Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or 'Everything' by Lifehouse
1 Week later
Bzzzzzz Bzzzzzz
Jude walked to the door and pressed the intercom button. "Yes? Who is it?" "It's me. Let me up." Jude rubbed her eyes and looked at the clock. "Tommy, it's one in the morning. What do you want?" "Can I please come up Jude. I'll be quick." Jude sighed and pressed the door button and waited for Tommy to reach her door.
Knock Knock
Jude stood and looked through the peephole. Sighing, Jude opened the door. "What is it Tommy?" Tommy walked right past her into the apartment. "Sure come right on in" Jude closed the door obviously irritated. She watched as Tommy walked back and forth, taking in his appearance. Gone was the freshly shaven face, the perfectly styled hair. She looked down at his hands and noticed that he had a guitar. "Tommy? Why do you have a guitar?" Tommy pointed at a chair "Can you sit down?" Jude stood standing. Tommy asked again "Please Jude. This will take five minutes. I promise." "Goodie, more promises" she muttered as she went to sit.
Jude sat and patiently waited for Tommy to begin. She noticed he seemed more on edge than usual and more nervous. A little part of her was worried, she knew he had a tendency to have anxiety attacks. She might not want to be around him right now, but she did care about his health. Jude called to Tommy "Are you okay? You seem kind of off." Tommy stopped pacing and looked at her. "No, I'm not okay." She wondered what he meant by that. Thousands of possibilities flew through her mind. "What do you mean?" Her hand came to her mouth "Are you sick?" He quickly knelt in front of her "No, no nothing like that Jude." It was a relief to him that she still cared for him. Bravely he reached for a hand, which she let him hold. He pointed to his heart "I'm not okay" Taking a deep breath he continued "Jude ever since you left me, I've been miserable. I know I made a mistake and I wish that I could take it all back." He reached a hand out to her cheek. Jude held his hand for a moment, then removed it from her face placing it back on her lap. She began to play with his fingers as she desperately tried to fight back her tears. "As much as I want to believe you, I just can't." "Jude please. I love you" She shook her head. "They're just words Tommy. Words can't do anything." "Then maybe this will" Jude looked at him, confused, and watched as he sat back with his guitar. Tommy smiled "Even though you might hate me, I still know you Jude. More than anyone else, just like you know me. I realized that I would have to show you how much I love you through the only thing that makes sense to us." Jude watched as he began to sing.
Find me here
And speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the life
To my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
You calm the storms
And you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart
And you take my breath away
Would you take me in
Would you take me deeper, now
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want
You're all I need
Everything, everything...
When how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
Any better than this
Tommy opened his eyes and looked at Jude, noticing the tears that were falling onto her cheeks. He stood and walked towards her. "Jude?" He knelt in front of her. "Tommy" "Don't cry Jude. I didn't write that for you to cry." She smiled at him through the tears. He used his finger to clean her tears "There's that smile" A small laugh burst from her lips "Stupid hormones" she said. She then reached a hand out to his face. "That was beautiful Tommy" She then began to trace every curve, every line just like she used to, until she reached his lips. She leaned forward and placed her lips softly to his.
They sat there, lips to lips, for what seemed like an eternity. Then as soon as it started, it stopped. Jude gently pulled back resting her forehead against his. With closed eyes he asked her "Where do we go from here?" Jude opened her eyes and stared into his face. "I don't know" Tommy opened his eyes. "Do I get a second chance? Can I come back?" Jude saw the quiet desperation in his eyes. "I...I don't know.." "Jude?" "I need more time...Please?" Tommy nodded, obviously disappointed. "When?" Jude ran her hands through her hair, refusing to look into his eyes. "Soon". Tommy nodded again and stood, helping Jude up. As they reached the door, he leaned down and placed a kiss onto her forehead. "Nite Jude." She nodded and watched as he walked out the door. When he reached the stairs, she noticed him staring back at her but this time he was staring at her belly. He looked back up at her face and smiled weakly. When his body finally disappeared down the stairs, Jude shut the door making sure it was locked. Then oddly she went to the bathroom to take a shower. Turning the radio on, she removed all her clothing and stepped into the steaming water. Feeling weak, Jude sat on the floor and did something she didn't expect.
She cried.