Sometimes the person

that you really need

is the one person

you never actually

longed for

Chapter Four: Does'th Thou Like-Like?

"huh...?" I woke up to a room crowded with people, though the faces I couldn't make out. It felt like it was part of my bad dream. All the faces, the angry faces, the sneering faces, the faces that wouldn't leave me alone at night.

"Make the faces...stop..." I said groggily, my vision becoming clearer, and th faces that I thought were still part of my dream turned into those of worry and concern. I tried to sit up, but then a voice stopped me.

"Don't even think about getting up." It was Hatori's doctor-like voice, I looked around the room again. It felt like everyone was here, Uo, Hana, Momiji, Kyo, Yuki, Haru, Shigure, Kagura, Kisa, and even to my great surprise Hiro.

"What happened?" I asked, still feeling a little faint, and tired in the arms, I turned my head to look at each face.

Flash Back

Haru's Point of View

What the hell just happened? There was Tohru, lying in that bastard's arms, she was unconscious. The black Haru inside of me bubbled, and felt like it was about to burst through. I clenched and unclenched my hands in sort of a mantra to calm me down. Yuki was the first one to get back from the shock, as he ran over to her side with a dreadful look on his face. Me next, then Kyo, the stupid one, last.

Kyo got there first although, and punched Ryou aside, I ran over to Tohru as Yuki cradled her as much as he could without turning. Momiji started crying, sinking to his knees.

"What do I do?" Yuki asked panicked. My gaze fell upon the monster. Ryou. That's when Black Haru burst. I felt raging hate course through my blood as I looked at him, I rushed over to him and kicked him hard in the gut, but then I heard her voice...

"I'm so sorry..." I gasped, what was she to be sorry of? I ran over to her and took her and hugged her transforming. Yuki gasped, and I quickly explained. Momiji stopped crying long enough to give me a suspicious look.

"I'll carry her on my back, hurry we don't have time to gawk like an idiot." I said coldly, the Black haru wasn't very nice I cringed.

"Come on stupid cat!" I shouted out. We were all worried, but since being Black Haru just made it all worse by ten fold.

"Will you shut the fuck up!" Kyo said, carefully laying Tohru on my back.

We made the trip to the Main House, despite Akito. Tohru was what mattered now. The trip was almost unbearable, between Kyo curses as he was the one who had to carry Tohru's 'Cousin' since I knocked him out, Momiji's crying, and Yuki's tense silence he had going on.

Hatori let us in, even without word, to my surprise and to my bigger surprise, Akito was standing right there as we led Tohru into one of the hospital like rooms of the Sohma's Main house. Akito didn't even look at us, just stood there like nothing was really happening. Except for that cruel smirk on his face. As if he enjoyed it all. That bastard. Of course we couldn't say that out loud, but...he was and always would be.

We left Tohru in Hatori's care while we phoned everyone else to fill them in. Everything was quiet, except for the random off time clock chime. Momiji still hadn't calmed down, but at least I wasn't Black Haru anymore. Then Momiji stopped crying and looked at me, the suspicious look from before back. I turned my back to him, still counting the ceiling tiles.

"You were calmed down by her voice. And before. You turned black just because of what the guy said in the hallway." Momiji looked accusingly at me, and I turned around.

"What's it to you?" I asked, keeping the even-ness in my voice.

"You like- like her."

"I have never heard such a childish thing ever before."

"Well then just tell me I'm wrong then."

I stayed quiet for a second or two before I regained my talking abilities.

"Wouldn't you like to know." Was it true? Did I 'like like' Tohru? I shook my head. It was impossible, no Sohma was ever meant to be loved. We were so different. Yet, this girl does. I smiled at the thought, then again she was also a very clumsy and foolish girl sometimes too. I almost mentally slapped my self. I was thinking about her. And I almost groaned. If Kyo and Yuki found out anything, that's the end. It's almost so painfully obvious they 'like-like' her too.

'It would never work out.' I thought sullenly.

Present

"You walked in front of a truck, idiot." I heard Hiro mutter, but there was no venom in his voice, it made me wonder if even a little part of him was worried. It at least made me smile. Then I remembered myself. 'Ah, that means they know about my secret...' I thought to my self, almost defeated.

"What exactly did you think you were doing?" Came Uo's voice, she was worried, yet stern at the same time, and I just sheepishly smiled back.

"It is very dangerous Tohru, he said you just started day dreaming in the middle of the street." Hana said in a motherly tone. I loves them so much. 'wait...day dreaming? I wasn't day dreaming! I practically heeled over in the middle of the street..' I thought. Ah, I see, they don't know the truth, only Ryou really saw what happened...Ryou...

"How did I get here though?" I asked, looking around again. Momiji pointed to Haru.

"He carried you all the way here like you guys did to Yuki once!" Momiji exclaimed with a smile and a wink. My face heated up again, and I looked down at my hands, Haru wasn't looking in my direction either.

"Thank goodness our little flower isn't hurt! Why, The great tragedy! As we huddle over our poor Tohru, there might be a pain that even we don't know! Gasp! When I think of su-" Shigure went off into his own little world but soon to be ended by Kagura. Who was raving mad right behind the young writer.

"What was that?" There was a fire in her eyes, and her hand was already ready to swipe, when I began to laugh, but my laugh was soon followed after by labored breathes, and the eyes came back to meet mine.

"Sissy?" I heard a small voice ask from next to me, and I turned to look at Kisa's large honey colored eyes.

"Yup?" I asked, she was the cutest little thing I've ever seen.

"Are you going to be okay?" She asked worriedly, then I felt the immense wave of guilt for making them worry so much.

"I already feel one hundred percent better!" I said flashing them all a smile...then the thought hit me.

"Where's Ryou?" I asked, not really sure if I wanted to know where he was at all. Kyo and Yuki's eyes almost narrowed at once, even Haru looked suspicious. No one said anything for a few moments, and a sudden fear came to me...did he get hit instead? I couldn't live knowing someone died because of me..

"He said he shouldn't come in yet." Shigure said in a serious voice. My guess would be that Uo and Hana were in the same room, but I wasn't sure. We were all still friends...right? Well...guess not so much on his part anymore at least.

"Oh, okay." I said, beaming back a smile up to them.

"Okay, I need to check up on Tohru now, Everyone say goodbye for now." Hatori said, breaking the silence. Kisa and Kagura hugged me tightly.

"oOo, Hatori wants to be with Tohru...alone." Shigure stressed the word 'alone' with little quotation mark fingers and a wink. I felt my face boil, and Haru, started to clench his hands. I looked up at him, and he just turned away, but if I didn't know any better I'd think that that was a blush on his face. Odd, but then again at the same time, I blushed again too.

"You sick pervert." "Dam old pedophile." And those comments came from none other than Yuki and Kyo, heads pointed down, eyes covered with their hair as they dragged out Shigure by the arms.

Haru hung back a little, waiting to be the last person to leave the room, then finally turned around, this was my last chance to thank him.

"Hatsuhara, Wait!" I asked, trying to sit up, but one commanding look from Dr. Hatori sent me straight down, but I was able to stop Haru.

"I want to thank you! Thank you so so much! I don't even know what to say with out rambling." I said fidgeting with the bed sheets. He turned around facing the door so I couldn't see his face, but I heard him say something.

"Say you'll get better soon." It was so soft that you could almost not hear it, but I did.

"Promise." I said smiling, and he turned back to me and smiled back, then left. I don't know why, but I just stared at the door after he left, feeling the color return back to my cheeks. 'Ugh...great.' I thought to myself shaking my head.

"We have to talk." Hatori said immediately after the door was closed. And I looked at him. He was doctor, He knew what what going on now. I sighed.

"You didn't tell the others." I said sullenly. I was happy that he didn't, but I knew he would.

"After I gave to a check up, I found out. Hiro must've known I would find out because afterwards he told me not to say anything yet, or at least until I talked to you." He said slowly, Well, I guess I'll have to thank Hiro too. That was unexpected, but hey, I was grateful.

"Can you..umm, not tell them at all?" I asked lamely, knowing the answer already.

"They'll eventually have to find out. My theory is, that you didn't walk out in front of a truck, did you?" He asked. I shook my head no.

"You had an attack on the street."

"Yes." I said, looking down at my hands.

"They'll need to know about things like this, If it happens again, so they know what to do." He said, he was always thinking ahead, but heck, would there even still be a future for me?

"Always thinking ahead of time I see...Hatori?"

"Yes?" I hesitated before asking my question, I needed to know now. That was the first time in a long time that I've had an attack that serious, something big was coming.

"How much longer?" I asked softly, merely above a whisper. Hatori didn't need explaining of the question. He just stared at me, looking me straight in the eyes.

"I don't know...You'll have to get tested in the hospital to find that out." He said, but then I remembered I already had been tested, a few weeks before mom...

"I have been." Hatori looked surprised, not something you get to see often.

"There should have been a letter sent home, or a phone call, to tell you when." He said evenly, calmly.

"I see..." that would've been impossible, for my house no longer exists, Tohru Honda didn't live with her real family anymore. I felt defeated. Now, I would never know, It could happen at any moment. What if it happened tomorrow? I'll never have driven a car, gotten through high school, gotten married, never held a child. Never. Tears welled up in my eyes, and I quickly rubbed them away, and kept on rubbing, rubbing till me eyes ran red raw. Hatori got up, and indicated to the door.

"Would you like me to send for your cousin now?" He asked, He sounded stoic, but I knew better.

"Yeah.." I said, laying back down. The panic gone, but the heartache back. Just a few moments later I was alone again, but then the door opened again. He walked in, his dark hair tousled hair, almost as if he'd been in a fight. He had a slight limp, as if he's been hurt, an arm cradling his stomach, and I raised an eyebrow.

He caught my eye and laughed it off. "Just a little fight." He said. I looked away, but his piercing green eyes caught my gaze again.

"We have to talk, now." He said seriously, sitting down on the chair Hatori was on.

"I guess we do." I said back evenly. I sighed, looking through the window to the outside, the snow fall had returned and I smiled at the memories it brought back. I looked back at Ryou.

"I'm ready." I said, unclenching my hands from the bed sheets, ready to hear what he had to say. Ready to face the world. Ready to face what I always knew was going to happen.

REVIEW OR DIE, lol, jking, the STORY will die if you dont. HAH! Got ya there. Anyway, so I guess most of you noticed that this MIGHT be a Haru/Tohru thing going on here. REVIEW.