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Chapter 7: Too Far Gone

Jude slammed the door in Tommy's face as she locked herself in their bathroom. They were fighting again. Luckily, Stephanie was at Sadie's house for the weekend. Tommy let out a frustrated sigh and banged on the door. Jude sat on the toilet and crossed her arms. Tears were threatening to fall, but she closed her eyes tightly. She wouldn't let him make her cry anymore. "Jude, c'mon," Tommy pleaded angrily as he banged on the door, "Come out."

"No!" Jude shouted.

Tommy let out another annoyed sigh. "Jude, just come out and talk to me."

Jude opened the door quickly and started to walk towards him. She was mad and he could tell. He back away as she started to step forward. "You wanna talk? Fine, let's talk. You wanna talk about how you got drunk last night…again? Or how about how you left Stephanie alone…again! God, Tommy, I can't leave you alone for ten minutes without you getting into trouble. You're like a damn kid! You said you were going to try and stop drinking!"

"Well, when you have a wife that yells at you every second of the day, and a stressful job, you need something to blow off steam!"

Jude threw her arms up. "So, why not buy a punching bag. You can put my picture on it. That way, you can hit me anytime you want."

Jude was about to walk away, but Tommy grabbed her arm and spun her to face him. He kissed her softly on the lips. Jude was so surprised she didn't even close her eyes. When he pulled away Jude looked at her husband with a questioning look. "I would never, ever hit you, Jude," Tommy whispered as he caressed her cheek.

Jude looked at him and just shook her head. She made Tommy let go of her arm and she made her way to the living room. There were so many times when he was drunk, and he came so close to hitting her. At least, it seemed like that. Maybe it was just all in her head. She didn't know what to think. She couldn't talk to Sadie, because Sadie would probably stick up for him like always. She could always talk to Kwest. 'Kwest,' she thought with a sigh. She didn't know if she could face him after his confession. He loved her? Jude sat on the couch and wrapped the quilt around her. She rested her chin on her knees and thought about Kwest.

Just then, Tommy came walking in. He sat next to Jude and just looked at her. She laid her head on her knees and looked at him. He said his usual apology and she just nodded her head and kissed him. Things were supposed to be different when she came back here. They were always supposed to be different. She was seriously considering a divorce, but there was just one problem: she loved him. Jude couldn't give up on their relationship just yet. She didn't think she ever would. No matter how many times they fought, she loved him with all of her heart.

As Tommy walked out the door to go to the studio, Jude closed her eyes and laid her head back on the couch. She was trying to convince herself that things would be okay between her and Tommy; that Stephanie wasn't leaving them, and that she could have more children; as many as she wanted. She was trying so hard to picture her fairy-tale ending. In her fantasy, Tommy and she were in love, and it was true. They weren't lying and pretending that they were happy. Stephanie was there and so was their baby boy. He would be two years old. Also, Jude was pregnant again and all of them were smiling. She smiled as she thought of how perfect that seemed. But, it was only a false memory. She was stuck in reality where everything went downhill. And, things were soon going to hit rock bottom.

Tommy walked into the studio and looked around for Kwest. He went into Studio B and found his old friend messing with the soundboard carelessly. He seemed quite bored too. Tommy sat next to him and Kwest smiled at him. "Hey there, man." Kwest greeted with a handshake. Tommy nodded in response. "Ready to get to work?"

Tommy nodded again and grabbed his notebook and flipped through his pages. Kwest eyed his friend suspiciously. He knew something had gone on between Tommy and Jude. He swore that if he hurt Jude again he was going to kill him. Kwest was very upset when he found out from Sadie frickin' Harrison that Jude had forgiven Tommy. He knew things wouldn't change. They never did. Why would this time be any different? As they reviewed Tommy's song and recorded it, Kwest was debating whether to call Jude or not. He knew he scared her when he admitted his feelings for her. But he couldn't hold back anymore. He loved her so much, and she deserved to at least know.

At break, Kwest picked up his phone from the soundboard and was about to press the speed dial when Jude walked in the studio. She froze in place looking at him. This was very awkward, to say the least. Kwest just looked at her, waiting for her to do or say something. Jude had a million thoughts going through her mind as she looked into his chocolate brown eyes. She suddenly found herself lost in them. That had never happened before. She shook her head and looked at her feet. She blushed a bit and Kwest saw. He smiled a little and went over to her. He hooked his finger under Jude's chin and made her look at him.

They looked at each other for a minute and she was lost again. She wrapped her arms around his neck and Kwest's hand found their way to her waist. He started to lean in but hesitated. He searched her eyes for any fear. There was a lot of fear and confusion. But she started to lean in towards him too. Jude saw everything going in slow motion. What the hell was she doing? It was like someone else was taking over her body. They heard the door open and Jude quickly turned her head to the side and hugged Kwest. She let out a sigh of relief and pulled away putting on a fake smile.

They turned to see who opened the door. It was just an intern giving out some information for the rest of the week. Jude quickly stepped away from him. She was so happy when that intern walked in. They sat in the chairs in another awkward silence. "So…" Jude said as she stared at the floor.

"So…" Kwest repeated with a little smirk. The smirk wore off in about five seconds and he rested his arms on this lap. He looked at Jude intently. She suddenly felt intimidated by him. "What happened this time?" he asked in a whisper.

Jude sighed and threw up her hands. "I don't even know, anymore. We keep fighting. It's like this never ending cycle that we're on."

Kwest had anger in him toward Tommy. "And what exactly did you think was going to happen? That everything would be peachy keen again and you guys would live happily ever after?" He yelled at her. She found tears in her eyes and he immediately regretted the words he just had said.

"I was trying...to believe," she whispered. She started to cry harder. "I was trying to believe so hard!"

Kwest wrapped her up in his arms immediately and stroked her hair. He tried not to smell her hair. The smell of flowers blooming in spring. He tried not to think of how he was holding Jude so close to his body. He tried not to think about how smooth her skin was as he ran his fingertips up and down her arm. But it was all that he could think of. He kissed her cheek. Then, unexpectedly, they found each other lips. It was like time stopped for Kwest. But for Jude, she back away only a half a second afterwards. Her hand covered her mouth as she tried to process what had just happened. Had she really just kissed Kwest; Tommy's best friend? No, this wasn't happening. She loved Tommy and only Tommy!

Kwest looked at her, not knowing what to do. He waited for that to happen for so long and it only lasted for a second. But it was the best second in his life. But now Jude was backing away from him. She seemed so scared and guilty. He opened his mouth to say something, but quickly closed it again. What could he say after this? There's was nothing he could say, nothing at all.

As Jude backed away someone opened the door and she bumped into them. She fell to the floor and looked up to see her caused her tumble. It was Tommy. As soon as she saw Tommy's surprised face she got up and hugged him as tightly as she could. He had a look of confusion but happily returned the gesture. He kissed her hair as she started crying.

"Shh," Tommy cooed, "What's wrong, baby? What happened?"

Kwest walked out of the room, not able to take anymore of this. He stormed out, but neither Tommy nor Jude noticed how mad and upset he was. Jude continued to cry. Tommy finally pulled away and looked at her. He wiped some of the tears away and looked at her full of concern. "Baby, what's wrong?" he questioned.

Jude looked down. "I'm so sorry," she whispered.

Tommy's eyes furrowed. "For what?"

"Just…for everything. I'm sorry for the fight today and that I got so mad at you," she rambled. She couldn't tell him the truth. It didn't matter though. It wasn't like it was going to happen again. She just had to avoid Kwest at all costs.

"Jude, look at me," Tommy commanded and cupped her cheeks. "It's not your fault. It was mine. Okay?"

Jude nodded her head and hugged him again. They stayed like that for what seemed like forever.

Jude and Tommy were kissing on their bed. It was about midnight but neither of them could sleep. After Jude's scene in the studio with him, Tommy decided to make her feel better. They went to Sadie's house and got Stephanie. Then they went to the park and had a little picnic. He then rented the movie Madagascar. They were actually acting like a family. Now, Jude and Tommy were acting like a loving couple. Jude pulled away from a kiss and Tommy just looked at her lovingly. She closed her eyes and smiled.

As soon as she closed her eyes she regretted it. She saw Kwest. She saw his pained face when she backed away. She saw the love in his eyes that he held for her. She opened her eyes quickly. She had to get Kwest out of her head. She just had to. Jude looked at Tommy. "May I ask you a question?" Jude asked. Tommy nodded. "Please, please, don't lie to me," Jude whispered as she caressed his cheek.

"Okay?" he said confused.

"Do you love me?" she asked. He looked at her with shock on his face. He closed his eyes as he felt her warm touch on his skin. He took a deep breath and looked her in the eye. She waited patiently, hoping whatever he said was the truth; that whatever he said was what she wanted to hear. He was about to open his mouth when they heard a scream coming from Stephanie's room.

Tommy and Jude quickly got out of their bed and went to her room. Stephanie was standing on her bed backed up to the wall. Her parents looked at her in confusion. They looked around her room and then Tommy saw a big spider on the floor. He screamed and went up to join Stephanie. "Tommy, what are you doing?" Jude asked.

"Do you see how huge that spider is?" Tommy asked holding Stephanie.

"Spider?" Jude looked down and saw it. She screamed too and jumped up on the bed. "Tommy, kill it!"

"Are you kidding me? I'm not touching that thing!"

"You're the man of the house."

"Somebody just kill it, please!" Stephanie pleaded.

They all looked at each other waiting for someone to make a move. Jude finally went down slowly and got one of Stephanie's sneakers. She went slowly to it and smacked it. She jumped up on the bed again. "Is it…dead," Stephanie asked.

"Um, I think so," Tommy responded. They heard the bed crack a bit. They all looked at each other.

"Tommy, how much weight can Steph's bed hold?" Jude asked.

In less then a second the bed collapsed and the trio went flying to the floor. They started to laugh hysterically. Jude's stomach was hurting, she was laughing so hard. They finally got up and Stephanie slept in their bed for the night. When Tommy and Stephanie were asleep, Jude was still wide awake. She looked at the two and sorrow took over her. She had to tell Stephanie what was going to happen in about three weeks. How was she going to tell her daughter that? She has loved Stephanie ever since Jasmine came with her in her arms. She fell in love with this kid, and she couldn't bear losing her.

She also realized something else. Tommy never answered her question. A pain struck her heart. It didn't matter what he would've said anyway. "We're too far gone for me to save us; for anyone to save us," She thought sadly.

Jude sighed and closed her eyes. She tried to fall asleep. After two hours of tossing and turning she finally drifted off into a night of nightmares.

Sneak Peek-Chapter 8:

"So what do you want me to do?" Tommy shrugged and turned around to throw his shirt in the hamper.

"I want you to stop being an ass and act like a husband!"

"I would love to, but you need to actually want to be a husband before…" Tommy stopped himself. He turned around to see Jude's tear-filled eyes. God, why was he so stupid!?

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She loved the way it felt with him. It's been so long since she felt loved like this. His kisses were full of love, care, and passion. Tommy's were becoming empty and heartless.