5 weeks later
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
His voice filled her room again. The voice she dreamt about in her sleep. The CD he had sent her weeks ago, was worn from all the playing. Permanent background music to whatever she was doing.
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
Right now Jude was watching herself in the mirror. Admiring the three month curve of her belly. Standing in front of the mirror, she ran her hands up and down her stomach daydreaming of the future. Would it be a boy or a girl? What color would it's eyes be? Would it have her blond hair or Tommy's chocolate brown. Tommy.
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
He would be here soon. Sadness flowed through her as she thought of him. They haven't seen each other for a little over a month, ever since she played her song for him. He had finally listened and left her alone. The only thing he had done was send her that CD. The CD filled with songs he had written her. Songs of Apologies. The only reason she had called him over was because her doctor's appointment was today. Initially she was going to go on her own, but after a long talk with Sadie she realized that even though he broke her heart he still deserved to be a part of the baby's life.
Flashback
"Hey Juuuude. Don't make it bad. " She smiled into the phone. "What did I tell you about saying that Kwest?" "Not to?" He said laughing. "Exactly." "So how are you Kwest? Taking good care of my sister?" "Of course I am Jude." Jude heard a female voice in the background. She heard as Sadie yelled for Kwest to give her the phone. "Jude, I think Sadie wants to– HI JUDE!!" She pulled the receiver away from her ear as Sadie yelled into the phone. "Hi Sadie. It's good to hear your voice." "So Sis, how you feeling?" "I'm doing fine, just getting tired of throwing up every morning." "Jude, honey, have you scheduled an appointment yet?" Sadie's concerned voice seeped through the phone. "Not really." "Well what are you waiting for Jude?" "I'm scared. You know how I hate doctors." Silence fell across the pair. Jude knew what was coming next. "Jude.." "Don't say it Sadie" "Why don't you ask Tommy to take you." "Sadie..." "I'm serious Jude. There is no one else since Kwest and I are in LA, mom is in Europe and Jamie and Patsy are still on their honeymoon." Jude laughed "A two month honeymoon?" "Yeah I know right? Jamie must be in heaven. And don't think I don't know what you're doing." "What am I doing?" "Jude stop changing the subject. I know that you hate his guts right now but he is the only person left." "Sadie, I haven't spoken to him in 5 weeks and I really don't want to get his hopes up." "So you still haven't decided?" "I don't know what I should do Sadie. My head tells me not to trust him, that there is a chance that he might cheat on me again but my heart is telling me to forgive him." "I know how hard this is for you Jude and no matter what ever you decide, I will always have your back." Jude smiled , her big sister still trying to protect her. "But Jude, he still is the father. He has a right to be in the child's life, even if it isn't born yet."
End Flashback
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
The music softly floated in the room, bringing her back to the present. She still hadn't decided whether or not she wanted to go back to him. Would she be able to forgive him and forget what he did? Could she do it?
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
He stared at her door, keys in his hand. Should he use his keys or should he knock? The last thing he wanted was for Jude to be angry with him when she finally invited him over, so he knocked. No answer. He knocked again, louder this time and still no answer. Sighing, he put the key into the lock and pushed the door open.
The consequences that I've rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means
From what he could see Jude wasn't in the living room, or the kitchen. He walked further inside closing the door behind him. He walked down the long hallway and pushed open the door to her bedroom. She was standing in front of the mirror. Standing only in underwear.
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