So Happy I Could Cry Chapter 12: Nobody Wins, an instant star fanfic

Yay!! Chapter 11 is up!! I have no idea how long this is going to go on...really when I write, I don't outline my stories. I get an idea and write. I don't know what I'm going to do with it until I actually do it. Weird, I know, but that's how I am. But I'm liking how this is turning out. And I am so glad your guys like it so much!! You are the thing that keeps me going!! PLEASE REVIEW!!

Disclaimer: I went to the store and asked a super hot guy if I could have the Jude Harrison CD...but then they told me that I couldn't. I asked why...and they said becaue it was fictional...I do not own my favorite song my The Veronicas, Nobody Wins.

Chapter 11: Nobody Wins

Jude giggled as Kwest started tickling her feet that were lying contently on his lap. She made him stop and continued to work on her song. She had one more bootleg to do but she couldn't come up with anything. She wanted to write, yet, another song about Tommy and how he broke her heart. It had to be about how much it hurt for him to behave like this. It was like, he was waiting until they hit rock bottom before he left to his precious Cathy Richards. Surprisingly, they hadn't reached it, but there were very close to it. One more wrong step and they would be.

Jude grabbed the water bottle in front of her and took a long sip. As she put it down she could feel Kwest's hand going up her leg. She slapped it away holding back a smile. Kwest grinned at her wickedly and started again. He rested it against her thigh and just looked at her. Jude looked between her notebook and his hand. She bit the eraser on her pencil as Kwest rubbed his fingers gently on the inside of her thigh. Finally she put down her notebook and looked at Kwest. "Kwest, baby, you have to stop," she giggled.

"Stop what?" he shrugged innocently.

Jude rolled her eyes. She put her hand on the inside of his thigh and did the same thing Kwest was doing to her. He closed his eyes briefly. "That," she replied. She removed her hand and kissed him on the lips, gently. "I have to finish this soon."

Kwest moved closer to her when she removed her legs from his lap and crossed them in Indian style. "What do you have so far?"

Sadie was walking up to Jude and Tommy's penthouse. The elevator was taking too long, and she wanted to talk to Jude as fast as possible. She knocked on the door and waited impatiently for someone to open the door. To her surprise, Tommy opened the door looking horrible. His eyes had bags under them like he hadn't slept in weeks, his hair was disheveled, and he was wearing a stained white T-shirt and black sweatpants. She shook her head in pure disappointment. She had a feeling that their marriage was the cause of this.

Tommy looked fairly surprised and embarrassed to see Sadie standing in their doorway. He shook his head and stepped aside to let her in. He knew he looked like something that the cat dragged in. Jude hadn't been home lately, and was hardly even talking to him. One thing though, was that they weren't fighting anymore. She seemed happier than ever. But she was hardly ever home, and when she was, she'd spend all her time with Stephanie. He felt like a loser because this one girl could get to him so easily.

Sadie saw Mr. Douglas and Stephanie in the kitchen sitting at the table. "So, what brings you here?" Tommy asked as she sat on the loveseat and turned off the T.V. that was currently on.

"Um, is Jude here?" Sadie asked looking around.

"No," he scoffed. "She's never here anymore."

"Oh," she replied sadly. She sat next to him. "You're a wreck."

Tommy rolled his eyes. "Was that supposed to make me feel better?"

"I'm sorry," she tried to apologize. "Do you know where Jude is?"

He shook his head. "Sadie, I'm going to ask you a question. I want you to be honest with me."

"Of course," she nodded.

"What did I do wrong?" Sadie was taken aback by this question. "I mean, how did I become this way? I'm a complete mess; Jude and I are a complete mess."

She looked at him with sad eyes. She had empathy for him. She knew exactly how it felt when a marriage was falling apart. Since she couldn't really answer Tommy's question, she wrapped him in a tight hug. She heard him sniffle back a couple of tears and held him tighter. "It's going to be okay," Sadie whispered trying to comfort him. "This can work out. It has to."

Jude came in G-Major humming the tune to her new song that she was going to record today. She had a bright smile on. Ever since her and Kwest happened, she's been so happy. She wanted it to stay, so she tried to leave little contact between her and Tommy. She knew it was wrong, because she was hardly ever home. But Kwest loved her and Tommy didn't. She hung out with Stephanie a lot though. She made sure to spend almost every spare minute she had with her. It was only two weeks left with her, and she was going to be gone.

Jude shook her head. She didn't want to think of that anymore. She walked up to Sadie at the receptionist desk. Sadie looked at sister, trying to hide her disgust and disappointment. But Sadie could tell that she was extremely happy. This has been the happiest she's been in almost two years. "Hi big sis!" Jude squealed. "Are you coming into the studio today? I have a new song that you just have to hear. It's killer!"

Sadie smiled sadly. "I don't think so Jude," she said and put some files into the folders next to her.

Jude's smile dropped and looked at Sadie curiously. "Is something wrong?" she asked truly concerned.

"Yea, something's very wrong," Sadie replied and gestured to come behind the desk. Jude obliged and leaned against the desk. "I went to your apartment the other day. I wanted to talk to you but you weren't there. I saw Tommy and, Jude…he's complete mess. His hair was a wreck, his T-shirt had stains on it. It almost pitiful."

Jude scoffed. "C'mon Sades, Tommy can't be a mess over me."

She narrowed her eyes. "How would you know? You're never home."

Jude looked at her with a cold stare. "I have to go record." She pushed herself off the desk and headed to Studio 2. Deep down, she knew she was right, but she wasn't right about Tommy. Tommy was perfectly fine. He was probably having a lot of quality time with Cathy. She walked into the control room of the studio and saw Tommy and Kwest laughing. She smiled as she saw Kwest.

"Hey superstar, are you ready?" Kwest asked Jude.

"Ready?" Tommy asked.

Jude rolled my eyes. "I'm recording a bootleg, Tommy," she informed him. "Of course, you wouldn't know."

"How am I supposed to know?" he asked outrage. "You're never home."

"I don't want to start this right now," she said trying to get away into the booth.

"Well, I do!" he shouted at her and grabbed her arm to stop her. "Jude, please, I'm begging you. Just tell me what I'm doing wrong. Tell me what you want from me, please."

"I want you to let go of my arm." Jude yanked her arm away from him and walked into the booth. She smiled at Kwest and nodded, telling him to start recording. Tommy fell back on the couch. Sadie came in once she heard the music flowing through the studio.

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right
You belong
You would rather fight
Then walk away
Such a lonely way
To breathe the air
What an unlovely way
To say you care
Now we're too far gone
For me to save

And I never thought the we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(No ones right or wrong, you would rather fight, than walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You pushed me away
Another black day
Lost count of the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed
Living like this
Nobody wins

(Nobody wins)

Searching for the truth
In your eyes
Found myself so lost
Don't recognize
The person now that you
You claim to be
Don't know when to stop
Where to start
You're just so caught up
In who you are
Now you're far too high
For me to see

And I never thought that we'd come to this

You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that you love me
But don't
It's too late to take it back

Baby there's beauty in goodbye
(No ones wrongs or right,, you would rather fight, than walk away)
There's just no reason left to try
(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
You pushed me away
Another black day
Lost count of the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed
Living like this
Nobody wins

Now it's gone too far
Look at where we are

Nobody wins

Jude closed her eyes and took a deep breath as she finished. She looked at Tommy and she couldn't believe what she saw. Hurt? That couldn't have been hurt. She put her head down in shame. Of course, she had no idea why she felt shameful. Tommy hurt her, and he deserved this. So why did it hurt so much to sing that simple song? Jude walked out of the booth and into the room. Tommy grabbed her hand and led her to his office. "What do you want Tommy?' she asked as she pulled her hand out of his.

"I want to talk about that song," he said sternly.

"What about it?" she asked as she crossed her arms over her chest. She didn't feel like listening to this.

He rolled his eyes. "Do you always have to be so stubborn?"

"Well, if I'm so stubborn then just leave. Leave right now and you won't have to worry about me."

"What is wrong? Why do you keep telling me to leave?" Tommy asked her.

"Because that's what you want, isn't it?" Jude tried her hardest to keep the tears behind her eyelids.

"No! Jude, for that last time, I love you!" He shouted.

"Stop lying to me!"

"I'm not lying!"

Suddenly Tommy's cell phone rang. "Hello?" Tommy answered. "This is him…what? Already? But I thought we had two more weeks…I don't care, that's not fair. You can't do that to us…" He sighed. Jude looked at Tommy curiously. "You know what…whatever…yea sure. We'll be there in a few." He hung up the phone abruptly and Jude still looked at him confused. Tommy looked up at her and walked over to her. He held her hands. "We need to get Stephanie."

Jude's eyes went wide as she finally realized what was happening. They were already taking Stephanie away. "No," she whispered. "They can't be early. This isn't fair."

He hugged her as the tears were coming out of her eyes. "I know, but there's nothing we can do," he said as he begged his tears to stay at bay. "Their on their way to our house now."

They ran to the car and went to Stephanie's friend, Amanda's house, and got her. On the ride home, the explained to her what was happening. The whole way, Stephanie was screaming that she didn't want to go and Jude held onto her for dear life. She never wanted to let go. As they arrived home they saw Meredith and Ben standing outside of the door. They slowly went over and let them in. "We are sorry to come so early," Ben said gently. Ben seemed at least about sixty-some years old. He had a full head of gray hair and he seemed pretty healthy for such an old man. Yet, the bad under his eyes, showed off his age very well. "We are selling the ranch, so we had to get Stephanie as soon as we could."

Tommy looked at them appalled. "You're selling my family's ranch?" He asked in disbelief and anger. "What makes you think you have the right to do that!?"

"Young man, I think you better watch your tone," Meredith said.

"Who are you my mother!?" Tommy shouted.

"Baby, just sit down, okay?" Jude suggested pulling on Tommy's pants. Tommy finally sat down but he still wasn't calm.

"No one has claimed it, and we did. So we decided to sell it." Meredith informed as she took up her nose. "It has no use to us."

"I grew up in that house. All of my memories are there."

"Well, I'm sorry, but there's nothing we can do Mr. Quincy," Ben said gently. Ben seemed to be a kind man. How he ever ended up with a woman like Meredith was beyond them.

Tommy looked down sadly but then got an idea. "Sell it to me then."

"Nonsense," Meredith proclaimed. "Who will tend to it?"

"I have friends who will take care of it for me. I'll go there from time to time. Please, I'm begging you." Tommy pleaded.

Meredith looked at him and felt Ben nudged her. "I suppose," she sighed. "Now, if you will just give us Stephanie's luggage, we'll be on our way."

Jude hung her head as she slowly got up and walked with Stephanie to what use to be her room. They grabbed the three suitcases and Stephanie held Bengal in her hand. Tommy had tears in her eyes as did Jude. Stephanie stared at the couple and lunged to them. "I love you!" she shouted as tears fell down her face.

"We love you too, Sweetie," Jude said as the tears fell freely from her eyes. Tommy and Jude held to Stephanie as long as they could until Meredith pulled her away from them. Jude watched them as they went into the elevator. She turned around and looked at the tears going down Tommy's cheeks. She finally fell into his arms hoping that all of this was just a dream. But then she came to realize, she was never going to see Stephanie again.

Jude found herself at four o'clock in the morning in front of Kwest's door. He opened it and looked at Jude's tear-stained face. "Jude," he said, concern etched in his voice.

"She's gone!" She screamed and fell into his arms. He led her in and sat her on the couch. He turned the fireplace on and got a blanket on his recliner and wrapped it around Jude. She rested her body against his and cried. He whispered sweet nothings in her ear and stroked her hair. He kissed her forehead and comforted her as much as he could. Jude eventually calmed down. As they both drifted off to sleep Kwest whispered, "I love you, Jude." Jude smiled. Kwest was at the brink of drifting off when he thought he heard Jude say something.

"I love you, Kwest."

Sneak Peek-Chapter 12:

He snaked his arm around her waist and deepened the kiss. They were so preoccupied in themselves that they didn't hear the door click open and someone walking in. "You know, Kwest, you really shouldn't have given me this extra…" Sadie stopped when she found her sister and ex-husband kissing the couch.

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"If you don't tell him, then I will," Sadie announced.

"Please, the only reason your doing this is because your jealous," Jude said with triumph. "I got Kwest, and you didn't. He loves me and not you." She moved closer and smirked. "How does it feel to finally be second best, Sadie?"

Sadie looked at her with an evil glare and smacked Jude across the face. Suddenly, Jude jumped on her and they both went the tile floor of Hospitality.