A/N: Ooook, DON'T ask how i managed to type a whole chapter from memory on another computer...lol, i just HAD to, i couldn't keep you guys waiting. so here's the next chapter, enjoy! ;)
-Edward PoV-
It's been three days since I had bitten Bella. Three unbelievably, agonizingly, painful days for
both of us. For Bella because of what the venom in her system was doing to her, but also painful
for me because not only did I have to sit here and watch her writhe in pain, hear her agonizing
cries for help, but I knew it was all my fault. She was going through all of this because of
me. She always said I was not a monster. Bull. What kind of person would put the only
person they have ever loved in so much pain that she was almost begging for death to take her
out of her misery. I truly hated myself, I had no clue of how she could ever forgive me for
putting her through all this, she would probably hate me so much for doing this to her that
she'll leave me, forever.
She'll give me the ring that I gave her and walk away, probably to
that mutt. I growled at the thought. He would never have her, she loved me...I don't know
why or how she could love a monster, but she did. This is not the time for me to begin to
question her feelings for me. I love Isabella Swan..and she loves me. That is all I need to know
to go on living in this world. "Always and Forever."
I whispered, pulling a strand of Bella's
hair behind her ear. Her skin has become deathly cold and her blush has long gone from her
cheeks. Her eyes have slowly become redder too. And all this was, again, happening because
of me. She passed out from her pain again, but her body would still thrash around, never
giving her rest even when her body could no longer take it. Whenever it was too much for her
I noticed she would clutch her right hand, the hand that she had her engagement ring on.
While
she was resting, or trying to anyways, I leaned back against the nearby wall and closed my eyes.
Such a human gesture. Though I couldn't dream, I did daydream. I dreamed mainly of only one
thing in particular. I dreamed of My future– Our future. Mine and Bella's. but I dreamt of it in
two different ways. One way was of Bella staying human.
I would be able to see her blush,
feel her warm skin, her lips, everything. She would be able to do all the human things I want
her to do, all the things I could not do. I want her to go to collage and grow up, live her life.
One part of what I wanted for her hurt me, though. Growing up for her meant wanting Bella
to become a mother. She would be an amazing mother, and her child would be incredible, just
like she is. But I couldn't have children...which meant Bella couldn't as long as she was with me.
I sighed and ran my hands through my hair, my eyes still closed and my head was now leaning
against the wall. I started to think of another version of our future. A future of my Bella being
a vampire, immortal, and being with me forever, for all eternity by my side. I let myself
smile slightly at this thought. She would no longer trip over thin air and would be graceful,
not that I didn't love being able to catch her, to have her in my arms, but it sure would mean
not having to worry about her falling to her death every time im not with her.
Also, with her
no longer being human, she would have topaz colored eyes, like the rest of us, and she would
have our strength, hearing, everything that made us what we are. She would also have our
beauty. Would it even be possible for her to be even more beautiful than she already is right
now? I didn't have time to think more about it because I heard a slight moan from Bella.
My eyes
shot open and I was instantly by her side. It would only be a couple more hours until her pain
would be over. In just a few hours her human life will end, she will have to cut off all ties to that
life. Charlie, Renée, all her friends at school, everyone and everything. I winced inwardly at this.
I looked down at her pale face that was breaking out in a sweat again, and wiped some hair away
from her forehead that was starting to stick to it from sweat.
She whimpered again slightly and
then slowly opened her eyes, looking up to me weakly. Her eyes were a deep color, almost red,
meaning she was close to changing. "...Ed..ward?" she mumbled, barely a whisper.
"Im right
her Bella." I replied, grabbing her hand. "..How..how much..long..er? How much more...pain..?"
She managed to say before a wave of pain crashed through her body and she squeezed me
hand tightly and bit her lip. My dead heart sunk hearing her say those words. "Just a little longer,
sweetheart. A hour or two, I swear. And tomorrow we'll be out of here and we can get you
home." I said, rubbing circles onto her hand as she took in deep breaths.
"What if...-" she took
in another breath, "..we..can't get out..? what then?" She sighed and I saw a tear escape from
her eye. I wiped it away and looked down at her. "Edward..im...im scared.." she trailed off,
shutting her eyes tightly as a few more tears fell. I titled my head slightly in confusion.
"Bella,
scared of what?" She opened her eyes and looked up into mine, "..scared on not being with
you..." my eyes widened at this. "Oh, Bella, that will never happen...we will both get out and we
are both going to make it. I will have always have you by my side, Bella, no matter what."
she
smiled at this. "Forever and Always." she whispered. I smiled back. I ran my hand over her
ring and added, "We will also have a wedding to plan when we get out of here. You know
Alice will be able to take you shopping now more than ever and now you will be her
and Rosalie's personal Barbie." I smirked and she rolled her eyes. She whimpered slightly and
tightly held my hand in hers as pain crashed through her body again. "Just a little more Bella,
about an hour, and then it will all be over..." she moaned the pain began to hit her harder than
it was before, the end was always the worse.
"Mmmm, I don't know...if I can..take another hour
of this..Edward..it hurts..so much." she cried. It broke my (dead) heart to hear how badly she
was hurting, especially knowing that I was the reason for her pain. She seemed to of noticed
that I was blaming myself again because even through her pain she managed to take a raged
breath,
"Edward..don't you dare...blame yourself" -breath- "I wanted this, wanted to be with..you
forever." -breath- "I knew that I would be in this pain...and if this..pain is the price I have to..
Pay to be with you forever, than..so be it.." she managed to choke out as wave after wave of
pain washed through her body. I stroked her cold hand and looked into her red eyes.
It was like
time had slowed down. I heard her heartbeat slowing down. It was like I could hear the venom
attacking her heart, making it stop, Bella cried in pain as it did so. And then her heart had beat
for the last time and finally died. Her body then gave up fighting and Bella stopped screaming
and crying. She stopped all movements as her heart did.
I grabbed her body gently and layed
her down in my lap. "I love you, Isabella. Im so sorry for all of this..." I sobbed into her chest as I
cradled her limp body in my hands. "I love you too, Edward." I heard her whisper.
My head
lifted from her chest and my eyes shot to hers. They were crimson. Her skin was now
smooth and hard like stone, just like ours. and her heartbeat was now nonexistent.
She was now one of us. She was now a Vampire.
A/N: heh, ok, there ya go! I made this chap as long as i could with the amount of time i was given to write it XD so hope you all liked it, my computer is being fixed as i type this, so hopefully i'll have chap. 11 up soon! So sorry again for the wait, hope this chapter made up for it!!!
