A/N: Ok, sorry for the long wait, as most of you know, this week has been slow for everyone seeing as how the HP book came out (I stayed up two days to read that book...I cried like a baby too) anyways, Im kinda...iffy about this chap, dunno if I like it or not, anyways, enough talking, enjoy chap 14!

Hundreds of images were flashing through my mind. Dreams? Memories? I couldn't tell as they

flooded through my brain. "Tell me what you're thinking. It's still so hard for me, not knowing."

"I was wishing that I could believe you were real. And I was wishing that I wasn't afraid..."

Wait...this seems..familiar, I remember this. This was the day I had taken Bella to the Meadow

for the first time...to show her who I Really was, what I could really do.

I kept watching the

scene, like a movie playing across my mind only for my eyes to see. "Don't be afraid. I

promise, I swear, not to hurt you." As I was watching it quickly changed, a blur of colors

dancing across my eyes until it stopped. "So what you're saying is, I'm your brand of Heroin?"

"Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin."

And too true it was...she was my heroin. Her scent,

kiss, touch, everything was my drug, and I was hopelessly hooked, a never ending addiction.

"Isabella, you are the most important thing to me now, the most important thing to me ever."

I smiled, I could imagine how the blush was creeping up to her cheeks, her heartbeat becoming

erratic. "And so the Lion fell in love with the Lamb." "What a stupid Lamb." "What a sick,

masochistic Lion." I smiled again at what was being said. I always thought it was irrational for

her to fall in love with me.

I swear I don't deserve her at all, and yet, she chose me, out of

the hundreds of thousands of men who could be lucky enough as to have them with her, she

still chose me, the monster over the men...as I was thinking, the scene before my eyes changed

again. "I was thinking, there was something I wanted to try." this was one of the moments that

passed through my head even when I wasn't dreaming. The first time I kissed Bella.

It felt like

an electric shock ran through my body, zapping my dormant heart back to life. It was at that

point that I knew if there was anyone to ever live on this earth that I could pick from, it would be

her that I chose to live with forever. The one person that I felt I could be myself around, even

better than I could with my own family. I watched, smiling at her reaction to the kiss.

If it weren't

for my bloodlust for her I would've acted the same way she was, maybe even more so. The scene

once again forwarded, I was waiting to watch another precious moment between Me and My

Bella. But the sight that now greeted me was a sight I never wanted to see again. Bella, bloody

and broken on the ground, surrounded by mirrors, some shattered on top of her and James was

towering over her. His eyes were coal black, he was ravenous, about to kill her, drink her blood.

"Oh no, Bella, no!" I heard myself cry out. I saw Jasper and Emmett lunge at him, to get him

away from Bella. I shut my eyes, not wanting to see anymore, I willed the scene to change, to

go away and change to anything else but this. But as soon as I realized it might go to something

else I didn't want to see, it was too late. Another horrible scene came crashing before my eyes.

It was like watching a car accident, you didn't want to watch it, but you can't look away no

matter how hard you try, no matter how much you want to, you keep watching. "Shoot."

Bella muttered, drops of blood beginning to drip from her finger as she got a simple paper

cut. It was her 18th birthday. I watched, horrified, as I flung Bella across into a table, she

landed in glass and crystal, all shattering beneath her, making her simple paper cut become

gashes and wounds on her entire arm.

I watched as I was fighting off Jasper, who became

ravenous, his hunger taking over his senses. I silently thanked whatever it was that kept

changing the scene at the same time I was becoming annoyed at how the scene kept changing

abruptly, wondering if and when it would end. But there was no use at even trying to fight off

the constant changing, so now I was watching myself and Bella in the forest. We were talking...

Well, I was talking. But it seemed...wrong. It just didn't look right, Bella was standing in front

of me, on the verge of tears and I was just leaning against the tree, not going over to comfort her.

Then It hit me, hard. I realized what was happening as the pain began to ripple in my chest,

coming from my heart. This was when I told Bella goodbye, told her I was leaving and didn't

want her anymore. The Pain kept coming as I heard what I was saying to her, breaking her

heart. "I don't want you to come with me, Bella. You're no good for me." "No, don't do this..."

She pleaded, tears now freely falling down her face. I couldn't believe I had done this to her.

"I promise that this will be the last time you see me. I won't come back. It will be as if I Never

Existed..." I hated myself, down to my very core as I walked away from her and I still do now.

How the hell could I do that to her? I love her, so I go and break her damn heart?! I loathed

myself with every fiber in my being. How could I of been so fucking god damned stupid?!

I was happy when the scene faded, waiting for it to change and hoping it would be a better one.

But the images didn't stop, they just kept going as if they were a slide-show. Bella's small

body slammed into mine in the shadow of Volterra's Clock Tower. I had finally realized

that she wasn't dead, I wasn't imaging her in front of me and I hugged her to me, relishing in

the fact that she was alive. Then the Volturi came, they led us down the alley, toward the way to

go to Aro's chamber.

I was waiting for the images to stop moving so quickly, to stop so I could

hear what they were saying, but it never slowed, it actually went faster till everything in front

of me was nothing but a blur of colors. Then it suddenly did stop, making me shut my eyes

momentarily at the sudden brightness. I blinked and watched. Me and Bella were back in her

room, safe and sound. Her face held many emotions, shock, confusion, fear, but her eyes

were different, they help hope, love...happiness deep within.

"Bella, I can't live in a world where

you don't exist..." This was when I was begging her forgiveness,telling her how truly stupid I

was for ever leaving her side, for causing her such pain. "When I told you I didn't want you, it

was the blackest kind of blasphemy..." I saw the tears well up in her eyes as I told her that I

did in fact love her and I would never leave her again. I watched as I kissed her and she finally

let her guard down, her protective walls were shattering as she kissed me back.

To this day I

still couldn't believe she accepted me back. I kept thinking she'll one day realizehow difficult

I make her life and she'll run from me...I hadn't noticed the scene changed again until I heard

Bella's voice. "Yes, Edward, I'll marry you." My eyes shot open and I stared at the scene before

me. We were now in the factory, almost a year later from the previous scene. This was just mere

days ago, Bella's last day as a human, one of our last happy moments together.

I scowled as the

images blurred again and then stopped. Bella was a vampire...and fighting Jane. I knew what

was soon to happen, it was something I didn't want to see, but did anyways. Jane threw Bella

across the room and into the wall with such...power, such force it was incredible that so much

strength could be held in such a small body. Bella wasn't getting up and I felt my heart breaking

all over again.

"Edward...Help me.." Bella...im sorry I couldn't save you I was too weak...

"Edward, please..." Bella? Wait...was that from another image? I looked around, it was dark,

blank..then...how? "Edward..." No, she's calling for me, im sure of it, it's her! "Help..."

She needs me...but the darkness, it's so powerful. "It...hurts." I heard her say again.

How was

this possible? I was wracking my brain for the answer, then it hit me. I must still be able to

hear her thoughts since I can only hear her when she needs me, when she's hurt or in

trouble...I want to wake up, want to get to her, but the darkness, it was taking over again,

threatening to make me unconscience again. No, open your eyes, Edward. Fight it dammit!

I screamed at myself, willing to wake up, to get to Bella. "I need you...Edward." she thought

again, her voice ringing in my head, so pained and weak.

I had to fight this stupid

darkness and wake up to get to her..."Bella..."I moaned, my eyes fighting the rest of my body,

I willed them to keep fighting, I felt the darkness weakening. "Bella...!" I yelled, my eyes

finally breaking through. I slowly sat up, my eyes scanning the darkened room around me, the

lights were shut off again, just a small bit of light coming through the window told me

it was light out. My eyes finally rested on what I wanted to see: Bella. My body was

already starting to heal, but it still ached. I didn't care. I stood up shakily and wobbled slightly.

Gaining balance, I quickly (as currently possible) made my way over to Bella's body. She was

still, her chest not even rising with the intakes of breath. Had I just imagined hearing her

thoughts? A cruel trick my mind was playing on me? No, impossible, it was her thoughts I

heard, it was really, truly her...I knew it was. She's just really weak, that's why she's not

coming to yet...it's not like vampires had to breathe, so that's why her chest was still... I kneeled

by her and stroked her cheek. "Bella..." I whispered, bringing my lips to gently kiss her

forehead. I picked her up and layed her gently in my lap.

I whispered again with more

urgency, "Isabella...I know you can hear me..I heard you, heard your thoughts, please, Bella,

I need you...wake up." I trailed off and leaned over, resting my head against her chest and

closed my eyes, silently praying she would somehow answer me, that this would all end and

we could just go home and be together. "Ed...ward." I froze. "Bella?" I said, keeping my head

down, not wanting to find out if I had just imagined her calling me. "...-ward."

I heard her

wrangled voice say. My eyes shot open and my head raised quickly. "Bella?!" Her eyelids

were flickering, trying to stay as open as possible. "Bella, thank God you're ok!" I said,

hugging her body to me, knowing if I could cry, I would be. The relief that washed

through my body was intense, I felt her hand caress my cheek, leaving an indescribable

trail of fire behind her icy touch, which I reveled in. I let out a sigh of relief.

"So...it's finally...

Over?" she asked, whispering. "Yes, Bella, it's over." I said, kissing her forehead again and

pushing some of her hair out of her eyes. "I love you, Isabella." I whispered, a smile plastered

on my face. "Me too." she said back, s weak smile forming on her face. "Lets get out of here

and go home, everyone's probably worried sick. I told Alice to not let anyone come after us, I

didn't want to risk it..." I said, picking her up and standing, her arms wrapped around my neck.

When I went over to the door I realized all of the vampires that were sent here to keep guard

on us were now gone, probably on the way back to Italy with Aro and Jane. My body was

almost done healing, just a few scratches on my face and teeth marks still in my arm.

My clothes were ripped and torn and Bella's couldn't even count as clothes anymore.

Bella had begun to heal also, but her appearance was far worse, still, she looked beautiful,

nothing could change that. As we stepped outside Bella tried to get out of my grasp. "I can

walk, you know..." she said. "Just rest, Bella. I'll wake you when we get home." she was

about to protest but I put my lips to hers to stop her. "Please." I breathed against her face,

making her nod. She rested her head against my chest and her eyelids fluttered closed.

With that

I ran home, not noticing the pouring rain until I broke out of the cover of the forest I had used

to hide from the sun that was out just moments ago. But I didn't care, nothing could bother

me, in fact, I welcomed the rain for many reasons, for one, it finally washed the scent of Bella's

blood off of both us and our clothes. It allowed me to breath deeply, loving the fresh air. It

finally made me realize that we were out of that hell and the future we had dreamed about can

start to come true now.

The final reason I loved the rain at the moment was because of what

the rain did to Bella's scent, it intensified it, made it even better, more beautiful than anyone's

scent should be, it was intoxicating, to say the least. I couldn't believe it, it was over, and soon

I'd be able to marry the angel that was firmly in my arms. I smiled the whole way home.

I walked up to my house slowly.

Before I could even open the door it was yanked open

by a pissed off sister and an even angrier brother. "Where the hell have you been?!?" Emmett

and Rosalie yelled at me, taking in both mine and Bella's appearance. I realized not only

didn't Alice let them come save us, she didn't tell them a thing.Crap.

A/N: Ok, hope it wasn't confusing... xD anyways, I dont have much to say in this cept PLEASE review, I have almost 8000 hits and only 50some reviews? grrr, lol, ok well, I'll hopefully have the next chap soon, but I havent even started writing it...im going to 6 Flags tomorrow but I already have the next chap outlined..just gotta write it! ok, enough rambling, R&R guys:)