Okay, so I think I know what I'm doing...I think, but that's okay. I'll figure it out. I know how to end it though. I just have to get there. Anyways, not one of my best chapters but I think it's pretty okay. Jommy fans...at the end you're gonna be like "YES GO TOMMY!!" Kwude fans you're going to be like "NO WHY!?" and Jommy/Kwude fans...you're going to go both!! -lol- By the way, hehe...since I'm really cruel, I'm still not sure who I want Jude to end up with..hehe!! yes I'm evil...who knows.. b/c i like Kwude...their cool!! hehe!! PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!!

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Chapter 12: Reasons we Fall

Kwest heard a load knock. He opened his eyes only to be blinded by the sun peering in the window. He looked at his position. He suddenly realized that he wasn't in his room. He saw the beautiful, sleeping blonde facing him. He smiled as he remembered what she had said last night. He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her closer to him. The knock sounded again, but Kwest ignored it. He kissed Jude's nose and she stirred waking up. "Hi," she whispered and kissed him.

He snaked his arm around her waist and deepened the kiss. They were so preoccupied in themselves that they didn't hear the door click open and someone walking in. "You know, Kwest, you really shouldn't have given me this extra…" Sadie stopped when she found her sister and ex-husband kissing the couch. Jude quickly stood up and smoothed out her hair. Sadie put the key in her pocket and just shook her head at them. Sadie turned to walk away but Jude followed her.

"Sadie, please wait," Jud pleaded.

She stopped and turned to look at her. "You know, I knew what was going on," Sadie notified her. "I saw you two at the hospital."

"Oh god, please don't tell Tommy," Jude begged again.

"Why are you even doing this?" She asked.

"You know why. You've seen Tommy and I. Things aren't going to work out."

"So, you're using him."

"No! I love him!" Jude put a hand over her mouth as Sadie looked at her in shock. She shook her head again and slammed the door on the way out. 'Crap!' Jude thought to herself. Kwest came up to her and kissed her cheek. She turned around and smiled at him sadly. "I'm sorry," she apologized.

Kwest gave her a light kiss before speaking. "I think you should go home," he suggested. "Talk to your sister."

"Talk to her? Are you kidding? How?"

"You're Jude Quincy. You'll find away."

She smiled and pecked his lips. She was about to walk out when she turned around to look at her secret lover. "By the way, I like Jude Taylor better." She winked and headed out the door.

Jude took a deep breath and walked into the penthouse. She looked around hoping Tommy had already gone to work. She put her car keys on the counter and was making her way to the bedroom when she heard sobbing. She stopped and heard it coming from Stephanie's room. She opened to door and saw Tommy on floor crying. He had a picture of Stephanie, him, and Jude at the playground. Tommy was holding Stephanie on his back and Jude was resting her head on his shoulder.

Jude ran to Tommy's side. She rubbed his back trying to get him to calm down. Tommy placed his head on Jude's shoulder. After a while, he finally did calm down. He wiped his remaining tears. "I have to go," Tommy's rasp voice said.

"What do you mean?" Jude asked. "Go where?"

"It won't be for long. I have to go to Montana to sign some papers so I can buy the ranch." He informed her and got off the floor. He helped her up and he put the picture down on the nightstand.

"Okay, I can go with you," she replied.

"No, stay here. I need to do this alone."

Jude nodded and followed Tommy to the bedroom. "When will you be leaving?"

"Later tonight," he whispered as he got a suitcase from the closet. "I'll only be gone for about a week. I'll call you."

Again, Jude nodded, and left the room. She called out to Tommy that she would meet him down in the studio. Was it bad that she felt happy that he was leaving for a week? Once she reached the studio she looked for Sadie. She didn't know exactly what she would say, but she knew it had to be done.

Meanwhile, Tommy was sitting on the bed looking at the packed suitcase. He was going back to Montana to buy his family's ranch. The only reason he hadn't invited Jude was because he really wanted to do this alone. He had to do this alone. He grabbed his suitcase and stopped by Stephanie's room again. It was painted purple and draped in Dora the Explorer and Bratz.

He put his suitcase next to the door and looked around the living room. There were pictures on the mantel and walls. There were gold records and contracts framed. The pictures were the one that caught his eye. Happy and beautiful memories filtered his mind and Tommy smiled.

Jude, Tommy, and Stephanie were at the park. Jude was eating a bowel of grapes and Stephanie was playing with one of the kids in the playground. Jude smiled and Tommy came to sit next to her. They watched their beautiful daughter laugh with a boy she was playing. "What is she doing talking to that boy?" Tommy asked a little annoyed.

"She's playing with him, honey," Jude giggled.

"Shouldn't she think boys have cooties or something?" He asked watching them intently.

"You are adorable when you're overprotective," she said as she kissed his cheek. She placed her hand on her still flat stomach and rubbed it gently. "What if this one is a girl? You know, boyfriends are going to happen eventually."

"Not if I can help it."

Jude laughed and threw a grape at him. "Unless you lock Steph in a closet, I doubt you can stop them." Tommy put his finger to his chin acting like he was actually considering it. "James Thomas Quincy," Jude gasped.

"Hey, you said it," Tommy defended with his hands raised up. They both laughed and Jude popped another grape in her mouth. "Can you believe it? I'm going to be a dad. In seven months I'm going to be a dad!" He shouted excitedly. He stood up and grabbed Jude's hand to help her up.

"What if I can't do it?" Jude asked. What if I can't be a mom?"

"Jude, you're going to be wonderful. Look how you are with Stephanie," he tried to reassure her. "Besides, she's going to be your official daughter soon enough."

Jude cocked her eyebrow at him. "Quincy, what do you have going on in the strange mind of yours?" She asked.

Tommy sighed and pulled a navy blue, velvet box out of his jacket. Jude gasped when she saw it. Stephanie was at Tommy's side when she saw her dad take out the box. Tommy went down on one knee and looked up at the love of his life. "Jude Harrison, I love you so much. I know I've broken your heart in the past but I promise not to hurt you anymore. I just want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want all of you with me forever. Will you marry me?"

Jude became to cry and she smiled. Tommy stood up and opened the box to reveal a beautiful white gold band with two perfect cut diamonds. On the inside it was engraved, 'Forever my girl'. Jude kissed him passionately. "Yes, Tommy," she whispered. "I'll marry you."

Tommy kissed her again and picked up Stephanie. "Welcome to the family, mommy!" Stephanie squealed as Tommy handed her to Jude. Soon, Sadie came from behind the tree and looked at the happy family.

"Sadie?" Jude asked.

"Tommy, wanted me to capture the moment so he gave me a camera and made me hide behind a tree," Sadie notified her baby sister. She smiled. "But it was worth it. Say cheese!"

Tommy and Jude looked at each other and they both kissed Stephanie's cheeks on either side and Sadie took the picture.

Jude smiled at the picture in her wallet. That was one of the best days of her life. But it was a lie. Tommy promised not to hurt her anymore, and that's all he's ever done since the miscarriage. Jude walked into hospitality to get some coffee when she saw Sadie drinking tea and reading Talk National. She read an article in the 'Stars in Love' column. There was one titled 'The Quincies."

All of you are familiar with Tommy and Jude Quincy. This couple had been together for three years and married for two. It seems that these two were having a couple of problems in the beginning with the rumors about Tom Quincy and Cathy Richards, but it looks like their doing fine now.

There was a picture of them holding hands walking into G-Major smiling. Sadie scoffed knowing it was just an act for the press.

Guess no matter what people throw at them, they can make it through any obstacle. With their daughter, Stephanie Quincy, they make the perfect family. You can tell that these two are really in love. We hope to see them stay together for a while. After all, who doesn't love Jommy?

Sadie put the tabloid down and turned around to walk back to her desk when she saw Jude standing there. She rolled her eyes at her and took a sip of her tea. She didn't want to talk to her sister. She had betrayed Tommy and her. Sadie would never admit it to Jude that she still loved Kwest with all her heart. Although she has tried to get over him, it hadn't worked at all. She hated herself for loving him. She looked at her little sister intently waiting for her to say something. She tapped her perfectly manicure fingers on the counter in annoyance.

Jude stood there nervously. She really had no clue what to say. She didn't want to start a big fight or anything. She just wanted Sadie to know why she was cheating on Tommy. Tommy was cheating on Jude too, of course Sadie didn't know it. Only her and Kwest knew the truth and it killed her. She sighed and finally spoke "Hi," Jude whispered.

"What?" Sadie demanded.

"I wanted to talk to you," Jude confessed walking closer to her.

Sadie put her tea down. "Well, what could you possibly say to get you out of this one, Jude," she asked exasperated.

"I'm not trying to get out of it," she tried to convince Sadie. "I want to tell you why I'm doing this."

"Because you're stupid?" Sadie asked mocking politeness.

Jude took a deep breath trying to stay calm. "No, because Tommy's cheating on me too."

Sadie looked at her like she had three heads. "Um, no he's not. He has no time to cheat on you even if he wanted to. Darius has been working him like a dog to get his album finished."

"Oh, trust me, he finds time."

"Look Jude, you can still fix this. All you have to do is tell Tommy--"

"Tell Tommy," Jude interrupted. "I'm not confessing anything to that asshole!"

"If you don't tell him, then I will," Sadie announced.

"Please, the only reason you're doing this is because you're jealous," Jude said with triumph. "I got Kwest, and you didn't. He loves me and not you." She moved closer and smirked. "How does it feel to finally be second best, Sadie?"

Sadie looked at her with an evil glare and smacked Jude across the face. Suddenly, Jude jumped on her and they both went the tile floor of Hospitality. Sadie scream as Jude started to pull her hair. It was a total catfight. They started roll on the floor as people gathered to see the fight. Grunts, squeals, and cheers filled the little room.

Sadie slapped Jude again and Jude pulled her hair so hard she actually got a few strands out. Jude flipped them over and pinned Sadie's arm to the floor. She smirked when she found Sadie couldn't move. But she smirked back and lifted her hips and legs over them and then she was straddling Jude. "You're being stupid Jude!" She shouted.

Jude slapped her and pushed her off of her. "Why are you trying to ruin everything!?" She shouted back. "I don't need you lecturing me anymore!" Jude straddled her again and the cheers became louder. "I'm not a little girl anymore! I don't need to listen to you. You're just being jealous!"

"What about Tommy, Jude!? Have you forgotten about him!? I don't care what you say but I know you still loved him! I can see it in your eyes!" Sadie was on the brink of tears. "How could you do this to him…to me!?"

"You?" Jude whispered. Tommy and Kwest finally came in. Tommy pulled Jude from Sadie with little effort and Kwest got Sadie. They were both in tears out of anger and sadness.

"Don't touch me!" Sadie hissed at Kwest. Kwest let her go and before Sadie walked out she looked at Jude who was still being held by Tommy. "Just think about the people you're hurting, baby sister," she warned and stomped away to her desk.

Jude yanked herself away from Tommy's grip. The people started clearing out and Tommy and Kwest looked at her with questioning gaze. Jude just looked at them with tears in her eyes and anger etched in her features. "You better get to work before D sees you," she said and walked off to the alley. Tommy went to go follow her but Kwest stopped.

"No man, let me take care of this," Kwest offered. "I've been hanging out with her a little, and she's right about D. Just go work on that song and if she needs to talk to you, I'll get you okay?"

"Yea, sure," Tommy nodded. "Thanks man."

Jude sat against the brick wall crying. She regretted every coming out here. It held way too many memories. The moment she stepped on the steps everything came flooding back to her; including the one kiss that started Tommy and her. She wanted to escape but it was like she was trapped in a cage and she was suffocating. Everyone was looking at her and finally people were looking through her disguise.

Everything was falling apart so quickly and she wanted it to stop. She wanted all of it to stop. She had lost Tommy, lost Stephanie, and now she had lost her sister. Sooner or later, Kwest would also walk out on her and then she would lose it all. Jude just wanted things to go right for once in her life. It hurt so bad to know that ever since she came back from her second tour, her life has been on this unending rollercoaster of problems. She had only four months of pure happiness and after that stupid miscarriage everything changed.

Sadie was right about one thing. Jude still loved Tommy. She always would and she knew that, but she tried so hard not to love someone. She couldn't love someone who has treated her so wrong. He had loved her, at one point. She was sure of that. She was sure that Tommy had loved her more than anything in the world. But now, she wasn't so sure. She couldn't be sure of anything anymore. All she wanted was an escape from the hurt, pain, anger, and sadness that was overwhelming her.

Jude heard the door open and someone's footsteps walking towards her. She was hunched back with her head down. Kwest touched her shoulder comfortingly and she let out a sob. Soon, another one followed and she collapsed against him crying hard and letting out every emotion she had been keeping in for the past two years.

Tommy sat in the studio trying to finish the song that he was supposed to record today. After his session with Kwest, he was leaving on a plane for Montana. He didn't think that he would ever go back there, and yet, he was sitting there with a plane ticket and a suitcase ready. He let out a frustrated sigh. He couldn't concentrate right now. All he had down was part of a verse and a chorus.

Jude and Sadie's fight was on his mind. They were so close and he didn't know why they would fight. He could hardly even remember the last time they fought. What could've gotten both of them so mad that would get them rolling on the floor? Tommy bit his eraser for the fifth time in deep thought. He also wondered about something else. If he left for Montana, would that make his falling marriage fall faster to rock bottom? Distance does make the heart grow fonder, but also; out of sight, out of mind. Of course, he didn't think that Jude would miss him too much. She hadn't been home for more than an hour so it would probably make no difference in her schedule.

But Jude had no reason to spend time with him. All they did was fight. He knew that his wife—the woman he loved—deserved so much more than he had to offer. Tommy smiled when an idea popped in his head. He turned the page and started to write a brand new song.

Kwest was sitting at the soundboard talking to Jude who was next to him. Tommy was in the booth getting ready and reading over his notes. He already recorded the band while Kwest was "handling" Jude in the alley. It took all of fifty-five minutes. Finally, he was reading.

"Okay, Kwest hit it," Tommy commanded.

"You got it," Kwest smiled and pressed record.

The music filled the studio and Jude's ears. She could tell Tommy was glancing at her from time to time and she watched him intently as he sang the first note.

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I wouldn't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you

I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)

After he sang the last note, Tommy looked over at Jude to see her reaction. She had an emotionless face on, but her eyes gave her away. She looked hurt and guilty. Mostly, she looked guilty though. Tommy couldn't figure out why the guilt in her eyes was so powerful. Sure, she hadn't been home, but it wasn't that bad. He had just shrugged it off…for now.

Jude felt extremely guilty after that song. She could even hear the passion from Tommy's voice. He looked so sad. It was like he was admitting something that he tried so hard to change, but knew he couldn't. Jude cursed herself as the guilt she was feeling washed over her whole body. She wasn't supposed to feel guilty, but then she started to think. Tommy had been at the studio all month and really busy. She realized that Sadie was right. He wouldn't have time to cheat on her if he wanted to.

Not only that, but if Tommy was going to leave her for Cathy, how come he hadn't left yet? There was no reason to hang around anymore. Stephanie was gone and Jude hadn't been home at all. So, why was he still hanging around? There was no logical reason for it. Her eyes widen in realization. Kwest.

She was about to ask him when Tommy walked in. "Listen, Jude, I know I've been an ass lately," he confessed to her frantically. "I also know that you deserve so much better than me, but I was just hoping maybe we could give this a second chance."

Jude was speechless. "Tommy I--" Jude started.

"Please, baby, just one more chance," he begged.

"What do you have in mind?" Jude asked still not sure.

Tommy smiled and pulled out two tickets from his inside pocket of his leather jacket. "Come to Montana with me," he offered.

Sneak Peek-Chapter 13:

"Jude? Tommy?" The couple heard a voice behind them. They turned around and saw a very familiar face and they smiled instantly.

"Jazz!" Tommy shouted happily as she ran into his arms.

"Oh, it's great to see you," Jude said as Jasmine went to her and hugged her closely.

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Jasmine looked at the test on the bathroom sink and sighed. "It's positive," she announced.

"No, no, no" Jude said in denial as tears came streaming down her face.

"I don't understand. I thought you would be happy about this." Jasmine asked confused.

"I would be, but if I'm pregnant, it's not going to be Tommy's baby," she blurted out.

Jasmine looked at her in shock. "Okay, let's start from the beginning."