Okay, so this is Hitsugaya's chapter. Took me forever to write before for some reason, even though Hitsugaya and Hinamori are two of my favorite characters...it was awkward writing it... Enjoy . Oh, I also took out one stanza from the song because it REALLY didn't fit Hitsugaya.
Now as you close your eyes
Know I'll be thinking about you
While my mistress she calls me
To stand in her spotlight again
Tonite I won't be alone
But you know that don't Mean I'm not lonely
I've got nothing to prove
For it's you that I'd die to defend
Was there ever a time that someone had felt so worthless, they were able to fall to the ground without a second chance? To just wither away because they didn't deserve to live anymore?
Watching her lay there was something he did on a regular occasion. Every day he would come to the room, and just watch over her broken body. Had he known--had he had just a guess at what was really happening, he never would have left her side. He would have stopped Aizen. He could have saved her, even if it cost him his life.
Instead she was nothing more than a shell. She never spoke, never moved, and day after day never woke up. So often he had tried to coax her eyes open. Whispering words to her, letting her know what had been going on since she had first entered her coma. How her friends were doing, telling her she had to get better soon because Kira was blaming himself and she had to set him straight since no one else seemed to be able to.
He went into stories about their childhood. Anything to make a connection. Anything to give her a reason to wake up.
Anything to make her want to stay with him.
Now he no longer spoke. Words weren't necessary for anything, because what he wanted to say couldn't be explained. It was something only a look could carry the message. And he wanted her to know that he was angry at her. Angry that she had gone without him, angry she believed in Aizen before him--angry that she would fall into this sleep and not wake up, torturing him.
He could be angry at her, but never hate her. The hate he felt inside, however, was reserved for himself. The one who hadn't followed after her. He too believed avery word that came from Aizen. And he was the one that couldn't wake her up.
He had sworn he would always look after her. It wasn't something he ever told to her face, but a promise he kept to himself. He used to hate adults, because they never kept promises. That was something he would always do--but now he had broken the most important one.
The body that laid before him would always be a painful reminder, yet it was something more. It made him realize that one day, he could really lose her entirely--and knowing what it felt like now, it was something that he would never allow to happen.
Clenching his fists, he gave her one last glance. Without any words or a second look back, he walked out the door with a flutter of his robe. Now wasn't the time to grieve or to blame himself for anything. The time for that would always be there.
Now was the time to kill--to kill the man that had destroyed half of him before Hitsugaya had fallen before his zanpakutou.
I want to lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonite I sleep on a bed of nails
I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is
And lay you down on a bed of roses
Alright, so there that is. PLEASE no reviews about how you don't like Hinamori. She is one of my favorite characters so just keep that detail to yourself. Just comment on the chapter itself rather than any pairing suggestions. I really just wanted to capture a darker side to Hitsugaya. Really the lines up on the top made me think of Hitsugaya's thoughts on Hinamori. I wouldn't really call Matsumoto the 'mistress' and what not, so I didn't mention her, but if you wish to think that way you can, haha.
Oh, so I'm going to mark this as complete for now since it's the whole Bed of Roses set. I do, however, want to continue it. Especially Ichimaru's part. I just have so many other stories to write meantime, however, so maybe after I finish Kon's Transfer of Love I'll pick this up again. Just let me know if you really want me to add to it or have any characters other than Ichimaru you really want (I will decide whether or not they have potential, though, haha)