(A/n: Alright, I'm just going to stop bullshitting not only you guys but myself. I am a lazy bastard lol. As I've said many times before, this story is already written (mostly written) and all I have to do is edit and update. But between school, and work, and my father being sick, and guy problems and well, just life in general, time gets away from me, and I am truly sorry. Alright, I want to thank everyone who added this story to their favs and alerts profusely, and especially everyone that reviewed the last chapter!!!!:Jewelgirl04, giftiebee, xAttitudex, JayCena-Hardy-Orton, Midnight Murder Club Inc., ravenstyles27, shewearsgreen, I'm.Totally.Fxcking.Awesome, cassymae, and Sandra Moore7474 . You guys are awesome, and thank you so much!!!! Recommended reading goes to Swayyah89 for her awesome story "Hating to Love." The story is great; you all should go check it out! Okay this chapter is thirteen pages, and it picks up exactly where the last chapter left off. So enjoy, but the next chapter will be better, and sadder so be prepared. Read REVIEW and ENJOY!)

Danica finished the hamburgers just in time. Her mother and Carol arrived back looking tired.

"Was your trip successful?" Danica asked.

"Yes, everything's done… Now did you two finish your eulogies?" Mary asked.

"Yes we did." Danica said shaking her head yes.

"And did you work out your arrangements for Lily?" Carol Cena questioned.

"Yes… Danii is going to move back here and live at Donny's, she wants to keep Lily in a familiar place, and she is getting a job transfer to Mercy Hospital. It's easier because Donny's house is close to my apartment and then you guys can see Lily just as often as you used to." John explained as the mothers nodded "Danii is reluctant to let me pay for anything, but I'm going to give her three-hundred dollars a week which is twelve-hundred a month to cover expenses for Lily… That was all Dani would take… When I come home I can see Lil as much as I want, but on the weekend she will stay with me…If I'm home that is." John explained to both he and Danica's mother.

"That sounds good" Carol Cena stated as Mary Porter nodded in agreement. After everyone ate, Carol and Mary went over a few more details while John bought Lily down stairs and put her in her high chair so he and Danica could feed her.

"What's her favorite food?" John asked.

"Well she likes squash… I know it's strange but she likes squash and spinach… her favorite fruit is pears, and her favorite song is Mary had a little lamb. Mom always sings it to her, my grandma used to sing it to her and my mother sang it to me, so my mother, Karen, and I always sing it to Lil. And Karen used to sing her hush little baby. But she likes Mary had a little lamb better. " Danica told John as he fed Lily.

"Well I think I'll make up a song to sing to her…" John said smiling at Danica.

"I don't think a six month old baby girl likes rap music." Danica said. "Do you Lily?" Danica asked kissing Lily on her forehead. Lily smiled and giggled.

"Yes she does… Don't you baby girl?" John asked tickling her chin. The smile was wiped off John's face when Lily Ann spat spinach in it. Danica thought she would die. She was laughing hysterically. Mary and Carol ran into the room only to join in laughter with Danica. John went to wipe his face.

"No wait John… This is a Kodak moment." Mary said running back into the living room and grabbing her camera. John sat waiting to take the picture.

"Karma's the worst isn't it?" Danica said with a smug smile. "Hi five Lil…" Danica said sticking her hand out. Lily giggled while she bounced and slapped Danica's hand. Danica cleaned Lily's face and took her out of the high chair. Danica gave her a bottle while Mary took the picture of John. After wiping his face, John and Danica played with Lily on the floor in the living room while Carol and Mary talked over coffee in the kitchen. Danica was right... It was 7:50pm and Lily Ann was getting sleepy and cranky. John immediately picked her up and began rocking her in his arms while Danica got her bottle. John carried Lily Ann upstairs and sat in the rocking chair in her nursery. Danica sat in the chair next to the changing table after she handed John the bottle.

"Don't worry Lil; I'm going to make sure you're okay." John said rocking Lily and feeding her the bottle. "I know you are tired angel face." John spoke soothingly.

"You're really good with her" Danica complimented John.

"Thanks… I mean I hope so being that I am her legal guardian, and even more importantly her godfather." John told Danica.

"I mean, I just didn't expect you, to be soo... sooo… paternal…" Danica admitted.

"I know you think I'm an immature, chauvinistic, and narcissistic jerk, but it has nothing to do with whether or not I'm paternal…" John joked with Danica who chuckled. When John looked back down, he saw Lily was fast asleep. John stood up and kissed Lily on her forehead. He then laid her in her crib on her belly and covered her with her blanket.

"Wait she needs snuffy…." Danica said and took a small stuffed pig off the dresser and put it in the crib with Lily.

"Good night Angel." John said walking out of the room with Danica who turned on the night light and the baby monitor before closing the door. Danica went into her room and picked up the baby monitor, she then went downstairs. She saw John hugging her mother goodbye and Carol saying she would see her on Sunday. Danica walked down stairs and hugged Carol Cena.

"Would it be alright if I came by again tomorrow? I want to see Lily again." John asked Danica.

"Of course you can, you can see her whenever you want." Danica assured John.

"Okay, I'll be over around 12pm tomorrow." John told Danica.

"Alright, see ya then…" Danica said. John gave Danica a nod and opened the door for him and his mother. After the Cena's left, Danica sat down on the sofa and put her head in her hands.

"Don't worry sweetie, we'll take things step by step… It'll be fine." Mary told her daughter and put her hand on her shoulder soothingly.

"I know, but I'm just worried about Lil… What if I mess up, or, she has trouble in school… or she doesn't go to college, or she grows up hating me and wishing that Karen was around… What if she gets pregnant at 15 and doesn't finish school, what if she gets hurt or beat up at school... What if she is teased or picked on… What if she gets bad grades…? I just, I'm so worried." Danica said frustrated.

"Welcome to parent hood darling." Mary stated through a chuckle.

"It's not funny mom, I just don't want to screw things up." Danica told her mother.

"Well, you're not alone, you have John's help, you two are in this together." Mary reminded her daughter.

Danica gave her mother a look that expressed the words 'You're kidding right?' "Mom, I know that John's going to try, but it's hard having faith in him. He really let me down, in the worst way; and that just puts so many doubts in my mind about him." Danica explained.

"What exactly happened to you two? You said you had a fantastic time at your prom with John…. I know that he missed your graduation two weeks later and it didn't even bother you…But I had just assumed that he had spoken to you about why he couldn't come…" Mary Porter said.

"Well…It's not a nice thing to hear mother, and I know how much you adore John so I don't want to spoil your angelic perception of him and taint it with a story like this." Danica told her mother honestly.

"Well, I don't care about what happens to my perception; I just want to know the truth." Mary told her daughter sternly.

"Well… it was 10:45 pm… Prom ended at 11pm, and the last dance was coming up soon. I went to the bathroom to fix my dress and my makeup. I only took a few moments… When I came back I couldn't find John, I checked the dance floor but couldn't find him, I waited in front of the men's bathroom to see if he'd come out, I finally went back to our table and couldn't find John plus his jacket was gone… So I decided to go outside and check the parking lot. When I couldn't find him, I just decided to wait in the limo because I didn't want the last dance to arrive and be alone by myself in the corner like an idiot. So I walked over to the limo and opened the door. I see John with his suit jacket off his vest torn in the front his dress shirt ripped with the buttons hanging off and a loosened tie with his pants around his ankles and his shoes still on. He was over Melissa Cantrell who was completely naked and they were in the middle of…of… IT!!!" Danica cried having to relive the embarrassing and awful night.

"Wait.. Little Melissa? Molly Cantrell's daughter?!" Mary Porter asked shock.

"Little Melissa is not the Little Melissa you think she is mom… She made my high school years miserable… she hated me and spread tons of lies and rumors about me throughout the year." Danica explained. "So anyway, John looked up and saw me and Melissa smirked and said 'Whoops'… I couldn't stand what I had seen so I slammed the door shut and took off my shoes and started running out of the parking lot. I heard John running after me and calling my name so I just threw my shoes so I could run faster. I saw people coming out of the Banquet Hall so I ran even faster than what I thought was possible just to save myself from the embarrassment and humiliation I'd face. I ran until I got to the highway… That's when I started walking… It took me two hours and forty-five minutes to walk home in tears with no shoes in the middle of the night… But I didn't want to be near John and I wouldn't dare sit in that limo… I just couldn't understand why John would do that… I mean yeah Melissa Cantrell was gorgeous, but in a fake way… Yah know, bottle blonde, big blue eyes, big boobs, nice butt, big flirt…" Danica said to her mom as her eyes welled up with tears, feeling like she was in high school all over again.

"But Danica, look at you angel you are stunning! You have beautiful long hair, a gorgeous complexion, nice tan skin, a fit body, you are well endowed in the front, and I'm sure guys wouldn't mind seeing you walk away…" Danica's mother reassured her.

"YEAH NOW! Back then yeah I had tan skin, and I wasn't fat or chubby and my hair was still long… but I was a kid, I just always felt insecure, I had no chest and no ass and I was about to graduate… So when Melissa Cantrell began telling everyone in school what happened on prom night and called me a loser and said John shouldn't have wasted his time with me and that he pitied me that's why he went and because Donny was my brother I just felt so low. And mom, you knew I liked John a lot you knew I was crazy about him…. Nobody else knew except you and me … But honestly, I don't think it should've mattered whether I liked him or not, because he was supposed to be my friend, not to mention my Prom date…. Having sex with another girl IN OUR LIMO nonetheless is inexcusable. He was twenty-one when this happened, mom… It doesn't get anymore immature than that!" Danica told her mom getting angry all over again. Yes, she had made a small truce with John but the situation still made her blood boil.

"Awww oh sweetie I'm so sorry, I just wish I would've known… I still think you and John should've made up ages ago though." Mary said holding her daughters face.

"Yeah... I would've if John hadn't of been completely aware of what he was doing… He knew what he was doing and he didn't care! I never got to finish… and I'm telling everything out of order mom… Okay, so I get home and John's on the porch… He runs up to me asking me where I went and how worried he was and I was just telling him to get away, and he kept grabbing my hands trying to get me to listen and I didn't want to so I slapped him… I slapped him hard and told that of all the nights he picked that night to mess things up and that I hated him and to just leave me alone… I told him that he still hadn't grown up and that he never would… Then I ran to the house and climbed up the trellis in my dress so you and Donny wouldn't see what I looked like when I walked past your rooms." Danica revealed to her mother.

"Sweetie… I know that must have been traumatizing for you, and I'm sure it still must be… but with everything going on now you and John need to work together, remember this isn't about you and John and what happened in the past, it's about Lily ann and what's going to happen in her future." Mary told her daughter and kissed her forehead.

"Thanks mom." Danica said as Lily began to cry and Danica heard it through the baby monitor.

"I'm going to go check on her and them I'm going to go to bed." Danica said to her mother.

"Alright sweetie, I'm going to go clean the kitchen." Mary replied.

(Meanwhile)

John was driving his mother home. "John… it was six years ago when you and Danii stopped being friends, what happened exactly? You said she had a great time at her Prom… I still don't understand…" Carol Cena questioned her son.

"Well mom, it's a thing that you shouldn't have to understand… The bottom line is I made the biggest screw up ever known to man… My screw up will go down in history as the biggest screw up of all time." John tried to get his mother to grasp the fact that she should be spared the gruesome details of that night.

"John, just tell me what happened!" Carol said impatiently.

"Fine mom…. It was about 10:30pm on the night of Danni's Prom… Danii went to the dance floor with some friends and said she would be back after she danced to the song and went to the bathroom and I waited for her at the table. Then a girl that Danii went to school with that liked me came up and sat down. She was gorgeous! She had this soft blonde hair and these icy blue eyes. She had a nice body too… Up front she was amazing and from behin—"

"John save it, skip to the rest of the story." Carol said not feeling like hearing John describe a plastic Barbie.

"Well… she talked to me for a little while and asked me to go outside with her to catch some fresh air… I looked towards the bathroom and didn't see Danica… So I grabbed my jacket and put it on and went outside with the girl. When we were outside we talked some more, and she was flirting and she started kissing me… Then she pulled away and asked if the white limo was mine… I told her yes and she took me by my hand and went to it… She opened the door and got inside… I didn't go in with her until she called me with her finger… She seemed irresistible and she had this thing about her, I don't know… One thing led to another and she ended up being completely naked and we were right in the middle of having sex when Danii opened the door. I felt so dumb, I had a naked girl in our limo with my pants around my ankles… The look in Danii's eyes kept me up for days… Her eyes welled up with tears in seconds… I remember hearing the girl chuckle and say "Whoops" and Danii slammed the door closed, I hiked up my pants not bothering fixing my belt and jumped out of the car to go after Danii… As I was chasing her and calling her name, people started leaving the Banquet hall the prom was over and I lost Danii in the crowd. I waited on the curb for Danii until 1 in the morning when I couldn't find her the limo drove me home. I got out and took my car back to her house… I climbed the trellis to see if she had gotten a ride home and was in her bedroom already but she wasn't. I waited on the porch and saw her coming down the street… I felt horrible… Her dress was dirty and she had no shoes, her hair was a mess and she had tears and make up smeared on her face and she was sobbing. I tried apologizing but she didn't want to hear it…She slapped me and I deserved it, she told me I would never grow up and that she never wanted to see me again, then she climbed up the trellis to her bedroom… We hadn't talked since then, until yesterday… And today she told me that when she went back to school the girl I was in the limo with told everyone what happened and called Danii a loser and a waste of time and a pity date…Danii said it hurt because what the girl had said was true… But what hurt worse was the fact that Danii actually liked me. But I swear mom, if I knew Danii liked me I wouldn't have even touched that girl I would've stayed right there in my chair and waited for Danii… I didn't understand why Danii was over reacting until she told me what she told me today…But we made an agreement that she would stop being so mean to me." John told his mother the long story by the time he had finished him and his mother were sitting in front of his mother's house. Carol Cena looked at her son in disgust and opened the door to the car and left without saying a word. John sighed and banged his head up against the steering wheel.

(The next morning)

Danica's alarm clock woke her up at 7:30 am. Danica slipped her hands out from under the blanket she was snuggled under and slammed her hand on the alarm clock. She stretched and yawned simultaneously. After letting her freshly opened eyes adjust to the sunlight peeking through her white curtains, Danica sat up and walked to the bathroom that was connected to her bedroom. She knew it would be a long day, tonight was Donny and Karen's wake which started at seven.

After showering, Danica came out with a towel wrapped around herself. She picked up her blow dryer and blew her hair out straight. She then put on some vanilla scented lotion and got dressed in a pair of short denim shorts and a white halter. Danica slipped on white strappy sandals and applied a light coat of lip-gloss. As if right on time, Lily began crying over the baby monitor that Danica had on her dresser.

She walked into the nursery and over to the white and pink wooden crib. "Ohhh my baby girl what's the matter?" Danica cooed and brought her goddaughter over to the changing table. After changing Lily's diaper, she brought her downstairs and put her in her playpen. Danica walked into the kitchen to make Lily a bottle when her mother looked behind her from the stove and passed her lily's bottle.

"I'm making oatmeal for the three of us for breakfast." Mary porter told her daughter.

"Okay ma, that'll be good." Danica said walking back into the living room and giving Lily her bottle. She returned to the kitchen and sat down at the table.

"I have so much to do mom." Danica told her mother.

"I'm sure you do dear, but what exactly is it that you have to do?" Mary asked her daughter.

"Well, I have to call my job, before tomorrow when I'm supposed to be at work. I left so abruptly Friday that I never got a chance to tell them it was a family emergency, I just ran out. I also need to move out of my apartment and to Donny's place. Luckily, my six-month lease will be up soon, and I didn't pay in advance this time. Then comes the factor of me having to ask for a job transfer. I'll feel so awkward going back to Mercy hospital." Danica said aloud.

"Mercy is where your dream all began sweetie." Mary told her daughter as she poured tea.

"Yeah it is. Going back to the roots, I guess. It's going to take me forever and a day to move from my old apartment back here." Danica told her mother with a sigh.

"Well, you could always ask-" Mary was cut off by her daughter.

"No mom, I don't want to ask him for anything more than is absolutely necessary. And that isn't necessary." Danica told her mother.

"Suit yourself. But if you were being a mature logical thinking adult, you would just muster up the courage, swallow your pride, and ask john and his brothers to help you, and it'd get the job done one, two, three." Mary urged her daughter.

"Fine." Danica gave in and muttered a few unpleasant words under her breath.

"I have to run some errands today. I need to go the deli, and talk to them about catering for the repass here tomorrow. I won't be long but I will be just a few hours, I also have to pick up thank you cards for people coming to the wake. " Mary informed Danica.

"No problem mom." Danica replied with a nod.

"Oh and Carol and I will be going to the funeral home early today for the wake. Just to make sure that the flowers and everything else are arranged perfectly." Mary explained to her daughter.

"Alrighty" Danica responded.

After Danica fed Lily her breakfast, she gave her a bath and changed her diaper; once she was finished; Lily was dressed in a yellow and white sunflower dress with a matching sunflower hat and white shoes.

"Don't you look so precious!" Danica said snuggling her face up to Lily's who giggled loudly. Danica brought Lily downstairs and put her in her swing. Danica then went into the kitchen and ate her own breakfast. After finishing it up, she washed the dishes, made Lily a bottle and brought it to her. While Lily drank her bottle and laid in her swing, Danica went upstairs and brushed her teeth, she then wiped down everything in Lily's room. When it came to Lily, Danica was an absolute neat freak. After she finished wiping down the room, Danica came down the stairs at the same time that the doorbell rang. She answered the door, which happened to have John standing on the other side.

"Hi" Danica said with a small smile.

"Hey" John said suddenly nervous, he shoved his hands in his pockets and swayed from side to side.

"Oh" Danica said snapping out of her thoughts and opening the door wider for him to come in.

"Hi Mrs. Porter" John greeted and gave Mary a hug and kiss on the cheek.

"Hi sweetie, how are you?" Mary asked.

"I'm fine… So Danii. I'm thinking we can go to the park?" John asked Danica.

"Sounds good." Danica replied. "We can take my car, I already have Lily's car seat in the car. " John nodded in understanding. You can just grab her baby bag." Danica told John while she walked over to Lily's swing and un-strapped her then took her out.

"Hey sweetie pie! Whatcha doin there pretty girl? Huh?" Danica asked bouncing Lily who giggled happily.

"What's so funny huh? Huh baby girl?" John asked pinching her cheeks. Lily clapped her hands and gave a toothless grin.

"Okay Lil we go bye bye now!" Danica told Lily and snuggled her own nose with Lily's. The trio walked out of the house.

"Uhh Danii, there's no way, that I'm going to fit in a Toyota echo." John said stopping on the porch of the house as he stared at a car parked outside the house.

"What are you talking about? Oh that's not my car you dummy." Danica said rolling her eyes. "That's my car over there" Danica told John pointing to her 20098 Acura MDX.

"Niceee" John said and walked over to the car. "I'm driving though." John told Danica. Danica rolled her eyes and unlocked the car with the remote. She opened the door and strapped Lily into her car seat. As always, Danica had things for Lily everywhere, her car seat, high chairs at her apartment, playpens, diapers everything. She spent a lot of quality time with her niece and was always prepared for her.

Danica tossed John the keys and closed the backseat door.

The pair climbed into the SUV and john started the car. Danica didn't feel like listening to CD's so she turned on the radio. She flipped through the stations and stopped when she heard Pink's song "Who Knew."

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right…

"Oh John I love this song." Danica said with a small smile on her face.

"Why?" John asked never having listened to the song's actual words.

I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

"I don't really know, it reminds me of us, kind of, we used to be so close, and it's like the song says, who knew things would have turned out like they had, us not talking for six years and hating each other…" Danica explained.


If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

"Okay Danii, let's get one thing straight, I've never hated you." John told her as he stopped at a red light and looked her straight in her eyes.

"Alright, well me hating you. I just, I don't know sometimes, I just missed ya. And I couldn't talk to you. Well no not couldn't I wouldn't." Danica said with a small frown.

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

"Well you got what ya wanted, cause' now you are stuck with me" John said with a smile.

"That's not a bad thing." Danica responded and smiled feeling like she just had a weight lifted off her shoulders. John picked up her hand and kissed the back of it.

"I missed you Danii, I really did." John told her sincerely.

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

"I missed you too John." Danica replied and leaned her head on his shoulder.


Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

"BA!"Lily cried out with a smile from the back seat.

"That's all she has been doing lately." Danica told John with a chuckle.

"Well at least she's getting some where." John replied and looked at Lily through the rear view mirror.

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss

I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

The three had a fun day in the park. During that time, John and Danica caught up on what had happened in the past six years. The only thing that Danica didn't tell John was her current living situation and her love life. However, John had filled Danica in on everything of importance that has happened to him. To both of them it felt like old times when they would hang out. There were only a few differences.

Danica lay on a blanket laughing hysterically trying her hardest to catch her breath. Lily lay in the middle of them drinking her bottle. John lay on the other side with a grin on his face.

"So what did the fan do after that?" Danica asked with a smirk.

"She climbed out of the closet in my hotel room with a small box. She opened it and proposed to me." John told Danica with a grin.

"What'd you say?" Danica asked laughing even harder.

"I asked her how in the hell did she get in my room." John told Danica.

"Did security come?" Danica asked.

"Yeah, I had called them when I heard the noises in the closet. I thought it was a crazy fan. I mean it was a crazy fan, but I thought it was one who wanted to kill me. Kinda like the one who ran me off the road." John told Danica.

"Awww so let me guess, they dragged her out, kicking and screaming?" Danica questioned.

"Yeah they did." John told Danica who turned on her side facing him and Lily.

"Poor poor girl… Ugh, it's two thirty. I have so many things to do." Danica informed John covering her face with her hands and sighing.

"Like?" John asked.

"Well, I have to call my job, tell them I won't be coming in, and ask for an immediate transfer to Mercy hospital. I have to move out of my apartment and into Donny's and it's such a big task." Danica explained to John.

"Well, I can't really help you with the job transfer part, but I can help you with the moving part, me and my brothers." John told Danica reassuringly.

"Really? Oh that'd be great John thanks." Danica thanked him with a smile.

"You're welcome." John shrugged. Lily then dropped her bottle next to her and tried to grab her toes.

"Moochie! What do you think your doin huh? Huh?" John cooed and blew on her cheeks as she giggled and squirmed in his arms.

"You're so good with her." Danica admired.

"Thanks" John replied. After hanging around the park a while longer, the trio went back to the Porter home. John played with Lily more while Danica called her job. After making the necessary arrangements, she hung up the phone.

"I'm going to go get ready for the wake. Did you want me to pick you and your mother up?" John asked Danica.

"Umm, I know my mom has to go to the funeral home extra early, and so is your mom, so you and I can go together with Lily, but I don't think my mother will be going with us." Danica told John.

"Oh alright, I'll pick you up at six thirty, is that alright?" John asked Danica. Danica nodded with a frown. John touched her cheek with the palm of her hand.

"It's going to be okay Danii." John assured her.

"I know, it just hasn't really even sunk in yet, that he's gone. I keep thinking he's on vacation or something. I haven't thought about him all day I did my best to avoid it and I was successful, and now, well now I'm sucked back into reality, and it's hitting me like a ton of bricks." Danica said plopping on the sofa behind her.

"Danii look at me… We have to be strong, we have to be strong for Lily, Donny wants us to take car of her, and love her and be there for her, we can't do that if we're too busy feeling sorry for ourselves. Donny is in a better place, and so is Karen. We're going to get through this; we're going to get through this just fine." John told her cupping her face in his hands. Danica nodded in understanding.

"I'll see you later okay angel face?" John asked her.

"Kay." Danica said nodding and hugging John tightly. John kissed her in the top of her head and their hug lingered. After pulling away, he showered Lily with kisses and hugged her as well.

"Say bye bye?" John asked her.

"BA!" Lily squealed as John's face formed a smile. After John left, Danica gave Lily a bath since she had been trying to make dry mud pies in the dirt at the park.

After she finished bathing Lily, putting lotion on her, and changing her diaper, Danica took a small tooth baby comb and combed Lily's hair.

After combing out her hair she got the baby blow dryer she had brought for Lily out of the closet, she blew Lily's hair out straight. She looked at Lily's clothes. She really didn't want to dress her in black. So she decided to dress her in all white. She put Lily in a white silky sleeve less dress. The dress had lace around the bottom and thick straps for the arms. After putting the dress on Lily, Danica took out some white lace cashmere dress socks for Lily. She put them on her goddaughter and opened up a box of with a new pair of shoes for Lily that she had yet to wear. Danica put Lily's tiny feet in white satin ballet flats designed by the well renowned child designer Emile et Rose.

Once completing the task of putting on her shoes, Danica moved on to Lily's hair. She combed out Lily's dry yet tussled hair. For a six month old, Lily had nice thick hair that was long for a baby her age. She parted the hair into two side parts and a part behind the side parts making a U in the top of Lily's head. Danica combed the hair in the middle back. She put the hair in the middle in a ponytail. Afterwards, she took a small white baby clip and put it over the white baby scrunchy and gave Lily a small poof in her hair. She then combed down the sides of her hair straight.

"Aren't you gorgeous!" Danica cooed over Lily. Lily smiled brightly. Karen had taken Lily to get her ears pierced last month, Although Donny wasn't too happy about it he brought Lily a couple pairs of gold and white diamond baby stud earrings. Danica had taken some of Lily's earrings and brought them to her mom's house and put them in Lily's jewelry box. Danica went in the jewelry box and took out a pair of white gold studs and put them on Lily, following a matching white gold necklace and bracelet. Finally, she was done getting Lily ready for the wake.

Danica brought Lily downstairs and put her in her swing, she didn't want her to get her clothes wrinkled or dirty or her hair messed up, so she laid Lily in her swing and Lily dozed off to sleep. Danica then rushed into the shower, once she finished she came out in a hurry and blow-dried her hair. She then put a few ringlets in it towards the ends. After putting on lotion, Danica pulled out a satin black V- Neck dress that ended at her lower thigh. Danica slipped the dress on over her head and looked in her closet for a pair of shoes to wear. She took out a pair of low-heeled black slip in sandals. After putting them on, Danica put on light brown eye shadow and a neutral tone for her lips. Her tan skin was flawless so she never used foundation. Danica put on a pair of platinum diamond earring that she got as a gift along with a matching bracelet and necklace. After fussing with her hair a little longer, Danica sprayed herself with some perfume and gave herself a once over. Her dress was tantalizing, her cleavage visible but still leaving more to be desired. She looked at her butt seeing how it looked in the dress. To her it looked normal, but from what she was told, she had a nice butt that was "a-fuckin-mazin." She then wondered why she was trying to look sexy at her brother's wake. Not being able to answer her own question, she shrugged. She took out a black coach bag and switched her license, credit card, cash and keys into the bag along with her favorite orbit gum. She walked down the stairs to see a sleeping Lily in her swing. Danica warmed a bottle for Lily and stuck it in her baby bag along with her toys.

She looked at the clock which read 6:25pm. Danica was shocked that she had gotten dressed in enough time. She decided to leave Lily sleeping until John came. She walked over to the mirror on the wall and continued to fuss with her hair. She decided to add some black eye liner on quickly. After adding the eyeliner, the doorbell rang. Danica answered the door and looked at John who was wearing a black dress shirt tucked underneath matching black dress pants which were being held up by an expensive looking black dress belt. Danica looked down to his shoes which were black and shiny, so shiny that Danica could see her reflection.

"You look beautiful Danii." John complimented her with a small smile. He took in her appearance, she looked drop dead gorgeous. He looked at her fairly large chest and wanted to dive in. His eyes lowered and saw the form fitting dress clinging to her flat stomach and lower to her shapely hips then lower to her legs. When the dress ended, John took in her nice inviting thighs that looked soft and creamy like the rest of her skin. His eyes traveled even lower to her toned calves, then finally down to her tiny heel clad feet and tiny pink perfectly polished toes.

"Th- Thanks" Danica said slowly inhaling his cologne which was old spice. She felt herself blush but forced it away.

"Uh, we should go." John stated anxiously.

"Oh yeah right." Danica said ready to walk out.

"Aren't you forgetting someone?" John asked as Danica stepped out of the house ready to close the door behind her. She closed her eyes and let out a sigh of frustration.

"Shit... What the hell is wrong with me?" Danica asked rushing into the house and flinging Lily's baby bag over her shoulder.

"Calm down, its fine you're under a lot of stress right now, it's normal." John told her soothingly.

"No it's not… imagine if I was going by myself without you, I would've forgotten Lily here all by herself." Danica said and picked up Lily who began to fuss. John saw that Danica was slowly but surely becoming a nervous wreck. She was in heels holding her purse, an oversized baby bag, and a baby and trying to walk as the baby fussed.

"Danii, you have to breath. Here give me the bags, and you can hold Lily." John said slowly. Danica nodded and handed over the bags to John.

"Remember, it's going to be okay." John assured Danica. The car ride to the wake was silent with the exception of Danica's deep inhales and exhales of breath. John held her hand throughout the car ride as he drove and rubbed his thumb against the back of her hand supportively.

When they finally arrived, Danica felt like the walls were closing in on her. "Do you need a minute?" John asked Danica when he saw her starring off into space.

"No I'm ready. I can do this. I'm fine." Danica nodded in an attempt to assure herself more than to assure John.

"Alright, then let's go angel." John told her as he put Lily's baby bag on his shoulder. He then picked up Lily who had fallen asleep in the car. Danica picked up her purse and held John's hand as they crossed the street to the funeral home.

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