I enjoy the holidays more than I expected and they went way too fast. I ate lots and gave into cravings, my belly swelled, my boobs hurt and I threw up a lot, but being with my family seemed to ease the horror of being sick all the time. Renee and Phil were great; my doctors appointment was almost forgotten but I made up an excuse to see some old friends and disappeared. My doctor had known Carlisle and asked me why I wasn't down there, I told her about Edward and she understood but made me promise to tell him. After I got the all clear she gave me some much needed advice and I found myself asking questions I had before been much too embarrassed to voice (I still blushed a lot though.) I left feeling clearer about things, especially the fact that I needed to talk to Carlisle since this wasn't a 'normal' baby and I still didn't feel like it was safe.
On the day I had to go home Phil drove me to the airport for an early flight and mum had a hang-over so I wrote a note explaining the baby; they wouldn't find it for at least a week and by then I would have told everyone... Hopefully.
I walked out the terminal only to be hugged tightly by Alice seconds later.
"Careful!" I tried to hide the panic and whisper but I'm sure I failed.
"Sorry, I've missed you so much!" She beamed and place a hand on my stomach which I slapped away quickly. Edward walked over and kissed me, a deep kiss that made my insides melt and Emmett to make gagging noises, which we ignored.
"Miss me?" I giggled when we broke apart.
"More than anything," he sighed with that look, I didn't know what it was but it was intense and I loved it.
"I'll stay here and catch up with Bella, Charlie likes me," Alice mocked playfully Edward nodded kissed me, and drove away. Inside Charlie gave me a great bear-hug.
"Dad!" I squealed, afraid he was going to squash the baby.
"Sorry Bells, how was your mother's?"
"Good, had a lot of food!" He smiled at the simple statement, he had always thought I didn't eat enough.
"That's good. I went up to Billy's, it was a party I can tell you!" I hugged him back and and smiled before running upstairs to unpack but Alice had it covered; in a second she was finished waiting on my bed.
"Well, how is it?"
"Arizona? Hot but good, even went to the be-"
"Bella you have to tell him!" She said swiftly cutting in, "we all thought we'd never have children and now Edward has this oppotunity and you're not involving him?"
"Well I will Alice!" I snapped, "I just panicked OK, I wanted some time to think you know?" She nodded apologetically, "but now-" She sat up straight before squealing.
"I'M GOING TO BE AN AUNT!"
"Calm down, you'll have a heart attack!" Alice snapped as we walked up to the white mansion, grabbing my hands in a feeble attempt to stop them from shaking so bad.
"Alice, what if-" I began quietly.
"NO, Bella look at me: this is going to be fine. Carlisle already suspects something happened; in fact Edward's the only one who doesn't expect this!" That made me laugh, Edward never could see anything good happening to him. "OK here we go," Alice said as she pushed me into the living room. I wanted to cry again but I fought back (not very well may I add.)
Everyone looked up as we entered, Edward beamed at me and I turned to Alice who was glowing with excitment.
"Everyone! Bella has something to say," she probably thought she was doing me a favour by putting me on the spot like that.
"I do?" Alice frowned sternly, "I do. Um well, I, kinda," I was mumbling pathetically at the floor until a cool hand tilted my chin up and I found myself staring in to worried liquid gold eyes. "I'm pregnant."
I fell into Alice's hard shoulder and cried, it was awful; no one spoke they just sat there staring at me. I ran to the door, and flung it open, I started down the drive but cold arms wrapped round me.
"Bella, wait what, I don't understand when...?" Edward's smooth voice was scared which scared me.
"In the meadow, the first time," I said wiping away tears. I gazed into his eyes and felt comforted; he was still here, with me and a huge smile spread across his face, picking me up he swung me round laughing.
"You're happy?" I asked stunned.
"Happy? Why wouldn't I be?" Realisation dawned over his ivory features, "of course I'm happy. Did you really think I'd leave?" I nodded then waterworks started again. "Oh Bella, I'd never leave you, ever, especially now," he lifted my head and kissed me, "my beautiful Bella, we're going a have a family!" I laughed and pushed into his chest, he placed a hand on my stomach stroking softly, he picked me up and walked to the house.
Inside everyone cheered when I entered, I teared up again but this time I wasn't fighting it so hard I was just happy they didn't want me dead.
"Careful," I scolded Emmett when he squeezed me tightly; they all hugged me even Rosalie and Jasper kissed me on the cheek. "What about Charlie?" I asked Alice suddenly as nerves fluttered into my chest and the shakes start up again.
"He'll be fine don't worry," she said confidently.
"Lets go," I said as I pulled Edward out to the car. We dove at 110 miles-per-hour to my house and when we got there I noticed Charlie's cruiser was on the drive so I sprinted into the house but Edward growled loudly.
"What?" I spun round nearly falling over.
"Dog," he hissed.
"Jake's here?" I felt worried again, can I do this? Yes, "come on," I urged, "maybe he'll get over his crush if he hears this."
"I don't know Bella-" He was so over-cautious. I rolled my eyes, a strange confidence was pouring off me. We walked in and Edward growled softly.
"Shush!" I snapped "Dad?"
"Bella!" Charlie's voice came from the sofa, I went in and Edward trailed behind me. "Hey Billy, Jacob," I greeted them while they eyed up Edward. "Dad I kinda need to talk with you," I looked at the guests briefly but didn't say anything about their presence.
"What's wrong?" Charlie said worriedly; he looked at Edward like he wanted to kill him, "Dad it's not Edward's fault..." Edward glanced at me and I smiled, "maybe a bit but anyway," I took a shaky breath and went for it, "well, I m pregnant." It was easier the second time. Stunned silence swamped the room.
"You're…" Charlie mumbled, I knelt down in front of him and nodded, this was going better than I expected until jacob piped up.
"No, you're lying! He can't, I mean-"
"Shut up Jake!" I shouted, "just because you hate Edward doesn't give you the right to say anything!" And with that I stormed out. Halfway up the stairs Edward scooped me up and set me down on the bed.
"That was very brave Bella," he whispered stroking my small bump.
"Really?" The tears had started now. Downstairs I heard Billy and Jacob leave after a raised discussion but not enough for me to hear anything.
"That old man has no right to tell Charlie anything like that!" Edward growled.
"What did he say?"
"He told Charlie to send you away and get rid of the baby," he said angrily and I gasped loudly.
"I'd never do that!" I said desperately.
"I know Bella, I know." I heard footsteps on the stairs, then my door opened. Charlie was crying which set me off too.
"Dad please don't be sad!" I begged, "or angry."
I'm not sad Bells, just surprised, that's all! OK maybe a bit angry," I could feel Edward's discomfort grow. "Look you," Charlie started pointing at Edward, "now there's baby on the way you've got to be on best behaviour; if I hear that you're not taking care of her I'll ban you again!" I smiled and hugged my dad tight then asking about dinner. Edward had to go home but promised to be back tomorrow (code for in an hour) and I hadn't realised I was starving; Charlie gave me a lecture on foods that I should eat and all that crap.
After washing up I went to bed feeling more exhausted then I remembered I was.
"Hello," came Edward's voice from my bed.
"Human moment," I said quickly, he smiled and I rushed off to get dressed in my new pjs that were comfortable but tight-fitted and I thought my slight bump looked massive in them but Edward was in love. I curled into his chest and fell asleep to him stroking my stomach and singing a lullaby for the baby.
School started again too fast, I was 4 and ½ months pregnant now and my bump looked slightly noticeable. Everyone asked if I was sure I wanted to go and like an idiot I said yes. Carlisle did a quick examination during the holidays for me, he came to the conclusion that because of my body heat the sperm unfreezes and becomes fertile again; it can only happen with vampire/human pairs and I felt awful for the others.
The first day back I wore a big jumper and some jeans in a much bigger size but thankfully I looked pretty much the same. I had a note from Carlisle saying I was excused of all gym classes until further notice (Did I mention I love him?) Jessica didn't notice a change but Angela did.
"You look, nice, sort of glowing," she smiled.
"Uh, thanks! How was your Christmas?" She looked down.
"OK, my sister lost her baby though it was pretty awful," I gasped sharply.
"That's awful!" She nodded glad finally someone thought so; her sister was a few years older and had dropped college to get married and become an artist, everyone looked down on it.
The weeks past, March was coming up and my bump was very noticeable; I tried my best to cover it but I couldn't especially with the weather becoming warmer, what was I going to do? I lay on the sofa with Edward tracing patterns on my exposed stomach, I closed my eyes and relaxed, the sickness had gone away but my craving was for mushrooms which always made me throw up anyway. My boobs were bigger, I thought that was pretty cool and so did Edward but he'd never admit it.
"Hey Bells how are you?" Emmet lifted my feet up to sit down and placed them on his lap.
"Fine," I giggled as he tickled my foot.
"God you're getting big!" He said placing his paw-like hand on the bump, "will the Bella I know be back soon? I can't see you under there."
"I m hopefully going to get a lot bigger!" I said rolling my eyes.
"Hey lil bro what ya up to?" He asked Edward, losing interest in our conversation. Edward was reading a thick book, it was in some weird language, maybe Chinese.
"It's about a girl called Isabellia she lives in Korea," (I was almost right!) "It's fascinating," he said without looking at Emmett because he knew that Em wouldn't find it interesting at all.
"OK," Emmett sighed before turning back to me, "Bella, when are gonna tell people? I mean when you get bigger everyone's gonna know!" I had thought about this for a while but I shrugged, I didn't know how I was going to tell all my friends I was the girl that got knocked up in high school.
But Emmet was right, for once. At lunch a couple weeks later Edward said lots of people were wondering internally so I braced myself when Jessica, Lauren and Angela asked to borrow me 'for just a sec.'
"So you've heard right?" Jessica said vaguely.
"What? What have I heard?" I tried not to sound defensive but I really was.
"Come on Bell! Is it true? Are you and Edward… expecting?" Jessica said with a perfectly shaped eyebrow raised.
"Of course it's not true!" Lauren laughed loudly and looked at me funnily, "like Edward would do it with her!"
"That's not fair Lauren; Edward loves Bella and it's none of our business if she is or isn't pregnant. You say when you're ready," Angela smiled kindly at me.
"Whatever!" She snapped back making Angela jump, "I knew it wasn't true, anyways, see ya!" Jess and Lauren turned away whispering, I honestly thought at 18 they would have grown up and little and yet I felt tears spill over.
"Don't cry!" Angela cried wrapping her arms around me, "nobody thinks that you are pregnant, well a few but not many!"
"But Angela, I am pregnant!"I hissed placing a hand on my stomach.
"Bella, this is great! Of course Edward knows right?" She gushed, I couldn't believe she was being so nice. " I bet he's excited! Edward I mean, about being a dad and all since he's adopted it must mean a lot- What?" She asked when she saw me staring at her.
"Are you serious? You don't care?" she frowned, confused at my confusion.
"Why would I mind? This is your baby I can't tell you 'bad girl you shouldn't have your baby'!" She laughed and I hugged her, wiping my tears away.
"You're the best, you know that?" Ange blushed and once I was looking presentable again we walked into the cafeteria together.
It may have been nice to have Angela on my side but that didn't stop the rumours, the whispers, the names that people called out and of course once one person said they had proof it was the end of any attempt at keeping it a secret. I still didn't deny or confirm anything, I still didn't wear clothes that would settle the gossip but Edward was losing his patience; he couldn't deal with what people were thinking and one kid ended up getting a taste of that... I'm pretty sure no one bought the whole 'falling-down-the-stairs' thing but the teachers felt it was best to keep out of it, just silly rumours and spiteful gossip. I started to wish that's all it was.