Heavenly Habits
Ryan untangles his arms from around my waist and moves his head from my chest to my lap, pulling the covers over him once more. I can feel him shaking a little, but not so much as before.
"Are you any better?" I ask, taking the opportunity to run my hands through his damp hair. Oh I wish I could just hold him like this forever.
"Kinda," he says. "This is helping."
"Good," I whisper back. "You know, Ryan, you didn't have to do that."
"Of course, I did. We have to watch Funny Face," he says. "I promised."
My heart melts. Ryan would do anything for me. Gosh, he's so selfless, and wonderful, and caring, and…I'll quit before I get carried away.
He sits up and I sigh a little, already missing the weight of him on me.
He grins at me. "Thanks for warming me up."
Anytime! I think dreamily.
"Your welcome," I say instead, staring down at hands.
"Shall we go back upstairs?" he asks.
I nod and he hops out of his bed, shivering as he leaves the covers. He wraps the blue blanket I had brought to him around his shoulders, makes a few adorable chattering noises, and turns to walk out of the room.
I get up too and walk behind him out of his bedroom, admiring how well those black pants fit him.
As we walk down the hall, I catch up to him and walk beside him, staring down at the floor, watching my bare feet walk next to his black-sock-covered-ones. He reaches over and wraps an arm around my waist. Mmmm, contact again.
We reach the grand staircase and I wonder if he'll break away from me and race me as he always does. But he doesn't break away from me. And we don't race up the stairs this time. We walk slowly together, blanket around both of us, his arm still tight around my waist, his hand fluttering against my stomach making me queasy in a good way. I wonder if this is a sign for change. The fact that he wants to be this close to me. Or maybe he really is just trying to stay warm.
We walk into the theater and he steers us towards the couch, collapsing on it, bringing me down with him.
The last scenes of the Sound Of Music play out on the screen as he wraps the blanket around both of us.
Being this close to him and not being able to kiss him is driving me crazy! I mean just sitting here, him mashed up against me, all snuggly and cute and I can't even kiss him! I want to cry and scream in frustration.
Ryan makes a few satisfied moans as he snuggles closer to me, resting his head on my shoulder.
"I love you," he whispers softly and I can feel his cool breath on my neck.
"I love you too," I whisper sounding melancholy I'm sure.
Ryan jerks his head up off my shoulder as the credits start to trickle down the screen before us.
He takes my hands under the blanket and I look into his eyes. They're staring into mine intensely and my own eyes widen in fear. What's going on?
"No, Gabby," he says sadly. "I don't think you understand."
He pauses and looks down at his lap shyly.
"God, I really don't want to do this," he murmurs as if he's angry with himself.
"Do what?" I ask eagerly, urging him on.
"Say what I'm going to say."
I hold my breath in anxiously. Is what I'm thinking is happening actually happening? I mean I've been dreaming of this since the fourth grade when I realized Ryan was whom I wanted to marry. This must be a dream.
"Gabriella," he begins and I know this is serious. He almost never calls me Gabriella. Its always Gabby, Gabs, not Gabriella. "I…I've had feelings," he gulps nervously, tightening his hold on my hands. "Feelings for you as more than a friend for some time now."
My eyes feel as if they're about to pop out and I open my mouth to speak.
"No, don't say anything," he pleads. "I just have to get this out."
I nod, lips pressed tightly together. I want to scream RYAN I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME WAY at the top of my lungs, but I respect his wishes and let him speak.
"Gabriella, you intoxicate me," he says his voice shaking a little. "You always have. Your hair," He releases my hand and reaches over to smooth down my hair. "Your eyes," he stares into them longingly. "Your lips," he runs his hand across them lightly. "Your skin," he brushes his hand across my cheekbone.
"But it's not just your beauty that I love. It's your intelligence. You're brilliant, clever…you're abilities never cease to amaze me."
"And you're heart," he chokes a little and runs his hand down my arm, squeezing my right hand tighter than ever. "So warm and welcoming. You're my everything, Gabriella."
I can hardly think straight. He saying all of this to me? It's too good to be true. It has to be.
"If you don't feel the same way," he whispers. "I understand. I just had to say this before I exploded. But it's out of my system now and I hope we can still be friends at least, because if I lost you Gabby, I don't know what I would do."
"Can I speak now?" I manage to sputter out, a few tears falling down my cheeks.
"Yes," he says sadly. "I can take it."
He looks up at me and sees the tears. "You're crying," he says softly. "Is that good or bad?"
"Good," I say. "Ryan, I love you too! As more than a friend. I have for a long time. I love your eyes. I love your skin. I love your voice, your mannerisms, your walk, your style. I love when you sing, and dance, and act. You have so much talent. God, you're amazing. You're unbelievable. How could anyone deny you?"
"No," he says smiling so brightly, his teeth and eyes seem to shine. "You don't. Don't say that."
"But I do! I do Ryan. With all my heart."
He jumps off the couch in a fit of excitement and whoops ecstatically.
"Me," he says, pointing to himself. "You love me!"
"YES!" I scream and hop up running over to him.
His smiles fades as I draw near and his eyes gaze into mine with such love and devotion, I want to cry.
You know that moment, where you're both so close, and you're just staring into one another's eyes, inching closer and closer. I cannot comprehend that this is happening to Ryan and me right now.
His eyes shift from my eyes to my lips and mine trail to his own luscious pair. He gently places his hands on my hips and pulls me closer. I wrap my arms delicately around his neck and I watch his eyes close as mine do.
His lips brush against mine lightly and those clichéd fireworks go off in my head. God, its amazing! Its fantastic! It's heavenly! No words can describe how powerful this mere kiss is.
He pecks my lips again, this time a hard kiss, not soft like the first. I feel his grin against my lips and I smile too. Mmm, I want more.
I entangle my hands in his short blonde hair and peck his lips again. He parts his lips against mine, and I do as well, turning our kiss into something much more satisfying. I kiss him again and again and again…he tastes better than I ever imagined.
He moans a little and his tongue licks my lips and clicks against my teeth eagerly. I open my mouth wider, allowing him entrance and his tongue tangos with mine passionately. His hands travel up my back and press me closer, as he walks us over to the couch. We fall down on it and he lowers himself on me carefully, kissing me intensely all the while.
He places a hand on either side of me, careful not to push all his weight upon me. His lips move from my mouth to my cheek. His kisses trail down my jawline to my neck.
"Oh god, Ryan," I whisper.
"I'm sorry," Ryan says huskily, chuckling a little as he pulls away from my neck. "I'm having a hard time controlling myself."
"No, it feels good," I say breathlessly. "I just, I'm not ready to…you know," I say embarrassed.
"Oh no!" Ryan says still hovering over me still, his arms muscles tightening against the constricting black sleeves. "Me neither. Honestly."
"Good," I say happily. I raise my head up a little and kiss his pale neck tenderly, then drop back down.
He rolls off of me and I sit up, grabbing his hand and pulling him over to sit next to me. I smile crazily and wrap my arms around his neck and he pulls me onto his lap, stroking my hair lovingly.
"I'm not cold anymore," he says with a sexy smile.
Oooo, don't you wish you were her. Damn that Ryan. Lol
It's not over! I promise! Lol
They still have to watch Funny Face after all. Plus, I'll write about everyone's reactions so, there will be most likely two more chapters.
Happy Holidays to you all! Hope everything is merry and bright.