Title: Miss Memory: LA, Anne, Kids, Portals, and a Life Apart
Chapter Summary: This chapter is basically in update to season S5; but there are definitely parts that have been added and/or changed.
Timeline: S3-S5
Anagogic: an.a.gog.ic –adjective
1. of or pertaining to an anagoge.
2. Psychology. deriving from, pertaining to, or reflecting the moral or idealistic striving of the unconscious: anagogic image; anagogic interpretation.
My Buffy verse: just some highlights to get some idea
/ "Hi. I'm Anne. Do you have place I can stay?"/
/ "I know you. Anne. You're one of the many teens just running away from home, looking for a place to run away to. Congratulations! You've found the place."/ A demon named 'Ken' says this while Buffy and a few others are locked in bars in the hell dimension.
/ "I'm Buffy, the Vampire Slayer. And you are?"/
/ "Now that we've killed the demons, and gotten the prisoners, what do you say to just getting out of here?"/
/ "How far along are you?" "Four months" "Wanna take over the shelter?" "Nice plan."/
/ "Okay, Buffy. Just one more push," she is sweating and crying openly. "Oh! I see a head!"/ The twins were born, and Buffy bled. She died for a few minutes until Anne got the bleeding under control and the mage nearby helped her soul back.
/ "Congratulations! It's a boy, and a girl! What are you going to name them?" "Liam Connor James Summers-O'Connor, and Elizabeth Kendra Lily Summers-O'Connor." "Where did you get the names form?" "Old family, and their father."/
/ "Buffy, they're already a month old. Are you going to baby them 24/7?" "Yes. Absolutely!"/
/ "Okay; So we go to the other dimension and clean it up a bit, okay a lot, and make it our home so we'll all be safe?" "Yep. That's about right." "Good thinking Anne." "Thanks, and you know it's really Buffy." "Sure." "But I can't call you Lily 'cause I already have a sister-like friend with that name." "Oh, really? What happened to her?" "She was murdered." There was a pause. "Oh, I'm sorry. Who?" "Voldemort." "Who?" "A dark, evil wizard." "I think I'm gonna need a back-story." "Yeah, sorry. I'll tell you all about my life, or lives, when we finished cleaning up." "Cool." "When's the gang coming over?" "Gunn's bringing them over a little later, while Alonna is gonna help." "Cool, I wonder if Gunn is cute." Buffy rolled her eyes. "I don't really care, but she did say he was mildly handsome."/
/ "Hey Anne, come meet my brother. He-" "We're under attack!" someone yelled. Buffy ran to see what was going on, and left her babies with Lily-Anne. She never got the chance to see Gunn, but he was always around, just not around her. /
/ "Well, now that that's done with, how have you been?"/
/ "So, you wanna get heavy on the magics now?" "Pretty much." "Cool. Count me in." "Me too." Alonna said. "So, we get the twins settled, and we get the spells ready. Then, viola, instant house, and we can set up a nice little area for a medical space for some of the nice demons that come by, and-" "Buffy! Shush! We have plenty of time to plan that stuff. Let's just get the cleanup finished, and the house done, and then we can start on that stuff." "Okay, okay, I'm going a little bit fast here, I know." "No hard feelings. You're just dragging yourself down in the dirt a little." "I just want everyone to be safe."/
/ "Whoa. We got the house done, and it only took us a couple of weeks. Wanna move in?" "Definitely." "Cool. Let's make the house look like we live in it." "You mean with ancient weapons and magical things." "Of course. But my scythe stays in my room."/
/ "Buffy, it's been two years, don't you think you should go home now?" "No, not really." "Too bad, you're going back to Sunnyhell. But just remember that you can't tell anyone." "Yeah, I know. But I have to tell Dawn. That's given. You know, even if the PTBs were to allow me to tell anyone, I don't think I would come up with the nerve to tell anyone what I've been doing with my life since I left." "You miss him." "Yeah, I still wake up screaming."/
When Buffy came back, she went into her room, and very quietly unpacked. It was late, and her mom and sister were asleep.
She laid her new customized twin guitars against the closet mirror, and put her old one in the cubby room; then she went and got her sister. She picked her up, and took her to her own room. Dawn slowly awoke and smiled when she saw Buffy's blonde halo of hair.
"I'm the proud mom of Liam Connor James and Elizabeth Kendra Lily Summers-O'Connor. But they're going to stay with some friends of mine in LA, since I can't risk anyone else knowing about them." She said quietly so only Dawn could hear.
Dawn frowned at that, but they were already on Buffy's bed. Buffy on the right, cradled Dawn, and they fell back asleep like they used to do when they were kids every night. The younger sister shrugged mentally; she would get her big sister to tell her everything later, including how she could have had the kids already.
When Joyce awoke that morning, she slowly went to Dawn's room, and opened the door to make sure she was still there. Buffy's disappearance had made the mother paranoid. When she only saw the covers on the bed, she was wide awake. She took a quick look around, and then hurried to Buffy's room to see if she fell asleep in there.
When the door opened, her breath caught as she saw both of her daughters curled up in her oldest daughter's bed, with the room back to normal. She smiled slightly at that. It meant that Buffy was back. Guilt ate at her and she swore to do better, to understand what her daughter went through. Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on how you were looking at it, she could never be able to understand.
She stood in the doorway for almost an hour when her body got tired of that position. She moved off of the doorway, and went to cook breakfast. It was Sunday, meaning no school or work. So good large breakfasts were normal.
She smiled slightly. It was good to have both her daughters, her family, under one roof again.
Of course, she never did find out about the twins.
/ "Buffy?" "Mom."/
Over in LA, Alonna (yes, Gunn's sister), Lily or Anne-whichever you preferred to call her, the new slayer Hope, and two potentials, and a couple of others along with Alonna's little boy all stayed at the 'shelter' with them.
It had plenty of room, and once Buffy had defeated the demons in that little dimension place, the portal had closed, and they had found a lot of money inside the shelter. It was also paid up for a long time- year's worth of time. That made sense, since the demons that had 'run' the shelter didn't ever want to be caught up with having to go through government checks through the building. They started making it into a house, as well as a shelter.
It had a basement level, a floor level, and also a second story. They used a large front room with two bathrooms for the actual shelter common place, with other rooms for separate people and victims. There was a large kitchen over to the side where some hired people and others would cook the daily meals. There was an unseen area behind it with the actual other stories, levels, and space they made into a large house.
They made seven rooms into bedrooms. One for Lily/Anne, one for Buffy, one for Alonna, and four extra. They had a nursery made up quickly, and another master-size bedroom for when the kids would be old enough to have actual beds.
There were four bathrooms in the actual house-part and a good size kitchen. They had two living rooms worth of space, and other rooms.
It took them three months too get everything in working condition, and house-like. They were all happy with the end result. This being Buffy's sixth month, and Alonna's fifth, they called a demon doctor in from the other dimension, and they all were happy to find the demon that was nice, and eager to get along and make friends by the name of Clem. He had worked with other doctors, and although he wasn't exactly the brightest crayon, he was really cheery and knew what he needed to know.
Clem was happy with them and decided to stay there even after the birth. He didn't like his home dimension, and the girls were friends with him soon.
Soon after they met, they all found the others had musical talent. Alonna could drum, and Anne/Lily didn't have a bad voice. Buffy could sing beautifully, and play the guitar really well.
They spent some of their free time playing music for fun and sometimes for money around town. They met up with an anagogic demon named Lorne soon too, and became friends.
Buffy was very traumatized after what she had to do to Angel, and Lorne helped her out a lot. Buffy and Alonna swore themselves, Anne, Clem, Lorne, and everyone else they met to secrecy about the babies and what they did. They didn't want anyone to find out about them.
Alonna's son, Thomas Gunn, was a quarter Bracken demon. She met up with a guy named Tom who was half-Bracken and they were in a relationship. He had been killed by a pack of vampires though, and about a week later, she had found out that she was pregnant. She had run into Buffy about a week later when she was captured by those demons from the shelter and had been rescued. She had formed an instant friendship with the tiny, pregnant slayer.
And Buffy's kid, well kids, had one of the strongest slayers for a mother and the Scourge of Europe for a father. No one would really care that it was the soul's kid and not the demons, it wouldn't matter. They would be endangered if they were found out.
One of the homeless people that came by got into trouble a lot, and she was only a year behind Buffy. Buffy felt some kind of kinship, and when she found out where else she had felt that (Kendra) she checked. The girl was a potential. And her name was Hope.
Within a few weeks, they had run into more young homeless kids that would be good in the fight against evil. They took in four more girls, and two guys. Buffy was surprised to find another two potentials. Their names were Jessica, and Lauren.
She quickly brought Hope into their little group and introduced everything. The girl was shocked, but glad to have a purpose. And if she would some day be 'Chosen' then at least she would have something to protect. She took the place as a friend and great ally greatly, and was part of their group, their family, immediately.
Lorne helped them all out as much as he could, and they were a hit in his new demon karaoke bar. They were doing well for themselves. But he still questioned as to why he could rarely read Buffy's aura.
At 8 months, Buffy was really big. She just wrote it off since she was so small. But when she went into labor at that 8th month, Clem and Anne hurried and delivered her son, and then her daughter. It was quite shocking.
But something went wrong and Buffy started bleeding badly. She soon passed out after naming her babies, and her heart slowed down. It stopped for a couple of minutes, and everyone was quite scared. But Clem fixed the problem and Lily-Anne and Alonna did some health and healing spells and some quick things, and Buffy was quickly resurrected. She had died again, and the funny thing was, Hope had been called.
Hope was kind of excited, and kind of freaked. She had this power now, but was she ready for it? She adjusted quickly though, and that was that.
Alonna had her son Thomas at nine months, two months after Buffy had given birth.
The babies themselves were fine, and didn't start crying until Buffy's heart stopped beating. Each of them had golden blonde hair like their mothers, and eyes that were a mix between their mother's and father's. They were emerald green that would turn grey when unhappy, but they had dark brown rings around the green spheres, accounting their father's half. It was striking. They had a gentle roundness to themselves that all babies had, and softness from their mother's side. But they also had some partly chiseled features that they got from Angel's side. They were beautiful, even if Buffy wasn't biased, they were her babies.
The portal opened a few weeks later, and Buffy had spent time after the kids were born, going down there killing demons, collecting things like pottery, scrolls, magic stuff, objects, and other things that she had found. There were also a lot of books there.
Thomas was a light brown skin tone, and had light brown eyes and dark brown hair. He looked a lot like his mother and Uncle Gunn. Not that he knew the man. He had to go help another gang a few cities away for a year, and when he came back, Alonna didn't have the time to tell her brother about him. She was vamped within a few weeks, and thankfully did not give anything away as a vamp.
But soon, Buffy found that she would have to go back to the hellmouth if the death level was any way to tell. It had almost doubled from when she was there, and now, it was getting bad.
She knew she would have to, but she really didn't want to, except to see her sister, and Willow, Giles, Cordy, Oz, and kind of her mom. She was her mom after all. She was hesitant to see Xander though. She was afraid that she would punch him and beat the crap out of him before he explained himself.
She managed not to, and decided not to tell anyone about what he did. She would give him some mercy, though he never offered the same.
She visited every week or two when nothing bad was going on though; she was quite in love with her babies and the scoobies often grated on her nerves. All they did was bring up her own mistakes without even questioning the reason behind most of them, and they acted like they were always perfect.
Managing to never get caught by spending hours or even a couple days with them, and sometimes with Dawn too, in the other dimension, Buffy spent far longer than other slayers in a sort of contented peace. They had cleaned that area up with magic, and it was made a neutral spot for that dimension.
She just hoped that things would be okay.
/ "Dawnie, I have to talk to you." "What is it Buffy?" "Do you wanna come with me to LA?" "Why?" "Just come on. I want you to see them." "Okay. Are you gonna tell mom?" "No, we'll be back before she notices we're gone."/
/ "Hey! Buffy's back." "You deserted us!"/
/ "Pat's dead." "Mom. I'm so sorry." "It's okay honey."/
/ "But, what if, do you think he could come back?"/
/ "Buffy." "Angel?"/
/ "How could you hide a murderer?"/
/ "Lily-Anne, I don't know if I can go back there and just let them treat him like that. Xander, h-he just totally blows up in my face about him or us or anything remotely close, and he was the one that was originally at fault for me leaving in the first place- if he had just told me then I wouldn't have left in the first place and-" "Mommy. Why are you crying?" "Nothing baby girl. I just got worked up over a friend of mine baby girl." She told Elizabeth. "Then why are you talking like that?" Liam asked. "Like what?" "Like you're about to have a panic attack." "I just go worked up over it." "Mommy, can you tell us about your life when you're not here, when you're with Auntie Dawnie more?" her daughter asked. Buffy looked at her. "Are you sure?" she asked her five year olds. They nodded, and she told her the non Pg-13 parts of her life that she could remember, since she hadn't gotten sleep in days. /
/ "Hi, I'm Faith. You must be B."/
/ "Okay, I'm gonna go out on a leaf and say there's a new slayer in town."/
/ "Hungry and Horny." /
/ "Faith, you just killed a man!" "You don't get it B. I. Don't. Care."/
/ "Angel, what's up? And don't tell me 'nothing.' You have 'something face'."/
/ "I want my life to be with you," "I don't."/
/ "You did it B. You killed me."/
/ "This doesn't change anything. It doesn't mean that I don't" "I know."/
/ "Dammit, Angel. Drink!"/
/ "Well, it's safe to say that when your life is in danger you can hurt the one you say you love."/
/ "I'm leaving Buffy. Right after the Ascension. I'm not gonna say goodbye."/
/ "I can't breathe Will- I feel like I can't breathe!"/
When Angel returned, she had to fight the urge to tell him. There was never a right time, and once he had decided to leave, she didn't want him to stay for charity or what would feel like duty. She wanted him to stay because he wanted to, because he was ready.
/ "He left. After the Mayor." "Why?" "He said he didn't want to be with me." "Oh, Buffy" "I know. But I still can't breathe."/
/ "Liam, Elizabeth," "What is it 'bout auntie 'Lonna?" "She felt like she wasn't all there without him, with your daddy in hell. Since he left her all alone. But now that he's gone willingly, it hurts worse." "How come daddy isn't allowed to know?" "I don't know babies. The PTBs won't let your mommy tell anyone else." "Why?" "I wish I knew, but I don't."/
/ "Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday too you two. Happy birthday to Liam-and-Elisabeth, happy birthday to you two. Blow out the candles!" "What did you wish for?" "I can't tell." "It'll ruin the wish." "How's it feel to be six now?" "Lumpy." "Lumpy?" "Yes." "What's lumpy suppost to be?" "Don't ask me."/
/ "Mommy! There's a gold and red birdie at the window!" "Griffin?!" "Where?!" "No, it's my phoenix, her name is Griffin."/
/ "Hi, welcome to UC Sunnydale!"/
/ "Beer bad!"/
/ "She's evil! Kathy is evil!" "Are you sure that this is Buffy?" "Not in the least."/
/ "Yeah, especially with Dead boy's visit and all,"/
/ "Human? How?"/
/ "So, we stay in touch. We just," "Yeah, don't." Touch. Crash of kitchen table. Orgasms. Fun. NC-17 stuff./
/ "Right. I'll go start, forgetting."/
/ "Spike! Leave me alone!" "Every slayer has a death wish. And I'm gonna be there when you admit it."/
/ "Buffy, what's wrong?" "Nothing." snort! "It's my m-mom. She has a t-tumor."/
/ "You treat me like nothing!"/
/ "He's the type of guy that comes along once in a lifetime." /
/ "He actually said that to me! Can you believe him 'Lonna?! He actually tried to scold me for not loving Riley, when I told them not to push him towards me anyways!"/
/ "Buffy, Alonna, sh-she's dead." "What?!"/
/ "Mommy, why can't aunty 'Lonna come back?" "She can babies, she just won't. I don't think she should. She got turned into a vampire." "How come?" "I don't know." "Buffy, where are you going?" "To kill her sire?" "Where?" "Let's find out. I'll take out the rest of the bloodline while I'm at it." "I talked to Gunn." "What'd he say?" "He went to AI" "Oh." "Be careful." "You know me." Dawn turned to her. "Buffy- If you die, I'm telling!" "Copycat. Fine, fine. I'll be careful."/
/ "What did you do Buffy?" "I got rid of the whole bloodline." "What are you under again?" "I'm stuck with Seyourin." 'Death Giver.'" Anne replied./
/ "Hey Angel! I just got off with a witch doctor in New York. He said that a whole bloodline of vampires was whipped off of the vamp-family-tree here in LA." "Does he know who?" "She said it was Seyourin, 'Death Giver.'" "Do we know who this player is?" "No, but the good doctor said that this warrior is a warrior for light that is so strong, that she goes into hell to kill some of the demons that pester the earth." "Helpful." "Yeah, and on our side, so let's be careful that you don't run into her- she might mistake you for a big bad."/
/ "Mom? Mom? Mommy? Mom. Mom. mom. Mom. Mom! Mommy!" "Giles. I need, you to come over. It's my mom."/
/ "What's wrong with Mom? Is she okay?"/
/ "Mommy, what's wrong?" "It's your grandma." Dawn was quiet. She hadn't said anything. "What's matter with Grams?" "She had an aneurism. I found her." "Oh god, Buffy…"/
/ "I just heard. I'm sorry Buffy." "No, I'm really needy right now." "Let me, I can handle it." "Always."/
/ "I'm not real. Is this real? What am I?"/
/ "So she's not real?" "No, but she's my sister. She's real now."/
/ "And the Buffy-Birthday curse strikes again."/
/ "Gee, you come down here for your birthday, and you get twice the trouble."/
/ "Buffy, snap out of it!"/
/ "Sorry Wills, but I killed my sister."/
/ "She was made outta me."/
/ "Giles, I won't kill her." "I know but" "If she dies, I quit. For good."/
/ "Cause it's always the blood. Blood is life children; it's what makes you breathe, what makes you hard. Why do you think we vampires feed off it? It's life."/
/ "Big Day."/
/ "Glory, you're not the brightest God in the heavens are you?"/
/ "Dawn listen, there's not much time..."/
/ Buffy Anne Summers.
Beloved Sister. Devoted Friend.
She saved the World
A lot. /
TBC obviously. There was a lot of reoccuring pieces in this. I'm sorry. And much of it that is supposed to get italicized or put in bold goes to normal after you save it on this program thingy, so it isn't perfect.