My dad never found out about what Edward and I really got up to which was surprising since I was sure lying to him would be hard but I was kind of good at lying which was weird because I had never been able to do it when I was younger.
It was a sunny Saturday afternoon and Edward and his family had gone hunting, I was in the garden pushed up against a tree reading my battered copy of Wuthering Heights, again. Edward couldn't stand it but I loved and understood all the characters in a way I never had with any other book. On the top of my page was Edward's note "My beautiful Bella, I won't be gone long because I miss you too much already. Keep safe, yours forever Edward." I sighed taking in the rays of the sunshine, I was seriously lacking in vitamin D lately. I was enjoying the peace, Charlie was away fishing, Edward was away 'camping', and Jacob... Jake however, I missed. His warm smile, his bad jokes; I didn't understand why the hatred between him and Edward had gotten to this level, they didn't even talk for God's sake!
Putting my book down I suddenly needed the bathroom and realised I was late; I was thankful but still curious, I mean can't? No, but what if? This fight in my head was going to last forever, Edward didn't work so to speak but even so I started to worry. It had been a month since the first time in the meadow already... In my panic I rushed and grabbed my keys and purse then drove to Port Angeles; I pulled my hoodie up as I walked into the pharmacy area and grabbed a pregnancy test. I read through it just in case it was more complicated than the adverts say because right now I couldn't think properly. I almost sprinted over to the cashier and smiled sweetly at the lady on the till, she smiled back but it semed forced as she took in everything about me. I paid and rushed out, hopefully this plan was too quick for Alice to have a vision- Alice! If I was pregnant she definitely would have seen. What if she told Edward?
I ran inside and took the stairs two at a time; I locked the bathroom door and followed the instructions (blushing all the way.) I went downstairs and put the test on the counter while I tried, with shaking hands, to make a sandwich even though I wasn't hungry, I gave up after a few minutes and cleared away. I sat down trying to keep my breathing under control: what if? I looked up from the table, 3 minutes should be up right? I closed my eyes picked up the test and opened them quickly.
Fuck. Two clear blue lines showed; I dropped the white stick and it clattered on the floor loudly. Tears welled up as I picked up the evidence and ran to my room, then broke down. I cried for hours; no emotion I recognised was in me, I was just crying, I didn't know if I was happy or sad, angry or OK. I heard Charlie come in, I rushed into the bathroom and tried my best to clean up, I hid the test and came down stairs.
"Hey Bells, how have you been all alone?" Charlie hugged me tightly.
"Fine dad, catch anything?" I was kind of curious but really I just wanted to start cooking, anything to distract me. A wide grin spread across his face and he produced a large silver fish, a salmon
"Yum!" I tried to sound enthusiastic as I took the fish while Charlie got a beer out the fridge and sat down.
"What did you get up to today?"I froze guiltily, could I lie about this?
"Um, you know... Nothing much, chores, reading, I went down to Port Angles,"well it was almost the truth.
"Really? What did you do there?"
"Not a lot, walked by the sea, stretched my legs..." I shivered at what I really did. Dad switched on a game while I prepared and cooked the salmon, a thankfully very consuming job. My phone vibrated in my pocket and I flipped it open without looking at the caller ID.
"Hello, Bella?" Edward's anxious voice made me smile but also made me slightly nervous.
"Who else would be answering?" I heard him sigh, bad sign.
"It's just Alice lost you and I was wondering if you've been to that… dog," he growled the last word.
"No I have not seen Jake, you know I don't see him anymore!" I tried not to sound bitter about that.
"Well what have you done, Alice hasn't seen you all day." Why hadn't Alice seen anything? I was happy but worried.
"Nothing just stuff; I've been alone all day if you must know," I didn't like lying to him.
"OK I'll see you soon, I love you," Edward purred down the phone.
"I love you more," I replied then snapped my phone shut forcefully. I finished cooking and served up; we ate in comfortable silence then I washed up, a routine we were both happy enough with... I think. Retreating to my room I picked up the test and stared the two lines just as clear as ever, was this really happening? Was the impossible coming true? What will I tell everyone? What will everyone say? Tears flowed again and I fell into a dreamless sleep.
Monday morning came, still no Edward; I felt terrible and rushed quickly into the bathroom throwing up everything I had eaten in the last 12 hours.
"Great, no Edward, morning sickness and school. I love my life," groaning I pulled on my favourite outfit the blue top I wore that fateful night with Edward and some jeans with a soft pull-over. It had snowed overnight and Charlie, the best dad ever had put my snow-tracks on, I decided against breakfast and just had a glass of orange juice. Glancing up at the clock I trudged to my truck, driving to school was awful. All the way I thought about turning home and faking (well not really faking is it?) ill. Finally arriving I saw the silver Volvo and almost cried.
Edward was talking to Alice, a worried frown on his face; he was so beautiful, even when he was frowning, and after so long without him I just wanted to be in those strong arms again, I just wanted to feel safe. No, you need to figure how to tell him, my head told me firmly, so I got out and practically ran to the door but Edward was faster, obviously.
"Bella, I've missed you so much," he smiled happily; I felt so guilty but I tried to push him away, I needed more time. "Bella?" He said, "what's wrong?" I could of screamed.
"Well I don't know lets see I'm pregnant with a vampire's baby, such vampire did not even come to see me when he got home and expects me to say I missed you too and be kissy-wissy?" Of course I did not say that, I just huffed and pushed past leaving a gorgeous dazed look on his face.
The day went past in a blur and before I knew it, it was lunch... Crap. I sat with Jessica nodding and smiling while I watched Edward, he looked upset and was watching me back but neither of us made an attempt to say anything.
"Earth to Bella!" Jessica's voice finally got through.
"Yes?" I said But she huffed and turned to Lauren. Angela slid carefully moved closer to me.
"Has something happened?" Her calm voice was kind and soothing.
"I guess you could say that," I replied bleakly. Nodding she asked if I wanted to talk, "no, no, it's nothing Ange we just had a small fight. This is his punishment," I smiled.
"It looks like your punishment too though," I could hear concern in her voice but I just smiled and nodded, I couldn't disagree. I got up and thanked her before turning away, I walked outside a took a deep breath and suddenly Edward appeared.
"Look Bella I'm sorry I didn't come round but…" He trailed off and I realised I was crying, "Bella please don't cry. I was busy with Carlisle and I rung but no one answered, I was going to come but Alice had a vision and you were fine." Since when does Edward rely on Alice's visions about my safety? I turned my head away, "come on lets go." I frowned.
"Where to?" Edward smiled his crooked smile.
"My house," I realised what he wanted; could I do it knowing about our baby? Yes, until I got some morals I could, so smiling I let him drive me to his house.
When we arrived he picked me up and flitted to his bedroom, somewhere in the process we lost our clothes. He kissed every part of my body hungrily while his hands explored; a huge smile was plastered on my face as he stroked my stomach, unknowingly stroking his baby. I lay back saying his name over and over again, each time a little louder, shouting when he pushed in, moving at a scarily fast pace until we both climaxed simultaneously. Panting I curled into Edward's arms while he hummed my lullaby, falling asleep, then in what seemed like minutes I was awoken by Emmett shouting.
"Edward! You prick! Where's Bella?"
"I'm here!" I shouted back. Emmett appeared a few seconds later taking in the rumpled state of the room and of me he figured out why we had disappeared and burst out laughing.
"You snuck out of school to have a shag?" This set Emmet off, he roared with laughter; I blushed deeply covering myself up with the quilt. Edward shoved Emmett out forcefully then turned to me.
"Sorry I should have thought about that," he looked embarrassed but I just smiled and climbed over to kiss him; my stomach then decided to growl loudly and I started to panic about the baby. I had completely forgotten, (is that normal?) I got dressed and was whisked away to eat something, I had a craving for brioche...
November flew by and Edward never left my side which was always good but on the other hand I was 2 months pregnant and needed to visit the doctors without him knowing. Maybe Carlisle would help me? No, Edward will read his thoughts. I sat with Edward at the piano while I thought; he was composing a new Christmas piece just for me, how romantic can you be?
"Do you like it?" He said in a soft voice, he seemed more careful with me like he knew to be gentle but I'm sure he didn't, did he?
"I love it." Leaning over I kissed him, he pulled me onto his lap as we kissed deeper.
"Ahem," I looked up and Alice was lent against Jasper waiting for us to finish, I blushed scarlet which made Edward smile, he loved my human quirks. "Your mum wants to know if your going there for Christmas," I paused, I did want to be with the Cullens but I also really missed my Mom
"Um, what does dad think?" I know Charlie would love to spend Christmas with me and I felt guilty.
"It's up to you," Alice can be so annoying sometimes.
I thought about it quickly... If I go to Phoenix I can make an appointment without anyone knowing, "I think I'm gonna go", I said feeling triumphant at my brilliance. "I haven't seen Mom in such a long time."
Edward and Charlie were sad but happy I was going. I was going to miss them but hey at least Renee will be happy and I can get the baby sorted out. I finally decided I was extremely happy with keeping it, even if Edward left I'd still had the impossible child, the only child I would ever want.
On the night of my departure Alice cornered me for a talk.
"Bella is it true?" I raised an eyebrow, "are you really… pregnant!" She hissed, how did she know? How long had she known?
"You haven't told Edward have you?" I asked worriedly.
"No silly! Wait... You haven't told him yet?" I shook my head she gasped, "you have to! He'll be ecstatic! Oh my Bella how did this happen? We have to ask Carlisle, I mean-"
"Shush! I'll tell everyone when I get back, are you sure Edward will be happy I mean…" So many bad possibilities ran through my mind in just a few seconds.
"Of course he will! Bella he's waited 100 years to find his soulmate and now you're going to have his baby? Do you really think he would leave?" When Alice put it like that I felt my worries shrink in my chest and hugging her tightly we ran to my flight gate and as I said bye to everyone even Rosalie hugged me (I bet she was just glad I'd be gone!). I boarded the plane feeling a lot less nervous and a lot more excited to see the doctor in Phoenix.