"Tommy." I whispered against his lips kissing mine.

"What?" Tommy whispered back when he pulled away from me.

"Stay." I pleaded. "Don't go. Don't leave me." A lone tear slipped down my cheek. And as I looked at Tommy I could see that he was closing down in front of my eyes and my heart broke more than it already was. "Tommy."

"Jude." And with that one word he told me everything he wanted to say, but couldn't.

A sob escaped me, and then another one, and another one. I slid down the brick wall of the outside of G-Major. "Oh god."

"Jude, I…" But I cut him off before he could continue. I looked up at him,

"I don't wanna hear it Tommy. Leave. LEAVE if you aren't going to say to me what I want you to say."

Tommy looked sad, concerned, like always.

"I'm not leaving you like this Jude."

I stood up so quick that I got a head rush. I swayed on my feet and Tommy reached out to hold me steady, but I shook off his touch. I never wanted to feel his hands on me again.

"Not leaving me like this?" I yelled. "You leave me like this every time you kiss me, and then say we can't be together! I'm sick Tommy. I sick of you. So next time you decide you want me, I'll be gone."

"Jude-"

"No! You've had too many chances Tommy." I cried, "Too many. You've ran out of them." And with that I left and went back into G-Major, tears falling down my face. I was so sick of crying. I seemed that was the only thing I did these days. Cry over my father cheating on my mom, cry over Jamie's death, and of course, how could I forget, I cry over Tommy Quincy who seems to like to break a heart of a particular 18 year old girl. Me.

Sadie came over to me, and steered me toward the bathroom.

"Jude is okay. It's going to be okay." Sadie said as she hugged me. She seemed to already know that the reason I cry these days, about little heart-breaker Tommy Quincy. "Tommy, he's Tommy, you've always known how he was. I know how you feel, okay. It's like…like you don't have anything to live for, but you DO Jude! You are a singer, a GREAT singer, you're beautiful, and everyone wants a piece of you. You don't need him Jude. All you need is you."

I hugged Sadie harder, because even if my heart was totally numbed by the pain of Jamie's death, and Tommy's rejection I realized that Sadie was right.

"Thanks Sadie." I said wiping tears away from my cheeks as I let her go. She looked at me and smiled.

"You gonna be okay? Want me stay with you?"

No, I wasn't okay.

"No, that's okay. Thanks Sadie." I lied. I even managed to summon up a little smile for her sake. When she left I turned to look at myself in the mirror.

I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave everything that I had
but you left me in the cold

My eyes were red and puffy from crying, and I looked like a totally different person then I had been when I started out working with G-Major.

But still I have faith
somehow I believe
that if I keep love in my heart
it will find its way to me

I looked older then my 18 years. I looked….like a broken woman.

I could fight
seek revenge
but that's not who I am
No I'm not giving in
I will rise above

A woman I didn't want to be anymore.

I'm gonna keep walking though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching when life gets too hard
not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna keep climbing 'till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying though I may get lost
not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I let a man do this to me. I let someone into my heart and they shredded it and stomped on it.

This pain that I feel
I will overcome
I know somewhere deep down inside
It's the pain that makes us strong

I stood up straight, pushed my shoulders back, and tilted my chin up.

I could curse
I could shout
take the easy way out
I forgive you some how
I will rise above

This is who I want to be. A strong, confident, beautiful woman that looks so put together even if the love of her life stomps on her heart and hands it back to her on a platter.

I'm gonna keep walking though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching when life gets too hard
not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna keep climbing 'till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying though I may get lost
not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

This is the new Jude Harrison.

I'll get by

Instant Star winner.


Oh I know I'll get by
to be real to be real
I can't keep it inside though I can't keep it inside
I may hurt sometimes
But I will survive

Singer extraordinaire.


I'm gonna keep reaching
I'm gonna keep climbing
Say it with me now
I'm gonna keep trying
Yeahh OOhhh

I'm gonna keep walking though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching when life gets too hard
not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

You better watch out Tommy Quincy. You just made a new woman outta me.