You know there's that saying 'Honeymoons over' well ours never really began. The next day Potter was back informing me of the plan, my do's and don't and the like. And then it was like I started a full time job ... just without the pay and job satisfaction. Draco was an amazingly supportive husband, he was exactly what I needed when I needed him whether it be a shoulder to cry on someone to fight with or ... other things. But it was all so very draining, I had to be on guard all the time just to make sure I didn't let anything slip to other people which was hard considering I've been stupidly emotional lately but that's stress and pressure for you. But with all the extra emotion is a load of confusion, I'm supposed to be rooting for the winning team but instead I want the order to win because that's the side my friends are on and well it's the right damn thing for Merlin's sake ... something's definitely wrong with me. But I do know one thing, I want this stupid war to be over.

"Grey" hissed the dark lord only it didn't register in my mind. "Grey!" he hissed again with a lot more anger but the only thing I registered was a quick jab in my side from Draco

"Yes my lord?" I answered finally, mortified that I hadn't been 100 focused, after all when meeting with deatheaters its not a good idea to be distracted.

"See me when this is over" he said coldly, "Alone!" he added when Draco looked as if he were about to speak. The meeting was soon over and the others were dismissed although Draco was hesitant to leave but we both knew there was no way in hell he could stay.

"I'm sorry for earlier my lord, I'm afraid I-" I began desperately racking my brains for something to say only to be interrupted.

"Save your stupid excuses girl, I have another mission for you" he stated firmly

'What?!' My mind screeched 'Because I'm not doing enough already' but instead of voicing this I nodded to show that I understood.

"I've been impressed with your results, your marriage to Malfoy has fooled many people, in fact many of the other deatheaters believe it too" he said in a tone that I assumed was meant to be light but his eyes were cruelly piecing mine.

"Seriously?" I laughed "I mean, Draco and I reached a certain understanding but that's all, I had no idea it was coming off as something more."

"An understanding?" he asked suspiciously and I nodded in reply "Do you ... love him?" he spat disgustedly

"He means nothing to me" I said as seriously as possible and for a second or so later I was sure I heard a thump outside of the room but it Voldermort didn't acknowledge it so I wouldn't either

"Good" Voldermort stated "Love makes people unpredictable and you really are an amazing actress."

"Thank you my lord"

"For this next mission I need you to seduce Potter, it will give you some power over him and allow us to manipulate him, it should be easy for a woman of your talents. Get it done!" he ordered.

"Yes my lord" I answered and quickly departed.

"I mean nothing to you?!" Draco shouted the minute I got home.

"What?" I asked honestly confused.

"Don't fuck me around, I heard you say it?" he screamed and I flinched

"You heard me talking to Voldermort" I said quietly as realisation hit me "What else did you here?" I asked urgently.

"Like I'd stick around to hear you say anything else" he spat. I couldn't believe how much it hurt to see him in so much pain.

"Draco, it was all bullshit, I swear I was just telling what he wanted to hear for our own sakes" I cried, "I love you more than anything, you've got to believe that."

"I want to believe you Keira but- but you were just so convincing, how do I know it's not me that's being lied to, or that this isn't just a case of convenience..."

"Convenience?" I asked hurt that he could think that "This isn't just about what I said is it?" I asked and Draco just dropped his head to look at the floor. "If I wanted convenience I'd have married Charlie and had an easy life but no, I want you instead, I love you, I married you! This isn't pretend anymore, it's real and it's forever" I said really crying now as he was still looking at the floor. "You think it's a mistake don't you?". He just continued to stare at the floor "Draco?" I whispered as I felt like my heart was being slowly torn apart. "Look at me?" I pleaded through sobs. "Say Something!" I screamed. But still he looked at the floor "Oh god" I cried and took off upstairs. By the time Draco followed me up I had already thrown some clothes and stuff into a bag, got changed, cleaned myself up and calmed down. "What?" I asked coldly as I put some essentials into the bag that I'd forgotten while I was a bit more hysterical.

"Keira, I'm sorry" he muttered quietly

"Good" I replied savagely and continued packing.

"I love you" he said as sincerely as possible and part of me wanted to rush over and kiss him or say it back but I couldn't

"I'm not so sure you do anymore," I told him trying to stop my voice from breaking "How can you love me and not trust me? How can you believe our marriage was a mistake?"

"I don't know but I do" he said sadly.

"You know, I trusted you, I trusted you with my heart and- and it feels like you stamping all over it. Merlin, I can't believe I said something so lame" I chuckled, furiously wiping away at my eyes. "I can't stay here" I told him monotonously

"Where are you going?" he asked concerned.

"I have work to do" I said grimly with a forced smile and left my rings on the table before I dissapperated.

I ended up staying at Charlie's, I know it's the last place I should have really gone but he's always been good at comforting me and I could trust him not to say I told you so like the other Weasley's would and Addie would be too busy entertaining her muggle boyfriend. It's only been a day since I left and he hasn't tried to find me. I don't know how long I can carry on for, I t feels like I' dying a very slow and brutal and painful death.

"Hey, where you been?" Charlie asked gently once I'd returned.

"To see Potter" I answered dully

"How'd it go?" he asked sounding a little puzzled.

"Well lets just say mission accomplished" I replied then saw Charlie's expression go from puzzled to strait up confusion "Don't worry about it" I chuckled "I'm gonna have a shower." Then I left to do as I said as I would. Or at least I meant to anyway, instead I let the water run while I stripped of and just stared at myself in the mirror, I wondered if I looked any different, I felt different, I was different, I just wanted to know if it showed.

"Hey I'm making dinner " I heard Charlie yell "Do yo-" he stopped as he barged in to find me naked. "Sorry" he quickly apologised "I thought you were in the sh-" he stopped again. And that's when I realised my back wasn't covered by a glamour. Before he could do anything I grabbed my clothes and wand and dissaperated. Well now I'm really in trouble.