well thank you first off to all my reviewers for not only reviewing, but not killing me. i know some of you probably could. and i was actually surprised that some of you liked the fact that joanne chose kristin. so anyway, here is another ch didn't want to keep you guys waiting too long for an update since the last ch was quite depressing/upsetting for some of you. enjoy!

(Maureen's POV)

My heart sank hearing her say this; I couldn't move. I just stood there, staring at her. I could feel my body starting to shake, the tears welling up in my eyes, my world was crashing all around me. The one thing I've wanted more in my life for the past five years was standing here in front of me, telling me I wasn't the one she wanted.

"Maureen say something," she pleaded. She reached out her hand, taking hold of mine. I stared at our adjoined hands, thinking how perfect they looked together. But the anger took over and I jerked my hand away from her.

"Why?" I frustratingly questioned stepping back from her. "Joanne we are great together you know that, I know that, what's the problem?"

"Well…" she began, but I wasn't in the mood to hear her lame ass excuses, which no doubtingly she was going to give me.

"And don't use that you live in Chicago and I live in New York shit. We could have figured something out!" I was getting so heated right now. I was sure that Joanne would come back to me; I was loosing what I wanted so might as well go out with a bang.

Her eyes fell to the ground, "Maureen….the reason I chose Kristin…." Her eyes moved up again to stare into mine, "Maureen you hurt me so bad when I decided to leave New York and you wouldn't come back with me. I can't go through that again…"

"I won't ever hurt you again…" I interrupted her, but she was quickly raising her hand to cut me off.

"I couldn't stand going through that kind of pain again. And those no guarantee you won't do that to me again."

"Love isn't a guarantee Joanne. But I can guarantee that I do love you more than anything…and that I want to be with you."

"Kristin loves me and I she wants to marry me; I know she's serious about us."

"And what you think I'm not serious about us?"

"Maureen you know how many times you've ran when you got scared?"

"Needing someone as much as I need you does scare me…it scares me that I can love someone so much." My voice had gotten much softer; I walked closer to her. "I love you Joanne."

"Maureen, I know how great we were together…that's just it…how we were."

"Why Kristin over me?" I didn't care how blunt this had come out, but I needed some answers…what made Kristin so much better for Joanne than me.

"Why not?" she fired back; being the typical lawyer Joanne.

"Because I love you more and would do anything for you."

"You wouldn't move to Chicago."

"Damn it Joanne, do you have to continually hold that against me. It was a fucking ridiculous decision…I get that. But why do you have to keep hold of that? It's in the past…I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere." I was back to getting pissed off at her again.

"How do I know that?"

"How do you know Kristin isn't going anywhere?"

"Because I know she loves me."

It felt like a knife going through my heart. "I love you too," I softly responded.

"You say you do, but that's it…you say it, but that's all I typically get from you."

"What?"

"Maureen, what about all the times you've flirted with other people, right in front of me! The nights I waited up till three in the morning wondering where you were and if you were ok, wondering if you were with someone else…"

I cut her off right there, "I never cheated on you!" I screamed at her.

"I know I hear you say that…and Maureen quite honestly I do believe you…I don't think you've ever cheated on me…"

"So then…" she was starting to confuse me.

"But at times…it was in the back of my head, wondering if my girlfriend would rather be with someone else. That thought alone killed me."

"But pookie, I never would have cheated on you…I loved you so much." I walked closer to her, slyly wrapping my arms loosely around her waist. "I do love you Joanne, you're the only one I want."

She reached her hands to my arms, slowly rubbing there, staring back into my eyes. "Maureen…" she slowly started, "I have to go. Kristin is expecting me." She reached her hands behind her back, unlatching my arms from her waist. "Goodbye Maureen." And with that she was out the door.

"I love you Joanne," I quietly spoke as I reached out touching the door; then sliding down it, curling up into a ball on the floor, crying. I'd lost her…I've lost my life.

(Kristin's POV)

I sat waiting on Joanne at our restaurant. Surprisingly enough I wasn't even nervous about her decision. Something inside of me knew that she was going to choose me.

"Can I sit down?" I hear this sexy familiar ask. When I look up, I saw the most gorgeous woman I've ever seen.

"Of course," I said as I stood up pulling her chair out for her.

"Thanks honey," she was choosing me and the way she pressed her lips against mine erased any doubt that I may have had about her decision.

When she released her lips from mine, I couldn't help but return the smile that had come over her face. "So Joanne, are you coming home tonight?"

"Every night," she said again leaning in to kiss me.

"I love you Joanne."

"I love you too."

so love it? hate it? let me know ok, please. figuring on about maybe two or three more ch. then i do have an idea for another fic already...and maybe some oneshots (just need ideas for some oneshots, hint hint). thanks for reading! please review!