Author's Note:
Hi everyone, It's been a while since I updated my one shot fics. I'm currently writing my, 'In Both Realms' fic that's why it took a while to update my 'Project Heart' one shot fics! Anyway, my one shot fics are back and this time, I'll concentrate more on the pairings. [NaruMai, BousanAyako, LinMadoka, JohnMasako, and Yasuhara(Suspense)
DISCLAIMERS:
I do not own GHOST HUNT, its characters and its story. In addition, I don't own the song 'Catch me I'm falling' it is a Filipino song, sung by Toni Gonzaga.
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Catch me I'm Falling
(John Brown and Hara Masako Image Song)
Masako's vision starts to blur again, but before her eyes close completely she saw the most beautiful, and soulful azure eyes she'd ever seen in her whole life. Masako saw the extreme worry in them, she can't help but stare at his blue orbs. She wanted so bad to tell him 'Do not to worry that I'll be fine' but words can't seem to make its way out of her lips. Having no power to say his name, she reaches out to him touching the smoothness of his face and giving him a small smile before helplessly succumb to the darkness.
I don't know why but when I look in your eyes,
I feel something that seems so right
John stared at the unconscious Masako lying on the hospital bed, her hair sprawled perfectly on the white pillow. If Mai attracts trouble, Masako attracts accidents. During their mission in an abandoned shrine in Okinawa Prefecture, Masako was the target of the ghost and was physically hurt, again.
That brought John here beside her hospital bed, he was ask by Shibuya-san to watch over Masako. Honestly, he wanted to refuse but then he doesn't have the heart to say no to Mai's pleading look to ensure Masako's safety and his heart screams that he take care of her, remain beside her till she's perfectly fine.
John sighed again, he had forgotten how many times he had sighed for the past few hours. Watching Masako peacefully, sleep in her bed causes dull pain in his heart.
He wanted nothing but to touch her, envelope her in his warmth. Yet, he knew he can't and he won't. With just one look in her attractive bluish-purple, eyes make, his knees weedy and his will to weaken more. It's frustrating… yes, indeed, frustrating but then… slowly, he's staring to like the feeling.
You've got yours I've got mine
I think I'm loosing my mind
Coz I shouldn't feel this way
John knew exactly why he's feeling that way… he perfectly knew why…
He's had fallen, into the hopeless pit of dark love. A forbidden love that can never be. Hara Masako is a media figure, a princess of stardom, of glitz and glamour of the stage and cameras while he, John Brown, is God's apostle, vowed to love only God. Two opposite sides of the world that can never be together.
The irony of love, he knew he's suppose to love only God and yet… look at him now, he had fallen in love with her… and he in his frail heart can't stop himself from falling more in love.
Catch me I'm falling for you
And i don't know what to do
She knew it was wrong to fall in love with him. How can you stop your heart from beating his name, she'd die. How can you stop thinking about him when he keeps running in your mind, his kind tender caring eyes, smile, and words. It's maddening to know that she cannot love him yet she is.
Masako had fallen for him before she could even admit it to herself. It's not her fault or his… it just happen. One day she woke up yearning to see his face, feel his presence. The fondness grew into something deeper, it's too late when she found out, and she's completely trap in an illegal sensation of love.
How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I'm falling for you
He's not naïve, he knew, he always knows that she's starting to fall for him as well. That's why he desperately tries to avoid her as much as possible. He can't let her or himself yield into their darkest desire. He can't afford to bring her darkness and pain. She's too precious for tears to fall. She deserves happiness and that happiness he can't give even if he wanted so much to.
She realized that he's shunning her away. Pushing her far away from him and it was killing her, slowly and painfully. He might still be kind to her yet there is a known distance. Now, all he gives her are polite smiles, the brilliant smiles were gone. No doubt, he worries for her, but then he maintains his limits. It frustrates her to know that he somewhat knew her feelings for him but chose to detachment him from her, and her love. All Masako wants is to show him her love that she cares more than ever... she doesn't wish for him to love her back… just… just.
How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me I'm falling for you
She was five years late, if he met her before he wouldn't have taken this vow. He would still be able to serve God in another way but then he can't undo things that were done.
Watching her is all he could do. Loving her in secret. God, forgive him but he can't stop. She's like the air he breathes, the Water he drinks, His heart calls her name.
Confiding to his bishop adviser, the old man did understand him. He even asks him to give up his priesthood since he is not yet officially ordained by the pope. His being an exorcist remains to him; he said that not all exorcists were fully pledge priests. He even tells him the story of Constantine.
Constantine was a half-breed. Half angel and half demon, he wanted to win God's favor that's why he exorcises demons throwing them back to hell. He's not a priest. Yet, knowing his heart he followed the path he thinks is right.
John had been thinking… he knew God is good. Should he follow his heart or should he give up his love… Giving up Masako is like giving up living. Can he? Live without a heart? Without a life?
How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
Masako knew in time she needs to move on. Just how she moved on from her infatuation to Naru but this time… it's no puppy love. It's true love. Unsure of what lies ahead. Masako with headstrong determination would face it… she can live without his love but not without him.
And i can't go along pretending
That love isn't here to stay
Catch me I'm falling for you ooh ooh
John brushed the stray of hair that covered Masako's beautiful face his eyes held sorrow and longing.
'I could never tell you how much you mean to me Hara-san, even though I wanted so much to tell you that I love you, so much that it tears me apart that I cannot be with you. However, this is our life. We belong to different sides of the world.' John thought miserably running a hand on Masako's hair.
If i could just walk away
Without you floating today
I would die just thinking of you
Masako can feel his gentle hand caresses her hair, she wanted so much to open her eyes and stare at his soulful blue orbs. But, then if she did… he would move away from her keeping his distance. Masako knew they can never be more than friends, he has his vows and she has her career… but that doesn't stop her from loving him. They might be worlds apart but love is defies all odds.
'Whatever happens… how much I hold back myself I'll always end up falling in love with you' her mind screams as her heart beats in agreement.
I know we can't therefore be more friends you and me
But why do i feel this way
Unable to stop himself any further, John bent down placing a soft lingering kiss on Masako's forehead. Closing his eyes as he stops the tears from falling.
"I love you that it hurts" he whispered knowing she'll never hear.
Catch me I'm falling for you
And i don't know what to do
Masako heard his confession, and it took all of her self-control to open her eyes and hold him to show him she feels the same way. Although it was wrong, she can't fight her own heart.
How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I'm falling for you
Unsuccessfully, a tear escaped John's eyes. Before he could wipe it away, it already landed on Masako's serene face.
How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me I'm falling you
Masako knew she could no longer stop herself. She slowly opens her lavender to stare at John's face. His eyes held the sadness as her eyes mirror the same emotion. Tiredly she smiled a bit.
"John… it hurts when I breathe" Masako said tears threatening to fall from her eyes.
Nodding in understanding John smiled sadly down at her.
"I know… I know." He replied.
Maybe someday I'll see why love did this to me
And i can't go along pretending
That love isn't here to stay
"I love you" Masako whispers holding their gazes together.
John closed his eyes raising a hand stroking Masako's cheek lovingly.
"I know…but-" John said before Masako cuts him off by placing a finger on his lips.
"Shhh… I understand. I know. What's important to me is that you know that I love you… just do me a one favor… will you?" she said still looking at his eyes.
John nodded.
"Please… please don't push me away. I'm not asking you to love me. Just let me love you" she said tears still flowing freely from her face.
Catch me I'm falling for you
Catch me I'm falling for you
John smiled. "Masako… I'm sorry for pushing you away. I was afraid to hurt you… I was scared to know you feel the same way" he admitted wiping away her tears.
Masako stared at him. She reaches out touching his face. "I forgive you"
And it's wrong for me to feel this way
Coz i don't know what to do without you
I'm falling for you
Catch me I'm falling for you
John chuckled "You didn't let me finish my sentence. I was going tell you… I'm giving up my priesthood. I would serve God in a way that I can still freely love you. You have become part of my life if not my life itself. My heart belongs to you…" he said sincerely.
Masako smiled but the look of sadness crossed her eyes. "But how about your being an exorcist?" she asked.
"I can still be one. I'll be the modern Constantine." He answered with his brilliant smile.
Masako can't help but trace his lips. "I miss that smile" she said.
How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I'm falling for you
"I miss you" John said placing a kiss on her fingers. Masako laced her arms around John bringing him down to her, inches apart Masako whispered her undying love. "I love you and only you" she said.
John closed the gap between them but not before murmuring his own answer "And I love you as much"
They seal their love with a kiss. In bedside table, the rosary John uses during exorcism glinted in the darkness as if giving its blessing.
Author's Note:
There you go. This fic is for Sw33t-soft-M3lody and to all MasakoJohn supporters.
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