Of Fire and Ice
Author's note: Ok in this chapter she's 11 but I will include some references to here first year having her mom home somewhat. I hope it isn't too confusing
"Taranee's thoughts"
"Other family member's thoughts"
Flashback
Chapter 15
It doesn't seem fair to me. For the past year mom has done nothing but push me. Even in homework she always wants me to be perfect. I don't understand it and I…don't know if I can handle that much pressure. I do still see a glimpse on her kind side before she got in trouble. Still it feels like the mom I knew died in the correction center. I just sit alone not wanting to speak. I see Peter walking in with that hopeful smile. I just give a half smile back to him. I go to school like usual only this time without my skates. It seems normal enough then as if on cue the bully I had given flames too shows up. He asks, "So Taraeen, are you wanting to get past me?"
I hiss "MY name is TARANEE! And I could care less right now." I just walk on but then he punches me in the nose. "OK THAT'S IT HE WANTS MORE HE'LL GET IT!" I thought I'd have to hit him but suddenly flames circle him and get really close. I just let out a sigh and shake my head. As if it understood it went out. I don't really care how they got there; I've stopped paying that close attention. It was just a coincidence just like all the others. I didn't notice at the time but my nose was bleeding. I hide the pain with the look of cold indifference. A stupid clown tries to cheer me up but I just walk on. I hear it scream in pain not wanting to look back I just move on. It begins to rain, how ironic that the weather sort of fits my mood. I just walk into class without much to say and I got unwanted attention, but I smile politely.
Mrs. Burns looks at me and asks, "Miss Cook, are you feeling ok?"
What a typical question, all she can ask is, am I feeling ok? "Let's see I got punched by a bully, saw flames, my house is on its head again, I FEEL TRAPPED AND ALONE YEAH I FEEL REAL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF!" I answer in a neutral voice, "Yes Mrs. Burns I'm ok for now."
Suddenly a guy sits beside me and smiles. I just ignore him like I have for the past 2 years. I hear snickers of girls in the front row but I don't really care as much as I use to. He pokes me on the shoulder but I just keep reading. He put gum in my hair, and gave me a wet wily but the one thing that destroyed me was he ripped my text book. Before I do something drastic the teacher calls, "Miss Cook there someone here wanting to talk to you."
I just walk over not really wanting to argue about anything. I just feel like I don't truly belong much of anywhere but I do love my home. I see the kind looking lady in the hall.
She smiles and asks, "So you're the famous Taranee?"
"Famous? Me? That's funny lady you really need to be a comedy act." I just nod and walk with her to a nice looking office. She asks, "Taranee lets talk about your family shall we?"
I start to say, "My dad is a lawyer, my mom is a judge and is getting a masters in law, my brother Peter is a few years older than me and loves sports. We're just your average family."
She gives a stern yet gentle look and asks, "What about you Taranee?"
I just sigh and say, "I'm the daughter that's supposed to be perfect."
She smiles a little and asks, "Taranee has someone lashed at you more than you think you needed?"
I just nod and say, "My mom wants me to be the ideal daughter. I…don't know if I can." The bell for the day rings and the lady smiles at me.
"Taranee I want you to visit me on Monday's and Wednesday's for a month. Can you do that?"
I nod and say, "I think I can do that bye."
My nose still hurts and I walk home dreading what was to come. I see mom and dad talking, so I just sneak past them and try to make it to my room. Mom asks, "Taranee how was your day?"
I want to shout out that it was horrible and I wished I didn't have to get up. I just give a fake smile and say, "It was nice and interesting mom I'm going to take a nap." I don't care it was an alibi so I just go laying down thinking back to last year.
Flashback
The next morning I got up, mom just looked so soulless. I try to see how she is and suddenly my mom goes into a crying fit. I hug her and she snaps at me. I feel confused so I went back upstairs and fell asleep for a little while. Then I sit up and see me mom standing in my room.
I ask, "Need something momma?"
She sits down beside me with a cold look in her eyes but her voice sounds softer. She says, "Taranee I want you to put 150 percent in everything you do and don't end up like me…I need you to be stronger then me."
I didn't fully understand but I nodded. In the next days I worked really hard but everything seemed to fall short. I got some hugs from mom but it seemed like there was emptiness between my mom and me. I was hoping I'd see the loving and laughing mom I had missed all these months. Now it seems that my heart will fade into shadows. I guess I did ok, every time I'd get an A on the paper mom would hug me. However, every time I get a B mom would tell me to study harder. If I kept repeating the B mom would drill facts in my head until the point where I wanted to scream. After I get my homework done I'd sneak to an old house where I'd take pictures of bugs.
Little did I know the lady that was talking to me in school or at lease looked like her, lived there, so I keep taking pictures of bugs and nature, a familiar voice caught my attention.
She asks, "Would you like to come inside Taranee?"
End of flashback
I hear my mom yell "TARANEE COME DOWN YOU'VE GOT COMPANY!"
I groan and obey not knowing what to expect out of this event.
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