So Happy I Could Cry Chapter 17: For You I Will, an instant star fanfic

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Chapter 16: For You I Will

Jude paced back and forth biting her nails nervously. Sadie was there also bouncing her leg up and down. Jude didn't know what to think at this point. She didn't know what had happened and she was so scared for Tommy. What if it was something seriously like a heart attack? What if he didn't survive? No, she couldn't think like that. Tommy was a fighter and he wouldn't give up life that easily. It could have been nothing. The elevator doors open and Jude saw Stephanie and Kwest walking in.

Stephanie seemed so scared as she ran to Jude and held onto her leg. Jude looked up at Kwest and he actually looked worried. Truthfully, she was surprised that he actually came. But she was glad because she needed to talk to him about some things that she just found out. "Steph, I need to talk to Uncle Kwest for a minute," Jude announced. "Why don't you stay with Aunt Sadie? I'll be back soon."

Jude grabbed Kwest's hand and took him near the bathrooms. "Hey, is he okay?" Kwest asked right away.

"I don't know," Jude sighed. "They haven't said anything yet. But I need to talk to you about something."

"Ok," Kwest said.

"I want you to tell me the truth." Kwest nodded. Jude took a deep breath. "Did you lie to me about Tommy and Cathy?"

He looked at her completely shocked. Guilt washed over his features. He lowered his head down. He was caught and he knew he couldn't get out of it. There was no turning back now. "Yes," he whispered.

Jude's jaw dropped as tears came into her eyes. "What?"

Kwest looked at her and made eye contact. "He was never going to leave you for Cathy. It was all a lie."

"You don't love me Kwest!" She shouted. "If you loved me you wouldn't have done any of this!"

"The only reason I did this was because I loved you. I didn't want you to go back to him like you did every time. Listen, I know it was wrong, okay? I know I shouldn't have ever done it and I can't take it back. But I love you and that won't change at all. You can hate me and punch me. You can even try to kill me but I will always love you."

Jude looked at him and wiped her tears. "Do you regret it?"

Kwest took her hands in his. "I regret of how it happened, but not that it did happen," he whispered.

"I can't forgive you for this, Kwest."

He nodded. "I know."

She looked at his eyes one more time and then walked past him to the lobby. As she walked more tears came down her cheeks. Why did everyone she loved did this to her? She couldn't love Kwest anymore. He lied to her just to get her. She shook her head as she came in view of Sadie. Sadie was talking to one of the doctors and Jude rushed to them. "What's happening?" Jude asked.

"Mrs. Quincy?" The doctor asked. Jude and Sadie nodded. "My name is Dr. Harris. Your husband is perfectly fine. He just had a panic attack."

Jude let out a sigh of relief. "Can I go see him?"

Dr. Harris nodded and led her to him. Jude followed him to room 219. She opened to door and poked her head in as Dr. Harris went back to his office. Tommy was on the bed with an IV and a heart monitor. Jude silently walked in and closed the door. Tommy opened his eyes and saw Jude standing there. She looked so timid and so scared. He put up his arms welcoming me her. She ran to him and embraced him tightly. Tommy smiled. He had missed this so much. He hugged her tighter when he heard her sniffling. He tried to calm her down by whispering sweet nothings in her ear and smoothing out her hair.

Jude couldn't stop crying. She had ruined everything. She wasn't smart enough to see it then. Now, she knew all of it was because of her. This was her fault. She felt Tommy kiss her head. "Everything's ok," Tommy reassured her. "It was just a stupid panic attack. I'm ok."

She pulled away from him. "I'm so sorry," Jude apologized. "I ruined everything."

"We ruined everything," he replied.

She looked down and held his hand. "Maybe we weren't meant to be," she whispered.

Tommy felt pain in his heart. As much as he hated to admit it, it was true. Jude bent down and kissed him. It was long, passionate, goodbye kiss. It was filled with sadness and pain. After a moment both of them pulled away. Tommy had tears in his eyes as he looked as his love. She gave him one more peck and ran out the door.

Jude packed the last few things that she owned in her suitcase. She saw Bengal on the bedroom floor. She picked it up and went to Stephanie's room. She smiled sadly when she saw her beautiful daughter sleeping there. She bent down next to her bed and kissed her head. Cautiously, she put Bengal in her arms and walked out. She walked back into the bedroom. She wrote a quick note and put it on the bed. Tommy was still asleep and she had to get out of there before they had time to stop her.

Before she went to the airport she had one more stop to make. She went to Sadie's house and knocked on the door. A very tired Sadie came to the door and opened it. She had a cup of coffee in her hand. She was in a robe and her hair was up in a very messy bun. She looked surprised to see Jude in her doorway. "Yes?" Sadie asked.

"I just wanted to say I'm sorry," Jude started, "For everything I did to you."

"Oh," Sadie answered.

"I didn't want to believe that Kwest was lying to me," Jude admitted. "I didn't want to believe I was hurting Tommy…and you. So, I'm going to do everyone a favor. I'm leaving."

Sadie looked at a little confused. "What exactly do you mean, you're leaving?" Sadie asked skeptically.

"As in I'm going away and never coming back."

"Why?"

"Because it's the only way. I've done too much wrong, and it's for the best."

"What about Tommy, and Stephanie?" Sadie didn't want her to leave. "What about me?"

"I love you so much. I'm sorry, but I have to go. Tommy and I are done." She hugged her sister and ran to her car before Sadie had a chance to speak.

Dear Tommy,

I'm sorry but I have to go. We've tried but I just don't think we were meant to be.
I've ruined almost everything and I won't keep doing it. I won't keep breaking your heart
and my heart. It's ridiculous to keep going like this anyway. Please take care of Stephanie for me.

Tell her how much I love her and give her your whole world. Don't try to find me because you won't.
Again, I am so sorry but it's for the best. Just remember, I love you.

Jude

Tommy read the note over and over again. Jude was leaving. He sat there on the bed as he sobbed on the pillow. He heard the doorbell ring. Hoping it was Jude, he jumped up and ran to it. He opened the door and saw Sadie. Disappointment covered his features. "Jude's leaving," Sadie said frantically.

"I know," Tommy sighed and showed Sadie the note. She read it over and sighed.

"C'mon, we have to hurry," Sadie announced.

"What do you mean?" he asked confused.

"We have to go get Jude. She's probably at the airport."

Tommy shook his head. "No."

She looked at him like he was crazy. "What the hell do you mean no?" she asked outraged.

"We can't survive this. It's over."

"Tommy, it's not over. You know it's not. You two love each other. You belong together."

"If we are so much in love then how come we have so many problems? How come we're in this big mess?"

Sadie was so happy he asked. She has wanted to say this for a while. "Because you two love to keep living in the past. That's what kept you two apart. She thought you blamed her for losing the baby, and you thought she blamed you. You've never talked about it after it happened. Everything that has happened between you two is because you never put the miscarriage behind you. You held secrets too. None of that would lead to a happy marriage. But you still have time to fix this Tom. You still have time to do something about it."

Tommy looked at her. She was right. She was totally right.

"Now, are you going to go after her or what?" She asked pointing to the door.

Jude sprinted quickly through the airport hoping not to miss her flight. She knew this was the right thing to do. There was nothing here for her anymore, and she didn't deserve to be here anymore. Tommy would be happy without her, and so would Stephanie. She had a wonderful dad.

Also, Jude knew that somehow, it wouldn't work. The marriage that they once had died with their baby. And--just like the baby--it wasn't coming back.

She finally made it to the gate and they were just boarding. She rummaged through her purse looking for her ticket when she heard a soft guitar. She turned around and her jaw dropped. It was Tommy. She didn't know what to say. But even if she did, she didn't have time to say it. Tommy had already started singing.

Will you listen to my story
It'll just be a minute
How can I explain
Whatever happened here
I never meant to hurt you
I can I cause you so much pain

When I say I'm sorry
Will you believe me
Listen to my story
Say you won't leave me
When I say I'm sorry
Can you forgive me
When I say I will always be there
Will you believe, will you believe me

All the words that I come up with
They're like gasoline on flames
There's no excuse, no explanation
Believe me if I could undo what I did wrong
I'd give away all that I own

If I told you I've been cleanin' my soul
And If I promise you I'll regain control
Will you open your door
And let me in take me for who I am
And not for who I've been, who I've been

When I say I'm sorry
When I say I'm sorry
When I say I'm sorry
When I say I'm sorry
When I say I'm sorry

Can you forgive me
When I say I will always be there
Will you believe

Jude stood there; tears going down her cold cheeks. She had no idea what to say or think. Tommy smiled slightly and put the guitar down in its case. He got up and walked slowly to her. "You swoon over Kurt Cobain lyrics," Tommy whispered. Jude looked at him a little confused.

"You love to hear a baby cry, because you believe it's the sign of life." This made Jude cry even more. "Your favorite color is green because your dad gave you an emerald necklace for your fifth birthday, but you lost it. You felt devastated but he made you feel a lot better by saying it wasn't your fault."

"Tommy..." Jude trailed off. "I..."

"Jude, I love you. I love you more than anything in this world. I want you to stay. Please don't go." Tommy begged. "I'm sorry for everything, and all the things that have been happening. But I believe that we can make it work.

"I don't think we can, Tommy," Jude confessed. "We've tried way too many times, and it always seems to crash and burn."

"But don't you see. The reason is because we kept living in the past. We kept trying to push each other away. Well, I'm not going to push away anymore. What do you say?"

Jude shook her head and cried even harder. "I just don't want to hurt you anymore." Her voice was horse and breaking.

Tommy looked into her beautiful eye. "I love you. Do you believe me?" Tommy asked. Jude nodded her head. "Do you love me?"

She looked up at him. "More than anything."

"Then come back with me."

Jude smiled. "Ok." She hugged him and then kissed him. That's when they heard the whole airport clapping and cheering for them. She laughed lightly and kissed Tommy again. Maybe they could work it out. After all, love can conquer all.

Sneak Peek-Chapter 17:

She couldn't believe it. It was like a miracle. She sat down thinking that she was going to fight. She was so overwhelemed with happiness. But she still loved the feeling. She heard the front door of their house open and shut. She jumped up and ran to the living room that was still filled with moving boxes. Tommy saw her running to him with the biggest smile on her face. "Tommy, you will not believe what I have to tell you," Jude said happily.