AN- hello lovely ppl just to let u no the part in italics is a a flashbck enjoy

-- Tony --

6 o'clock, Michelle should be here soon and I have to remember not to go mental at her when she comes in. Just play it cool, I hear the front door open and close then Michelle's voice announcing herself. Ok here it comes don't loss your head unless you need to!

"Hey babe" god I need to.

"Don't fucking call me that!" I snarled.

Michelle looked taken aback and confused. "What's wrong? What have I done?" she asked obviously confused but laughing slightly.

"I know what you told Maxxie, I know what you told me he thought of me was a lie and I know that you did because you thought you'd guarantee our relationship if you did. Guess what it's destroyed it!"

She just stared at me for a minute, opened her mouth as if to say something then closed it again. She tried again and managed to say something, "who told you?" she asked quietly looking at my duvet.

"Does it matter" I said trying to bit back a growl.

She then suddenly snapped her head up and I could see tears in her eyes, "you can't honestly say this is it! Come on Tony think about all the times you fucked me around and I always forgave you it's not fa-"

"I'm not you! I won't let anyone fuck me around I loved you Shell, and now…." I trailed of forgetting about my anger.

She went back to staring at my covers but it didn't hide the tears running down her face, "so that's it? We're over?" she whispered sounding broken.

I nodded, "I think we would have just fallen into a pattern of hurting each other if we stay together cause I think I like max," I paused to see her reaction and it was wide eyed astonishment, "and I don't think I'd forgive you for what you've done."

The silence that followed was uncomfortable and embarrassing as I picked at a thread on my t-shirt and Michelle seemed to have been hypnotised by a spot of my duvet. "I should go," she finally said and was gone before I could even look up at her.

oOoMaxxieoOo

God why am I so nervous I'm going to hang with Tony not ask him to become my life partner! I take another look at myself in the full length mirror in my parents room, I was wearing a pair of loose fitting jeans that just showed the top of my boxer briefs, scruffy old trainers and my blue stripy top that I'd wore in Russia when Tony had first kissed me. I pulled at the bottom of it in a daze, I hadn't put this on because of its history I had just seen it and thought 'hey not worn this in a while'. It was only after I had put it on that I remember Russia and had frowned, maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

Stop it! You'll go for like an hour maybe that's all and its just Tony he doesn't bit! I ran a hand through my hair and took another look in the mirror. My hair was standing on its ends and it gave me the impression of an insane man. I flattened it again and left the room and went to my own. I picked up my hat just as I heard my dad shouting me. I bounced down the stairs quickly and entered the kitchen to my dad standing at the open patio door smoking a roll up so my little brother didn't inhale the smoke.

"What were you doing up there?" my dad asked with an eyebrow raised in interest.

"He was prettying himself up for his date," grinned Jake from the kitchen table where he sat eating a sandwich.

"Shut it squirt!" I said playfully ruffling his hair as I passed him to join my father.

He passed me the roll up and I took a long drag, which I guessed steadied my nerves, "were you? You do look like your trying to impress someone."

"How?" I looked down at myself. "I wear this kinda thing all the time," I said indignantly.

"That's your favourite top though and you only wear those jeans when you want someone to be able to pull them down quickly," he grinned wickedly.

I felt myself getting hot in the face and knew that my face would be red very soon, "shut up" I mumbled. My dad laughed and turned to Jake, who was giggling. Not that he'd properly understand what me and dad were talking about, being only 6 and half, but he just liked to laugh along and not be left out.

"So who you going out with?" Jake asked cocking his head to the side looking like a cute puppy.

"None of your business," I said and felt my phone vibrate against my leg. I pulled out and saw on the screen that I'd just received one new message from Tony. God I bet he's cancelling, he probably didn't go through with dumping Michelle, he's probably not changed at all and gonna start fucking me around again. I opened it:

'hey max just thought i'd check u were still cumin 2night i'v just dumped shell which was not fun ( txt bck Tony xxx'

I over react to much, I sighed and text Tony back saying that I'd be round shortly, "that the new boyfriend?" my dad asked innocently.

I put my phone away and punched my dad's arm playfully, "nosy git" I muttered so that Jake wouldn't hear then quickly walked away before my dad could react. I ruffled Jake's hair again to the sound of protest and left the house yelling that I'd make my own dinner when I got back.

-- Tony --

'i'm just leavin i'll b there shortly max xxxxxx'

I looked at the text and all the kisses at the end, I'd put three at the end of my text and he'd replied with six! It probably didn't mean anything but maybe that was a subtle way of telling me he wanted me. I mean I'd always had the hunch that he'd fancied me especially when we first met.

Anwar had been hanging with a new boy at school, telling us that he was sound guy and that we should meet him. Personally I think he was only telling us this so that he could say that he had a friend that he didn't just hang around with me and Sid. He had a tendency to wander behind us at school and I found it really irritating to have a cling-on at age 12 I wasn't even that cool, well I didn't think so.

Anwar told us to meet him at the park at 6 and then we could all go to dinner at his after. I wasn't about to turn down a free meal especially if it was Indian food, even if I did have to meet Anwar's new friend. I met Sid just outside the park at 10 to 6 so that I could have a smoke before meeting Anwar. Sid couldn't understand why I smoked and neither did I really I guess I did because my uncle had offered me one as a joke and hadn't expected me to say yes, stupid git.

We entered the park me puffing away at my cigarette while Sid looked at it curiously. When we were getting close to the play park I noticed that Anwar was already there sitting on the swings with a small blond haired boy whose toes just touched the ground. "That must be him," Sid said.

"So it must," I replied dryly flicking the stub of my fag away. We continued our walk towards the two boys and at one point got waved at madly by Anwar who had noticed us. This made his companion look up and stare at us; it was only till we got closer that I realised he was looking at me in particular.

"Hi guys, this is Maxxie, you're early." Anwar said cheerily.

"Yeah like two minutes early," I said simply and walked round him and towards Maxxie. "Tony," I extended my hand and I noticed he looked embarrassed but took my hand all the same. I squeezed it slightly to see what reaction I got, he blushed and mumbled something. "What?"

He cleared his throat, "hey I said 'hey'" I nodded and loosened my grip on his hand. He slide his free from mine slowly as though reluctantly and looked at me funny as he stood from his swing. It was then I noticed how short he was, he only came up to my shoulders and gazed up at me with wide eyes. I stared back slightly confused but before I could ask him what he was looking at he broke eye contact and moved towards Anwar, "well you're mum told us not to be late Ann we better get going." He smiled awkwardly while Sid looked confused and Anwar irritated.

When we got to Anwar's house he was told off by his mother for being late and we had to wait for him up in his bedroom. The three of us sat in silence Sid staring out the window, Maxxie sitting on the bed head bowed and me leaning against the wall trying to think of conversation. "So why did you move her Max?" Sid saves the day, well done.

Maxxie looked up with a look of surprise, as if he was stunned that someone would actually try to make conversation with him. "Umm well my parents – they thought it- I mean……they thought it would be for the best," and his eyes went back to the floor.

"You liking the school?" I asked but I got nothing more than a shrug let alone eye contact. Did this guy not like me or something? "Well at least you've made a friend right?" he nodded, god it would be easier to talk to a wall.

Then he looked up at me and smiled weekly, "I gotta admit I prefer Anwar to my old friends." A sad look entered his eyes and I was about to ask why when the door slammed open making us all jump.

"Dinner" grunted Anwar looking highly pissed off. I smiled at his annoyance and heard a giggle behind me. I turned to Maxxie and grinned who blushed back at me, ok?

We sat in Anwar's dining room/kitchen and ate our meal with a surprisingly comfortable atmosphere. Anwar and Sid found out they had something in common through our conversation, girls, so as they talked I tried to get Maxxie doing the same. But I might as well have been speaking to mute person because all he done was nod or shake his head. When we'd finished Sid helped Anwar clear up and I seized my opportunity to get Maxxie by myself, maybe then he'll talk to me!

"Hey Ann can me and Maxxie go wait up stairs for you and Sid, so we can use your computer?" Anwar who was in deep conversation with Sid nodded and before Maxxie could protest I grabbed his arm and whisked him away. We climbed the stairs and entered Anwar's room, me still holding Maxxie's arm all the way. "Do you not like me or something?" I asked plainly when I'd closed the door and let go of him.

He opened his mouth a couple of times, resembling a goldfish, then closed it shut and bowed his head as if in defeat. I was about to ask him what actually I'd done wrong when he said, "I don't hate you that would be to easy."

"Huh?" ok so it didn't make me sound like the most intelligent person on the planet but what the hell is that suppose to mean?

He rubbed a hand over his eye roughly and I wondered if he was tried to poke his eye out so as to avoid the conversation. "Look Tony I'm not like you or Sid and Anwar, talking about girls and what you'd wanna do to them. I want…" he looked at me pleadingly; as if he was trying to will me understand him so he didn't need to say it, "I want to do things with….with boys!" he said the last word with force as if it took great physical strength to say.

"Oh……ok, sooo what's that got to do with you not liking me?" it was only till I said it that I realised how stupid it sounded. I looked him in the eyes and almost saw an apology in his deep blue/grey eyes. "Oh…so do you wanna do things with me?" I asked casually. He bowed his head as if he was ashamed and I walked towards him, "hey look I don't care if you're into boys and I guess I should be flattered that you fancy me, so it's cool yeah?"

He looked up at me and smiled weakly, "I don't know many boys who would react like you Tony thanks." I shrugged and smiled and before I knew what was happening he'd pressed his lips to mine. It was odd I'd kissed girls before, but this felt different. Maxxie's lips were chapped and I just stood there with my eyes open wondering what to do. Then it was over and Maxxie looked at me expecting me to say something I guess. "Sorry that was out of no where can I try again?" he sounded hopeful and I couldn't help but shrug again. So he closed the gap between us again I felt his cracked lips connect with mine. This time I closed my eyes and kissed back, just to know how it felt to kiss a boy back and it felt quite good probably just because it was a kiss and kisses always feel great. Maxxie rested his hand on my neck and pulled me closer to him and I felt his tongue push at my lips trying to get into my mouth.

I pulled back, "what you doing?" I asked.

"Kissing you" he said quietly going red. "You said it was ok."

"Actually I didn't I shrugged but I'm not talking about that what where you doing with your tongue?"

"Haven't you ever kissed with tongues?" I rolled my eyes and told him of course I had. "Then what's the difference?" he had a point, so I nodded and again we went back for the kiss. This time no time was lost I felt Maxxie's tongue on my lips and I opened my mouth to let him explore. Actually I think I preferred this kind of kiss it was more emotional and meant more which was usually good. And this was defiantly good Maxxie was an amazing kisser and I pulled him closer to me. I wasn't gay, I didn't even think I was into boys, but I never wanted to stop kissing Max, his tongue was driving me mad and his chapped lips seemed like the sweetest thing I'd ever had against my own.

I heard the bedroom door open but didn't stop it was only when I heard Anwar shout "Maxxie!" that realised we should probably stop. "It's ok Anwar Maxxie's gay we were just kissing" Maxxie giggled and I smirked.

But the look on Anwar's face was ugly, "you said you wouldn't go there Max!"

"Did you?" I laughed and Maxxie nodding letting go of me, which kinda upset me.

"Sorry Anwar-"

"Don't be sorry Max! Anwar, Maxxie can kiss whoever he wants and it not like he seduced me or anything." I said annoyed at Anwar's attitude.

"Humph" was Anwar's only answer and I could feel Maxxie getting embarrassed. Then he spoke and his voice sounded cold, "maybe you and Sid should go Tony I wanna talk to Max."

I was about to protest when Maxxie interrupted me, "yeah that's a good idea see ya Tony. Nice to meet you Sid." I looked at him and didn't know whither to kiss him again or smack him! Why was he giving in?

I decided anger was more satisfying, "com on Sid!" I snarled and left the room.

The walk home was silent until we reached the corner that we would part at and Sid finally spoke. "Tony, why did you kiss Maxxie?"

I looked at him like he was stupid, "well why not? And anyway he kissed me," and I turned away from him.

"Well I never thought you were gay and even if he kissed you, you looked like you were enjoying it." Sid said carefully obviously not wanting to start an argument.

"I'm not gay!" I yelled.

"Then why-"

"Because he liked me and I thought why not try it" I replied simply.

He shook his head, "Tony that's not fair on Maxxie! If he likes you and you kiss him he's gonna get really mixed signs."

"Oh for Christ sakes Sid it was just a kiss!"

"Yeah but he wont see it that way will he!" he said sharply.

I was starting to get pissed off so I began to walk away from him, "yeah whatever Sid. I'll see you at school tomorrow" and picked up speed before he could reply.

Just as I thought about that day I heard a knock on my door and the gorgeous blond head of Maxxie came into view.

Very VERY long chap hope u like R&R….Danni xxxx