make Alice wrong. You will still be healed. I just want you to have an easier way of getting around until you are healed. After all, it has been two years. It is time we do this for you."

"I won't be fixed," I said matter-of-factly.

Edward sighed. "Bella, what is it going to take to convince you that you will be healed?"

"It isn't going to happen Edward. Nothing could convince me."

He shook me lightly. But of course, I couldn't feel him. "Bella, you WILL be healed. You have to believe that. Alice saw it."

"Alice isn't always right."

"But she still sees this, Bella. It WILL happen. You were so sure of that when I changed you. Why can't you believe me now?"

"Because it has been two years," I said, growing angry.

"That doesn't matter Bella. You will be healed!"

I finally snapped. After two years of holding it all in, I couldn't take it anymore. "No. Stop saying that Edward!" I yelled. "I don't want to get my hopes up anymore. I had them up before you changed me, and look what has happened. Nothing! Nothing has happened Edward. I am still paralyzed!"

"I know this is frustrating Bella, but you have to be patient. Alice saw it. It will happen."

"Alice isn't here! She and everyone else are at their house being happy while you and I are here at our house not even living!" I screamed.

Edward was dry sobbing along with me. "But we are living Bella."

"Edward, I can't move! I can't walk! I can't shower by myself! I can't feed myself!" I continued to sob tearlessly. "I can't kiss you when I want to! I can't snuggle up against you! I can't show you how much I love you!" I broke off and gasped, "And I can't feel you!"

Edward was shaking now. "I am so sorry Bella. I am so sorry."

"I want to feel you Edward. I want to feel your soft caresses on my arm. I want to feel you when you hold me. I want to feel you," I whispered.

"I know you do," he whispered, stroking my hair. "I know."

"No you don't know Edward," I yelled. "And we AREN'T living! Your whole life is based around helping me. That isn't fare Edward! You should be able to do what you want. You shouldn't be stuck here doing EVERYTHING for me!"

"But I want to help you Bella. I love you."

"No you don't Edward," I screamed. "You think you do, but you don't. You know just as much as me that I won't be fixed, and it is killing you inside. Just admit it Edward! Admit that you are sick of taking care of me. Admit that you are sick of doing everything for me. Admit it Edward!" I yelled.

"Bella!" he gasped.

"Admit that you don't love me anymore! You are only with me still because you feel bad for me. You don't love me Edward. Admit it!"

"Bella! That is not true."

I closed my eyes and tried to calm down. Things were getting out of hand. I never meant to yell at him like this.

"It is true Edward," I whispered. "You are sick of me. Don't stick around if you don't want to. You can…leave…if you want. I will figure something out."

"Bella," Edward whispered in my ear. "I am not sick of you. I want to stay with you forever. I love you! I love you more than you will ever know."

I continued to sob quietly.

"Did you hear me Bella?" he asked. "I love you. I love you more than anything in the world. I will never leave you Bella. I could never leave you."

He cradled me in his arms and let me cry tearlessly.

Wow. I am sorry that was so…depressing. I wasn't expecting that. Not at all. It just happened. It had to happen though.

Sadly, this story is coming to a close. I am thinking maybe four chapters to go. Just thought I would warn you.

Yes, it will be happy again. Last chapter was so happy though, and I felt that something like this had to happen. Sorry again for the sadness. It WILL get happy again.

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