First Reactions, Second Thoughts

Chapter 14

Trory

Rated T for later chapters

"But your coming back right Daddy, your not going to leave me like my other mommy did right?" Jamie asked tears pouring out of his eyes.

"Jamie daddy doesn't want to leave but daddy has to, I'll always come back for you little man, nothing in this world is going to stop me from coming home for you!" Tristan said scooping him up in a big hug.

Rory sat there with her head in her hands and silently cried, Tristan walked back and force in front of the window in their living room, rubbing Jamie's back till he calmed down and until he fell asleep.

"It's not fair Tristan" Rory said looking up.

"He doesn't need this, I don't need this" Rory said.

"I know but I have three more years and I'm done Rory I wont have to go back," Tristan said sitting down next to her.

"It's not fair but I'll stand by you, through thick and thin, were in this together and in the end we'll be together again" Rory said grabbing his hand and squeezing it.

"Forever baby, as long as you think of me, I'm home and I'll be here," Tristan said squeezing her hand back.

"Put him to bed" Rory said gesturing to Jamie.

"I will in a minute," Tristan said.

"You'll be okay, we'll all be okay baby" Tristan said.

"I know, hey I'm going to go for a walk I'll be home soon," Rory said standing up.

"Are you sure I could ask someone to watch him for a while and come with you" Tristan said sweetly.

"No it's okay I just need to wrap my mind around this" Rory said smiling at him.

"I'll be home soon," Rory said walking out the door.

"I hope so, I want all the time with you I can get" Tristan said quietly after the door closed.

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Rory walked a few blocks it wasn't dark out quite yet it was only 7:30 on a Wednesday night. She walked through the neighborhood staring at everything; this was the way her and Tristan would walk to take Jamie to the park. As soon as she got there she walked straight to the swings and sat down.

"I hope you bring him home, it would make everything so easy" Rory said looking up at the sky.

"I wish he didn't have to go, but I guess he's working for you for a while huh? Trying to make the peace, where it should already be" Rory said.

"I never really believed much in you or talked to you, I think for the next year that's gunna change a whole lot" Rory said bitterly.

She sat there and swung on her swing for hour's when she finally made it home it was 11:30, she walked into the living room to see Tristan sitting there crying silently.

"I started to think you left" Tristan said numbly.

"I.." Rory started.

"That you gave up on me on us, that you finally had enough, that you couldn't take the fact I had to leave you and Jamie behind. I thought I had lost you for good" Tristan said looking up at her.

"Tristan" Rory said her heart breaking with his words and the broken look on his face.

"Promise me you wont leave me, promise you wont leave Jamie, just promise you'll be here till the end" Tristan said falling to his knees in front of her.

"Tristan I love you I'm never going anywhere, this is where I want to be, don't you forget that" Rory said hugging him.

"Come on let's go to bed" Rory said pulling him up and making him follow her to bed.

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They laid together wrapped in each others arms, it was their last night together for a year and they were going to make it worth it. They didn't care about anything else, they just wanted the feeling of holding each other to last them for a year, of course he had to leave behind more, his lover and his child.

"I'm going to miss this" Rory said sadly.

"I'm going to miss waking up to you, the smell of your hair, the way you feel when I hold you, the way you and Jamie look together when your hanging out, holding your hand, kissing you and much more Mary" Tristan said pulling her closer to him.

"Mommy Daddy I cant sleep" Jamie said as he snuck into there room.

"Come here little man" Rory said pulling him under the blanket between her and Tristan.

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Tristan lies awake just watching Rory and Jamie sleep next to him; he was going to miss these moments. He felt bad when he go the call he just wanted to be here with them instead. He looked over at the clock he knew he had to get his stuff together. Gradually he rolled out of bed and put his duffle bag by the door, he changed into his outfit, god how he hated this outfit, he wore his brown camo pants and his white wife beater and his dog tags. He had time so he figured he might as well get it over with, he stood in the bathroom and started shaving his hair off. When he was done he stood there and looked at himself.

"I used to think this was a look of freedom, and responsibility the ultimate work uniform but now all I see is a depressed man leaving his family" Tristan stated sadly.

"Hey wake up I have to leave soon," Tristan said gently shaking Rory awake.

"Hey military man" Rory said kissing him.

"Get dressed while I get Jamie dressed" Tristan said kissing her forehead.

Rory nodded as she rolled out of bed and went over to the dresser, pulling out a pair of jeans and one of Tristan's wifebeaters. She changed quickly and put her hair in a ponytail and brushed her teeth. She walked into the living room to see Tristan slipping on a pair of boots. She grabbed her hoodie and slipped on her converse. She smiled she was an unconventional mom when it came to dressing.

They got in the car and drove to the airport, he was getting anxious and she was getting nervous. They pulled up and parked, Tristan grabbed his back and carried a half awake Jamie into the airport. Tristan put his duffle bag down and put Jamie on his side while pulling Rory into his arms.

"I love you Both so much" Tristan said.

"I love you too daddy, I'm going to miss!" Jamie said.

"I'll miss you to bub" Tristan said letting a tear fall down.

"Can I put you down for a second?" Tristan asked Jamie.

Jamie nodded quickly slipping out of his father's arm and sitting on the chair behind them.

"I love you baby, please be safe as safe as you can be at least" Rory cried into his cheek.

"Baby I'll be back soon don't you worry, I'll miss you soo much" Tristan said.

"Last call for flight 23" The lady on the speaker called.

"Baby I have to go but I love you and I'll miss you, take care of yourself and Jamie, I'll call you as soon as I can I promise" Tristan said kissing her as thoroughly as he could quickly.

"Hey bub I'll miss you I love you and take care of you momma, behave! Daddy will be home soon I promise you" Tristan said pulling Jamie into a hug.

"I'll miss you too and I will daddy I promise" Jamie said.

Tristan walked away slowly he walked through security, he turned and looked back tears sliding down his face, he blew them both a kiss and winked at Rory. Rory held Jamie in her arms and they both waved to him as he walked through the gate and towards the plane.

"Its just you and me for a while Bub" Rory said, kissing his head.

"Yeah" Jamie agreed leaning against Rory.

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