A/N: sorry took so long to update...im starting summer school tomorrow, and all that didn't go over to well with my parents, but no worries cause here i am with the next chapter!! Oh and cause today is June 20ith, its Edward's birthday!!!!! throws confetti Whee! happy 106th Birthday to the Vampire that has taken all of our hearts:) (ok, im done, here the next chapter, hope you like it)
Disclaimer: I don't own Edward..Sob well..im my mind I do, but thats another story..so yeah, don't own Edward..so i don't own Twilight either le tear
-Bella PoV-
I really couldn't believe what had just happened to me. Not only did Edward finally agree too
change me, but he asked me to marry him. At that moment I forgot all my pain that I was in.
All the suffering I had gone through, all the tears that were spilled in the past hours simply
vanished, disappeared and all I felt was love and happiness. Now nothing mattered to me, I just
knew Edward did in fact want me now and want me forever. If anything where to happen during
my change, and Edward couldn't stop himself I would actually by okay with this.
As morbid
and twisted as it sounds, I would be content because I would die in his arms and I would die
knowing the fact that he did love me and wanted me forever. I died in the process of him
fulfilling my one wish, my only dream, which was to be a vampire and be with him for all
eternity. I continued in this morbid, yet happy, state of mind by thinking of what my gravestone
would say, Isabella Marie Swan Cullen. This thought comforted me as looked over to Edward,
the one and only man I have and, ever will, love.
He was preparing himself both physically
and mentally to change me. He took his shirt off and folded it neatly then placed it on the ground.
My guess was that it would serve as a pillow for me or something else that he would use to
try and lessen the pain that I would go through during my transformation. I saw him clench and
unclench his fists, waging war against his very being, telling himself he loves me and will defy
his own nature to keep from killing me.
I wanted to run over to him, to take him out of this
nerve-wracking state and tell him it would all be okay, something he has done for me in the past
many times. He looked as though if he were able to be crying, he would be.
Part of me wanted
to just say forget about changing me, I can stay human, we can find another way, but the part
of me with the better judgement knew this was the only way that we could have any chance of
escaping. I looked down and ran my fingers over the ring he gave me and then I smiled slightly
to myself and pushed all the doubts and fears from my mind.
I took in a deep breath and looked
up to Edward, ready to face my fate and whatever destiny threw in the way of it.
-Edward PoV-
I Can do this, I have to. I love her more than anything on this planet, think of how life was before
her, Edward. It was cold and empty, no one other than your family cared about you, let alone
loved you. She is the most wonderful miracle the world could have given you, and you will not
let anything take her away from you. She is more important to me than this stupid hunger!
Carlisle lasted months without feeding and yet you can barely last days, a week or two? No.
I will Not let what I am take away what I love, I don't care how fucking ((had to)) hungry I
become, nothing in this damn world is more important, more precious, than Bella is. We are
both going to make it out of here, and she will be with me forever and then I can marry her.
I'll be able to kiss her the way I've always wanted to since I first became her boyfriend, since I
first knew I could actually love, and be loved, by someone as incredible as Isabella Swan. We
will get out of here. We will have our own 'Happily Ever After' that we deserve after all that we
have been through, I know it. And with that I took a deep breath and walked over to Bella, my
angel. She gave me a slight nod and a meek smile.
"I love you Edward." she said as I continued
to walk over to her. Before she could say anything else I crushed my lips to her warm red ones.
Putting as much passion and love as I could in the kiss. "I love you." I murmured against her lips
as I continued to kiss her. 'We will have our forever, Bella, I swear it.' I thought to myself as
I slowly pulled away from the kiss and rested my forehead against hers. She was drawing in
ragged breaths as she was recovering from the kiss. This was the last time I would see her
beautiful chocolate eyes and her breath-taking blush.
I would never forget them, I will have this
image of Bella with me for all eternity. She put her warm palm to my cheek, and I did the same
to her cheek. I breathed in her scent and memorized that as well for all time. "Are you ready,
Bella?" I breathed onto her face and she looked momentarily dazed. "Yes...Edward. Im ready for
this, im ready to be with you forever, together by your side till the end of time."
she whispered,
her breathing and heart beat quickening at every word she spoke. I looked into her beautiful
brown eyes lovingly and then I bent down to her neck. I heard her heartbeat quickening even
more than before as I got closer. I pressed my lips softly to her neck and I heard her whisper
"I love you with all my heart, Edward. Do It." "Forgive me for the pain im about to put you
through my angel, I love you." I said against her skin and then I opened my mouth and bit down
deeply on her neck. I felt her blood enter my mouth.
The hot, thick liquid tasted even more
amazing than I ever thought possible. I didn't ever want this taste to fade from my lips. I
started sucking more of it greedily, wanting more, needing more. The monster in me was
unbelievably happy and it was quickly taking over.
'Stop, dammit, you love her! Don't let
yourself lose control and kill the only one you have ever loved more than anything! Fuck,
Edward, you are not weak, and you will not lose her! Stop!' my mind screamed at the
monster that was seizing control of my body little by little.
"..Ed..ward..stop..pl..ease."
I heard an agonized voice say weakly. I knew that voice...wait..., why did I know that voice?
Why was my body reacting this way..why..? "Bella!!!" my mind cried out, another part of me
was begging for me to stop, another was begging for it to never end.
'Stop, damn you. You love
her, you love Bella! You're hurting her...you're killing her...stop..please.' my mind continued
to beg, then the words all made sense and the monster was being pushed away, forced away
from controlling what was happening. And then somehow, something made me strong enough
to stop and pull away from her.
-Bella PoV-
When I first felt his fangs bite down into my neck, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.
Just simply felt like two needles were being pushed into me, like a doctor giving me a shot.
Maybe it was because he did not want to hurt me..or maybe it was because I knew I would
finally be able to be with him forever that my mind blocked out the pain and thought only of
that sweet idea, thought of the endless bliss I would be in with Edward forever.
And then I felt
it. I felt my blood being drained, like water going down a drain. Then began the pain and the
weakness swept over my body, making me feel like I just ran 100 miles. I had to get him to
stop. I used what little strength that remained in my body to tell him to stop, and I think it worked
because the sucking on my neck weakened and slowly stopped. I looked up to him and smiled
weakly, not sure if he noticed. What I saw was to be expected, but was still a surprise.
His eyes
were back to the familiar Topaz that I loved so much, but there were now flecks of red. They
had been tainted the light crimson color because he drank from human blood, my blood. They
were an amazing color. They were beautiful and terrifying at the same time.
Then he looked
down straight at me, with a look of expectance, he was waiting for something. And then I knew
what it was that he was looking at, waiting for. My whole body felt like it was on fire. Like
a million sharpened knives were relentlessly attacking my body, waiting for it to break.
I
cried out in pain, thrashing around as Edward's tight grip held me closely to him and he was
whispering in my ear that I would get through this pain. The pain was too much, I passed
out in his arms, tears streaming down my face, the pain still hitting me like it was trying to
see how much I could take before I gave into death.
I heard Edward's dry sob and words of
love and forgiveness in my ear as the darkness and pain took over my body.
A/N: Okie, there you have it folks, hope you liked! I'll be posting the next chapter in 1-3 days. (4 max, i swear, or you have permission to kill me) lol PLEASE review? please! i'll review your story too when i get the chance, i swear
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