Sorry for the lack of updates I've been soooo busy!! Thank you to everyone who is reading and a BIG thank you to anyone who reviewed I really appreciate it. This chapter follows from Jenny/Claudia and Nick's argument. After I had written it I realised that Connor hasn't made an appearance yet, don't worry I haven't written him out. He didn't fit into this chapter so he will be in the next chapter. I hope you like this instalment and I apologise for the lack of updates, there never seems to be enough time in the day. Enjoy!!!

Dreams

Disclaimer: I do not own Primeval

Jenny went home that night Cutter's words still haunting her

You used to be a person, now all you do is boss around other people, but let me ask you a question does it make you happy?

Or do you like to feel power over people because it makes you feel less pathetic?

She is a part of you, the better part I might add

Heart is made of stone because you are afraid to feel?

She stood in front of the bathroom mirror staring at her tear stained mascara distraught face she blinked and saw Claudia, like in the photograph Nick had shown her. She opened her eyes and hated what she saw she scrubbed the makeup from her face removing her mask; she untied her tight bun and allowed her hair to tumble freely.

She looked at herself again and saw herself for the first time, she looked hard and into the mirror and she saw the reflection of her fiancé sleeping in their bed and she wondered if she even loved him. Sure he was gorgeous, wealthy, had a secure job but he did he know her; he didn't even notice that she was upset tonight. Nick had known right away that something was wrong and she had known him a matter of weeks and she knew that he loved the part of her that she had repressed. She couldn't even remember changing when she thought of her past it was as if Claudia was an imaginary friend a figment of her imagination, a dream. She had dreamed often of Claudia recently, she wondered if it was coincidence that as he came into her life some apart of her wanted to change.

Realising that she was still in front of the mirror staring blankly at herself she went to bed, she couldn't sleep she lay in the darkness and looked back on Jenny and wondered if the changes she made really were for the better.

Nick couldn't sleep so he opted for a run in the hope it would remove the thoughts of Jenny/Claudia and Helen. His muscles burned as he neared the end of his run 10 miles had done little to ease his mind but only helped to induce his sleep. But today's revelation was plaguing his subconscious as he tried in vain to get to Claudia but every attempt failed as Jenny or Helen intervened, the scene repeated over and over, in the real world it would make no logical sense, and cruelly just as he grasped Claudia's hand his alarm rang shattering his dream.

He now sat at his desk finalising the paperwork from the last anomaly, his eyes burned and he looked up as he heard someone near his desk. He thought he was hallucinating he almost let Claudia escape from his lips when he realised it was Jenny. She had got rid of her ridiculously high shoes, she wore a suit which subtly accentuated her womanly figure, her hair was down and her usual make up was replaced by natural tones. Part of him marvelled at her beauty but another was annoyed and wondered if she was doing this to torture him, he remained quiet and stared at her waiting for her to initiate the conversation.

Jenny shifted nervously, looked at him and said rather a matter of factly "You were right"

"About what?"

"Claudia and Me" she noticed as he winced slightly "She is a part of me and I thought about what you said and I realised that I don't even know who I am anymore. Because the person I saw I don't want to be any more, I remember when I saw people like me I vowed I would never become one." She laughed at herself as she paced through her explanation "But I did, I became a detached, cold, workaholic and I didn't realise until now that I hated myself for it. But about a month ago I started having dreams of Claudia, just before I met you, now they are becoming more frequent. In the dream she is shattered on the floor and I'm trying desperately to piece her back together but I can't, then last night as I realised all this I had the dream again but I completed the puzzle. I woke to find that she was a part of me again" She smiled and waited nervously for his reply.

"So your trying to tell me that you've completely change overnight, that's crazy"

"As crazy as a man coming back through an anomaly and knowing about a Claudia Brown"

"True..l ...but still it is kind of sudden..." he paused for a moment "Did you say that you had dreams?"

"Yeah why?"

"Claudia had bad dreams before I went through the anomaly; she said that she had a really bad feeling about it. Could be a coincidence?" he said questioningly

"You're a rational scientist and your life's research proves that you don't believe in coincidences. What do you think it means?"

"I have no idea, its kind of mindboggling"

"As mindboggling as dinosaurs travelling through anomalies"

"I'd take the dinosaurs any day, they make sense" he chuckled and winked at Jenny.

She laughed too after faking her upset at not being preferred to a dinosaur, once they had returned to their normal selves she looked him softly in the eyes "I think you understand me better then you realise, I'm beginning to think you know me better than I know myself"

"I hope that's not true"

"How so?"

"If we didn't have a sense of who we are we would be truly lost, I don't think that anyone should go through that. No one should be lost in their own life."

She was still looking into his kind eyes "Will you help me, find myself again?"

He saw her usually hard hazel eyes had softened, and he saw the fear and desperation that resided there "Of course I will" he smiled softly at he and put his hand gently over hers giving it a light squeeze

She clung to him with her other hand "You won't leave" the worry evident and weighed heavy in her voice.

The level of desperation in her voice shook him slightly "No I won't leave, even if I travel though time and space I'll find you" receiving another chuckle he stood and pulled her into an embrace. She melted into him, finding it strange that he felt so familiar and comforting; a few salty tears trailed down her cheeks. He lost track of how long they had been stood there his heart ached for the emotional turmoil that he and Helen had caused her, but a part of him leapt at the thought of Claudia coming back even though she would be different.

He pulled back slightly and looked at her, she almost moaned at coming away instantly missing the warmth and comfort he gave "I'm sorry you had to go through this; I should have stopped her while I had the chance, if I could find that anomaly I would go and stop her before she did this to you"

She placed her hand on his cheek "Don't be sorry, I wouldn't wish it any other way" their eyes connected and before they knew it their lips met in a tender kiss, testing each other at first and they melted into one another as they drew love and comfort from one another.

Moments past and Cutter pulled away for a moment "What about your fiancé?"

"I feel like were strangers, and he's not the one I love" that explanation being all he needed his lips captured hers once more.

I hope you liked it, Connor coming up in the next chapter – which I hope to write soon!?!

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