My Security

Come let me gaze into your eyes, to the depths of your soul. Become mine and let me be yours, our souls entwining, become one, for today ..., tomorrow ..., eternity ...
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Chapter Eighteen

Haley was lying on her large bed in her yellow baby doll pajama. Her arms were folded behind her head in the fire lit room. .The smell of the cocoa she had earlier still permeated the air of the beach house. She closed her heavy lids, wondering if Nathan was in alone too.

Nathan slowly unlocked the door and slipped into the house. Earlier, he had called Mr. James to let him know he was fine and letting him know he was sleep over Tim's. However, his plans changed.

In search of Haley, a night light in hall illuminated his path. He found her uncovered arms and legs were spread out and her mouth hung partially open.

In his haste to get undressed without waking her, his feet came from under him when he tried to slide his long loose jeans over his feet. The sound startled Haley and her voice shrilled.

"Shhh. It's me." He silence her.

She sat in the middle of the king-sized mattress bewildered, angry and a little excited. She hadn't expected him.

"I thought you didn't want to see me again." She reminded, eliciting a smirk from the coc ky boy. He didn't think she was going to make it easy.

Quickly, he got out of his pants and crawl into bed with her, sweeping her long hair away from her tear stained face and kissing her cheek. She was still trembling and there was a distance in her eyes. He knew it was memories of the hundreds of incidents where Ms. Scott had surprised and then beat the girl. Haley could never totally forget those things, but she could put them behind her and he could too. Putting some distance between them and Tree Hill could definitely help since every one knew their story. He had mulled over this for hours. She had been right all along. Go away to college with her was right.

Haley felt his lips touch hers and she shifted away from him. They hadn't spoken since their earlier tiff. She kept picturing Nathan and Kelly all hugged up and Lucas telling her over and over how he saw Nathan going upstairs with his ex when he picked his sister up from Tim's party. She had really thought he loved her or at least cared about her, but apparently she was wrong.

"I didn't mean what I said." He finally said." I'm just so scared, Haley."

She didn't answer still hurt. Instead, the refreshed girl hit the remote for the stereo, turning it up loudly. Great, Nathan has his music in there! One of his father's and Nathan favorite songs was starting.

When I was a young boy said put away those young boy ways
Now that I'm gettin' older, so much older I love all those young boy days
With a girl like you, with a girl like you
Lord knows there are things we can do, baby, just me and you
Come on and make it

Haley had remember him telling her how he and his dad use to listen to John Mellencamp's old stuff a lot when he was a kid, so she put it in the "Best of" cd in his Christmas stocking.

Hurt so good
Come on baby, make it hurt so good
Sometimes love don't feel like it should
You make it hurt so good

Nathan was now humming the song to her dismay. She wanted him to think he could behave like he did at Tim's house and get by with it any time he wanted. She had been manipulated enough in her life. As much as she loved him, she refused to let him do that to her.

Don't have to be so exciting
Just tryin' to give myself a little bit of fun yeah
You always look so invitin', you ain't as green as you are young
Hey baby, it's you, come on, girl, now, it's you
Sink your teeth right through my bones, baby, let's see what we can do
Come on and make it

Coming out her thoughts, Nathan's arm was brushing hers because he had slipped over a few inches and invaded her space.

She moved over again, only to fall off the bed. She was such a klutz.

Nathan caught her before she hit the ground, lifting her back up but not letting go. She could feel his minty breathe blowing down on her and his sea blue eyes stared directly into hers.

Hurt so good
Come on baby, make it hurt so good
Sometimes love don't feel like it should
You make it hurt so good

Haley's rage had fallen off. His touch enchanted her, making her hot with passion and desire by the time Nathan gave her an air break to say. She struggled to get her wits about her. They needed to talk, but his mouth was so warm and she loved when he sucked on her bottom lip.

" I hate when we fight. I promise to never treat you like that again. Ever, Haley." He swore.

I ain't talkin' no big deals
I ain't made no plans myself
I ain't talkin' no high heels
Maybe we could walk around all day long
Walk around all day long

Making out wasn't going to solve their problems. She had to be tougher than that. Right?

Surprisingly, she shoved him away and flung herself back on the bed with her arms crossing her chest. The short sleepwear riding up her thighs, so her yellow boy shorts were peeking from underneath. Her nipples strained against the low cut fabric making them visible pebbles, that caused the boy to gulp with an urge to rub them between his long fingers.

The boy licked his lips at her new ensemble. His attraction for her was constant, but the sight of her in the simple yet sexy cotton clothing had him throbbing. She was adding more feminine things to her wardrobe little by little, but this by far was becoming his favorite.

"Haley! C'mon let's make up." He pouted, crawling over the girls so that the was hovering above her, straddling her thighs. "I'm not mad anymore."

Hastily she turned her head. "Yea. I guess you've had plenty of time to get over it." She shifted, now facing away on her side.

The boy swung his right leg over the smaller female's calves so he was now sitting on the side of the bed she was facing. His weight rested on his palms.

"Luke told you he saw me going upstairs with Kelly at the party? Didn't he?" Nathan asked. "He is such a suck up!"

Tears trickled down Haley's face.

"He was just trying to spare me some heart ache." She defended. "Something you use to do!"

"He was trying to make me look bad." Nathan corrected perturbed that his sweet girl was always putting up with that ass.

"You did that all by yourself." Haley assured." At least you broke up with me first, so if Kelly's who you want who am I to argue?" She said flatly, tired of all the drama and stress.

"Haley." He pulled her to a sitting position. "I wanted Luke to see me with her, so he would finally stop harassing me. The only reason he was there was to rub in to me that you both would be at Princeton soon."

The miserable lass raised at brow at his words, knowing he wasn't lying. "So you weren't with her tonight?" Straight forward as ever, she confronted the blue eyed boy. "The party was over hours ago, Nathan!"

He looked down gathering his thoughts before speaking again.

"When I went upstairs, I planned on ditching Kelly the first chance I got and going straight home, but she dragged me into one of the guest suites."

'I really don't want the details!" The love of his life was almost choking on her cries as she got up and busied herself by turning on a lamp that sat on the dresser.

"I thought I meant more to you than that. My spot wasn't even cold! You were better than that, that we were!"

"We are! I am." He strutted over to the fiery girl, picked her up and place her directly in his path on the dresser." Please hear me out. "

Haley knew that trying to physical wrestling and struggle with him for freedom was a loosing battle.

"Talk!" She shrugged, her eyes squinting with rage.

"Kelly set me up?" His arms coming out wide and dramatically.

"For what exactly." She question warily.

"Brooke, Peyton, Felix, and Jake were in there waiting for me."

This information piqued Haley's interested.

" Brooke called it an Haley intervention." He chuckled in hindsight.

"Gawd, Nathan! You're just making stuff up now." She argued almost tickled.

"I swear." He plead desperately.

"As soon as I came in the door, they all started bitching me out about breaking up with you, telling how stupid I was and how lucky I was that you even wanted me. These are my friend, I might add!" Nathan shook his head in disbelieve and Haley gave a weak smile.

"Felix and Peyton even threatened to stop hanging out with me if I wasn't smart enough to see what I had with you."

The brunette threw her hands up. "So you gave in just like that? Yet, you didn't even try to hear me out earlier, Nathan!"

"Actually, I told them to go hell." He clarified. "So they shut up. ... Some more people joined their little private party, forming all these lovey dovey couples just adding to my aggravation. They had all these snacks and drinks for another one of Brooke's movie marathons. I swear that girl is going to be a critic." Nathan recalled and Haley just glared at him. Now wasn't the time.

"I grabbed a beer and headed for the door and the keg, only to find it locked from the outside. Apparently, my friends figured I would go get drunk or worse so they had Anna locked the door behind them. I pitched a major tantrum, but they all ignored me selecting an order for the movies for the night.

At the onset of the first movie, Peyton took my unopened drink handed me a plate of her famous nachos and a Pepsi. I was hungry so, I sat my ass down and started eating."

"I'm so far from caring what fun you had with your friend tonight. Is there a point?"

"The pictures were all chick flicks Haley. They manipulated me again." He shook his head.

"You're talking in riddles!" She blew frustrating and uncaring.

"After seeing those films, how could I not know what we have, how important you are to me and that I don't ever want to loose you." His said seriously, brushing delicate hairs over her ear.

"You got that from romantic films?" She mused, the boy was always keeping her on her toes.

"Nathan Scott, evolving. I know!" He boasted with pride.

"It's true, when I found out what we were watching, I whined like a two year old, but everyone had me on ignore. Then, I tried to take a nap, but 50 First Dates was the beginning option. Drew Barrymore is hot!" Haley gave him a deadly squinted and he swallowed hard.

"I mean Adam Sandler is funny and cool as hell. When it ended all I could think about is how this fought for his girl, got his dream and still made a way to share with her forever."

"That's something you want with me?" Haley interjected, less tense.

"Only you."

"You really need to get those mood swings in check cause your driving me berserk." She chastised sitting silently before returning to the conversation.

"So you identified with Sandler's character?" She probed, trying to gain some insight to her fickle boyfriend.

"No you were more like his part. He did something you would do for me, for us." He smiled lovingly making the confined girls stomach flutter.

He started to lean in for a kiss, but she put her hand over his mouth right before he reached hers. It wasn't going to hurt him to suffer a bit longer.

"Did you say there was more than one movie?" Her eyes telling him that he better keep talking.

"Yea, next was The Notebook." He paced. "I thought it was going to be all sappy and cheesy, but I was wrong. It was just destiny, and chemistry and undying love. It was fun, sexy and sort of sad. It was us, Hales." Standing before her again. "I was so stupid to give up on us. We are meant to be."

She held out her hand for him and his body was flush with hers in three steps. "You're not stupid, Sweetheart. You've just had a lot of disappointment in your life." She defended.

"And you haven't?" He said maturely. "It's time I realize what I have, and put the rest behind me. I apologize, Hales. I overreacted about school. I let Tim disrespect you and I said a lot of things I didn't mean." was his husky admission.

"I'm sorry too." Haley heard herself saying as his mouth descended upon hers fervently. "I said some things out of anger. I was awful. Forgive me?"

"Already done." He smirked seductively. "You don't know how much I love you, girl."

"Same here." Haley threw her arms around his neck and kissed him soundly hot with passion and desire for him.

Nathan gave her an air break to say." I hate when we fight. I promise to never block you out like that again. Ever, Haley." He swore.

She fell into mighty arms for a long embrace and sensual smooch. She told him how much she love him about ten times. As another familiar song filled the space:

Little ditty about Jack and Diane 2 American kids growing up in the heartland

"There's something I need to tell you." Nathan spoke softly, rubbing his fingers along her silky neck.

"Alright." She replied with care.

He walked them over to the bed and sat up against the headboard and pulled her onto his lap so she was straddling him. He didn't think it would make him so nervous and turned on.

"Hales, I don't know what the future will hold for us and I'm afraid to look too far ahead. But, I do know you'll be there by my side. Will you have me, Haley?" He offered genuinely.

"I can do that." She giggled, rubbing her pointer digit down his shirt. "I want that, Sweetheart."

She bounced with glee on his lap and hugged his neck tightly before petting and walking her hands back up and down his taunt chest, never losing eye contact. She absolutely adored this young man.

"You make my life worth living, Haley." He wooed tilting his head to share another deep and tantalizing mesh of their mouths.

Hold on to 16 as long as you can Changes come around real soon Make us women and men

Since the day they met, this pixie of a girl had been the one. It just took him a while to leave his denial and stop all the distractions that lead him away from her. His hands tightened at her waist when he bent to kiss her. His mouth hungrily devoured hers, tongues dancing and lips smacking to an explosive kiss that left them both wanting more. She fanned herself and giggled as his hands shifted to her chin and cupped her face.

Little ditty about Jack and Diane 2American kids doing the best they can

Her brown orbs were heady with lust and unconditional amore. "I want you." She moaned sucking on the pulse point to the right of his Adam's Apple. "Tonight, Nathan."

Joy and amazement filled his blue eyes before their lips lock again. The embrace was becoming heated. Their powerful connection was felt deep down in their souls.

Haley's hands and mouth roamed his upper body, making him feel like he was aflame.

He watched the ruffled strap slide down her shoulder, exposing the top of one breast. He had seen her nude many times before, but only her silhouette in the shower or in sections and she was usually bruised or cut there. She let the other holder fall too. This created a very erotic picture with her wild locks, flush cheeks and swollen lips.

"Wow." He noted. Immediately, his arms stretched out and his traced her collar bones and the perimeter of her mouth drawn to her like butter to bread.

She nervously awaited his next move, needy of his physical love a few more tunes belted in the background.

He let his hands outline her pert breast and defined tummy, stopping right about her cute yellow undies. She felt so relaxed and aroused by his touch. His calloused hands were tender and thorough.

"You are so beautiful." He whisper in her ear teasingly. "very beautiful."

"I'm not. You've seen the scars, Nathan." She announced sadly and dropped her head in shame.

He tossed her hair behind her shoulder and massaged her back, winding his free arm around her waist and pulling her back against him, swaying her slowly as the songs came to an end with Pink house.

"You're incredible, Haley. Never doubt yourself." He commanded.

She cried silently, freely releasing some of her pent up pain and ire from years of abuse.

Nathan's chin rested atop her clean fluffy hair and he kissed there.

"You're kinda of beautiful too." She added bashfully.

"How's that possible?" His forehead wrinkled with question.

"Because you recognize your flaws and want to change them. You have already." She clarified.

He was glowing from her praise.

"I'm sooo, pretty." He chuckled, tickling her." But my girls hott!"

She ended up on her back, giggling and grinning with him hovering over her. She raised her arms and crossed them behind his neck. "What would I do without you, Nathan Scott?"

He bent down close, admiring the yellow flecks floating in her brown eyes.

"You have a lifetime to figure it out."

Their kisses were filled with sensual emotions and they played loving and romantic games until both their bodies were naked and glistening. One of his hands locked at her curvy waist while the other floated swiftly over her breast an abdomen. He made stops at her nipple to give them a gentle pinch or rush his thumb around them as a few of his other fingers met her center.

"Gawd, Nathan!" Haley moaned, thrusting her pelvic into his palm, rocking against him. "Love me, Sweetheart."

"Shit, Hales." He panted at her dampness, watching a cheeky smile shadow her crimson cheeks. "Are you sure?" He asked. not daring to pressure her into anything.

Her body was saying yes." Please, Nate. I trust you." She whimpered as his digits massaged her in a circular motion that was bringing her close to the edge of insanity. Her eyes sparkled with affirmation.

Removing his hand, the intimacy went deeper as she rest her weight on her elbows and spread her legs arm so his body could park between them. His erect organ brushing against her taunt belly as they dry hump filled her with anticipation and a little fear.

However, she was willing to overcome it to give in to their love entirely.

"I want to be one with you." She reiterated, sucking on the crook of his neck and letting her nails graze the muscles of his back.

Shaking, he reached over to the night stand and retrieved a condom from the previously unopened box before returning to her. His defined arms slipped underneath her firm bottom, danced up her back and held her at the shoulders when his mouth licked, sucked and tasted her rosy buds causing her body to writhe with an unsatisfied hunger. He was tender as he entered her. On the initial feel of her slick and tight walls he was almost sent spiraling into oblivion. It took all his will power to hold back. He had to make this magical for her, memorable.

"I love you." He sang at her temple.

She gasp in pain when her virginity was lost. Her eyes were misty and he froze afraid to stop or start again.

"I'm sorry. I never want to hurt you, Baby."

He too was almost in tears now and held himself on slightly bended knees, not wanting to put his weight on his light lover.

She inhaled deeply, raising herself to plant a seductive kiss on his famished lips.

"Pain before pleasure." She smiled before swinging her hips back and forth until the transition was comfortable and he rejoined her.

A slow and steady pace filled them both with an urgency for more. A tightness coiled within both of them, waiting to be released. She swiveled her hips, meeting his movement with the same animal attraction and unmitigated love. The pace became faster as he drove into her. His juicy mouth sucked her shoulder and heaving breast randomly along with her neck and her and lips puffy and red from their constant use.

Both of his hands went to her waist as their speed increased and she screamed with pleasure, bringing them both closer and closer to a crescendo.

"Oooohh,God...ooooo, God?" She locked her ankles over his back, giving him even better access to her delicious assets.

He pressed his mouth to her ear and spoke in a low and raspy tone, not missing a thrust or stroke.

"You're incredible, Haley? Do I make you feel that way too?"

She nodded, her eyes drunk with arousal. Tossing her hair, she crossed her hands at the back of his neck nailing a kiss in place as he stroked her harder and harder, hitting the perfect spot until together they crested like a perfect wave.

Nathan could barely catch her breath, his heart beating so fast and loud, he held his hand against it for safe keeping. The sated young man was still releasing the sensations from the clashing of their waves when he excused himself to the bathroom.

Haley was completely overwhelmed by the intensity of their first love making. She sat up, a little sore but mostly dazed. She bursting into tears of joy from the magnitude of her love for Nathan. She had no control over the remarkable power that consumed her body. The depth of their chemistry alone frightened her, not to mention the magic in every touch he gave her, but her " first time" being so heavenly was too much. It had to be a fluke. Nothing could be this spiritual and wonderful!

Nathan returned from the rest room and she was gone. A little paranoid, maybe he had misread her. He was afraid hadn't really satisfied her and maybe she had only did it because she thought that's he wanted sex. Especially after her insecurities about Kelly earlier.

Putting on his boxers, he went on a hunt for her.

In the living room, he found a couple of heavy blankets cover the sofa, but no signs of Haley.

Heading for the kitchen, he heard sniffing and turned back. That's when he noticed lump on the huge sofa was moving. He threw the covers back to reveal Haley's sobbing body in a fetal position. He rubbed his hand along the side of her face.

"Hey. Are you hiding from me?" He said gently, fearful of her behavior. "Was it that bad, Hales? Did I pressure you or hurt you? ...Please say I didn't."

She sat up and saw the self loathing in his eyes as she took a tissue from the end table to wipe her nose.

"No. You were terrific, indescribable. I have never done anything so spectacular. I knew we would be connected on a higher plane, physically and mentally, but I didn't think it would be so meaningful. All I can think about is wanting more, lots more. It's scary, Nathan."

Haley shifted and her scantily clad man joined her on the chair, leaning his head against the arm rest. Her soft chestnut tresses fell to his chest and he massaged her back and shoulders.

"You don't think it was the same for me?" He coaxed.

"What do you mean?" Lifting her face to view his extremely blue peepers.

"I have loved you since we met." He confessed and she gushed.

"I love you, too. I have been "in love" with you since the end of Sophomore year. Remember when we were playing Truth or Dare on the back of the bus during that field trip to the Wright Brother's Museum and you had to kiss me?" She mused.

He chuckled loudly. " I forgot about that. It was so quick." he recalled.

"Hey! You started teasing me afterward, saying my lips felt like sand paper and I tried to choke you with my tongue." He tickled her sides, making her squirm.

"Stop it! Everybody kept saying it was incest cause we lived together. I was freaked out."

She squeaked and wiggled until he stopped.

"I didn't want anybody to know how I felt about you. I was stupid. Beside, you had that crush on that senior, Katie Potter."

"I only said that because one day, I overheard Peyton telling Brooke, her brother was into you. She said you guys would be dating in no time. Since you were always together, I thought you wanted him too."

"We're idiots." She smiled.

"It took all my strength not to blurt out how bad I wanted you to be mine every day, but I wanted you to come to me on your own, like you did tonight. I was afraid of your rejections...of not being in your league. When I finally told you a few months ago, I thought I would pass out. I don't think I could survive without your friendship and love. I adore you, Sweetheart." She kissed him and played in his mussed raven hair.

Nathan slithered between her soft legs and stared down into two whirlpools of chocolate. Haley could see the familiar dance of blue eyes float in her direction. She bit her lip and hastily pecked his nose, mouth and chin.

"You're my eternity."

He was speechless, just trying to inhale and exhale. They had been given the only thing they truly demanded from this world, each other's undying and unconditional love.

Pushing her mouth to his ear, she giggled. "Ready for round two?"...

Pamela