Property of Yashamaru

I don't own Yashamaru, Naruto, Karura, Gaara, Temari, or anything else. I wish I did though.

In my story, all the weird little things are NOT facts. Purely thoughts!

I've noticed that the child, Gaara, is often lonely. He often wants to be around me because no one else will even come near him. He whines whenever I leave him for too long.

Temari's birthday was today, but I was told by Lord Kazekage not to come. I did as he asked, and stayed at home with the child. I don't think that Lord Kazekage likes the fact that Elder sister Karura left the child to me.

Kankuro's birthday was today, but like with Temari, I was told not to come. I think that Lord Kazekage is still bitter about me getting the child.

Elder sister Karura and my birthday was today. I set flowers one her grave and the rest of the day was spent alone with the child.

The child, Gaara, said his first word today. Well, it wasn't really a word; it was only part of my name. The child said, "Yash!" Then the child smiled as I patted his head.

The child's first birthday was today. I gave him a small treat, and then I took him to Elder sister's grave, where I put roses.

Temari's sixth birthday was today. I haven't seen her in quite a while, because Lord Kazekage wants to keep his children away from the youngest, Gaara, and me. However, Temari had asked that I come, so, in order to make his little girl happy, he had let me come. She has grown so much. She looks like her mother, and her personality is a combination of both her father and her mother. I also saw Kankuro. He has also grown quite a bit. Neither of them acknowledged Elder sister's youngest, Gaara, as their brother. I suppose that's because he's been raised away from them.

The child, Gaara, now knows how to walk, and has been following me all day. The child doesn't seem bad, just not in control of his powers.

I saw Elder sister's youngest, Gaara, staring at Elder sister's picture today. He looked at me, and then pointed to the picture. I picked up the picture and held it in front of him. "This is your mother," I said. "She was beautiful, but she's gone now. Her name was Karura." He touched the picture of Elder sister lightly, carefully. "Can you say 'mother' or 'Karura'?" He traced elder sister's features with his small fingers. He whispered something. Then he looked at me and said, "Mother."

Kankuro's birthday was today, but I couldn't go because Elder sister's youngest, Gaara, was not allowed. Lord Kazekage does not his children to see their younger brother. Sometimes I feel sorry for the child. He's kept isolated, not allowed to have friends. It must be a lonely existence to have just one person to be around.

Today was Elder sister and my birthday. I went alone to her grave and put down flowers.

Today Gaara turned two. He didn't even seem to acknowledge the fact. I put flowers on Elder sister's grave without Gaara.

Temari's birthday was today, but like Kankuro's last birthday, I was not allowed to go because of the child.

Elder sister and my birthday was today. I sorely miss Elder sister. I put flowers on her grave, and I let her youngest, Gaara, pick one and set it on her grave. When he put it there, he whispered to the grave, "Mother." I wonder, if the child hadn't killed her, would she have loved the child as she loved Temari and Kankuro? The child, Gaara, doesn't seem to mean to do any of the things he does wrong. He seems very loving, in fact.

Gaara's birthday was today. He didn't even know, I think. He acted no different. I gave him a small brown teddy bear as a gift. He carries it around everywhere.

Lord Kazekage says that Gaara should now be observed, meaning that Gaara can now go into town. I took him out and showed him a few places, such as the park. Then I told him he could go out whenever he wanted, as long as he was back for meals. He also cannot often go out after dark.

Gaara is no longer as happy as he was. He frequently comes home and asks, "What's a freak?" or "What's a monster?" I don't think he's being accepted by his fellow peers. He knows that they are avoiding him, but he doesn't know why. Everyone looks at him with hate in their eyes.

Temari's birthday was today, so I stopped by and gave her a gift. When she opened the door, she smiled and hugged me, saying, "Uncle Yashy!" I smiled at her and picked her up. "What have you been up to?" I asked. Temari, however, looked behind me, then smiled and said, "Good, you didn't bring the monster." I set her down. "Your brother, Gaara, is not a monster," I scolded her. She looked at me as if I was insane. "That monster's not my brother."

Today I came home and caught him talking to Elder sister's picture. He asked it, "Why…Why…Why am I so different? Why does everyone have me? Why?" He was also crying. I came up to him and touched his shoulder gently. He turned and the sand slashed a cut in my arm. Seeing it was me he started to apologize profusely. "It's alright," I said. "Just a scratch."

The child, Gaara, has prevented me from attending Temari's birthday. I dropped Temari's gift off with Lord Kazekage.

I have come home a lot lately to see Gaara crying. It pains me a little to see the child, who has really done nothing, tortured so.

Today was the twenty-fifth anniversary of Elder sister and my birth. I didn't get to place flowers at Elder sister's grave, so I sent Gaara to her grave to place flowers.

Today was Gaara's fourth birthday. He didn't seem very happy, though. We both went to Elder sister's grave and placed flowers.

I just realized I haven't written about Temari's, Elder sister and my, or Gaara's birthday. I've been very busy, working, trying to teach Gaara, and I've also needed to attend meetings with Lord Kazekage on how Gaara is doing. Gaara is now five, Temari is now nine, and Kankuro is now seven.

Lord Kazekage is starting to view this as a failed experiment. I have asked that Gaara have a little longer, and he said that was fine.

Temari turned ten today. I did not attend the party, nor did I drop off a gift this year.

Elder sister and my birthday has come and passed, I however was too busy to write, and now I've forgotten what I did to celebrate.

Gaara is now six. He should start school, but Lord Kazekage is not allowing him to. Gaara seems very lonely, probably because he does not have anyone who cares about him except me.

Why did I say that? Gaara killed Elder sister. But not on purpose.

Gaara has been getting into a lot of trouble lately. I think Lord Kazakage is thinking of disposing of him soon. Just today Gaara attacked some of the other children. The loneliness must be crushing. I've never seen anyone express anything towards him except fear.

Elder sister, sometimes I wonder if you were right to have been cursing the child. Though he cannot control himself very well, and he can seem intimidating, he does have a softer side. He seems very confused. He asked me what it meant to hurt today, and I couldn't explain it to him very well.

He also asked what it love meant, and I couldn't explain that either.

My previous entry was correct; Lord Kazakage wants me to try to kill Gaara. I accepted. Though my feelings for him are mixed, I know that I will die, even if I do not bring him into the afterlife with me.

Elder sister Karura, I shall soon be reunited with you.

As the sun rose, Gaara, the young Kazekage, rose as well and, after putting the diary back. Walked to the table where he had set both his mother's picture and Yashamaru's. He gave the pictures one solemn glace before leaving to start the day.

Cassi: Hey… You should press the neat little review button and say who's diary you want next. I've already had a request for Kiba, and I kind of want to do a Itachi one.