Battle for a riceball
Chapter 11: It's all my fault
After the dance the days went by flying. We had so many exams at school and what happened at the dance that night, soon got out of Kyo and Yuki's heads. I still remember…I guess that's kind of why they haven't been talking to me lately. Kyo has been awfully awkward these days and so has Yuki. They are acting so tense! I wonder if it's my fault! I really hope not…..
"Tohru are you alright? You seem to be spacing out again," Shigure pointed out.
"huh!? Oh yes! Sorry, I'm just thinking about the upcoming school exams," Tohru lied.
"Ah school exams, I remember those. Don't stress out Tohru, or you'll get a fever again," Shigure reminded her.
"Right! I'll try not too," Tohru smiled confidently. Yuki and Kyo came downstairs with angry expressions on their faces. Tohru imagined they were probably fighting again, but then the thoughts that it was her fault came back to her head. She frowned and put her head down in shame.
"Are you guys hungry?" Tohru asked with a fake cheerful tone.
"No," they both sighed in unison.
"o-okay..I'm going upstairs to wash up and get ready for school," Tohru replied in a sad tone. She hurried upstairs and headed towards her room. Things had changed between everyone. Kyo and Yuki had gotten angrier more often, and Tohru felt sad every time they were fighting. She sighed in confusion and recounted all the events of them fighting. As soon as she was in her school uniform she left to go to school without even waiting for Kyo or Yuki like she usually did.
I'll probably only make them even angrier if they walk me to school….I always give everyone trouble.
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"Hey, I noticed that the prince didn't walk you to school today…. Is he sick or something?" Uo suddenly asked. It was lunchtime at school and Tohru was taken by surprise that Uo had actually noticed that she walked alone in the morning.
Tohru's eyes got wider.
"N-n-no! I just felt like walking alone today! He's okay," she replied abruptly.
"I see….but why would you want to walk alone? Are you guys in a fight or something? I'm sensing tense electric signals from the three of you," Hana asked worriedly.
"In a fight? Of course not! We're fine! I guess we've all just been worrying about the upcoming exams," Tohru laughed nervously.
"There they are," Hana pointed at Kyo as he walked towards them.
"Oh! Hello Kyo!" Tohru waved happily.
"Yeah, hi," Kyo replied lamely.
"Hi Yuki!" Tohru smiled.
"Hello Tohru," he replied in his gentle tone.
There was an awkward silence for a moment until Hana happily pointed something out.
"Look, they are selling riceballs today. Let's go get some." she smiled.
"I'll get some too!" Uo replied.
"Would you like me to buy you some Tohru?" Hana asked.
"Oh no! It's okay I'm not that hungry today. I'll just wait here with Yuki and Kyo," Tohru cheerfully replied.
As soon as Hana and Uo were gone the awkward silence returned.
Tohru stared back at Yuki and Kyo repeatedly, not knowing what to say or do.
"Um…look I need to say something," Tohru broke the silence uncomfortably.
Kyo and Yuki shot up to look at her with an awkward look on their faces.
"If I did something wrong I need to know…and I'm sorry if I did. I just need to know, so please tell me so I won't do it again, because ever since the dance…you guys haven't talked to me like you used to and it's making me worried and sad. I'm sorry for making a big deal out of this, but I really need to know!" she cried hastily. She pounded her hands against the table as she spoke, tears were about to come running down.
Kyo's expression soften and Yuki seemed upset.
"I'm not mad at you Tohru. I've just had so many thoughts in my mind about everything in general. I'm-confused," he admitted.
Kyo just looked away, he seemed upset.
"Confused? About what…?" Tohru seemed worried.
"I found out something that I really didn't want to know. I just hope that- I can talk to you in private for once," Yuki muttered.
Kyo's cat ears perked up.
"Yeah well I need to talk to her in private too! So maybe you're the one who has to leave you damn rat!"
"Please Tohru…can I talk to you very quickly?" Yuki pleaded.
"Umm…err…okay. I'll be back Kyo," Tohru mumbled in a confused tone.
Yuki pulled Tohru away from the lunch table and took her outside next to a large tree with plenty of shade. He sat down in the grass and motioned for her to sit down beside him. She sat down in a patch of grass and pulled her knees towards her chest.
"It's something I did wrong isn't it?" Tohru asked lamely.
"Don't think that we are mad at you Tohru. I can never be mad at you. I'm mad at that stupid cat for being disrespectful towards you…" Yuki's voice trailed off.
"Disrespectful?" Tohru seemed dumfounded.
"Momiji told me that he saw Kyo kiss you. He forced you didn't he? He knew that you were going to the dance with me and he was furious so he forced you to kiss him right?" Yuki looked at her with a pleading expression.
Tohru's face turned pale. She looked at Yuki in a confused way.
"Er…what do you mean? He was never…disrespectful.." Tohru's voice trailed away.
"Then what happened Tohru? I need to know. Kyo loves you-but don't forget that I love you too..and its your choice. I was just hoping that he forced you..but I guess I was wrong right?" Yuki mumbled sadly.
Tohru's face turned bright red.
"He didn't force me. I admit, I didn't expect it, but he didn't force me," Tohru replied awkwardly.
"I'm sorry for making you go through this. I'm not pressuring you or anything, I just wanted to make sure there was nothing between Kyo and you. Do…you…like him?" Yuki asked nervously. He hoped that her answer would be an immediate "no".
"Yuki…I don't know. My feelings are mixed up a-a-and I don't know," Tohru felt tears roll down her cheeks. Talking to Yuki about this was too much for her. Yuki's eyes lit up in surprise.
"Please don't cry, I didn't mean to make you upset. I was just curious. It's not like I'm your boyfriend and I'm getting mad at you for liking Kyo or anything. Please…don't cry. I just wanted to know," Yuki mumbled.
"I know..but I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings," Tohru cried. Her face was red and a waterfall of tears was splashing down her cheeks.
"I'm sorry," Yuki sighed, putting his forehead against Torhu's. She sniffed and just nodded.
"It's okay. You have nothing to apologize about. Just promise that you won't be mad at me, no matter what my decisions are…" she sniffed.
"I promise," Yuki wiped her tears away from her face.
Tohru smiled, "I better go talk to Kyo now," she whispered.
"Okay," Yuki nodded in agreement.
Tohru raced back into the lunch table to see if she could spot Kyo so she could talk to him. He wasn't at the table anymore. She frowned in confusion. Uo and Hana were eating their riceballs and Yuki had just joined them, but Kyo wasn't there.
"Um..Do you guys know where Kyo went?" Tohru asked Uo and Hana.
"I think he went outside. He seemed angry," Uo replied.
"I'm going to go find him, I'll be back!" Tohru smiled as she ran back outside. She scanned around the school grounds to see if she could find a blob of orange hair.
He's probably in the highest place in the school…maybe…oh! The roof of the main building!
She raced towards the main school building and made her way towards the ladder. She anxiously climbed up and sure enough, Kyo was there. His arms were behind his head and he was staring at the clouds passing by.
"K-Kyo! I know I'd find you here," Tohru crawled up towards him. Kyo flinched in surprise.
"I thought you were talking to that damn rat…" he replied in an angry tone.
"I did talk to him, but now I need to talk to you. You wanted to tell me something right?" Tohru reminded him.
"Yeah, but never mind that. You don't care about what I have to say, right?" Kyo growled.
"That's not true. I do care about what you think and I do want to know what's going on in your life. Kyo, I want to know what's going on. Did I do something to upset you?" Tohru replied hastily.
Kyo flinched at how close Tohru's face was to his. He blinked a few times and then snapped back to reality.
"Er..uh..Yeah..fine, but if you care so much about that damn Yuki I don't mind if you go talk to him right now. You don't have to feel guilty for all this. It's got nothing to do with you," Kyo spat out.
Tohru flinched at the harsh words coming out of Kyo's mouth.
"I know it has everything to do with me. Yuki told me everything. I know why you're upset, is it because Yuki and the others have been giving you a hard time about what happened on the night of the dance?" Tohru leaned closer to Kyo.
"Not just that…its because I know that you and that damn rat have a relationship and that pisses me off. This is between Yuki and me, so you don't have to worry about it," Kyo muttered.
Tohru looked down in shame and she sniffed.
"Dammit! Why are you crying!" Kyo started to panic.
"I don't know, for some reason I just feel so sad and tears started overflowing," Tohru explained with spirals in her eyes.
"Just stop crying. It's okay. If it makes you feel better, I'll try to be nicer to that damn Yuki, but please stop crying," Kyo muttered.
"I'm sorry, I just feel so upset and confused. I want everything to be back to normal..I want you and Yuki to be happy," Tohru admitted.
"Don't say stupid things. You don't have to feel guilty. It's not your fault. Everything has just been tense between us, but it'll stop…okay?" Kyo felt like hugging Tohru, but he turned away and looked towards the sky instead.
"Let's go back to lunch. Uo, Yuki, and Hana are waiting for us," Tohru tried to smile.
"Yeah, I'll catch up you can go," Kyo sighed.
"Okay! I'll buy some riceballs for you," Tohru smiled. She waved goodbye and made her way down the ladder with a happy expression on her face.
I'm so stupid. It will never happen…Tohru. Tohru will never like me back the way I do…. The idea of that ever happening is just stupid. I'm an idiot. That damn rat….I hope..I hope that she's happy with him.
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