I'd have expected the news of me being a deatheater to be big news but it was all kept very quiet, not that I'm complaining of course. But now I was a wanted woman I had to be even more careful than usual, oh how I long to be careless, but no now I'll probably never be careless and care free again. How did Voldermort take my outing? Well he took it well enough I guess, then again he had another disaster to distract him. Would you believe my darling bastard of a husband had actually missed his last few meetings with the deatheaters, and he'd cut off all contact he had with them, the rumour is that he's actually joined the order for real. It makes me laugh now, think about it, me being the bad ass, him being the goody-goody. Well that is that it makes me laugh when I'm not crying my eyes out. I'm all over the place really, not that I'm letting the dark lord see, but I'm angry at Draco, but missing him desperately, seriously worried about him, and hating what my friends and family must think about me, ashamed really, and I'm sad and I'm scared and I can't believe the mess I made of this.

I decided I was going to go home, I needed to pick up a few things and decided to do a sneaky trip at night. But with me being he emotional mess that I am I ended up curled up in bed crying into the pillow. I heard a noise out side the room "Who's there?" I whispered squinting in the dark to see the figure at the door.

"Keira?" whispered a voice I recognised to be Draco's and I launched myself at him. "Oh thank Merlin your ok" he breathed squeezing me tight and kissed me on the forehead.

"Well that's debateable" I chuckled lightly

"I didn't know what they'd do to you" he tried to explain but I kissed him to stop him from saying anything else.

"I'm fine" I told him "You should be more concerned for your own safety, they're calling you a traitor"

"That's because I am one sweetie" he said patronisingly and smirked at me so I punched him in the arm and sat back on the bed.

"Why?" I asked quietly expressing a lot of concern

"I'm not quite sure, I had one of your stupid logic moments that you have right before you do something dangerous it made sense at the time but now I'm not so sure." He said and laughed a little.

"What do the guys think of me?" I asked feeling floods of shame hit me.

"They think it's there fault" he said gravely and sat next to me "They think they put you in this situation by asking you to go undercover and that you were seduced by the bad side ... apparently you've always been attracted to danger."

"Hey I married you didn't I?" I joked but remembered that was a touchy subject.

"Keira" he began "I'm sorry, it was wrong of me to suggest it was a mistake, I know that now, this last week without you have been ..."

"Torture" I finished grimly

"You too huh?" he sighed "I mean what I said when I asked you to marry me though, I want to grow old with you and have babies and all that crap"

"Might not have to wait that long for the baby part" I mumbled and lay back on the bed

"What?" he asked confused and lent over me slightly so he could look me in the eye.

"I'm pregnant" I confirmed sounding ... well sort of emotionless, I honestly didn't know what to think

"Holy shit" he managed to splutter out and collapsed next to me.

"Yup" I replied in the same tone as earlier

"Were going to be parents" he stated in shock

"Yup" I repeated

"And it's probably going to have your lopsided mouth"

"Yu- ... Hey!" I yelled and turned to see him smirking at me so I poked him viciously in the ribs and he began to tickle me mercilessly. He soon stopped with his face above mine, smiled and kissed me, softly at first but then a lot more passionately and well one thing led to another and well I'm sure you don't need to hear the details.

Later we were lying in bed, I was resting my head on his chest listening to his heart beating while he stroked my hair.

"So what are we going to do?" I asked finally

"What?" he asked absentmindedly

"Where did you just get back from?" I asked curiously.

"A not so distant future where you were screaming my name in pleasure... again" he said dreamily and I laughed.

"Well I can't wait for that bit but we should really think about what happens next." I said trying to sound serious.

"We need this war to be over as soon as possible really" he replied thoughtfully

"Thanks for that insight genius" I drawled "Hey trade ya deatheater secrets for order secrets so we can see what's really happening" And that's what we did, a lot had happened recently, turns out Potter had accomplished whatever secret mission he'd been trying to do before facing Voldermort and Voldermort was in position to take over the ministry. The way we saw it if the Order attacked before the takeover they'd most likely win but if they waited to after the takeover Voldermort would be too powerful what with all the resources at his disposable and the order would most likely be destroyed. I guess it's time for me and Draco to decide which side we wanted to root for, we both have family and friends belonging to each side and both of us are considered traitors to one side each so far the reasons we have for which side should win were even for both sides. But in the end we managed to reach a decision. All we'll have to do is survive the battle.