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"Did you hear me Bella?" he asked. "I love you. I love you more than anything in the world. I will never leave you Bella. I could never leave you."
He cradled me in his arms and let me cry tearlessly.
Edward's Point of View
"It is true Edward," Bella whispered. "You are sick of me. Don't stick around if you don't want to. You can…leave…if you want. I will figure something out."
My heart shattered into a million tiny pieces. She really thought that I was sick of her? Had I done something wrong? Had I done something to portray that to my angel?
"Bella," I whispered in her ear. "I am not sick of you. I want to stay with you forever. I love you! I love you more than you will ever know."
She continued to cry tearlessly. How could she not believe me?
"Did you hear me Bella?" I asked. "I love you. I love you more than anything in the world. I will never leave you Bella. I could never leave you."
I cradled her in my arms and let her cry.
After a while, Bella went into a relaxed state. Anyone who didn't know better would have thought she was asleep.
I didn't want to disturb her. She looked so peaceful. That was something I didn't see very much anymore.
I missed having my Bella. Yes, I still had her, but she wasn't the same. She was a person without a soul.
Ha. A person without a soul. How ironic.
It wasn't fair that she had to suffer through this. She is my angel. Angels don't deserve something as horrible as this.
Her beautiful eyes opened, and she stared into mine. I still don't understand why her eyes stayed much the same, but I'm not complaining.
I smiled at her beautiful face. I wish she would smile again.
"Hey beautiful," I whispered.
"Hi," she whispered back.
Still no smile. I sighed. "I love you Bella."
Her face stayed glued in the same dull expression as she replied. "I love you too Edward."
I frowned. "Please smile Bella. I miss your smile."
She smiled, but I knew it was forced. It didn't reach her eyes.
I tried to smile back. I wish she could be happy again!
"Are you ready to go pick out your wheelchair?" I asked. I was hesitant to ask this, but it had to be done.
"Will me getting a wheelchair stop you from carrying me?" she asked. A line of worry appeared on her forehead.
I chuckled. "No silly. I will carry you as much as you want."
"The wheelchair is for emergencies then?" she asked.
I smiled. "Yes."
The worry left her face immediately, but she still didn't smile.
"Then we can go. You have to get me ready though. I look horrible."
She always said that, but I never believed it. I kissed her cheek lightly. "You look lovely."
"You are my husband. You have to say that."
I laughed. "Yes, I am your husband. So what? Even if I wasn't, I would still think you were beautiful."
A smile spread across her face. A real smile too! My heart soared.
"But if you insist…" I picked her up in my arms and carried her into the bathroom. I placed her in her special chair and strapped her in so she wouldn't fall over. I hated doing this to her, but it was necessary.
"How do you want your hair fixed?" I asked.
"I don't care," she whispered as she closed her eyes. "Just brush it. Just brush it for me."
I knew how much she loved to have her hair brushed. She could at least feel that much.
I smiled and took out the brush. I placed it to her head and ran it through.
She smiled and sighed in content. I continued to brush her hair as I leaned into her neck. I breathed in her heavenly scent. She may not have blood anymore, but she still smells absolutely amazing.
I kissed her neck slowly and moved up to her cheek. I circled the same route a number of times before Bella giggled.
"You aren't brushing my hair anymore," she whispered, amused.
I ran my fingers along her cheek before I looked up and began brushing her hair again.
I looked into the mirror at her face. Her eyes were still closed, but she was smiling. I was amazed. So much had come of today. First, she screams at me. Then, she smiles. No matter how much time I spend with my Bella, she still confuses me.
I smiled as I continued brushing through her hair. I couldn't take my eyes away from her. She was too beautiful.
Bella opened her eyes and looked at me through the mirror. She seemed to realize the impact of the moment as she looked at me.
I stopped brushing her hair and looked deep into her eyes. Time seemed to stop right there. Everything around me disappeared, and Bella was the only thing in my world.
Bella was my world.
I put the brush down and slowly, I unstrapped her and picked her up into my arms. I leaned into her and kissed her lightly on the lips.
My soft kiss soon turned into a kiss of pure passion. My lips moved against hers in perfect motion, never breaking.
After a while, I pulled lightly away from her and caressed her cheek with one of my hands, keeping the other arm around her tightly.
"What was that for?" she breathed.
I smiled and kissed her lightly again. "I could say that I love you, but I wouldn't mean it." Her face fell slightly, but I continued. "I could say that I need you, but I wouldn't mean it." Her face fell even more. "I could say that you are my life, but I wouldn't mean it. I could say that you are my soul mate, but I wouldn't mean that either."
She looked away from me, and I watched as her lip quivered. I pulled her face up, but she had her eyes closed.
"I don't love you Bella. There aren't words to describe how I feel about you." She opened her eyes. "I don't need you Bella. I have to have you." She smiled slightly. "You aren't my life Bella. You are my existence. And you aren't my soul mate. You are so much more than that."
She smiled hugely. "Are you just trying to make me feel better about getting a wheelchair?"
I smiled back. "No. But is it making you feel better?"
She smiled and looked at my lips, concentrating hard.
Realizing what she wanted, I leaned into her and kissed her lightly. I pulled away and chuckled. "Let's go get that wheelchair of yours then!"
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