i am SO SORRY this chapter was so delayed! i got a really bad case of writer's block. i wrote an entire chapter, and then i scrapped it, wrote a new one, then scrapped that one, then i finally settled on this one.
in this chapter, a very important discovery is made. this one's actually kind of short, so to make up for that, im including TWO chapters in this update, woot!
so yeah, hope you enjoy.
Troy
Ryan lay motionless in his bed, staring at the dark ceiling. He didn't know what time it was, but it wasn't really important to him at the moment. He was suddenly aware of his breathing, which was rapid and deep, like he had just come out of a workout. What happened? What dream was so alarming to pull him out of his sleep so viciously? Suddenly, it came crashing onto him like a tsunami.
Troy.
The name seemed to echo infinitely in the recesses of Ryan's troubled mind. It was Troy who Ryan had been dreaming of. And quite frankly, it wasn't your everyday type of dream, if you catch my drift.
The dream came back to Ryan, piece by piece. He was… in his room? No, he was somewhere else. Was he naked? No, Ryan distinctly remembered wearing his green polo shirt. And he was with Troy. But what happened? The dream played in Ryan's head like an ancient film reel, with his activities with Troy being the parts blotted out by age and carelessness. Except, it had only happened scant minutes ago, and it was only the barrier to Ryan's subconscious that blurred his memory. Ryan's brow creased as he fought for a trace of the dream left somewhere in his head, but he found none. The only things left were the residual feelings of arousal evoked by some exotic fantasy. It frustrated Ryan to no end knowing that something hot went down in dreamland that night, and he didn't know what it was.
Ryan jerked in surprise when the abrasive buzz of his alarm filled the room. Ryan lifted himself up, his aching body screaming in pain, and dropped a hand onto the snooze button. His posture was hunched as he sat up in his bed, his muscles still feeling Ms. Darbus' wrath. He yawned loudly and rubbed his eyes, before throwing the sheets back and swinging his legs over the side of the bed. His feet found his luxuriously soft slippers, and he stood up to prepare for the day. As he did, he tried to revisit his dream, but it seemed to grow only more vague the longer he was awake.
Ryan did find it a bit strange that such a dream involved another male, but it hadn't been the first. Back in seventh grade, Ryan had dreamt of a cute brunet kid in his class. And in grade ten, he had dreamt of the captain of the football team. He blamed puberty for those dreams, and didn't give them much thought afterward. But now, puberty had pretty much had its way with Ryan, and this dream seemed to linger in his mind instead of fading into nothingness. Maybe it was because of Troy. After all, he and Ryan were together almost every day now, rehearsing for the musical. With so much of his time spent with that boy, one simple dream was pretty normal. If only it was just a simple dream. No, it was more than that!
Ryan then was then reminded of his close encounters with Troy, including last night when he was being massaged by him. Ryan wasn't even sure how things liked that happened, but they did… Ryan shook his head.
No, I don't like Troy that way. He thought. Even though he had been grinding with him that one time during rehearsal…
No, we were Twisting. And there was the fact that he winked at Troy during his audition.
That was just an act! It fit with the song. And the fact that he was moaning his lungs out when Troy was massaging him last night
It felt GOOD! Ryan folded his arms in defiance… but his resolve crumbled. He couldn't deny it… He was attracted to Troy Bolton.
"I've got the hots for Troy…" Ryan mumbled to himself, as if confirming it. He didn't quite believe himself at first, but the more he thought about it, the more it made sense. Well, everything made sense except for the fact that he was a man. And Troy was a man. Did that mean he was gay? Ryan thought back to his… uneventful lovelife. On second thought, let's call that his non-existent lovelife. Ryan found the fact surprising, even though he knew it all his life, but he had never really felt any attraction to anyone, girl or guy. Until he met Troy.
Ryan smacked himself in the head. "Great, I've been gay all my life and I only just found out. Good Job, Ryan. Absolutely brilliant. Fantastic. I'm talking to myself like Troy. Great…"
Troy.
The name rang clear through his thoughts again, and he had to stop himself to let everything digest. He was attracted to Troy. He, Ryan Evans, was attracted to him, Troy Bolton. He was attracted to him. Ryan said it in his head a million different ways, hoping one way would make it sound better than the last. It didn't help much. If anything, it only engraved in his mind the fact that he, a male, was attracted to him, another male. Ryan let out a drawn out groan.
"I'm gay… and I like Troy Bolton…" Today was not going to be easy… especially math class…
gasp
Ryan's gay, shocker!!!
heh heh...
okay, slightly off topic but ill say it anyways. I am COMPLETELY in love with the song Lucas sang for fox and the hound 'You Know I Will' OMG! it's such a cute song! i love it soooo much! and i command all of you two download it/buy it off iTunes, because you need to hear its greatness for yourselves.
i also bought a disney christmas CD thing off iTunes, and on it Lucas sings Let It Snow, another really cute song. so yeah, im completely in love with him right now.
anyways, enough of my ranting, go on and read the next chapter!