Author's Note: Alright I decided to continue this even though I have like 6 other stories to write. Anyway thanks for the feedback. To the person that didn't like it that's okay, I understand where you are coming from. Lucas would not normally act that way. But when the girl you think of as your soul mate, sleeps with someone else. It kills something inside of you. I know because I have been there. There is a reason why he is like this, and hopeful if you still decide to read this, it will be explained. I hope you do, because I did like your response, it was honest and did not trying to stroke my ego. As to the rest of the fbs. I loved how you gave this fic a chance. And you are one of the many reasons why I decided to continue with it. I'm a big Brook and Lucas fan even when he was with Peyton. I loved them together. SO know that this fic will be about them mostly. I guess I'm like predictable because I love Naley, and Jeyton as well. Thanks for the feedback hope you enjoy this. Peace.
Chapter 1
Brooke shifted in the bed and stretched out her arms. She reached over expecting Lucas to be asleep next to her but she was met with cold sheets.
"Lucas", whispered Brooke when she turned around to see him standing by the window in his room.
He stood in his boxer shorts, with his back turned to her. Brooke wrapped the sheets that were on the bed around her and walked towards him. She touched his shoulders. What she saw on his face nearly made her fall. The utter pain and hurt.
"Lucas", sobbed out Brooke.
Lucas turned around to the window and stared out at nothing. His mother would not be home tonight because she and Deb decided to go on a road trip to get away from Dan for a while.
"Brooke", was the only words he uttered.
He turned around and took her in his arms. He closed his eyes.
"How can the one thing I need most in the world, be the one thing that can hurt me the most", said Lucas.
"Brooke don't leave me, don't leave me", cried Lucas.
Brooke sobbed and held onto him tightly.
"Baby I won't Lucas I will never leave you again. I'm so sorry, so sorry". said Brooke.
Lucas nodded his head before letting her go. He walked back to the window, looking at again.
"Brooke this won't be easy, you and I both know that", said Lucas.
"We both hurt each other, I can't, Brooke you have to promise, you can't leave me, don't leave me alone", said Lucas looking at her now.
She was his goddess, the love of his life and he knew that she held a power of him. She could hurt and break him, she already had. But he also knew that he wielded that same power also. He could hurt a break her as well. He didn't want to do it. It was one of his biggest fears. He was scared to be like his father and hurt the person he is in love with. Dan did it twice, and Nathan is doing that now. Lucas sighed at remembering Nathan. His baby brother, he hated to admit it, but he missed him. He loved his brother and wanted him back, but as always he loses the person he wants. Brooke looked at the man in front of her. He was a man, he stood like one, he acted like one, he look like one, but at that very moment, he wasn't. He was begging her not to leave him, like a little boy does when his mother leaves him for the first time at daycare. It broke her heart. She knew she made a mistake, but she was determined to fix it. She knew she had to or she would lose him. She was grateful to Lucas for giving her a chance. She didn't think that she would be the same. She remembered how she acted when she found out about Lucas and Peyton. She was a total bitch to them.
"I won't Lucas, I won't leave you, remember me and you forever, babies and everything", said Brooke looking unsure at him.
What if he didn't mean it? He did say it to her when he was anger with her. She never saw that side of Lucas before. It was anger and out of control. She understood though because she destroyed his heart, she didn't expect him not to be. But the rage that he had inside of him, I didn't scared her because she knew with her whole heart that Lucas Scott would never hit her, but when someone is in pain you don't know if they would hurt you mentally and emotionally thought to get back at that person. Lucas made this demands. Brooke tried not to smile, when he said that she would give him babies. Brooke never saw herself as the maternal type but when he yelled that out, she got this yearning in the pit of her stomach. It was so strong that she forgot that he was yelling at her. She wanted to have his babies, she wanted to give him sons. It seems somewhat outdated and very 1950's but she wanted it with him. She wanted to be married to Lucas and have his babies. That's all she wanted now. Now though she had to earn his trust. She didn't want to fool herself into believing that all was good with them because she knew it wouldn't be for a long time. She had to make sure that image with Chris was erased from his mind. But the problem was that she couldn't remember even being with him. Everything was a blur really, and she hated to admit it that little fact scared her. She made sure to take an overnight pill. She didn't want to have anything that reminded her of that night. But looking at Lucas's face now she knew that she would be constantly reminded of that night.
Lucas walked to the bed and sat down next to her.
"We have to trust each other, no more secrets Brooke", said Lucas.
He looked directly in her eyes. Brooke nodded her head. Brooke reached down taking her purse and opening it handing him a stack of letters.
"No more secrets", repeated Brooke.
Lucas looked at the stack before opening one. He read the letter and felt his heart clench.
"Why then Brooke, why did you do it?", asked Lucas.
He felt the tears coming to him. He tried to check them but it was hard. She was the girl that he loved and she had been with someone else.
"I don't know I was drunk, I don't remember at all what happened", said Brooke.
"How could you not remember", yelled Lucas standing up.
Brooke flinched back.
"I don't remember, I just remember you coming into the room, please don't yell at me", cried out Brooke.
Lucas ran his fingers through his hair trying to calm his nerves. Something was wrong with this.
"I don't understand Brooke, did you or did you not sleep with him?", asked Lucas trying to keep his anger down.
"I did, because it felt like I did, but I don't remember actually doing it. It's weird because I have been drunk before but this is the first time I don't remember, please Lucas, I don't remember, I'm sorry I'm so sorry", cried Brooke crying with the sheets wrapped around her body.
Lucas sighed and bent down cupped her head in his hands. He ran his fingers through her dark hair making her tilt her head back.
"Okay, I know you are sorry, it's just going to take me some time. Okay Cheery give me some time, I know that we weren't exclusive, but seeing that killed me Brooke, I, sometimes it's hard to breathe", said Lucas looking at her with tears flowing unchecked down his face.
Brooke cried out.
"I don't remember, I don't remember", said Brooke over and over again.
Lucas held her in his arms. She was his.
"Brooke, I know, look this, us we are going to be together, because I'm not wrong you belong with me, I know this. If it wasn't hard it wouldn't be real. What I feel for you Brooke that's real. I love you Cheery", said Lucas.
Brooke nodded her head.
"I love you too Broody", said Brooke looking at him.
He kissed her gently then. He knew he was making that right decision to be with her. He was still thinking about what she said about not remembering. It plagued him. He knew that fucker did something, and he was going to find out what exactly. If what Lucas thinks happened that night, Chris Keller was a dead man.
"My Broody", whispered Brooke laying on his bed.
He kissed her forehead. Lucas smiled at her dreamy smile. She always had a way of making him smile.
"My Cheery", whispered Lucas.
Brooke smiled at him, her dimples showing. She loved this man and knew that had a lot to work on but she was happy that they were working on it together. Brooke fell asleep then. She never knew that Lucas Scott watched her all night like she would disappear at any moment. She didn't know that losing her was what scared him the most in life. He was scared to lose anyone. He lost so many people already. He didn't want to lose her. He knew he had to tell her about his heart condition. But for now he would sleep with thoughts of Brooke in his mind.
Chapter 2
A week later...
"So everything is okay with Lucas", asked Haley that was sitting in their living room sipping coffee with Brooke.
Haley mentally did a countdown. Yup 5 seconds flat, large grin on Brooke Davis's face. Haley shook her head at this. She knew that Lucas and Brooke were trying to work on their relationship. Lucas tried hard. She knew because sometimes she would see that look of pain cross his face when he held Brooke in his arms. Haley was scared of that look because that look could break Brook's heart. Brooke however wasn't as dumb as people thought. She did see that look on Lucas's face. She wanted to ignore it but she couldn't. She couldn't ignore it. He was hurt because of her. Sometimes that little fact was just hard to swallow.
"Yeah me and my Broody, are doing good", said Brooke with a little squeal.
"What about you and Nate?", asked Brooke.
Haley smiled at well. Her and Nathan were making progress but she was waiting for the other shoe to drop. She was always scared that he would wake up and decide that their marriage was not worth trying for anymore. She buried that thought but it was still with her always.
Lucas ran up and down the River Court. He was trying shake the feeling about Brooke. He couldn't, he knew something was up. Chris Keller just disappeared and he wasn't liking that one bit. Something just didn't sit right with him about this. Him and Brooke decided to be honest about everything. They wanted no secrets from each other. But how was he going to tell Brooke that he thought she was raped. It hurt him to even think that he didn't protect her. He sighed once more letting the basketball fall from his hands.
"God what am I going to do?", said Lucas out loud.
"Well from what I understand about Basketball you supposed to put the ball in the hoop, but I could be wrong", said Haley walking form behind him.
Lucas smiled at her.
"Hey buddy", said Lucas hugging her.
"Eww best-friend, sweat", said Haley smiling.
They walked to bench and sat down.
"So what's new?", asked Haley smiling at him.
He kind of blushed at her.
"Yeah Brooke and I are working on it", said Lucas smiling.
His smile faded when his mind wander once more on how to tell her she may have been raped. She gave the symptoms of someone that had been slipped the date drug. She was sick all week and had small withdrawal symptoms. He knew it because he had been there one of those mornings.
"Lucas?", asked Haley looking concerned.
"It's nothing Hales, there is something that had been bugging me, it's just you can't tell Brooke yet, I have to tell her", said Lucas.
When Lucas explained everything, he saw Haley shaking in fear.
"DO you think?", asked Haley.
Lucas nodded his head.
"She doesn't remember anything Hales, and she has been having withdrawal symptoms", said Lucas.
"How am I going to tell her?", asked Lucas running his fingers through his hair.
Haley didn't know what to say. Would Chris do something like that. God she was on tour with him. He could have, God why didn't she listen to Nathan, why didn't she listen.
"God Hales, I left you on tour with that fucker, god", whispered Lucas hugging her.
"You can't tell Nathan", said Haley looking at her friend with pleading eyes.
"He will freak, I mean go off, I'm telling you", said Haley wrapping her arms around herself. "I couldn't tell him anyway, he isn't exactly talking to me", said Lucas looking down sadly.
"You miss him don't you?", asked Haley.
"God I don't want to, but he is my brother, my family, I love him. Haley it's stupid but I loves us hanging out, I want my brother back, god", said Lucas.
"Haley I need four B's in my life", said Lucas looking at Haley.
Haley looked at him curious about what the 4 B's thing was about.
"Best-friends, that's you, Peyton, and Jake, cause I know he will be back, at least I'm hoping", said Lucas.
"That's one B", said Haley.
Lucas nodded his head. He held out the basketball in front of him.
"This is the second B, I love this game Hales, I don't know there is just something about it that gets to me, maybe it's in my blood or something but I know that this game is part of me", said Lucas.
Haley nodded her head. She knew that.
"What's the third B?", asked Haley.
Lucas sighed looking at the basketball again.
"Brother", answered Lucas looking down. Haley smiled at that.
" I need my brother, I miss him Hales, it's stupid since I see him all the time, I just miss us, like we were for the past year, best-friends, brothers", said Lucas.
Haley held his arm. He didn't have to tell her that, she knew. She also knew what the last B was too.
"The last B is Brooke", said Haley.
Lucas smiled nodding his head.
"Yeah it is. Brooke Davis has put a spell on me", said Lucas.
"I heard about your angry tirade", said Haley smirking.
Lucas actually blushed.
"So you are going to ask her?", asked Haley.
"Yeah she is going to be my wife, and the mother of my babies, I know that there is no doubt in my mind actually", said Lucas.
"Haley I'm scared though, that night I lost control, I wanted her, I wanted to like possess her or something. God what if I hurt her, what if I become like him", said Lucas stating his fear.
"You won't you already better than him", said Haley.
"Are you sure, I just, what if I lose control again with her?", asked Lucas.
"You would never hurt Brooke, I know you. I've known you forever Lucas Scott and my best-friend is the best person in the world", answered Haley.
They didn't know that they were being watched by none other than Nathan Scott. He heard the whole conversation between Haley and Lucas. God Brooke being raped by that guy. Nathan clenched his fist at that. He heard his brother say that he missed him. Nathan hated to admit it but he missed Luke too. He missed him more than he thought he would. He laughed at the 4 B's Lucas needed in his life. He understood though.
"When are you going to tell Brooke about your HCM Lucas, she deserves to know, you remember no secrets", said Haley.
Lucas sighed but his head snapped up when he heard a noise. Then Nathan walked up to them.
"You have HCM", said Nathan looking at him with anger.
Lucas looked at his little brother.
"Shit", was the only thing that came out of this mouth.