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Part 8 - Baby
Two weeks later
Listening to the rain outside, Jude sat on the floor with her guitar. This was the first time in three weeks she has picked it up. Three weeks since she found out she was pregnant. Three weeks since she had left him. She tried to hate him, be angry with him but at random moments, she would always find herself wanting to once again be in his arms. Waking up with him beside her, eating breakfast together, showers. Missing the moments they spent together in her apartment. That was one of the reasons why she sat on the floor. She looked up from her guitar to the sofa. The ugly polyester green sofa that she had picked out just to get on Tommy's nerves. He had insisted on a black leather couch like his but she bought this one.
Flashback
Jude's Apartment (4 weeks before the split)
"Jude, you home?"
Tommy stepped into her apartment carrying cartons of Chinese food from her favorite restaurant. He had felt bad for running out of her apartment yesterday after their fight. He closed the door behind him and took off his shoes. Slowly stepping into the kitchen he called for her again. "Jude? Baby are you here?" No answer. Tommy set the cartons of food down and walked back out into the hallway. He heard splashing and slow music come from down the hall and he followed it until he came to the bathroom. Gently pushing the door open, he saw Jude sitting in a bathtub full of bubbles with her back towards him, the soft singing of Zero 7 filling the room. This was something she always did when she was stressed or angry with him. Something she did often. For a moment he had forgotten they were fighting and Tommy felt himself ache to touch her.
He walked towards her, slowly, hoping she wouldn't hear him and knelt behind her. The smell of her hair, the smoothness of her creamy skin drawing him closer. He couldn't help himself any longer. Placing both hands on her shoulders, he began to massage the back of her neck, rotating his thumbs in tiny circles. He could feel her instantly relax as she groaned and put her head back, melting at his touch. He watched as her hands gripped the edges of the tub as she tried to keep herself sitting and instantly felt himself get aroused. Every little move, made him want her even more. He stopped massaging her and slowly began gliding his hands down her arms, bringing his lips to her neck. A soft moan came from her lips and her head went further back, finally resting on his shoulders. Her moan was like music to his ears, making him proud to be the one to be the cause. He continued kissing her neck as his hands roamed her body, not caring that his clothes were now soaking wet.
The music had suddenly stopped playing, the silence loud in the room. Jude's eyes shot open. She quickly stood from the bathtub, not caring about the mess she was making as soapy water sloshed to the floor. Grabbing a towel, she wrapped herself tightly and left the bathroom, leaving Tommy with a confused look on his face. "Jude?" He called out as he followed her, finally finding her in the living room. "You can't just come in here and start kissing me Tommy. That's not how it works." "Baby." He watched as she violently shook her head. "Calling me 'baby' doesn't work either. If anything I should be calling you that. How immature can you be that you just walk out during a fight? Leaving especially when you haven't heard my reasons. That's not how a relationship works Tommy. It's not always just about you, sometimes you have to listen to the other person." "Jude, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left like that." He moved closer and watched as she took one step back. "No, you shouldn't have." She folded her arms in front of her "So what made you decide to come back? You here to yell at me some more? " "No." "Then what? Why did you run out of here yesterday? What? Did you realize that I'm not good enough for you? That these past 4 years were a mistake?"
From where he was standing he could see the tears that threatened to fall. His heart broke as she seemed to shrink right in front of him. He walked closer, this time she didn't move. "Jude, you know that's not true. I wouldn't have proposed if I didn't want to spend the rest of my life with you. What would make you think something like that?" Tommy finally reached her, his hands grabbing her wet shoulders. Still looking at the floor she whispered, "Then why?" Her head moved upward as she looked into his eyes. "Why don't you want to have a baby with me?" He watched as big fat tears rolled down her cheeks. "Jude, I never said that. All I said was that maybe we should wait for a while. Get married first." He saw the fire return to her eyes "And when will that be? It's been two years since you proposed." "Jude that's not fair. You know what my schedule is like. There's just no time." She began to cry again. "No time? Well sorry if I though that maybe since it's our FUTURE that maybe you might have made some time" she cried. "Jude.." She looked up at him and watched as he seemed to be battling himself internally.
Would it be so bad having a baby now? He thought. A baby would bring them closer together, make them a real family. Something he's never had before. Tommy stared down into her blue eyes and it became clear to him. "Jude, having a baby is important to you isn't it?" Tommy was unable to make out some of what she was saying from behind her sobs. "I just...thought that...we could start a family...I love you so much and..." He stopped her as he grabbed her hands. Exhaling he said, "Jude if having a baby will make you happy then it makes me happy." "Really?" "Yes really" The smile he loved, the one that only graced her face when she was truly happy, broke onto her face. She laughed as she jumped onto him, making him fall backwards onto the couch. She began kissing him roughly, kisses he gladly returned. He smirked "Guess we should get started huh?" Jude began to laugh as she pulled back from his lips. Tommy smiled up at her, running his fingers through her wet hair. Gently, he flipped her over so that he was now on top of her propped up on his arms. With a smirk on his face he said "This couch is ugly." Jude then watched as his face became serious again. "But with you on it, it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
End Flashback
She looked away from the couch and felt tears building behind her eyes but she willed them back. She wouldn't cry again. She had cried so many tears for him. Instead she found herself asking, Why? If he was so happy with her why would he need another woman? Jude began to wonder if maybe she pressured him to much about getting married and having a baby. Did she mean anything to him at all? She wondered if there really was no hope for them. Jude looked down into her notebook and reread the lyrics she had written. Opening her mouth, she began to sing.
Now once upon a time, in a small world
It was everything that I dreamed of
He was my gem and I was his pearl
Nothing could come between us
A Prince Charming to call my own
Until the day that he broke my heart
And left me wonderin' all alone
Pickin' my mind and soul apart
Used to believe in love
Used to believe in fairy tales
Since my heart's been crushed
I don't believe in much, I need help (no no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (la da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Is a good story supposed to end
Unhappily ever after
Just as wonderful as it began
And carry on for a few chapters
But, how come each time I open up
I can't seem to get past page one
I guess it's time for me to close up
And go back on the shelf because I'm done
Used to believe in love
Used to believe in fairy tales
Since my heart's been crushed
I don't believe in much, I need help
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (la da da dee oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
Twinkle, twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why
Can you help me out
Can you tell me what love is all about
Cause I never known it for myself
That's why I don't believe in fairy tales no more
Used to believe in love
Used to believe in fairy tales
Since my heart's been crushed
Don't believe in much, I need help
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself (oh, no no no no no)
I've just started to learn
There's no such thing as fairy tales