The Blue Dress Shirt Chapter Four
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A/N – It's SNOWING in Northern Virginia today. In my mind fictional JJ and Hotch are having a snowball fight with Jack and Henry. Derek and Emily are probably pursuing other activities…
The incessant knocking on the door finally penetrated her grief filled fog. JJ moved off the bed and looked out the peephole. "Is this work related?" JJ said loud enough for him to hear.
"Is that the only thing that's going to get me through the door?" Hotch yelled back.
"I think going forward we need to focus on keeping our relationship strictly professional." She shouted.
He laid his hand flat on the door and continued to speak loud enough for her to hear through it. "That's going to be hard for me to do."
"You've managed to behave very professionally the last six months, you'll figure it out."
"I love you, JJ." He hollered loudly. "I'm in love with you." Her door and several others swung open.
"Are you insane?" She hissed, flinging open the door and pulling him into her room. "That's a cheap trick screaming that in the corridor so I'd open the door.
He stood transfixed as he looked at her standing in the blue dress shirt she'd worn from his room the other evening. "You're wearing my shirt."
She flushed, embarrassed to have been caught. "We're not talking about my apparel. We're talking about you using some dirty ploy to get me to open my door!"
"The dirty ploy was saying whatever I thought you wanted to hear to get you in my bed." Hotch told her.
JJ's mouth dropped open and her eyes filled. "Wow. Really? Thanks for coming down here and making sure that I knew that. Because I didn't feel bad enough already."
He'd already noticed her red rimmed eyes they gave him courage to continue as if she hadn't spoken. "I thought you didn't want a relationship. I thought you wanted a 'no strings attached' fuck buddy. Your words, JJ, not mine. I got out of the relationship I was in the minute you announced you and Will were separating. I've been half in love with you for years. I figured that I would take whatever measly affection I could get from you. I figured I could worship your body and make you fall in love with me." He growled as she stood silent. "What? You don't have any witty comeback?"
Her eyes were wide with surprise. "You told me Beth dumped you."
He hadn't expected that to be the part that captured her attention. "Yeah, well, I lied. I dumped her." He confessed. "Over the phone. I couldn't even be bothered to do it in person." He admitted. He had been a complete asshole but he hadn't cared, he had one single minded goal and she was standing in front of him.
"Wow. That was pretty rotten." She bit her lip to prevent a smile. "I cried out your name during sex."
He wasn't sure of the relevance of the statement but breathing suddenly became easier. "I know I was there." He made damn sure that she was satisfied whenever they were together.
She shook her head. "No you weren't. I was married at the time." She sheepishly declared. "Stuff like that is really hard on a marriage."
The vice on his heart loosened. "Huh. No wonder Will scowled at me when I ran into him at the grocery store." He moved closer to her. "You look really good in my shirt." His eyes flared with attraction.
"I brought it to return to you." She'd had it laundered but it was the first thing she reached for when she came back to her room miserable over the assumption that her whatever it was with Hotch had come to an abrupt end. She planned on keeping the damn shirt.
His hand reached out for her hip and fisted in the shirt material. "I don't want it back. I want you to keep it. In fact, the only time I want you to take it off is when I'm here to take it off you."
"You're here now." She told him, stepping closer.
He swallowed seeing the heat in her eyes. "I'm going to need strings, JJ. I'm a pretty traditional guy. You don't want to get married that's fine, I guess, but I want a committed relationship, I want…"
"I love you." She blurted out, stopping his speech. "I thought you didn't want a commitment because you were still hung up on Haley."
He couldn't stop himself from leaning down and taking her mouth in his. She loved him. He had her backed up to the bed before he realized that he moved. Hands were busy quickly removing the barriers that separated them then he was pressing her into the mattress, joining their bodies completely.
"We really need to work on our communication skills." He held her tightly as their bodies cooled. "JJ part of me will always love Haley, for what we once had and because she gave me Jack, but I haven't been in love with her since before the divorce."
"I was so convinced that the reason that you and Beth broke up, was due to the fact that you couldn't commit to one woman while you were in love with another."
He dropped a kiss on her head. "Well, that was the reason, but you were the woman I was in love with." He shook his head. "I thought I would die when you so flippantly suggested we become lovers."
"Huh." He responded quickly but calmly when she'd brought it up. She'd thought him horny, but otherwise unaffected. "You took me up on my offer pretty quickly."
"Do I look stupid?" He chuckled. "Don't judge by my behavior today."
That reminded her. "It took you long enough to come after me." So long she assumed that he wasn't planning on coming.
He winced, realizing he was going to have to admit to more bad deeds. "On my way here Derek accosted me in the hall to divulge a personal relationship." He let out a sigh and confessed. "I thought he was talking about you."
JJ sat up and swatted him. "Jeez, what, did you think I was servicing the whole damn team?"
He captured her hand and placed a kiss on her palm. "I just decided to let Rossi live and all of a sudden I had to adapt my plan to kill Morgan." He grinned at her. "Obviously I wasn't thinking very clearly."
"Obviously, I think Morgan could probably take you."
"Ha." Hotch scoffed, "not if it meant keeping you from me."
CMJHDE
Derek Morgan sat patiently as Emily paced the length of the room. She had been rambling for the last twenty minutes at least and he felt it prudent not to interrupt her. Every so often she would direct a question at him then grumble without giving him the opportunity to really answer.
"Did you even consider what you were doing when you decided to divulge our relationship to Hotch?" She turned to him angrily. "Well?" She huffed, waiting for his answer.
"Oh, are you going to let me speak now?" He bravely asked. "Or are you just going to stomp and rant some more?"
"You didn't even tell me you planned on doing it. You made a huge decision that is going to impact both of us and you just acted on it. We were supposed to talk first."
"If it helps I don't think Hotch cares. I don't know what's going on with him."
Emily smiled genuinely for the first time. "He thought you were telling him you were involved with JJ."
"JJ? Why would Hotch care if I was talking about… Oh!" His eyes widened. "Really?" When Emily nodded, he shook his head. "I'll be damned." Then he snorted. "He can't do anything about what I told him tonight, he's doing the exact same thing!"
"That's not the point, Derek." Emily griped.
Tired of arguing he stood from the room's one chair. "Then what is the point? What are we doing here? I'm getting a damn complex." He began to pace. "You only want this relationship if we have to do it in secret?"
"I didn't say that."
"There's a lot that you haven't said." He told her pointedly, he was clearly the agitated one now.
And for some odd reason that calmed her. "Do you want me to tell you that I love you?"
"Well, don't do me any damn favors." He muttered.
She couldn't help but smile. He was really working himself up in a snit. "You are really cute when you're pathetic. That bottom lip pushes out any further I'm going to swoon."
He shot her a look to show her just how much he didn't appreciate her comment. "I'm glad you're enjoying the fact that I'm pissed off. You know, I only wanted to do the right thing. If Hotch would have found out about this on his own he wouldn't have been happy. I know that our having the relationship is against policy but I can't help the fact that I fell in love with you. I told my superior so we can figure out a solution. It was the right thing to do. I trust Hotch he's an honest, good man."
The fact that he was an honest and good man himself was another part of the reason he came clean to Hotch. She smiled at him. "I am really going to miss working with you and JJ." She gave a slight shrug. "But at least I'll be able to wake up next to you in the mornings when we're both in town."
He abruptly stopped moving. "No more sneaking around in hotels." He asked, moving over to where she stood.
Her smile faltered. "Really? I kind of liked that part." She teased. "Admit it having a secret relationship was hot. All the times we almost got caught. Barely making it back to the room before ripping each other's clothes off." Her hand slipped over to his waist. "I'm pretty sure that was my favorite part." Her hand slid into his jeans, making contact with the taut skin. "What do you say we reenact that right now for old time sake?"
He chuckled over her enthusiasm. "Should I worry that you're going to want to start having sex in public places for the thrill of it?"
The idea was absurd. "No, but you should worry that I really want you in me like two minutes ago." She pulled his shirt over his head and attacked his mouth.
Derek looked up from the floor and groaned. "I really think we could have aimed for the bed."
"Next time." Emily promised. She leaned forward on her elbow. "So, do you want to go out or are we ordering in."
"Cat's out of the bag baby. I say if this is our last case together we go all out."
She pondered it for a second. "Okay, but tomorrow we are strictly professional."
"I promise not to call you babe or grab your ass." He moaned as he got off of the floor and reached down to assist her.
"Don't go crazy." She told him as she leaned into him and kissed him lingeringly. "You know I love you, right?"
His smile lit his face. "I knew you were getting there."
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